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One may as well begin with Helen's letters to her sister.
Howards End,
Tuesday.Dearest Meg,
It isn't going to be what we expected. It is old and little, and altogether delightful--red brick. We can scarcely pack in as it is, and the dear knows what will happen when Paul (younger son) arrives tomorrow. From hall you go right or left into dining-room or drawing-room. Hall itself is practically a room. You open another door in it, and there are the stairs going up in a sort of tunnel to the first-floor. Three bedrooms in a row there, and three attics in a row above. That isn't all the house really, but it's all that one notices--nine windows as you look up from the front garden.
Then there's a very big wych-elm--to the left as you look up--leaning a little over the house, and standing on the boundary between the garden and meadow. I quite love that tree already. Also ordinary elms, oaks--no nastier than ordinary oaks--pear-trees, apple-trees, and a vine. No silver birches, though. However, I must get on to my host and hostess. I only wanted to show that it isn't the least what we expected. Why did we settle that their house would be all gables and wiggles, and their garden all gamboge-coloured paths? I believe simply because we associate them with expensive hotels--Mrs. Wilcox trailing in beautiful dresses down long corridors, Mr. Wilcox bullying porters, etc. We females are that unjust.
I shall be back Saturday; will let you know train later. They are as angry as I am that you did not come too; really Tibby is too tiresome, he starts a new mortal disease every month. How could he have got hay fever in London? and even if he could, it seems hard that you should give up a visit to hear a schoolboy sneeze. Tell him that Charles Wilcox (the son who is here) has hay fever too, but he's brave, and gets quite cross when we inquire after it. Men like the Wilcoxes would do Tibby a power of good. But you won't agree, and I'd better change the subject.
This long letter is because I'm writing before breakfast. Oh, the beautiful vine leaves! The house is covered with a vine. I looked out earlier, and Mrs. Wilcox was already in the garden. She evidently loves it. No wonder she sometimes looks tired. She was watching the large red poppies come out. Then she walked off the lawn to the meadow, whose corner to the right I can just see. Trail, trail, went her long dress over the sopping grass, and she came back with her hands full of the hay that was cut yesterday--I suppose for rabbits or something, as she kept on smelling it. The air here is delicious. Later on I heard the noise of croquet balls, and looked out again, and it was Charles Wilcox practising; they are keen on all games. Presently he started sneezing and had to stop. Then I hear more clicketing, and it is Mr. Wilcox practising, and then, 'a-tissue, a-tissue': he has to stop too. Then Evie comes out, and does some calisthenic exercises on a machine that is tacked on to a greengage-tree--they put everything to use--and then she says 'a-tissue,' and in she goes. And finally Mrs. Wilcox reappears, trail, trail, still smelling hay and looking at the flowers. I inflict all this on you because once you said that life is sometimes life and sometimes only a drama, and one must learn to distinguish t'other from which, and up to now I have always put that down as 'Meg's clever nonsense.' But this morning, it really does seem not life but a play, and it did amuse me enormously to watch the W's. Now Mrs. Wilcox has come in.
I am going to wear [omission]. Last night Mrs. Wilcox wore an [omission], and Evie [omission]. So it isn't exactly a go-as-you-please place, and if you shut your eyes it still seems the wiggly hotel that we expected. Not if you open them. The dog-roses are too sweet. There is a great hedge of them over the lawn--magnificently tall, so that they fall down in garlands, and nice and thin at the bottom, so that you can see ducks through it and a cow. These belong to the farm, which is the only house near us. There goes the breakfast gong. Much love. Modified love to Tibby. Love to Aunt Juley; how good of her to come and keep you company, but what a bore. Burn this. Will write again Thursday.Helen
Howards End,
Friday.Dearest Meg,
I am having a glorious time. I like them all. Mrs. Wilcox, if quieter than in Germany, is sweeter than ever, and I never saw anything like her steady unselfishness, and the best of it is that the others do not take advantage of her. They are the very happiest, jolliest family that you can imagine. I do really feel that we are making friends. The fun of it is that they think me a noodle, and say so--at least Mr. Wilcox does--and when that happens, and one doesn't mind, it's a pretty sure test, isn't it? He says the most horrid things about women's suffrage so nicely, and when I said I believed in equality he just folded his arms and gave me such a setting down as I've never had. Meg, shall we ever learn to talk less? I never felt so ashamed of myself in my life. I couldn't point to a time when men had been equal, nor even to a time when the wish to be equal had made them happier in other ways. I couldn't say a word. I had just picked up the notion that equality is good from some book--probably from poetry, or you. Anyhow, it's been knocked into pieces, and, like all people who are really strong, Mr. Wilcox did it without hurting me. On the other hand, I laugh at them for catching hay fever. We live like fighting-cocks, and Charles takes us out every day in the motor--a tomb with trees in it, a hermit's house, a wonderful road that was made by the Kings of Mercia--tennis--a cricket match--bridge--and at night we squeeze up in this lovely house. The whole clan's here now--it's like a rabbit warren. Evie is a dear. They want me to stop over Sunday--I suppose it won't matter if I do. Marvellous weather and the view's marvellous--views westward to the high ground. Thank you for your letter. Burn this.Your affectionate
Helen
Howards End,
Sunday.Dearest, dearest Meg,--I do not know what you will say: Paul and I are in love--the younger son who only came here Wednesday.
Margaret glanced at her sister's note and pushed it over the
breakfast-table to her aunt. There was a moment's hush, and then
the flood-gates opened.
"I can tell you nothing, Aunt Juley. I know no more than you
do. We met--we only met the father and mother abroad last
spring. I know so little that I didn't even know their son's
name. It's all so--" She waved her hand and laughed a
little.
"In that case it is far too sudden."
"Who knows, Aunt Juley, who knows?"
"But, Margaret dear, I mean we mustn't be unpractical now
that we've come to facts. It is too sudden, surely."
"Who knows!"
"But Margaret dear--"
"I'll go for her other letters," said Margaret. "No, I
won't, I'll finish my breakfast. In fact, I haven't them. We
met the Wilcoxes on an awful expedition that we made from
Heidelberg to Speyer. Helen and I had got it into our heads that
there was a grand old cathedral at Speyer--the Archbishop of
Speyer was one of the seven electors--you know--'Speyer, Maintz,
and Köln.' Those three sees once commanded the Rhine Valley
and got it the name of Priest Street."
"I still feel quite uneasy about this business,
Margaret."
"The train crossed by a bridge of boats, and at first sight
it looked quite fine. But oh, in five minutes we had seen the
whole thing. The cathedral had been ruined, absolutely ruined,
by restoration; not an inch left of the original structure. We
wasted a whole day, and came across the Wilcoxes as we were
eating our sandwiches in the public gardens. They too, poor
things, had been taken in--they were actually stopping at
Speyer--and they rather liked Helen insisting that they must fly
with us to Heidelberg. As a matter of fact, they did come on
next day. We all took some drives together. They knew us well
enough to ask Helen to come and see them--at least, I was asked
too, but Tibby's illness prevented me, so last Monday she went
alone. That's all. You know as much as I do now. It's a young
man out the unknown. She was to have come back Saturday, but put
off till Monday, perhaps on account of--I don't know.
She broke off, and listened to the sounds of a London
morning. Their house was in Wickham Place, and fairly quiet, for
a lofty promontory of buildings separated it from the main
thoroughfare. One had the sense of a backwater, or rather of an
estuary, whose waters flowed in from the invisible sea, and ebbed
into a profound silence while the waves without were still
beating. Though the promontory consisted of flats--expensive,
with cavernous entrance halls, full of concierges and palms--it
fulfilled its purpose, and gained for the older houses opposite a
certain measure of peace. These, too, would be swept away in
time, and another promontory would rise upon their site, as
humanity piled itself higher and higher on the precious soil of
London.
Mrs. Munt had her own method of interpreting her nieces. She
decided that Margaret was a little hysterical, and was trying to
gain time by a torrent of talk. Feeling very diplomatic, she
lamented the fate of Speyer, and declared that never, never
should she be so misguided as to visit it, and added of her own
accord that the principles of restoration were ill understood in
Germany. "The Germans," she said, "are too thorough, and this is
all very well sometimes, but at other times it does not do."
"Exactly," said Margaret; "Germans are too thorough." And her
eyes began to shine.
"Of course I regard you Schlegels as English," said Mrs. Munt
hastily--"English to the backbone."
Margaret leaned forward and stroked her hand.
"And that reminds me--Helen's letter--"
"Oh, yes, Aunt Juley, I am thinking all right about Helen's
letter. I know--I must go down and see her. I am thinking about
her all right. I am meaning to go down"
"But go with some plan," said Mrs. Munt, admitting into her
kindly voice a note of exasperation. "Margaret, if I may
interfere, don't be taken by surprise. What do you think of the
Wilcoxes? Are they our sort? Are they likely people? Could
they appreciate Helen, who is to my mind a very special sort of
person? Do they care about Literature and Art? That is most
important when you come to think of it. Literature and Art.
Most important. How old would the son be? She says 'younger
son.' Would he be in a position to marry? Is he likely to make
Helen happy? Did you gather--"
"I gathered nothing."
They began to talk at once.
"Then in that case--"
"In that case I can make no plans, don't you see."
"On the contrary--"
"I hate plans. I hate lines of action. Helen isn't a
baby."
"Then in that case, my dear, why go down?"
Margaret was silent. If her aunt could not see why she must
go down, she was not going to tell her. She was not going to say
"I love my dear sister; I must be near her at this crisis of her
life." The affections are more reticent than the passions, and
their expression more subtle. If she herself should ever fall in
love with a man, she, like Helen, would proclaim it from the
house-tops, but as she only loved a sister she used the voiceless
language of sympathy.
"I consider you odd girls," continued Mrs. Munt, "and very
wonderful girls, and in many ways far older than your years.
But--you won't be offended? --frankly I feel you are not up to
this business. It requires an older person. Dear, I have
nothing to call me back to Swanage." She spread out her plump
arms. "I am all at your disposal. Let me go down to this house
whose name I forget instead of you."
"Aunt Juley"--she jumped up and kissed her--"I must, must go
to Howards End myself. You don't exactly understand, though I
can never thank you properly for offering."
"I do understand," retorted Mrs. Munt, with immense
confidence. "I go down in no spirit of interference, but to make
inquiries. Inquiries are necessary. Now, I am going to be
rude. You would say the wrong thing; to a certainty you would.
In your anxiety for Helen's happiness you would offend the whole
of these Wilcoxes by asking one of your impetuous questions--not
that one minds offending them."
"I shall ask no questions. I have it in Helen's writing that
she and a man are in love. There is no question to ask as long
as she keeps to that. All the rest isn't worth a straw. A long
engagement if you like, but inquiries, questions, plans, lines of
action--no, Aunt Juley, no."
Away she hurried, not beautiful, not supremely brilliant, but
filled with something that took the place of both
qualities--something best described as a profound vivacity, a
continual and sincere response to all that she encountered in her
path through life.
"If Helen had written the same to me about a shop-assistant
or a penniless clerk--"
"Dear Margaret, do come into the library and shut the door.
Your good maids are dusting the banisters."
"--or if she had wanted to marry the man who calls for Carter
Paterson, I should have said the same." Then, with one of those
turns that convinced her aunt that she was not mad really and
convinced observers of another type that she was not a barren
theorist, she added: "Though in the case of Carter Paterson I
should want it to be a very long engagement indeed, I must
say."
"I should think so," said Mrs. Munt; "and, indeed, I can
scarcely follow you. Now, just imagine if you said anything of
that sort to the Wilcoxes. I understand it, but most good people
would think you mad. Imagine how disconcerting for Helen! What
is wanted is a person who will go slowly, slowly in this
business, and see how things are and where they are likely to
lead to."
Margaret was down on this.
"But you implied just now that the engagement must be broken
off."
"I think probably it must; but slowly."
"Can you break an engagement off slowly?" Her eyes lit up.
"What's an engagement made of, do you suppose? I think it's made
of some hard stuff, that may snap, but can't break. It is
different to the other ties of life. They stretch or bend. They
admit of degree. They're different."
"Exactly so. But won't you let me just run down to Howards
House, and save you all the discomfort? I will really not
interfere, but I do so thoroughly understand the kind of thing
you Schlegels want that one quiet look round will be enough for
me."
Margaret again thanked her, again kissed her, and then ran
upstairs to see her brother.
He was not so well.
The hay fever had worried him a good deal all night. His
head ached, his eyes were wet, his mucous membrane, he informed
her, was in a most unsatisfactory condition. The only thing that
made life worth living was the thought of Walter Savage Landor,
from whose Imaginary Conversations she had promised to
read at frequent intervals during the day.
It was rather difficult. Something must be done about
Helen. She must be assured that it is not a criminal offence to
love at first sight. A telegram to this effect would be cold and
cryptic, a personal visit seemed each moment more impossible.
Now the doctor arrived, and said that Tibby was quite bad. Might
it really be best to accept Aunt Juley's kind offer, and to send
her down to Howards End with a note?
Certainly Margaret was impulsive. She did swing rapidly from
one decision to another. Running downstairs into the library,
she cried--"Yes, I have changed my mind; I do wish that you would
go."
There was a train from King's Cross at eleven. At half-past
ten Tibby, with rare self-effacement, fell asleep, and Margaret
was able to drive her aunt to the station.
"You will remember, Aunt Juley, not to be drawn into
discussing the engagement. Give my letter to Helen, and say
whatever you feel yourself, but do keep clear of the relatives.
We have scarcely got their names straight yet, and besides, that
sort of thing is so uncivilized and wrong.
"So uncivilized?" queried Mrs. Munt, fearing that she was
losing the point of some brilliant remark.
"Oh, I used an affected word. I only meant would you please
only talk the thing over with Helen."
"Only with Helen."
"Because--" But it was no moment to expound the personal
nature of love. Even Margaret shrank from it, and contented
herself with stroking her good aunt's hand, and with meditating,
half sensibly and half poetically, on the journey that was about
to begin from King's Cross.
Like many others who have lived long in a great capital, she
had strong feelings about the various railway termini. They are
our gates to the glorious and the unknown. Through them we pass
out into adventure and sunshine, to them alas! we return. In
Paddington all Cornwall is latent and the remoter west; down the
inclines of Liverpool Street lie fenlands and the illimitable
Broads; Scotland is through the pylons of Euston; Wessex behind
the poised chaos of Waterloo. Italians realize this, as is
natural; those of them who are so unfortunate as to serve as
waiters in Berlin call the Anhalt Bahnhof the Stazione d'Italia,
because by it they must return to their homes. And he is a
chilly Londoner who does not endow his stations with some
personality, and extend to them, however shyly, the emotions of
fear and love.
To Margaret--I hope that it will not set the reader against
her--the station of King's Cross had always suggested Infinity.
Its very situation--withdrawn a little behind the facile
splendours of St. Pancras--implied a comment on the materialism
of life. Those two great arches, colourless, indifferent,
shouldering between them an unlovely clock, were fit portals for
some eternal adventure, whose issue might be prosperous, but
would certainly not be expressed in the ordinary language of
prosperity. If you think this ridiculous, remember that it is
not Margaret who is telling you about it; and let me hasten to
add that they were in plenty of time for the train; that Mrs.
Munt, though she took a second-class ticket, was put by the guard
into a first (only two seconds on the train, one smoking and the
other babies--one cannot be expected to travel with babies); and
that Margaret, on her return to Wickham Place, was confronted
with the following telegram:
All over. Wish I had never written. Tell no one.
--Helen
But Aunt Juley was gone--gone irrevocably, and no power on earth could stop her.
Most complacently did Mrs. Munt rehearse her mission. Her
nieces were independent young women, and it was not often that
she was able to help them. Emily's daughters had never been
quite like other girls. They had been left motherless when Tibby
was born, when Helen was five and Margaret herself but thirteen.
It was before the passing of the Deceased Wife's Sister Bill, so
Mrs. Munt could without impropriety offer to go and keep house at
Wickham Place. But her brother-in-law, who was peculiar and a
German, had referred the question to Margaret, who with the
crudity of youth had answered, "No, they could manage much better
alone." Five years later Mr. Schlegel had died too, and Mrs. Munt
had repeated her offer. Margaret, crude no longer, had been
grateful and extremely nice, but the substance of her answer had
been the same. "I must not interfere a third time," thought Mrs.
Munt. However, of course she did. She learnt, to her horror,
that Margaret, now of age, was taking her money out of the old
safe investments and putting it into Foreign Things, which always
smash. Silence would have been criminal. Her own fortune was
invested in Home Rails, and most ardently did she beg her niece
to imitate her. "Then we should be together, dear." Margaret,
out of politeness, invested a few hundreds in the Nottingham and
Derby Railway, and though the Foreign Things did admirably and
the Nottingham and Derby declined with the steady dignity of
which only Home Rails are capable, Mrs. Munt never ceased to
rejoice, and to say, "I did manage that, at all events. When the
smash comes poor Margaret will have a nest-egg to fall back
upon." This year Helen came of age, and exactly the same thing
happened in Helen's case; she also would shift her money out of
Consols, but she, too, almost without being pressed, consecrated
a fraction of it to the Nottingham and Derby Railway. So far so
good, but in social matters their aunt had accomplished nothing.
Sooner or later the girls would enter on the process known as
throwing themselves away, and if they had delayed hitherto, it
was only that they might throw themselves more vehemently in the
future. They saw too many people at Wickham Place--unshaven
musicians, an actress even, German cousins (one knows what
foreigners are), acquaintances picked up at Continental hotels
(one knows what they are too). It was interesting, and down at
Swanage no one appreciated culture more than Mrs. Munt; but it
was dangerous, and disaster was bound to come. How right she
was, and how lucky to be on the spot when the disaster came!
The train sped northward, under innumerable tunnels. It was
only an hour's journey, but Mrs. Munt had to raise and lower the
window again and again. She passed through the South Welwyn
Tunnel, saw light for a moment, and entered the North Welwyn
Tunnel, of tragic fame. She traversed the immense viaduct, whose
arches span untroubled meadows and the dreamy flow of Tewin
Water. She skirted the parks of politicians. At times the Great
North Road accompanied her, more suggestive of infinity than any
railway, awakening, after a nap of a hundred years, to such life
as is conferred by the stench of motor-cars, and to such culture
as is implied by the advertisements of antibilious pills. To
history, to tragedy, to the past, to the future, Mrs. Munt
remained equally indifferent; hers but to concentrate on the end
of her journey, and to rescue poor Helen from this dreadful
mess.
The station for Howards End was at Hilton, one of the large
villages that are strung so frequently along the North Road, and
that owe their size to the traffic of coaching and pre-coaching
days. Being near London, it had not shared in the rural decay,
and its long High Street had budded out right and left into
residential estates. For about a mile a series of tiled and
slated houses passed before Mrs. Munt's inattentive eyes, a
series broken at one point by six Danish tumuli that stood
shoulder to shoulder along the highroad, tombs of soldiers.
Beyond these tumuli habitations thickened, and the train came to
a standstill in a tangle that was almost a town.
The station, like the scenery, like Helen's letters, struck
an indeterminate note. Into which country will it lead, England
or Suburbia? It was new, it had island platforms and a subway,
and the superficial comfort exacted by business men. But it held
hints of local life, personal intercourse, as even Mrs. Munt was
to discover.
"I want a house," she confided to the ticket boy. "Its name
is Howards Lodge. Do you know where it is?"
"Mr. Wilcox!" the boy called.
A young man in front of them turned round.
"She's wanting Howards End."
There was nothing for it but to go forward, though Mrs. Munt
was too much agitated even to stare at the stranger. But
remembering that there were two brothers, she had the sense to
say to him, "Excuse me asking, but are you the younger Mr. Wilcox
or the elder?"
"The younger. Can I do anything for you?"
"Oh, well"--she controlled herself with difficulty.
"Really. Are you? I--" She moved away from the ticket boy and
lowered her voice. "I am Miss Schlegels aunt. I ought to
introduce myself, oughtn't I? My name is Mrs. Munt."
She was conscious that he raised his cap and said quite
coolly, "Oh, rather; Miss Schlegel is stopping with us. Did you
want to see her?"
"Possibly--"
"I'll call you a cab. No; wait a mo--" He thought. "Our
motor's here. I'll run you up in it."
"That is very kind--"
"Not at all, if you'll just wait till they bring out a parcel
from the office. This way."
"My niece is not with you by any chance?"
"No; I came over with my father. He has gone on north in
your train. You'll see Miss Schlegel at lunch. You're coming up
to lunch, I hope?"
"I should like to come up," said Mrs. Munt, not
committing herself to nourishment until she had studied Helen's
lover a little more. He seemed a gentleman, but had so rattled
her round that her powers of observation were numbed. She
glanced at him stealthily. To a feminine eye there was nothing
amiss in the sharp depressions at the corners of his mouth, nor
in the rather box-like construction of his forehead. He was
dark, clean-shaven and seemed accustomed to command.
"In front or behind? Which do you prefer? It may be windy
in front."
"In front if I may; then we can talk."
"But excuse me one moment--I can't think what they're doing
with that parcel." He strode into the booking-office and called
with a new voice: "Hi! hi, you there! Are you going to keep me
waiting all day? Parcel for Wilcox, Howards End. Just look
sharp!" Emerging, he said in quieter tones: "This station's
abominably organized; if I had my way, the whole lot of 'em
should get the sack. May I help you in?"
"This is very good of you," said Mrs. Munt, as she settled
herself into a luxurious cavern of red leather, and suffered her
person to be padded with rugs and shawls. She was more civil
than she had intended, but really this young man was very kind.
Moreover, she was a little afraid of him: his self-possession was
extraordinary. "Very good indeed," she repeated, adding: "It is
just what I should have wished."
"Very good of you to say so," he replied, with a slight look
of surprise, which, like most slight looks, escaped Mrs. Munt's
attention. "I was just tooling my father over to catch the down
train."
"You see, we heard from Helen this morning."
Young Wilcox was pouring in petrol, starting his engine, and
performing other actions with which this story has no concern.
The great car began to rock, and the form of Mrs. Munt, trying to
explain things, sprang agreeably up and down among the red
cushions. "The mater will be very glad to see you," he mumbled.
"Hi! I say. Parcel for Howards End. Bring it out. Hi!"
A bearded porter emerged with the parcel in one hand and an
entry book in the other. With the gathering whir of the motor
these ejaculations mingled: "Sign, must I? Why the--should I
sign after all this bother? Not even got a pencil on you?
Remember next time I report you to the station-master. My time's
of value, though yours mayn't be. Here"--here being a tip.
"Extremely sorry, Mrs. Munt."
"Not at all, Mr. Wilcox."
"And do you object to going through the village? It is
rather a longer spin, but I have one or two commissions."
"I should love going through the village. Naturally I am
very anxious to talk things over with you."
As she said this she felt ashamed, for she was disobeying
Margaret's instructions. Only disobeying them in the letter,
surely. Margaret had only warned her against discussing the
incident with outsiders. Surely it was not "uncivilized or
wrong" to discuss it with the young man himself, since chance had
thrown them together.
A reticent fellow, he made no reply. Mounting by her side,
he put on gloves and spectacles, and off they drove, the bearded
porter--life is a mysterious business--looking after them with
admiration.
The wind was in their faces down the station road, blowing
the dust into Mrs. Munt's eyes. But as soon as they turned into
the Great North Road she opened fire. "You can well imagine,"
she said, "that the news was a great shock to us."
"What news?"
"Mr. Wilcox," she said frankly. "Margaret has told me
everything--everything. I have seen Helen's letter."
He could not look her in the face, as his eyes were fixed on
his work; he was travelling as quickly as he dared down the High
Street. But he inclined his head in her direction, and said, "I
beg your pardon; I didn't catch."
"About Helen. Helen, of course. Helen is a very exceptional
person--I am sure you will let me say this, feeling towards her
as you do--indeed, all the Schlegels are exceptional. I come in
no spirit of interference, but it was a great shock."
They drew up opposite a draper's. Without replying, he
turned round in his seat, and contemplated the cloud of dust that
they had raised in their passage through the village. It was
settling again, but not all into the road from which he had taken
it. Some of it had percolated through the open windows, some had
whitened the roses and gooseberries of the wayside gardens, while
a certain proportion had entered the lungs of the villagers. "I
wonder when they'll learn wisdom and tar the roads," was his
comment. Then a man ran out of the draper's with a roll of
oilcloth, and off they went again.
"Margaret could not come herself, on account of poor Tibby,
so I am here to represent her and to have a good talk."
"I'm sorry to be so dense," said the young man, again drawing
up outside a shop. "But I still haven't quite understood."
"Helen, Mr. Wilcox--my niece and you."
He pushed up his goggles and gazed at her, absolutely
bewildered. Horror smote her to the heart, for even she began to
suspect that they were at cross-purposes, and that she had
commenced her mission by some hideous blunder.
"Miss Schlegel and myself." he asked, compressing his
lips.
"I trust there has been no misunderstanding," quavered Mrs.
Munt. "Her letter certainly read that way."
"What way?"
"That you and she--" She paused, then drooped her
eyelids.
"I think I catch your meaning," he said stickily. "What an
extraordinary mistake!"
"Then you didn't the least--" she stammered, getting
blood-red in the face, and wishing she had never been born.
"Scarcely, as I am already engaged to another lady." There
was a moment's silence, and then he caught his breath and
exploded with, "Oh, good God! Don't tell me it's some silliness
of Paul's."
"But you are Paul."
"I'm not."
"Then why did you say so at the station?"
"I said nothing of the sort."
"I beg your pardon, you did."
"I beg your pardon, I did not. My name is Charles."
"Younger" may mean son as opposed to father, or second
brother as opposed to first. There is much to be said for either
view, and later on they said it. But they had other questions
before them now.
"Do you mean to tell me that Paul--"
But she did not like his voice. He sounded as if he was
talking to a porter, and, certain that he had deceived her at the
station, she too grew angry.
"Do you mean to tell me that Paul and your niece--"
Mrs. Munt--such is human nature--determined that she would
champion the lovers. She was not going to be bullied by a severe
young man. "Yes, they care for one another very much indeed,"
she said. "I dare say they will tell you about it by-and-by. We
heard this morning."
And Charles clenched his fist and cried, "The idiot, the
idiot, the little fool!"
Mrs. Munt tried to divest herself of her rugs. "If that is
your attitude, Mr. Wilcox, I prefer to walk."
"I beg you will do no such thing. I'll take you up this
moment to the house. Let me tell you the thing's impossible, and
must be stopped."
Mrs. Munt did not often lose her temper, and when she did it
was only to protect those whom she loved. On this occasion she
blazed out. "I quite agree, sir. The thing is impossible, and I
will come up and stop it. My niece is a very exceptional person,
and I am not inclined to sit still while she throws herself away
on those who will not appreciate her."
Charles worked his jaws.
"Considering she has only known your brother since Wednesday,
and only met your father and mother at a stray hotel--"
"Could you possibly lower your voice? The shopman will
overhear."
"Esprit de classe"--if one may coin the phrase--was strong in
Mrs. Munt. She sat quivering while a member of the lower orders
deposited a metal funnel, a saucepan, and a garden squirt beside
the roll of oilcloth.
"Right behind?"
"Yes, sir." And the lower orders vanished in a cloud of
dust.
"I warn you: Paul hasn't a penny; it's useless."
"No need to warn us, Mr. Wilcox, I assure you. The warning
is all the other way. My niece has been very foolish, and I
shall give her a good scolding and take her back to London with
me."
"He has to make his way out in Nigeria. He couldn't think of
marrying for years and when he does it must be a woman who can
stand the climate, and is in other ways--Why hasn't he told us?
Of course he's ashamed. He knows he's been a fool. And so he
has--a damned fool."
She grew furious.
"Whereas Miss Schlegel has lost no time in publishing the
news."
"If I were a man, Mr. Wilcox, for that last remark I'd box
your ears. You're not fit to clean my niece's boots, to sit in
the same room with her, and you dare--you actually dare--I
decline to argue with such a person."
"All I know is, she's spread the thing and he hasn't, and my
father's away and I--"
"And all that I know is--"
"Might I finish my sentence, please?"
"No."
Charles clenched his teeth and sent the motor swerving all
over the lane.
She screamed.
So they played the game of Capping Families, a round of which
is always played when love would unite two members of our race.
But they played it with unusual vigour, stating in so many words
that Schlegels were better than Wilcoxes, Wilcoxes better than
Schlegels. They flung decency aside. The man was young, the
woman deeply stirred; in both a vein of coarseness was latent.
Their quarrel was no more surprising than are most
quarrels--inevitable at the time, incredible afterwards. But it
was more than usually futile. A few minutes, and they were
enlightened. The motor drew up at Howards End, and Helen,
looking very pale, ran out to meet her aunt.
"Aunt Juley, I have just had a telegram from Margaret; I--I
meant to stop your coming. It isn't--it's over."
The climax was too much for Mrs. Munt. She burst into
tears.
"Aunt Juley dear, don't. Don't let them know I've been so
silly. It wasn't anything. Do bear up for my sake."
"Paul," cried Charles Wilcox, pulling his gloves off.
"Don't let them know. They are never to know."
"Oh, my darling Helen--"
"Paul! Paul!"
A very young man came out of the house.
"Paul, is there any truth in this?"
"I didn't--I don't--"
"Yes or no, man; plain question, plain answer. Did or didn't
Miss Schlegel--"
"Charles dear," said a voice from the garden. "Charles, dear
Charles, one doesn't ask plain questions. There aren't such
things."
They were all silent. It was Mrs. Wilcox.
She approached just as Helen's letter had described her,
trailing noiselessly over the lawn, and there was actually a wisp
of hay in her hands. She seemed to belong not to the young
people and their motor, but to the house, and to the tree that
overshadowed it. One knew that she worshipped the past, and that
the instinctive wisdom the past can alone bestow had descended
upon her--that wisdom to which we give the clumsy name of
aristocracy. High born she might not be. But assuredly she
cared about her ancestors, and let them help her. When she saw
Charles angry, Paul frightened, and Mrs. Munt in tears, she heard
her ancestors say, "Separate those human beings who will hurt
each other most. The rest can wait." So she did not ask
questions. Still less did she pretend that nothing had happened,
as a competent society hostess would have done. She said, "Miss
Schlegel, would you take your aunt up to your room or to my room,
whichever you think best. Paul, do find Evie, and tell her lunch
for six, but I'm not sure whether we shall all be downstairs for
it." And when they had obeyed her, she turned to her elder son,
who still stood in the throbbing stinking car, and smiled at him
with tenderness, and without a word, turned away from him towards
her flowers.
"Mother," he called, "are you aware that Paul has been
playing the fool again?"
"It's all right, dear. They have broken off the
engagement."
"Engagement--!"
"They do not love any longer, if you prefer it put that way,"
said Mrs. Wilcox, stooping down to smell a rose.
Helen and her aunt returned to Wickham Place in a state of
collapse, and for a little time Margaret had three invalids on
her hands. Mrs. Munt soon recovered. She possessed to a
remarkable degree the power of distorting the past, and before
many days were over she had forgotten the part played by her own
imprudence in the catastrophe. Even at the crisis she had cried,
"Thank goodness, poor Margaret is saved this!" which during the
journey to London evolved into, "It had to be gone through by
someone," which in its turn ripened into the permanent form of
"The one time I really did help Emily's girls was over the Wilcox
business." But Helen was a more serious patient. New ideas had
burst upon her like a thunder clap, and by them and by her
reverberations she had been stunned.
The truth was that she had fallen in love, not with an
individual, but with a family.
Before Paul arrived she had, as it were, been tuned up into
his key. The energy of the Wilcoxes had fascinated her, had
created new images of beauty in her responsive mind. To be all
day with them in the open air, to sleep at night under their
roof, had seemed the supreme joy of life, and had led to that
abandonment of personality that is a possible prelude to love.
She had liked giving in to Mr. Wilcox, or Evie, or Charles; she
had liked being told that her notions of life were sheltered or
academic; that Equality was nonsense, Votes for Women nonsense,
Socialism nonsense, Art and Literature, except when conducive to
strengthening the character, nonsense. One by one the Schlegel
fetiches had been overthrown, and, though professing to defend
them, she had rejoiced. When Mr. Wilcox said that one sound man
of business did more good to the world than a dozen of your
social reformers, she had swallowed the curious assertion without
a gasp, and had leant back luxuriously among the cushions of his
motor-car. When Charles said, "Why be so polite to servants?
they don't understand it," she had not given the Schlegel retort
of, "If they don't understand it, I do." No; she had vowed to be
less polite to servants in the future. "I am swathed in cant,"
she thought, "and it is good for me to be stripped of it." And
all that she thought or did or breathed was a quiet preparation
for Paul. Paul was inevitable. Charles was taken up with
another girl, Mr. Wilcox was so old, Evie so young, Mrs. Wilcox
so different. Round the absent brother she began to throw the
halo of Romance, to irradiate him with all the splendour of those
happy days, to feel that in him she should draw nearest to the
robust ideal. He and she were about the same age, Evie said.
Most people thought Paul handsomer than his brother. He was
certainly a better shot, though not so good at golf. And when
Paul appeared, flushed with the triumph of getting through an
examination, and ready to flirt with any pretty girl, Helen met
him halfway, or more than halfway, and turned towards him on the
Sunday evening.
He had been talking of his approaching exile in Nigeria, and
he should have continued to talk of it, and allowed their guest
to recover. But the heave of her bosom flattered him. Passion
was possible, and he became passionate. Deep down in him
something whispered, "This girl would let you kiss her; you might
not have such a chance again."
That was "how it happened," or, rather, how Helen described
it to her sister, using words even more unsympathetic than my
own. But the poetry of that kiss, the wonder of it, the magic
that there was in life for hours after it--who can describe
that? It is so easy for an Englishman to sneer at these chance
collisions of human beings. To the insular cynic and the insular
moralist they offer an equal opportunity. It is so easy to talk
of "passing emotion," and how to forget how vivid the emotion was
ere it passed. Our impulse to sneer, to forget, is at root a
good one. We recognize that emotion is not enough, and that men
and women are personalities capable of sustained relations, not
mere opportunities for an electrical discharge. Yet we rate the
impulse too highly. We do not admit that by collisions of this
trivial sort the doors of heaven may be shaken open. To Helen,
at all events, her life was to bring nothing more intense than
the embrace of this boy who played no part in it. He had drawn
her out of the house, where there was danger of surprise and
light; he had led her by a path he knew, until they stood under
the column of the vast wych-elm. A man in the darkness, he had
whispered "I love you" when she was desiring love. In time his
slender personality faded, the scene that he had evoked endured.
In all the variable years that followed she never saw the like of
it again.
"I understand," said Margaret--"at least, I understand as
much as ever is understood of these things. Tell me now what
happened on the Monday morning."
"It was over at once."
"How, Helen?"
"I was still happy while I dressed, but as I came downstairs
I got nervous, and when I went into the dining-room I knew it was
no good. There was Evie--I can't explain--managing the tea-urn,
and Mr. Wilcox reading the Times."
"Was Paul there?"
"Yes; and Charles was talking to him about Stocks and Shares,
and he looked frightened."
By slight indications the sisters could convey much to each
other. Margaret saw horror latent in the scene, and Helen's next
remark did not surprise her.
"Somehow, when that kind of man looks frightened it is too
awful. It is all right for us to be frightened, or for men of
another sort--father, for instance; but for men like that! When
I saw all the others so placid, and Paul mad with terror in case
I said the wrong thing, I felt for a moment that the whole Wilcox
family was a fraud, just a wall of newspapers and motor-cars and
golf-clubs, and that if it fell I should find nothing behind it
but panic and emptiness. "
"I don't think that. The Wilcoxes struck me as being genuine
people, particularly the wife."
"No, I don't really think that. But Paul was so
broad-shouldered; all kinds of extraordinary things made it
worse, and I knew that it would never do--never. I said to him
after breakfast, when the others were practising strokes, 'We
rather lost our heads,' and he looked better at once, though
frightfully ashamed. He began a speech about having no money to
marry on, but it hurt him to make it, and I--stopped him. Then
he said, 'I must beg your pardon over this, Miss Schlegel; I
can't think what came over me last night.' And I said, 'Nor what
over me; never mind.' And then we parted--at least, until I
remembered that I had written straight off to tell you the night
before, and that frightened him again. I asked him to send a
telegram for me, for he knew you would be coming or something;
and he tried to get hold of the motor, but Charles and Mr. Wilcox
wanted it to go to the station; and Charles offered to send the
telegram for me, and then I had to say that the telegram was of
no consequence, for Paul said Charles might read it, and though I
wrote it out several times, he always said people would suspect
something. He took it himself at last, pretending that he must
walk down to get cartridges, and, what with one thing and the
other, it was not handed in at the Post Office until too late.
It was the most terrible morning. Paul disliked me more and
more, and Evie talked cricket averages till I nearly screamed. I
cannot think how I stood her all the other days. At last Charles
and his father started for the station, and then came your
telegram warning me that Aunt Juley was coming by that train, and
Paul--oh, rather horrible--said that I had muddled it. But Mrs.
Wilcox knew."
"Knew what?"
"Everything; though we neither of us told her a word, and had
known all along, I think."
"Oh, she must have overheard you."
"I suppose so, but it seemed wonderful. When Charles and Aunt
Juley drove up, calling each other names, Mrs. Wilcox stepped in
from the garden and made everything less terrible. Ugh! but it
has been a disgusting business. To think that--" She sighed.
"To think that because you and a young man meet for a moment,
there must be all these telegrams and anger," supplied
Margaret.
Helen nodded.
"I've often thought about it, Helen. It's one of the most
interesting things in the world. The truth is that there is a
great outer life that you and I have never touched--a life in
which telegrams and anger count. Personal relations, that we
think supreme, are not supreme there. There love means marriage
settlements, death, death duties. So far I'm clear. But here my
difficulty. This outer life, though obviously horrid, often
seems the real one--there's grit in it. It does breed
character. Do personal relations lead to sloppiness in the
end?"
"Oh, Meg, that's what I felt, only not so clearly, when the
Wilcoxes were so competent, and seemed to have their hands on all
the ropes. "
"Don't you feel it now?"
"I remember Paul at breakfast," said Helen quietly. "I shall
never forget him. He had nothing to fall back upon. I know that
personal relations are the real life, for ever and ever.
"Amen!"
So the Wilcox episode fell into the background, leaving
behind it memories of sweetness and horror that mingled, and the
sisters pursued the life that Helen had commended. They talked
to each other and to other people, they filled the tall thin
house at Wickham Place with those whom they liked or could
befriend. They even attended public meetings. In their own
fashion they cared deeply about politics, though not as
politicians would have us care; they desired that public life
should mirror whatever is good in the life within. Temperance,
tolerance, and sexual equality were intelligible cries to them;
whereas they did not follow our Forward Policy in Thibet with the
keen attention that it merits, and would at times dismiss the
whole British Empire with a puzzled, if reverent, sigh. Not out
of them are the shows of history erected: the world would be a
grey, bloodless place were it entirely composed of Miss
Schlegels. But the world being what it is, perhaps they shine
out in it like stars.
A word on their origin. They were not "English to the
backbone," as their aunt had piously asserted. But, on the other
band, they were not "Germans of the dreadful sort." Their father
had belonged to a type that was more prominent in Germany fifty
years ago than now. He was not the aggressive German, so dear to
the English journalist, nor the domestic German, so dear to the
English wit. If one classed him at all it would be as the
countryman of Hegel and Kant, as the idealist, inclined to be
dreamy, whose Imperialism was the Imperialism of the air. Not
that his life had been inactive. He had fought like blazes
against Denmark, Austria, France. But he had fought without
visualizing the results of victory. A hint of the truth broke on
him after Sedan, when he saw the dyed moustaches of Napoleon
going grey; another when he entered Paris, and saw the smashed
windows of the Tuileries. Peace came--it was all very immense,
one had turned into an Empire--but he knew that some quality had
vanished for which not all Alsace-Lorraine could compensate him.
Germany a commercial Power, Germany a naval Power, Germany with
colonies here and a Forward Policy there, and legitimate
aspirations in the other place, might appeal to others, and be
fitly served by them; for his own part, he abstained from the
fruits of victory, and naturalized himself in England. The more
earnest members of his family never forgave him, and knew that
his children, though scarcely English of the dreadful sort, would
never be German to the backbone. He had obtained work in one of
our provincial Universities, and there married Poor Emily (or Die
Engländerin as the case may be), and as she had money, they
proceeded to London, and came to know a good many people. But
his gaze was always fixed beyond the sea. It was his hope that
the clouds of materialism obscuring the Fatherland would part in
time, and the mild intellectual light re-emerge. "Do you imply
that we Germans are stupid, Uncle Ernst?" exclaimed a haughty and
magnificent nephew. Uncle Ernst replied, "To my mind. You use
the intellect, but you no longer care about it. That I call
stupidity." As the haughty nephew did not follow, he continued,
"You only care about the' things that you can use, and therefore
arrange them in the following order: Money, supremely useful;
intellect, rather useful; imagination, of no use at all.
No"--for the other had protested--"your Pan-Germanism is no more
imaginative than is our Imperialism over here. It is the vice of
a vulgar mind to be thrilled by bigness, to think that a thousand
square miles are a thousand times more wonderful than one square
mile, and that a million square miles are almost the same as
heaven. That is not imagination. No, it kills it. When their
poets over here try to celebrate bigness they are dead at once,
and naturally. Your poets too are dying, your philosophers, your
musicians, to whom Europe has listened for two hundred years.
Gone. Gone with the little courts that nurtured them--gone with
Esterhaz and Weimar. What? What's that? Your Universities?
Oh, yes, you have learned men, who collect more facts than do the
learned men of England. They collect facts, and facts, and
empires of facts. But which of them will rekindle the light
within?"
To all this Margaret listened, sitting on the haughty
nephew's knee.
It was a unique education for the little girls. The haughty
nephew would be at Wickham Place one day, bringing with him an
even haughtier wife, both convinced that Germany was appointed by
God to govern the world. Aunt Juley would come the next day,
convinced that Great Britain had been appointed to the same post
by the same authority. Were both these loud-voiced parties
right? On one occasion they had met, and Margaret with clasped
hands had implored them to argue the subject out in her
presence. Whereat they blushed, and began to talk about the
weather. "Papa" she cried--she was a most offensive child--"why
will they not discuss this most clear question?" Her father,
surveying the parties grimly, replied that he did not know.
Putting her head on one side, Margaret then remarked, "To me one
of two things is very clear; either God does not know his own
mind about England and Germany, or else these do not know the
mind of God." A hateful little girl, but at thirteen she had
grasped a dilemma that most people travel through life without
perceiving. Her brain darted up and down; it grew pliant and
strong. Her conclusion was, that any human being lies nearer to
the unseen than any organization, and from this she never
varied.
Helen advanced along the same lines, though with a more
irresponsible tread. In character she resembled her sister, but
she was pretty, and so apt to have a more amusing time. People
gathered round her more readily, especially when they were new
acquaintances, and she did enjoy a little homage very much. When
their father died and they ruled alone at Wickham Place, she
often absorbed the whole of the company, while Margaret--both
were tremendous talkers--fell flat. Neither sister bothered
about this. Helen never apologized afterwards, Margaret did not
feel the slightest rancour. But looks have their influence upon
character. The sisters were alike as little girls, but at the
time of the Wilcox episode their methods were beginning to
diverge; the younger was rather apt to entice people, and, in
enticing them, to be herself enticed; the elder went straight
ahead, and accepted an occasional failure as part of the
game.
Little need be premised about Tibby. He was now an
intelligent man of sixteen, but dyspeptic and difficile.
It will be generally admitted that Beethoven's Fifth Symphony
is the most sublime noise that has ever penetrated into the ear
of man. All sorts and conditions are satisfied by it. Whether
you are like Mrs. Munt, and tap surreptitiously when the tunes
come--of course, not so as to disturb the others--; or like
Helen, who can see heroes and shipwrecks in the music's flood; or
like Margaret, who can only see the music; or like Tibby, who is
profoundly versed in counterpoint, and holds the full score open
on his knee; or like their cousin, Fräulein Mosebach, who
remembers all the time that Beethoven is "echt Deutsch"; or like
Fräulein Mosebach's young man, who can remember nothing but
Fräulein Mosebach: in any case, the passion of your life
becomes more vivid, and you are bound to admit that such a noise
is cheap at two shillings. It is cheap, even if you hear it in
the Queen's Hall, dreariest music-room in London, though not as
dreary as the Free Trade Hall, Manchester; and even if you sit on
the extreme left of that hall, so that the brass bumps at you
before the rest of the orchestra arrives, it is still cheap.
"Who is Margaret talking to?" said Mrs. Munt, at the
conclusion of the first movement. She was again in London on a
visit to Wickham Place.
Helen looked down the long line of their party, and said that
she did not know.
"Would it be some young man or other whom she takes an
interest in?"
"I expect so," Helen replied. Music enwrapped her, and she
could not enter into the distinction that divides young men whom
one takes an interest in from young men whom one knows.
"You girls are so wonderful in always having--Oh dear! one
mustn't talk."
For the Andante had begun--very beautiful, but bearing a
family likeness to all the other beautiful Andantes that
Beethoven had written, and, to Helen's mind, rather disconnecting
the heroes and shipwrecks of the first movement from the heroes
and goblins of the third. She heard the tune through once, and
then her attention wandered, and she gazed at the audience, or
the organ, or the architecture. Much did she censure the
attenuated Cupids who encircle the ceiling of the Queen's Hall,
inclining each to each with vapid gesture, and clad in sallow
pantaloons, on which the October sunlight struck. "How awful to
marry a man like those Cupids!" thought Helen. Here Beethoven
started decorating his tune, so she heard him through once more,
and then she smiled at her cousin Frieda. But Frieda, listening
to Classical Music, could not respond. Herr Liesecke, too,
looked as if wild horses could not make him inattentive; there
were lines across his forehead, his lips were parted, his
pince-nez at right angles to his nose, and he had laid a thick,
white hand on either knee. And next to her was Aunt Juley, so
British, and wanting to tap. How interesting that row of people
was! What diverse influences had gone to the making! Here
Beethoven, after humming and hawing with great sweetness, said
"Heigho," and the Andante came to an end. Applause, and a round
of "wunderschöning" and "prachtvolleying" from the German
contingent. Margaret started talking to her new young man; Helen
said to her aunt: "Now comes the wonderful movement: first of all
the goblins, and then a trio of elephants dancing;" and Tibby
implored the company generally to look out for the transitional
passage on the drum.
"On the what, dear?"
"On the drum, Aunt Juley."
"No; look out for the part where you think you have done with
the goblins and they come back," breathed Helen, as the music
started with a goblin walking quietly over the universe, from end
to end. Others followed him. They were not aggressive
creatures; it was that that made them so terrible to Helen. They
merely observed in passing that there was no such thing as
splendour or heroism in the world. After the interlude of
elephants dancing, they returned and made the observation for the
second time. Helen could not contradict them, for, once at all
events, she had felt the same, and had seen the reliable walls of
youth collapse. Panic and emptiness! Panic and emptiness! The
goblins were right.
Her brother raised his finger: it was the transitional
passage on the drum.
For, as if things were going too far, Beethoven took hold of
the goblins and made them do what he wanted. He appeared in
person. He gave them a little push, and they began to walk in
major key instead of in a minor, and then--he blew with his mouth
and they were scattered! Gusts of splendour, gods and demigods
contending with vast swords, colour and fragrance broadcast on
the field of battle, magnificent victory, magnificent death! Oh,
it all burst before the girl, and she even stretched out her
gloved hands as if it was tangible. Any fate was titanic; any
contest desirable; conqueror and conquered would alike be
applauded by the angels of the utmost stars.
And the goblins--they had not really been there at all? They
were only the phantoms of cowardice and unbelief? One healthy
human impulse would dispel them? Men like the Wilcoxes, or
President Roosevelt, would say yes. Beethoven knew better. The
goblins really had been there. They might return--and they did.
It was as if the splendour of life might boil over--and waste to
steam and froth. In its dissolution one heard the terrible,
ominous note, and a goblin, with increased malignity, walked
quietly over the universe from end to end. Panic and emptiness!
Panic and emptiness! Even the flaming ramparts of the world
might fall.
Beethoven chose to make all right in the end. He built the
ramparts up. He blew with his mouth for the second time, and
again the goblins were scattered. He brought back the gusts of
splendour, the heroism, the youth, the magnificence of life and
of death, and, amid vast roarings of a superhuman joy, he led his
Fifth Symphony to its conclusion. But the goblins were there.
They could return. He had said so bravely, and that is why one
can trust Beethoven when he says other things.
Helen pushed her way out during the applause. She desired to
be alone. The music summed up to her all that had happened or
could happen in her career. She read it as a tangible statement,
which could never be superseded. The notes meant this and that
to her, and they could have no other meaning, and life could have
no other meaning. She pushed right out of the building, and
walked slowly down the outside staircase, breathing the autumnal
air, and then she strolled home.
"Margaret," called Mrs. Munt, "is Helen all right?"
"Oh yes."
"She is always going away in the middle of a programme," said
Tibby.
"The music has evidently moved her deeply," said
Fräulein Mosebach.
"Excuse me," said Margaret's young man, who had for some time
been preparing a sentence, "but that lady has, quite
inadvertently, taken my umbrella."
"Oh, good gracious me! --I am so sorry. Tibby, run after
Helen."
"I shall miss the Four Serious Songs if I do."
"Tibby love, you must go."
"It isn't of any consequence," said the young man, in truth a
little uneasy about his umbrella.
"But of course it is. Tibby! Tibby!"
Tibby rose to his feet, and wilfully caught his person on the
backs of the chairs. By the time he had tipped up the seat and
had found his hat, and had deposited his full score in safety, it
was "too late" to go after Helen. The Four Serious Songs had
begun, and one could not move during their performance.
"My sister is so careless," whispered Margaret.
"Not at all," replied the young man; but his voice was dead
and cold.
"If you would give me your address--"
"Oh, not at all, not at all;" and he wrapped his greatcoat
over his knees.
Then the Four Serious Songs rang shallow in Margaret's ears.
Brahms, for all his grumbling and grizzling, had never guessed
what it felt like to be suspected of stealing an umbrella. For
this fool of a young man thought that she and Helen and Tibby had
been playing the confidence trick on him, and that if he gave his
address they would break into his rooms some midnight or other
and steal his walkingstick too. Most ladies would have laughed,
but Margaret really minded, for it gave her a glimpse into
squalor. To trust people is a luxury in which only the wealthy
can indulge; the poor cannot afford it. As soon as Brahms had
grunted himself out, she gave him her card and said, "That is
where we live; if you preferred, you could call for the umbrella
after the concert, but I didn't like to trouble you when it has
all been our fault."
His face brightened a little when he saw that Wickham Place
was W. It was sad to see him corroded with suspicion, and yet not
daring to be impolite, in case these well-dressed people were
honest after all. She took it as a good sign that he said to
her, "It's a fine programme this afternoon, is it not?" for this
was the remark with which he had originally opened, before the
umbrella intervened.
"The Beethoven's fine," said Margaret, who was not a female
of the encouraging type. "I don't like the Brahms, though, nor
the Mendelssohn that came first--and ugh! I don't like this
Elgar that's coming."
"What, what?" called Herr Liesecke, overhearing. "The
Pomp and Circumstance will not be fine?"
"Oh, Margaret, you tiresome girl!" cried her aunt. "Here
have I been persuading Herr Liesecke to stop for Pomp and
Circumstance, and you are undoing all my work. I am so
anxious for him to hear what we are doing in music. Oh, you
mustn't run down our English composers, Margaret."
"For my part, I have heard the composition at Stettin," said
Fräulein Mosebach. "On two occasions. It is dramatic, a
little."
"Frieda, you despise English music. You know you do. And
English art. And English Literature, except Shakespeare and he's
a German. Very well, Frieda, you may go."
The lovers laughed and glanced at each other. Moved by a
common impulse, they rose to their feet and fled from Pomp
and Circumstance.
"We have this call to play in Finsbury Circus, it is true,"
said Herr Liesecke, as he edged past her and reached the gangway
just as the music started.
"Margaret--" loudly whispered by Aunt Juley. "Margaret,
Margaret! Fräulein Mosebach has left her beautiful little
bag behind her on the seat."
Sure enough, there was Frieda's reticule, containing her
address book, her pocket dictionary, her map of London, and her
money.
"Oh, what a bother--what a family we are! Fr-Frieda!"
"Hush!" said all those who thought the music fine.
"But it's the number they want in Finsbury Circus--"
"Might I--couldn't I--" said the suspicious young man, and
got very red.
"Oh, I would be so grateful."
He took the bag--money clinking inside it--and slipped up the
gangway with it. He was just in time to catch them at the
swing-door, and he received a pretty smile from the German girl
and a fine bow from her cavalier. He returned to his seat
up-sides with the world. The trust that they had reposed in him
was trivial, but he felt that it cancelled his mistrust for them,
and that probably he would not be "had" over his umbrella. This
young man had been "had" in the past--badly, perhaps
overwhelmingly--and now most of his energies went in defending
himself against the unknown. But this afternoon--perhaps on
account of music--he perceived that one must slack off
occasionally, or what is the good of being alive? Wickham Place,
W., though a risk, was as safe as most things, and he would risk
it.
So when the concert was over and Margaret said, "We live
quite near; I am going there now. Could you walk around with me,
and we'll find your umbrella?" he said, "Thank you," peaceably,
and followed her out of the Queen's Hall. She wished that he was
not so anxious to hand a lady downstairs, or to carry a lady's
programme for her--his class was near enough her own for its
manners to vex her. But she found him interesting on the
whole--every one interested the Schlegels on the whole at that
time--and while her lips talked culture, her heart was planning
to invite him to tea.
"How tired one gets after music!" she began.
"Do you find the atmosphere of Queen's Hall oppressive?"
"Yes, horribly."
"But surely the atmosphere of Covent Garden is even more
oppressive."
"Do you go there much?"
"When my work permits, I attend the gallery for, the Royal
Opera."
Helen would have exclaimed, "So do I. I love the gallery,"
and thus have endeared herself to the young man. Helen could do
these things. But Margaret had an almost morbid horror of
"drawing people out," of "making things go." She had been to the
gallery at Covent Garden, but she did not "attend" it, preferring
the more expensive seats; still less did she love it. So she
made no reply.
"This year I have been three times--to Faust,
Tosca, and--" Was it "Tannhouser" or "Tannhoyser"?
Better not risk the word.
Margaret disliked Tosca and Faust. And so,
for one reason and another, they walked on in silence, chaperoned
by the voice of Mrs. Munt, who was getting into difficulties with
her nephew.
"I do in a way remember the passage, Tibby, but when
every instrument is so beautiful, it is difficult to pick out one
thing rather than another. I am sure that you and Helen take me
to the very nicest concerts. Not a dull note from beginning to
end. I only wish that our German friends would have stayed till
it finished."
"But surely you haven't forgotten the drum steadily beating
on the low C, Aunt Juley?" came Tibby's voice. "No one could.
It's unmistakable."
"A specially loud part?" hazarded Mrs. Munt. "Of course I do
not go in for being musical," she added, the shot failing. "I
only care for music--a very different thing. But still I will
say this for myself--I do know when I like a thing and when I
don't. Some people are the same about pictures. They can go
into a picture gallery--Miss Conder can--and say straight off
what they feel, all round the wall. I never could do that. But
music is so different to pictures, to my mind. When it comes to
music I am as safe as houses, and I assure you, Tibby, I am by no
means pleased by everything. There was a thing--something about
a faun in French--which Helen went into ecstasies over, but I
thought it most tinkling and superficial, and said so, and I held
to my opinion too."
"Do you agree?" asked Margaret. "Do you think music is so
different to pictures?"
"I--I should have thought so, kind of," he said.
"So should I. Now, my sister declares they're just the same.
We have great arguments over it. She says I'm dense; I say she's
sloppy." Getting under way, she cried: "Now, doesn't it seem
absurd to you? What is the good of the Arts if they are
interchangeable? What is the good of the ear if it tells you the
same as the eye? Helen's one aim is to translate tunes into the
language of painting, and pictures into the language of music.
It's very ingenious, and she says several pretty things in the
process, but what's gained, I'd like to know? Oh, it's all
rubbish, radically false. If Monet's really Debussy, and
Debussy's really Monet, neither gentleman is worth his
salt--that's my opinion.
Evidently these sisters quarrelled.
"Now, this very symphony that we've just been having--she
won't let it alone. She labels it with meanings from start to
finish; turns it into literature. I wonder if the day will ever
return when music will be treated as music. Yet I don't know.
There's my brother--behind us. He treats music as music, and oh,
my goodness! He makes me angrier than anyone, simply furious.
With him I daren't even argue."
An unhappy family, if talented.
"But, of course, the real villain is Wagner. He has done
more than any man in the nineteenth century towards the muddling
of arts. I do feel that music is in a very serious state just
now, though extraordinarily interesting. Every now and then in
history there do come these terrible geniuses, like Wagner, who
stir up all the wells of thought at once. For a moment it's
splendid. Such a splash as never was. But afterwards--such a
lot of mud; and the wells--as it were, they communicate with each
other too easily now, and not one of them will run quite clear.
That's what Wagner's done."
Her speeches fluttered away from the young man like birds.
If only he could talk like this, he would have caught the world.
Oh to acquire culture! Oh, to pronounce foreign names
correctly! Oh, to be well informed, discoursing at ease on every
subject that a lady started! But it would take one years. With
an hour at lunch and a few shattered hours in the evening, how
was it possible to catch up with leisured women, who had been
reading steadily from childhood? His brain might be full of
names, he might have even heard of Monet and Debussy; the trouble
was that he could not string them together into a sentence, he
could not make them "tell," he could not quite forget about his
stolen umbrella. Yes, the umbrella was the real trouble. Behind
Monet and Debussy the umbrella persisted, with the steady beat of
a drum. "I suppose my umbrella will be all right," he was
thinking. "I don't really mind about it. I will think about
music instead. I suppose my umbrella will be all right." Earlier
in the afternoon he had worried about seats. Ought he to have
paid as much as two shillings? Earlier still he had wondered,
"Shall I try to do without a programme?" There had always been
something to worry him ever since he could remember, always
something that distracted him in the pursuit of beauty. For he
did pursue beauty, and therefore, Margaret's speeches did flutter
away from him like birds.
Margaret talked ahead, occasionally saying, "Don't you think
so? don't you feel the same?" And once she stopped, and said
"Oh, do interrupt me!" which terrified him. She did not attract
him, though she filled him with awe. Her figure was meagre, her
face seemed all teeth and eyes, her references to her sister and
brother were uncharitable. For all her cleverness and culture,
she was probably one of those soulless, atheistical women who
have been so shown up by Miss Corelli. It was surprising (and
alarming) that she should suddenly say, "I do hope that you'll
come in and have some tea."
"I do hope that you'll come in and have some tea. We should
be so glad. I have dragged you so far out of your way."
They had arrived at Wickham Place. The sun had set, and the
backwater, in deep shadow, was filling with a gentle haze. To
the right of the fantastic skyline of the flats towered black
against the hues of evening; to the left the older houses raised
a square-cut, irregular parapet against the grey. Margaret
fumbled for her latchkey. Of course she had forgotten it. So,
grasping her umbrella by its ferrule, she leant over the area and
tapped at the dining-room window.
"Helen! Let us in!"
"All right," said a voice.
"You've been taking this gentleman's umbrella."
"Taken a what?" said Helen, opening the door. "Oh, what's
that? Do come in! How do you do?"
"Helen, you must not be so ramshackly. You took this
gentleman's umbrella away from Queen's Hall, and he has had the
trouble of coming for it."
"Oh, I am so sorry!" cried Helen, all her hair flying. She
had pulled off her hat as soon as she returned, and had flung
herself into the big dining-room chair. "I do nothing but steal
umbrellas. I am so very sorry! Do come in and choose one. Is
yours a hooky or a nobbly? Mine's a nobbly--at least, I
think it is."
The light was turned on, and they began to search the hall,
Helen, who had abruptly parted with the Fifth Symphony,
commenting with shrill little cries.
"Don't you talk, Meg! You stole an old gentleman's silk
top-hat. Yes, she did, Aunt Juley. It is a positive fact. She
thought it was a muff. Oh, heavens! I've knocked the In and Out
card down. Where's Frieda? Tibby, why don't you ever--No, I
can't remember what I was going to say. That wasn't it, but do
tell the maids to hurry tea up. What about this umbrella?" She
opened it. "No, it's all gone along the seams. It's an
appalling umbrella. It must be mine."
But it was not.
He took it from her, murmured a few words of thanks, and then
fled, with the lilting step of the clerk.
"But if you will stop--" cried Margaret. "Now, Helen, how
stupid you've been!"
"Whatever have I done?"
"Don't you see that you've frightened him away? I meant him
to stop to tea. You oughtn't to talk about stealing or holes in
an umbrella. I saw his nice eyes getting so miserable. No, it's
not a bit of good now." For Helen had darted out into the street,
shouting, "Oh, do stop!"
"I dare say it is all for the best," opined Mrs. Munt. "We
know nothing about the young man, Margaret, and your drawing-room
is full of very tempting little things."
But Helen cried: "Aunt Juley, how can you! You make me more
and more ashamed. I'd rather he had been a thief and
taken all the apostle spoons than that I--Well, I must shut the
front-door, I suppose. One more failure for Helen."
"Yes, I think the apostle spoons could have gone as rent,"
said Margaret. Seeing that her aunt did not understand, she
added: "You remember 'rent.' It was one of father's words--Rent
to the ideal, to his own faith in human nature. You remember how
he would trust strangers, and if they fooled him he would say,
'It's better to be fooled than to be suspicious'--that the
confidence trick is the work of man, but the
want-of-confidence-trick is the work of the devil."
"I remember something of the sort now," said Mrs. Munt,
rather tartly, for she longed to add, "It was lucky that your
father married a wife with money." But this was unkind, and she
contented herself with, "Why, he might have stolen the little
Ricketts picture as well."
"Better that he had," said Helen stoutly.
"No, I agree with Aunt Juley," said Margaret. "I'd rather
mistrust people than lose my little Ricketts. There are
limits."
Their brother, finding the incident commonplace, had stolen
upstairs to see whether there were scones for tea. He warmed the
teapot--almost too deftly--rejected the Orange Pekoe that the
parlour-maid had provided, poured in five spoonfuls of a superior
blend, filled up with really boiling water, and now called to the
ladies to be quick or they would lose the aroma.
"All right, Auntie Tibby," called Helen, while Margaret,
thoughtful again, said: "In a way, I wish we had a real boy in
the house--the kind of boy who cares for men. It would make
entertaining so much easier."
"So do I," said her sister. "Tibby only cares for cultured
females singing Brahms." And when they joined him she said rather
sharply: "Why didn't you make that young man welcome, Tibby? You
must do the host a little, you know. You ought to have taken his
hat and coaxed him into stopping, instead of letting him be
swamped by screaming women."
Tibby sighed, and drew a long strand of hair over his
forehead.
"Oh, it's no good looking superior. I mean what I say."
"Leave Tibby alone!" said Margaret, who could not bear her
brother to be scolded.
"Here's the house a regular hen-coop!" grumbled Helen.
"Oh, my dear!" protested Mrs. Munt. "How can you say such
dreadful things! The number of men you get here has always
astonished me. If there is any danger it's the other way
round."
"Yes, but it's the wrong sort of men, Helen means."
"No, I don't," corrected Helen. "We get the right sort of
man, but the wrong side of him, and I say that's Tibby's fault.
There ought to be a something about the house--an--I don't know
what."
"A touch of the W.'s, perhaps?"
Helen put out her tongue.
"Who are the W.'s?" asked Tibby.
"The W.'s are things I and Meg and Aunt Juley know about and
you don't, so there!"
"I suppose that ours is a female house," said Margaret, "and
one must just accept it. No, Aunt Juley, I don't mean that this
house is full of women. I am trying to say something much more
clever. I mean that it was irrevocably feminine, even in
father's time. Now I'm sure you understand! Well, I'll give you
another example. It'll shock you, but I don't care. Suppose
Queen Victoria gave a dinner-party, and that the guests had been
Leighton, Millais, Swinburne, Rossetti, Meredith, Fitzgerald,
etc. Do you suppose that the atmosphere of that dinner would
have been artistic? Heavens no! The very chairs on which they
sat would have seen to that. So with our house--it must be
feminine, and all we can do is to see that it isn't effeminate.
Just as another house that I can mention, but I won't, sounded
irrevocably masculine, and all its inmates can do is to see that
it isn't brutal."
"That house being the W.'s house, I presume," said Tibby.
"You're not going to be told about the W.'s, my child," Helen
cried, "so don't you think it. And on the other hand, I don't
the least mind if you find out, so don't you think you've done
anything clever, in either case. Give me a cigarette."
"You do what you can for the house," said Margaret. "The
drawing-room reeks of smoke."
"If you smoked too, the house might suddenly turn masculine.
Atmosphere is probably a question of touch and go. Even at Queen
Victoria's dinner-party--if something had been just a little
different--perhaps if she'd worn a clinging Liberty tea-gown
instead of a magenta satin--"
"With an Indian shawl over her shoulders--"
"Fastened at the bosom with a Cairngorm-pin--"
Bursts of disloyal laughter--you must remember that they are
half German--greeted these suggestions, and Margaret said
pensively, "How inconceivable it would be if the Royal Family
cared about Art." And the conversation drifted away and away,
and Helen's cigarette turned to a spot in the darkness, and the
great flats opposite were sown with lighted windows, which
vanished and were relit again, and vanished incessantly. Beyond
them the thoroughfare roared gently--a tide that could never be
quiet, while in the east, invisible behind the smokes of Wapping,
the moon was rising.
"That reminds me, Margaret. We might have taken that young
man into the dining-room, at all events. Only the majolica
plate--and that is so firmly set in the wall. I am really
distressed that he had no tea."
For that little incident had impressed the three women more
than might be supposed. It remained as a goblin football, as a
hint that all is not for the best in the best of all possible
worlds, and that beneath these superstructures of wealth and art
there wanders an ill-fed boy, who has recovered his umbrella
indeed, but who has left no address behind him, and no name.
We are not concerned with the very poor. They are
unthinkable, and only to be approached by the statistician or the
poet. This story deals with gentlefolk, or with those who are
obliged to pretend that they are gentlefolk.
The boy, Leonard Bast, stood at the extreme verge of
gentility. He was not in the abyss, but he could see it, and at
times people whom he knew had dropped in, and counted no more.
He knew that he was poor, and would admit it: he would have died
sooner than confess any inferiority to the rich. This may be
splendid of him. But he was inferior to most rich people, there
is not the least doubt of it. He was not as courteous as the
average rich man, nor as intelligent, nor as healthy, nor as
lovable. His mind and his body had been alike underfed, because
he was poor, and because he was modern they were always craving
better food. Had he lived some centuries ago, in the brightly
coloured civilizations of the past, he would have had a definite
status, his rank and his income would have corresponded. But in
his day the angel of Democracy had arisen, enshadowing the
classes with leathern wings, and proclaiming, "All men are
equal--all men, that is to say, who possess umbrellas," and so he
was obliged to assert gentility, lest he slipped into the abyss
where nothing counts, and the statements of Democracy are
inaudible.
As he walked away from Wickham Place, his first care was to
prove that he was as good as the Miss Schlegels. Obscurely
wounded in his pride, he tried to wound them in return. They
were probably not ladies. Would real ladies have asked him to
tea? They were certainly ill-natured and cold. At each step his
feeling of superiority increased. Would a real lady have talked
about stealing an umbrella? Perhaps they were thieves after all,
and if he had gone into the house they could have clapped a
chloroformed handkerchief over his face. He walked on
complacently as far as the Houses of Parliament. There an empty
stomach asserted itself, and told him he was a fool.
"Evening, Mr. Bast."
"Evening, Mr. Dealtry."
"Nice evening."
"Evening."
Mr. Dealtry, a fellow clerk, passed on, and Leonard stood
wondering whether he would take the tram as far as a penny would
take him, or whether he would walk. He decided to walk--it is no
good giving in, and he had spent money enough at Queen's
Hall--and he walked over Westminster Bridge, in front of St.
Thomas's Hospital, and through the immense tunnel that passes
under the South-Western main line at Vauxhall. In the tunnel he
paused and listened to the roar of the trains. A sharp pain
darted through his head, and he was conscious of the exact form
of his eye sockets. He pushed on for another mile, and did not
slacken speed until he stood at the entrance of a road called
Camelia Road, which was at present his home.
Here he stopped again, and glanced suspiciously to right and
left, like a rabbit that is going to bolt into its hole. A block
of flats, constructed with extreme cheapness, towered on either
hand. Farther down the road two more blocks were being built,
and beyond these an old house was being demolished to accommodate
another pair. It was the kind of scene that may be observed all
over London, whatever the locality--bricks and mortar rising and
falling with the restlessness of the water in a fountain, as the
city receives more and more men upon her soil. Camelia Road
would soon stand out like a fortress, and command, for a little,
an extensive view. Only for a little. Plans were out for the
erection of flats in Magnolia Road also. And again a few years,
and all the flats in either road might be pulled down, and new
buildings, of a vastness at present unimaginable, might arise
where they had fallen.
"Evening, Mr. Bast."
"Evening, Mr. Cunningham."
"Very serious thing this decline of the birth-rate in
Manchester."
"I beg your pardon?"
"Very serious thing this decline of the birth-rate in
Manchester," repeated Mr. Cunningham, tapping the Sunday paper,
in which the calamity in question had just been announced to
him.
"Ah, yes," said Leonard, who was not going to let on that he
had not bought a Sunday paper.
"If this kind of thing goes on the population of England will
be stationary in 1960."
"You don't say so."
"I call it a very serious thing, eh?"
"Good-evening, Mr. Cunningham."
"Good-evening, Mr. Bast."
Then Leonard entered Block B of the flats, and turned, not
upstairs, but down, into what is known to house agents as a
semi-basement, and to other men as a cellar. He opened the door,
and cried "Hullo!" with the pseudo-geniality of the Cockney.
There was no reply. "Hullo!" he repeated. The sitting-room was
empty, though the electric light had been left burning. A look
of relief came over his face, and he flung himself into the
armchair.
The sitting-room contained, besides the armchair, two other
chairs, a piano, a three-legged table, and a cosy corner. Of the
walls, one was occupied by the window, the other by a draped
mantelshelf bristling with Cupids. Opposite the window was the
door, and beside the door a bookcase, while over the piano there
extended one of the masterpieces of Maud Goodman. It was an
amorous and not unpleasant little hole when the curtains were
drawn, and the lights turned on, and the gas-stove unlit. But it
struck that shallow makeshift note that is so often heard in the
modem dwelling-place. It had been too easily gained, and could
be relinquished too easily.
As Leonard was kicking off his boots he jarred the
three-legged table, and a photograph frame, honourably poised
upon it, slid sideways, fell off into the fireplace, and
smashed. He swore in a colourless sort of way, and picked the
photograph up. It represented a young lady called Jacky, and had
been taken at the time when young ladies called Jacky were often
photographed with their mouths open. Teeth of dazzling whiteness
extended along either of Jacky's jaws, and positively weighted
her head sideways, so large were they and so numerous. Take my
word for it, that smile was simply stunning, and it is only you
and I who will be fastidious, and complain that true joy begins
in the eyes, and that the eyes of Jacky did not accord with her
smile, but were anxious and hungry.
Leonard tried to pull out the fragments of glass, and cut his
fingers and swore again. A drop of blood fell on the frame,
another followed, spilling over on to the exposed photograph. He
swore more vigorously, and dashed to the kitchen, where he bathed
his hands. The kitchen was the same size as the sitting room;
through it was a bedroom. This completed his home. He was
renting the flat furnished: of all the objects that encumbered it
none were his own except the photograph frame, the Cupids, and
the books.
"Damn, damn, damnation!" he murmured, together with such
other words as he had learnt from older men. Then he raised his
hand to his forehead and said, "Oh, damn it all--" which meant
something different. He pulled himself together. He drank a
little tea, black and silent, that still survived upon an upper
shelf. He swallowed some dusty crumbs of cake. Then he went
back to the sitting-room, settled himself anew, and began to read
a volume of Ruskin.
"Seven miles to the north of Venice--"
How perfectly the famous chapter opens! How supreme its
command of admonition and of poetry! The rich man is speaking to
us from his gondola.
"Seven miles to the north of Venice the banks of sand which
nearer the city rise little above low-water mark attain by
degrees a higher level, and knit themselves at last into fields
of salt morass, raised here and there into shapeless mounds, and
intercepted by narrow creeks of sea."
Leonard was trying to form his style on Ruskin: he understood
him to be the greatest master of English Prose. He read forward
steadily, occasionally making a few notes.
"Let us consider a little each of these characters in
succession, and first (for of the shafts enough has been said
already), what is very peculiar to this church--its
luminousness."
Was there anything to be learnt from this fine sentence?
Could he adapt it to the needs of daily life? Could he introduce
it, with modifications, when he next wrote a letter to his
brother, the lay-reader? For example--
"Let us consider a little each of these characters in
succession, and first (for of the absence of ventilation enough
has been said already), what is very peculiar to this flat--its
obscurity. "
Something told him that the modifications would not do; and
that something, had he known it, was the spirit of English
Prose. "My flat is dark as well as stuffy." Those were the words
for him.
And the voice in the gondola rolled on, piping melodiously of
Effort and Self-Sacrifice, full of high purpose, full of beauty,
full even of sympathy and the love of men, yet somehow eluding
all that was actual and insistent in Leonard's life. For it was
the voice of one who had never been dirty or hungry, and had not
guessed successfully what dirt and hunger are.
Leonard listened to it with reverence. He felt that he was
being done good to, and that if he kept on with Ruskin, and the
Queen's Hall Concerts, and some pictures by Watts, he would one
day push his head out of the grey waters and see the universe.
He believed in sudden conversion, a belief which may be right,
but which is peculiarly attractive to a half-baked mind. It is
the bias of much popular religion: in the domain of business it
dominates the Stock Exchange, and becomes that "bit of luck" by
which all successes and failures are explained. "If only I had a
bit of luck, the whole thing would come straight. . . . He's got
a most magnificent place down at Streatham and a 20 h.-p. Fiat,
but then, mind you, he's had luck. . . . I'm sorry the wife's so
late, but she never has any luck over catching trains." Leonard
was superior to these people; he did believe in effort and in a
steady preparation for the change that he desired. But of a
heritage that may expand gradually, he had no conception: he
hoped to come to Culture suddenly, much as the Revivalist hopes
to come to Jesus. Those Miss Schlegels had come to it; they had
done the trick; their hands were upon the ropes, once and for
all. And meanwhile, his flat was dark, as well as stuffy.
Presently there was a noise on the staircase. He shut up
Margaret's card in the pages of Ruskin, and opened the door. A
woman entered, of whom it is simplest to say that she was not
respectable. Her appearance was awesome. She seemed all strings
and bell-pulls--ribbons, chains, bead necklaces that clinked and
caught--and a boa of azure feathers hung round her neck, with the
ends uneven. Her throat was bare, wound with a double row of
pearls, her arms were bare to the elbows, and might again be
detected at the shoulder, through cheap lace. Her hat, which was
flowery, resembled those punnets, covered with flannel, which we
sowed with mustard and cress in our childhood, and which
germinated here yes, and there no. She wore it on the back of
her head. As for her hair, or rather hairs, they are too
complicated to describe, but one system went down her back, lying
in a thick pad there, while another, created for a lighter
destiny, rippled around her forehead. The face--the face does
not signify. It was the face of the photograph, but older, and
the teeth were not so numerous as the photographer had suggested,
and certainly not so white. Yes, Jacky was past her prime,
whatever that prime may have been. She was descending quicker
than most women into the colourless years, and the look in her
eyes confessed it.
"What ho!" said Leonard, greeting that apparition with much
spirit, and helping it off with its boa.
Jacky, in husky tones, replied, "What ho!"
"Been out?" he asked. The question sounds superfluous, but
it cannot have been really, for the lady answered, "No," adding,
"Oh, I am so tired."
"You tired?"
"Eh?"
"I'm tired," said he, hanging the boa up.
"Oh, Len, I am so tired."
"I've been to that classical concert I told you about," said
Leonard.
"What's that?"
"I came back as soon as it was over."
"Any one been round to our place?" asked Jacky.
"Not that I've seen. I met Mr. Cunningham outside, and we
passed a few remarks."
"What, not Mr. Cunnginham?"
"Yes."
"Oh, you mean Mr. Cunningham."
"Yes. Mr. Cunningham."
"I've been out to tea at a lady friend's."
Her secret being at last given to the world, and the name of
the lady-friend being even adumbrated, Jacky made no further
experiments in the difficult and tiring art of conversation. She
never had been a great talker. Even in her photographic days she
had relied upon her smile and her figure to attract, and now that
she was--
"On the shelf,
On the shelf,
Boys, boys, I'm on the shelf,"
she was not likely to find her tongue. Occasional bursts
of song (of which the above is an example) still issued from her
lips, but the spoken word was rare.
She sat down on Leonard's knee, and began to fondle him. She
was now a massive woman of thirty-three, and her weight hurt him,
but he could not very well say anything. Then she said, "Is that
a book you're reading?" and he said, "That's a book," and drew it
from her unreluctant grasp. Margaret's card fell out of it. It
fell face downwards, and he murmured, "Bookmarker."
"Len--"
"What is it?" he asked, a little wearily, for she only had
one topic of conversation when she sat upon his knee.
"You do love me?"
"Jacky, you know that I do. How can you ask such
questions!"
"But you do love me, Len, don't you?"
"Of course I do."
A pause. The other remark was still due.
"Len--"
"Well? What is it?"
"Len, you will make it all right?"
"I can't have you ask me that again," said the boy, flaring
up into a sudden passion. "I've promised to marry you when I'm
of age, and that's enough. My word's my word. I've promised to
marry you as soon as ever I'm twenty-one, and I can't keep on
being worried. I've worries enough. It isn't likely I'd throw
you over, let alone my word, when I've spent all this money.
Besides, I'm an Englishman, and I never go back on my word.
Jacky, do be reasonable. Of course I'll marry you. Only do stop
badgering me."
"When's your birthday, Len?"
"I've told you again and again, the eleventh of November
next. Now get off my knee a bit; someone must get supper, I
suppose."
Jacky went through to the bedroom, and began to see to her
hat. This meant blowing at it with short sharp puffs. Leonard
tidied up the sitting-room, and began to prepare their evening
meal. He put a penny into the slot of the gas-meter, and soon
the flat was reeking with metallic fumes. Somehow he could not
recover his temper, and all the time he was cooking he continued
to complain bitterly.
"It really is too bad when a fellow isn't trusted. It makes
one feel so wild, when I've pretended to the people here that
you're my wife--all right, you shall be my wife--and I've bought
you the ring to wear, and I've taken this flat furnished, and
it's far more than I can afford, and yet you aren't content, and
I've also not told the truth when I've written home." He lowered
his voice. "He'd stop it." In a tone of horror, that was a
little luxurious, he repeated: "My brother'd stop it. I'm going
against the whole world, Jacky.
"That's what I am, Jacky. I don't take any heed of what
anyone says. I just go straight forward, I do. That's always
been my way. I'm not one of your weak knock-kneed chaps. If a
woman's in trouble, I don't leave her in the lurch. That's not
my street. No, thank you.
"I'll tell you another thing too. I care a good deal about
improving myself by means of Literature and Art, and so getting a
wider outlook. For instance, when you came in I was reading
Ruskin's Stones of Venice. I don't say this to boast,
but just to show you the kind of man I am. I can tell you, I
enjoyed that classical concert this afternoon."
To all his moods Jacky remained equally indifferent. When
supper was ready--and not before--she emerged from the bedroom,
saying: "But you do love me, don't you?"
They began with a soup square, which Leonard had just
dissolved in some hot water. It was followed by the tongue--a
freckled cylinder of meat, with a little jelly at the top, and a
great deal of yellow fat at the bottom--ending with another
square dissolved in water (jelly: pineapple), which Leonard had
prepared earlier in the day. Jacky ate contentedly enough,
occasionally looking at her man with those anxious eyes, to which
nothing else in her appearance corresponded, and which yet seemed
to mirror her soul. And Leonard managed to convince his stomach
that it was having a nourishing meal.
After supper they smoked cigarettes and exchanged a few
statements. She observed that her "likeness" had been broken.
He found occasion to remark, for the second time, that he had
come straight back home after the concert at Queen's Hall.
Presently she sat upon his knee. The inhabitants of Camelia Road
tramped to and fro outside the window, just on a level with their
heads, and the family in the flat on the ground-floor began to
sing, "Hark, my soul, it is the Lord."
"That tune fairly gives me the hump," said Leonard.
Jacky followed this, and said that, for her part, she thought
it a lovely tune.
"No; I'll play you something lovely. Get up, dear, for a
minute."
He went to the piano and jingled out a little Grieg. He
played badly and vulgarly, but the performance was not without
its effect, for Jacky said she thought she'd be going to bed. As
she receded, a new set of interests possessed the boy, and he
began to think of what had been said about music by that odd Miss
Schlegel--the one that twisted her face about so when she spoke.
Then the thoughts grew sad and envious. There was the girl named
Helen, who had pinched his umbrella, and the German girl who had
smiled at him pleasantly, and Herr someone, and Aunt someone, and
the brother--all, all with their hands on the ropes. They had
all passed up that narrow, rich staircase at Wickham Place, to
some ample room, whither he could never follow them, not if he
read for ten hours a day. Oh, it was not good, this continual
aspiration. Some are born cultured; the rest had better go in
for whatever comes easy. To see life steadily and to see it
whole was not for the likes of him.
From the darkness beyond the kitchen a voice called,
"Len?"
"You in bed?" he asked, his forehead twitching.
"M'm."
"All right."
Presently she called him again.
"I must clean my boots ready for the morning," he
answered.
Presently she called him again.
"I rather want to get this chapter done."
"What?"
He closed his ears against her.
"What's that?"
"All right, Jacky, nothing; I'm reading a book."
"What?"
"What?" he answered, catching her degraded deafness.
Presently she called him again.
Ruskin had visited Torcello by this time, and was ordering
his gondoliers to take him to Murano. It occurred to him, as he
glided over the whispering lagoons, that the power of Nature
could not be shortened by the folly, nor her beauty altogether
saddened by the misery, of such as Leonard.
"Oh, Margaret," cried her aunt next morning, "such a most
unfortunate thing has happened. I could not get you alone."
The most unfortunate thing was not very serious. One of the
flats in the ornate block opposite had been taken furnished by
the Wilcox family, "coming up, no doubt, in the hope of getting
into London society." That Mrs. Munt should be the first to
discover the misfortune was not remarkable, for she was so
interested in the flats, that she watched their every mutation
with unwearying care. In theory she despised them--they took
away that old-world look--they cut off the sun--flats house a
flashy type of person. But if the truth had been known, she
found her visits to Wickham Place twice as amusing since Wickham
Mansions had arisen, and would in a couple of days learn more
about them than her nieces in a couple of months, or her nephew
in a couple of years. She would stroll across and make friends
with the porters, and inquire what the rents were, exclaiming for
example: "What! a hundred and twenty for a basement? You'll
never get it!" And they would answer: "One can but try, madam."
The passenger lifts, the provision lifts, the arrangement for
coals (a great temptation for a dishonest porter), were all
familiar matters to her, and perhaps a relief from the
politico-economical-æsthetic atmosphere that reigned at the
Schlegels'.
Margaret received the information calmly, and did not agree
that it would throw a cloud over poor Helen's life.
"Oh, but Helen isn't a girl with no interests," she
explained. "She has plenty of other things and other people to
think about. She made a false start with the Wilcoxes, and
she'll be as willing as we are to have nothing more to do with
them."
"For a clever girl, dear, how very oddly you do talk.
Helen'll have to have something more to do with them,
now that they're all opposite. She may meet that Paul in the
street. She cannot very well not bow."
"Of course she must bow. But look here; let's do the
flowers. I was going to say, the will to be interested in him
has died, and what else matters? I look on that disastrous
episode (over which you were so kind) as the killing of a nerve
in Helen. It's dead, and she'll never be troubled with it
again. The only things that matter are the things that interest
one. Bowing, even calling and leaving cards, even a
dinner-party--we can do all those things to the Wilcoxes, if they
find it agreeable; but the other thing, the one important
thing--never again. Don't you see?"
Mrs. Munt did not see, and indeed Margaret was making a most
questionable statement--that any emotion, any interest once
vividly aroused, can wholly die.
"I also have the honour to inform you that the Wilcoxes are
bored with us. I didn't tell you at the time--it might have made
you angry, and you had enough to worry you--but I wrote a letter
to Mrs. W., and apologized for the trouble that Helen had given
them. She didn't answer it."
"How very rude!"
"I wonder. Or was it sensible?"
"No, Margaret, most rude."
"In either case one can class it as reassuring."
Mrs. Munt sighed. She was going back to Swanage on the
morrow, just as her nieces were wanting her most. Other regrets
crowded upon her: for instance, how magnificently she would have
cut Charles if she had met him face to face. She had already
seen him, giving an order to the porter--and very common he
looked in a tall hat. But unfortunately his back was turned to
her, and though she had cut his back, she could not regard this
as a telling snub.
"But you will be careful, won't you?" she exhorted.
"Oh, certainly. Fiendishly careful."
"And Helen must be careful, too,"
"Careful over what?" cried Helen, at that moment coming into
the room with her cousin.
"Nothing," said Margaret, seized with a momentary
awkwardness.
"Careful over what, Aunt Juley?"
Mrs. Munt assumed a cryptic air. "It is only that a certain
family, whom we know by name but do not mention, as you said
yourself last night after the concert, have taken the flat
opposite from the Mathesons--where the plants are in the
balcony."
Helen began some laughing reply, and then disconcerted them
all by blushing. Mrs. Munt was so disconcerted that she
exclaimed, "What, Helen, you don't mind them coming, do you?" and
deepened the blush to crimson.
"Of course I don't mind," said Helen a little crossly. "It
is that you and Meg are both so absurdly grave about it, when
there's nothing to be grave about at all."
"I'm not grave," protested Margaret, a little cross in her
turn.
"Well, you look grave; doesn't she, Frieda?"
"I don't feel grave, that's all I can say; you're going quite
on the wrong tack."
"No, she does not feel grave," echoed Mrs. Munt. "I can bear
witness to that. She disagrees--"
"Hark!" interrupted Fräulein Mosebach. "I hear Bruno
entering the hall."
For Herr Liesecke was due at Wickham Place to call for the
two younger girls. He was not entering the hall--in fact, he did
not enter it for quite five minutes. But Frieda detected a
delicate situation, and said that she and Helen had much better
wait for Bruno down below, and leave Margaret and Mrs. Munt to
finish arranging the flowers. Helen acquiesced. But, as if to
prove that the situation was not delicate really, she stopped in
the doorway and said:
"Did you say the Mathesons' flat, Aunt Juley? How wonderful
you are! I never knew that the woman who laced too tightly's
name was Matheson."
"Come, Helen," said her cousin.
"Go, Helen," said her aunt; and continued to Margaret almost
in the same breath: "Helen cannot deceive me, She does mind."
"Oh, hush!" breathed Margaret. "Frieda'll hear you, and she
can be so tiresome."
"She minds," persisted Mrs. Munt, moving thoughtfully about
the room, and pulling the dead chrysanthemums out of the vases.
"I knew she'd mind--and I'm sure a girl ought to! Such an
experience! Such awful coarse-grained people! I know more about
them than you do, which you forget, and if Charles had taken you
that motor drive--well, you'd have reached the house a perfect
wreck. Oh, Margaret, you don't know what you are in for.
They're all bottled up against the drawing-room window. There's
Mrs. Wilcox--I've seen her. There's Paul. There's Evie, who is
a minx. There's Charles--I saw him to start with. And who would
an elderly man with a moustache and a copper-coloured face
be?"
"Mr. Wilcox, possibly."
"I knew it. And there's Mr. Wilcox."
"It's a shame to call his face copper colour," complained
Margaret. "He has a remarkably good complexion for a man of his
age."
Mrs. Munt, triumphant elsewhere, could afford to concede Mr.
Wilcox his complexion. She passed on from it to the plan of
campaign that her nieces should pursue in the future. Margaret
tried to stop her.
"Helen did not take the news quite as I expected, but the
Wilcox nerve is dead in her really, so there's no need for
plans."
"It's as well to be prepared."
"No--it's as well not to be prepared."
"Because--'
Her thought drew being from the obscure borderland. She
could not explain in so many words, but she felt that those who
prepare for all the emergencies of life beforehand may equip
themselves at the expense of joy. It is necessary to prepare for
an examination, or a dinner-party, or a possible fall in the
price of stock: those who attempt human relations must adopt
another method, or fail. "Because I'd sooner risk it," was her
lame conclusion.
"But imagine the evenings," exclaimed her aunt, pointing to
the Mansions with the spout of the watering-can. "Turn the
electric light on here or there, and it's almost the same room.
One evening they may forget to draw their blinds down, and you'll
see them; and the next, you yours, and they'll see you.
Impossible to sit out on the balconies. Impossible to water the
plants, or even speak. Imagine going out of the front-door, and
they come out opposite at the same moment. And yet you tell me
that plans are unnecessary, and you'd rather risk it."
"I hope to risk things all my life."
"Oh, Margaret, most dangerous."
"But after all," she continued with a smile, "there's never
any great risk as long as you have money."
"Oh, shame! What a shocking speech!"
"Money pads the edges of things," said Miss Schlegel. "God
help those who have none."
"But this is something quite new!" said Mrs. Munt, who
collected new ideas as a squirrel collects nuts, and was
especially attracted by those that are portable.
"New for me; sensible people have acknowledged it for years.
You and I and the Wilcoxes stand upon money as upon islands. It
is so firm beneath our feet that we forget its very existence.
It's only when we see someone near us tottering that we realize
all that an independent income means. Last night, when we were
talking up here round the fire, I began to think that the very
soul of the world is economic, and that the lowest abyss is not
the absence of love, but the absence of coin."
"I call that rather cynical."
"So do I. But Helen and I, we ought to remember, when we are
tempted to criticize others, that we are standing on these
islands, and that most of the others, are down below the surface
of the sea. The poor cannot always reach those whom they want to
love, and they can hardly ever escape from those whom they love
no longer. We rich can. Imagine the tragedy last June, if Helen
and Paul Wilcox had been poor people, and couldn't invoke
railways and motor-cars to part them."
"That's more like Socialism," said Mrs. Munt
suspiciously.
"Call it what you like. I call it going through life with
one's hand spread open on the table. I'm tired of these rich
people who pretend to be poor, and think it shows a nice mind to
ignore the piles of money that keep their feet above the waves.
I stand each year upon six hundred pounds, and Helen upon the
same, and Tibby will stand upon eight, and as fast as our pounds
crumble away into the sea they are renewed--from the sea, yes,
from the sea. And all our thoughts are the thoughts of
six-hundred-pounders, and all our speeches; and because we don't
want to steal umbrellas ourselves, we forget that below the sea
people do want to steal them, and do steal them sometimes, and
that what's a joke up here is down there reality--"
"There they go--there goes Fräulein Mosebach. Really,
for a German she does dress charmingly. Oh--!"
"What is it?"
"Helen was looking up at the Wilcoxes' flat."
"Why shouldn't she?"
"I beg your pardon, I interrupted you. What was it you were
saying about reality?"
"I had worked round to myself, as usual," answered Margaret
in tones that were suddenly preoccupied.
"Do tell me this, at all events. Are you for the rich or for
the poor?"
"Too difficult. Ask me another. Am I for poverty or for
riches? For riches. Hurrah for riches!"
"For riches!" echoed Mrs. Munt, having, as it were, at last
secured her nut.
"Yes. For riches. Money for ever!"
"So am I, and so, I am afraid, are most of my acquaintances
at Swanage, but I am surprised that you agree with us."
"Thank you so much, Aunt Juley. While I have talked
theories, you have done the flowers."
"Not at all, dear. I wish you would let me help you in more
important things."
"Well, would you be very kind? Would you come round with me
to the registry office? There's a housemaid who won't say yes
but doesn't say no."
On their way thither they too looked up at the Wilcoxes'
flat. Evie was in the balcony, "staring most rudely," according
to Mrs. Munt. Oh yes, it was a nuisance, there was no doubt of
it. Helen was proof against a passing encounter but--Margaret
began to lose confidence. Might it reawake the dying nerve if
the family were living close against her eyes? And Frieda
Mosebach was stopping with them for another fortnight, and Frieda
was sharp, abominably sharp, and quite capable of remarking, "You
love one of the young gentlemen opposite, yes?" The remark would
be untrue, but of the kind which, if stated often enough, may
become true; just as the remark, "England and Germany are bound
to fight," renders war a little more likely each time that it is
made, and is therefore made the more readily by the gutter press
of either nation. Have the private emotions also their gutter
press? Margaret thought so, and feared that good Aunt Juley and
Frieda were typical specimens of it. They might, by continual
chatter, lead Helen into a repetition of the desires of June.
Into a repetition--they could not do more; they could not lead
her into lasting love. They were--she saw it
clearly--Journalism; her father, with all his defects and
wrong-headedness, had been Literature, and had he lived, he would
have persuaded his daughter rightly.
The registry office was holding its morning reception. A
string of carriages filled the street. Miss Schlegel waited her
turn, and finally had to be content with an insidious
"temporary," being rejected by genuine housemaids on the ground
of her numerous stairs. Her failure depressed her, and though
she forgot the failure, the depression remained. On her way home
she again glanced up at the Wilcoxes' flat, and took the rather
matronly step of speaking about the matter to Helen.
"Helen, you must tell me whether this thing worries you."
"If what?" said Helen, who was washing her hands for
lunch.
"The W.'s coming."
"No, of course not."
"Really?"
"Really." Then she admitted that she was a little worried on
Mrs. Wilcox's account; she implied that Mrs. Wilcox might reach
backward into deep feelings, and be pained by things that never
touched the other members of that clan. "I shan't mind if Paul
points at our house and says, 'There lives the girl who tried to
catch me.' But she might."
"If even that worries you, we could arrange something.
There's no reason we should be near people who displease us or
whom we displease, thanks to our money. We might even go away
for a little."
"Well, I am going away. Frieda's just asked me to Stettin,
and I shan't be back till after the New Year. Will that do? Or
must I fly the country altogether? Really, Meg, what has come
over you to make such a fuss?"
"Oh, I'm getting an old maid, I suppose. I thought I minded
nothing, but really I--I should be bored if you fell in love with
the same man twice and"--she cleared her throat--"you did go red,
you know, when Aunt Juley attacked you this morning. I shouldn't
have referred to it otherwise."
But Helen's laugh rang true, as she raised a soapy hand to
heaven and swore that never, nowhere and nohow, would she again
fall in love with any of the Wilcox family, down to its remotest
collaterals.
The friendship between Margaret and Mrs. Wilcox, which was to
develop so--quickly and with such strange results, may perhaps
have had its beginnings at Speyer, in the spring. Perhaps the
elder lady, as she gazed at the vulgar, ruddy cathedral, and
listened to the talk of Helen and her husband, may have detected
in the other and less charming of the sisters a deeper sympathy,
a sounder judgment. She was capable of detecting such things.
Perhaps it was she who had desired the Miss Schlegels to be
invited to Howards End, and Margaret whose presence she had
particularly desired. All this is speculation: Mrs. Wilcox has
left few clear indications behind her. It is certain that she
came to call at Wickham Place a fortnight later, the very day
that Helen was going with her cousin to Stettin.
"Helen!" cried Fräulein Mosebach in awestruck tones (she
was now in her cousin's confidence)--"his mother has forgiven
you!" And then, remembering that in England the new-comer ought
not to call before she is called upon, she changed her tone from
awe to disapproval, and opined that Mrs. Wilcox was "keine
Dame."
"Bother the whole family!" snapped Margaret. "Helen, stop
giggling and pirouetting, and go and finish your packing. Why
can't the woman leave us alone?"
"I don't know what I shall do with Meg," Helen retorted,
collapsing upon the stairs. "She's got Wilcox and Box upon the
brain. Meg, Meg, I don't love the young gentleman; I don't love
the young gentleman, Meg, Meg. Can a body speak plainer?"
"Most certainly her love has died," asserted Fräulein
Mosebach.
"Most certainly it has, Frieda, but that will not prevent me
from being bored with the Wilcoxes if I return the call."
Then Helen simulated tears, and Fräulein Mosebach, who
thought her extremely amusing, did the same. "Oh, boo hoo! boo
hoo hoo! Meg's going to return the call, and I can't. 'Cos
why? 'Cos I'm going to German-eye."
"If you are going to Germany, go and pack; if you aren't, go
and call on the Wilcoxes instead of me."
"But, Meg, Meg, I don't love the young gentleman; I don't
love the young--0 lud, who's that coming down the stairs? I vow
'tis my brother. 0 crimini!"
A male--even such a male as Tibby--was enough to stop the
foolery. The barrier of sex, though decreasing among the
civilized, is still high, and higher on the side of women. Helen
could tell her sister all, and her cousin much about Paul; she
told her brother nothing. It was not prudishness, for she now
spoke of "the Wilcox ideal" with laughter, and even with a
growing brutality. Nor was it precaution, for Tibby seldom
repeated any news that did not concern himself. It was rather
the feeling that she betrayed a secret into the camp of men, and
that, however trivial it was on this side of the barrier, it
would become important on that. So she stopped, or rather began
to fool on other subjects, until her long-suffering relatives
drove her upstairs. Fräulein Mosebach followed her, but
lingered to say heavily over the banisters to Margaret, "It is
all right--she does not love the young man--he has not been
worthy of her."
"Yes, I know; thanks very much."
"I thought I did right to tell you."
"Ever so many thanks."
"What's that?" asked Tibby. No one told him, and he
proceeded into the dining-room, to eat Elvas plums.
That evening Margaret took decisive action. The house was
very quiet, and the fog--we are in November now--pressed against
the windows like an excluded ghost. Frieda and Helen and all
their luggage had gone. Tibby, who was not feeling well, lay
stretched on a sofa by the fire. Margaret sat by him, thinking.
Her mind darted from impulse to impulse, and finally marshalled
them all in review. The practical person, who knows what he
wants at once, and generally knows nothing else, will excuse her
of indecision. But this was the way her mind worked. And when
she did act, no one could accuse her of indecision then. She hit
out as lustily as if she had not considered the matter at all.
The letter that she wrote Mrs. Wilcox glowed with the native hue
of resolution. The pale cast of thought was with her a breath
rather than a tarnish, a breath that leaves the colours all the
more vivid when it has been wiped away.
Dear Mrs. Wilcox,
I have to write something discourteous. It would be better if we did not meet. Both my sister and my aunt have given displeasure to your family, and, in my sister's case, the grounds for displeasure might recur. As far as I know, she no longer occupies her thoughts with your son. But it would not be fair, either to her or to you, if they met, and it is therefore right that our acquaintance which began so pleasantly, should end.
I fear that you will not agree with this; indeed, I know that you will not, since you have been good enough to call on us. It is only an instinct on my part, and no doubt the instinct is wrong. My sister would, undoubtedly, say that it is wrong. I write without her knowledge, and I hope that you will not associate her with my discourtesy.
Believe me,
Yours truly,
M. J. Schlegel
Margaret sent this letter round by post. Next morning she received the following reply by hand:
Dear Miss Schlegel,
You should not have written me such a letter. I called to tell you that Paul has gone abroad.
Ruth Wilcox
Margaret's cheeks burnt. She could not finish her
breakfast. She was on fire with shame. Helen had told her that
the youth was leaving England, but other things had seemed more
important, and she had forgotten. All her absurd anxieties fell
to the ground, and in their place arose the certainty that she
had been rude to Mrs. Wilcox. Rudeness affected Margaret like a
bitter taste in the mouth. It poisoned life. At times it is
necessary, but woe to those who employ it without due need. She
flung on a hat and shawl, just like a poor woman, and plunged
into the fog, which still continued. Her lips were compressed,
the letter remained in her hand, and in this state she crossed
the street, entered the marble vestibule of the flats, eluded the
concierges, and ran up the stairs till she reached the
second-floor.
She sent in her name, and to her surprise was shown straight
into Mrs. Wilcox's bedroom.
"Oh, Mrs. Wilcox, I have made the baddest blunder. I am
more, more ashamed and sorry than I can say."
Mrs. Wilcox bowed gravely. She was offended, and did not
pretend to the contrary. She was sitting up in bed, writing
letters on an invalid table that spanned her knees. A breakfast
tray was on another table beside her. The light of the fire, the
light from the window, and the light of a candle-lamp, which
threw a quivering halo round her hands, combined to create a
strange atmosphere of dissolution.
"I knew he was going to India in November, but I forgot."
"He sailed on the 17th for Nigeria, in Africa."
"I knew--I know. I have been too absurd all through. I am
very much ashamed."
Mrs. Wilcox did not answer.
"I am more sorry than I can say, and I hope that you will
forgive me."
"It doesn't matter, Miss Schlegel. It is good of you to have
come round so promptly."
"It does matter," cried Margaret. "I have been rude to you;
and my sister is not even at home, so there was not even that
excuse.
"Indeed?"
"She has just gone to Germany."
"She gone as well," murmured the other. "Yes, certainly, it
is quite safe--safe, absolutely, now."
"You've been worrying too!" exclaimed Margaret, getting more
and more excited, and taking a chair without invitation. "How
perfectly extraordinary! I can see that you have. You felt as I
do; Helen mustn't meet him again."
"I did think it best."
"Now why?"
"That's a most difficult question," said Mrs. Wilcox,
smiling, and a little losing her expression of annoyance. "I
think you put it best in your letter--it was an instinct, which
may be wrong."
"It wasn't that your son still--"
"Oh no; he often--my Paul is very young, you see."
"Then what was it?"
She repeated: "An instinct which may be wrong."
"In other words, they belong to types that can fall in love,
but couldn't live together. That's dreadfully probable. I'm
afraid that in nine cases out of ten Nature pulls one way and
human nature another."
"These are indeed 'other words,'" said Mrs. Wilcox." I had
nothing so coherent in my head. I was merely alarmed when I knew
that my boy cared for your sister."
"Ah, I have always been wanting to ask you. How did you
know? Helen was so surprised when our aunt drove up, and you
stepped forward and arranged things. Did Paul tell you?"
"There is nothing to be gained by discussing that," said Mrs.
Wilcox after a moment's pause.
"Mrs. Wilcox, were you very angry with us last June? I wrote
you a letter and you didn't answer it."
"I was certainly against taking Mrs. Matheson's flat. I knew
it was opposite your house."
"But it's all right now?"
"I think so."
"You only think? You aren't sure? I do love these little
muddles tidied up?"
"Oh yes, I'm sure," said Mrs. Wilcox, moving with uneasiness
beneath the clothes. "I always sound uncertain over things. It
is my way of speaking."
"That's all right, and I'm sure too."
Here the maid came in to remove the breakfast-tray. They
were interrupted, and when they resumed conversation it was on
more normal lines.
"I must say good-bye now--you will be getting up."
"No--please stop a little longer--I am taking a day in bed.
Now and then I do."
"I thought of you as one of the early risers."
"At Howards End--yes; there is nothing to get up for in
London."
"Nothing to get up for?" cried the scandalized Margaret.
"When there are all the autumn exhibitions, and Ysaye playing in
the afternoon! Not to mention people."
"The truth is, I am a little tired. First came the wedding,
and then Paul went off, and, instead of resting yesterday, I paid
a round of calls."
"A wedding?"
"Yes; Charles, my elder son, is married."
"Indeed!"
"We took the flat chiefly on that account, and also that Paul
could get his African outfit. The flat belongs to a cousin of my
husband's, and she most kindly offered it to us. So before the
day came we were able to make the acquaintance of Dolly's people,
which we had not yet done."
Margaret asked who Dolly's people were.
"Fussell. The father is in the Indian army--retired; the
brother is in the army. The mother is dead."
So perhaps these were the "chinless sunburnt men" whom Helen
had espied one afternoon through the window. Margaret felt
mildly interested in the fortunes of the Wilcox family. She had
acquired the habit on Helen's account, and it still clung to
her. She asked for more information about Miss Dolly Fussell
that was, and was given it in even, unemotional tones. Mrs.
Wilcox's voice, though sweet and compelling, had little range of
expression. It suggested that pictures, concerts, and people are
all of small and equal value. Only once had it quickened--when
speaking of Howards End.
"Charles and Albert Fussell have known one another some
time. They belong to the same club, and are both devoted to
golf. Dolly plays golf too, though I believe not so well, and
they first met in a mixed foursome. We all like her, and are
very much pleased. They were married on the 11th, a few days
before Paul sailed. Charles was very anxious to have his brother
as best man, so he made a great point of having it on the 11th.
The Fussells would have preferred it after Christmas, but they
were very nice about it. There is Dolly's photograph--in that
double frame."
"Are you quite certain that I'm not interrupting, Mrs.
Wilcox?"
"Yes, quite."
"Then I will stay. I'm enjoying this."
Dolly's photograph was now examined. It was signed "For dear
Mims," which Mrs. Wilcox interpreted as "the name she and Charles
had settled that she should call me." Dolly looked silly, and had
one of those triangular faces that so often prove attractive to a
robust man. She was very pretty. From her Margaret passed to
Charles, whose features prevailed opposite. She speculated on
the forces that had drawn the two together till God parted them.
She found time to hope that they would be happy.
"They have gone to Naples for their honeymoon."
"Lucky people!"
"I can hardly imagine Charles in Italy."
"Doesn't he care for travelling?"
"He likes travel, but he does see through foreigners so.
What he enjoys most is a motor tour in England, and I think that
would have carried the day if the weather had not been so
abominable. His father gave him a car of his own for a wedding
present, which for the present is being stored at Howards
End."
"I suppose you have a garage there?"
"Yes. My husband built a little one only last month, to the
west of the house, not far from the wych-elm, in what used to be
the paddock for the pony."
The last words had an indescribable ring about them.
"Where's the pony gone?" asked Margaret after a pause.
"The pony? Oh, dead, ever so long ago." "The wych-elm I
remember. Helen spoke of it as a very splendid tree."
"It is the finest wych-elm in Hertfordshire. Did your sister
tell you about the teeth?"
"No."
"Oh, it might interest you. There are pigs' teeth stuck into
the trunk, about four feet from the ground. The country people
put them in long ago, and they think that if they chew a piece of
the bark, it will cure the toothache. The teeth are almost grown
over now, and no one comes to the tree."
"I should. I love folklore and all festering
superstitions."
"Do you think that the tree really did cure toothache, if one
believed in it?"
"Of course it did. It would cure anything--once."
"Certainly I remember cases--you see I lived at Howards End
long, long before Mr. Wilcox knew it. I was born there."
The conversation again shifted. At the time it seemed little
more than aimless chatter. She was interested when her hostess
explained that Howards End was her own property. She was bored
when too minute an account was given of the Fussell family, of
the anxieties of Charles concerning Naples, of the movements of
Mr. Wilcox and Evie, who were motoring in Yorkshire. Margaret
could not bear being bored. She grew inattentive, played with
the photograph frame, dropped it, smashed Dolly's glass,
apologized, was pardoned, cut her finger thereon, was pitied, and
finally said she must be going--there was all the housekeeping to
do, and she had to interview Tibby's riding-master.
Then the curious note was struck again.
"Good-bye, Miss Schlegel, good-bye. Thank you for coming.
You have cheered me up."
"I'm so glad!"
"I--I wonder whether you ever think about yourself.?"
"I think of nothing else," said Margaret, blushing, but
letting her hand remain in that of the invalid.
"I wonder. I wondered at Heidelberg."
"I'm sure!"
"I almost think--"
"Yes?" asked Margaret, for there was a long pause--a pause
that was somehow akin to the flicker of the fire, the quiver of
the reading-lamp upon their hands, the white blur from the
window; a pause of shifting and eternal shadows.
"I almost think you forget you're a girl."
Margaret was startled and a little annoyed. "I'm
twenty-nine," she remarked. "That not so wildly girlish."
Mrs. Wilcox smiled.
"What makes you say that? Do you mean that I have been
gauche and rude?"
A shake of the head. "I only meant that I am fifty-one, and
that to me both of you--Read it all in some book or other; I
cannot put things clearly."
"Oh, I've got it--inexperience. I'm no better than Helen,
you mean, and yet I presume to advise her."
"Yes. You have got it. Inexperience is the word."
"Inexperience," repeated Margaret, in serious yet buoyant
tones. "Of course, I have everything to learn--absolutely
everything--just as much as Helen. Life's very difficult and
full of surprises. At all events, I've got as far as that. To
be humble and kind, to go straight ahead, to love people rather
than pity them, to remember the submerged--well, one can't do all
these things at once, worse luck, because they're so
contradictory. It's then that proportion comes in--to live by
proportion. Don't begin with proportion. Only prigs do
that. Let proportion come in as a last resource, when the better
things have failed, and a deadlock--Gracious me, I've started
preaching!"
"Indeed, you put the difficulties of life splendidly," said
Mrs. Wilcox, withdrawing her hand into the deeper shadows. "It
is just what I should have liked to say about them myself."
Mrs. Wilcox cannot be accused of giving Margaret much
information about life. And Margaret, on the other hand, has
made a fair show of modesty, and has pretended to an inexperience
that she certainly did not feel. She had kept house for over ten
years; she had entertained, almost with distinction; she had
brought up a charming sister, and was bringing up a brother.
Surely, if experience is attainable, she had attained it.
Yet the little luncheon-party that she gave in Mrs. Wilcox's
honour was not a success. The new friend did not blend with the
"one or two delightful people" who had been asked to meet her,
and the atmosphere was one of polite bewilderment. Her tastes
were simple, her knowledge of culture slight, and she was not
interested in the New English Art Club, nor in the dividing-line
between Journalism and Literature, which was started as a
conversational hare. The delightful people darted after it with
cries of joy, Margaret leading them, and not till the meal was
half over did they realize that the principal guest had taken no
part in the chase. There was no common topic. Mrs. Wilcox,
whose life had been spent in the service of husband and sons, had
little to say to strangers who had never shared it, and whose age
was half her own. Clever talk alarmed her, and withered her
delicate imaginings; it was the social; counterpart of a
motorcar, all jerks, and she was a wisp of hay, a flower. Twice
she deplored the weather, twice criticized the train service on
the Great Northern Railway. They vigorously assented, and rushed
on, and when she inquired whether there was any news of Helen,
her hostess was too much occupied in placing Rothenstein to
answer. The question was repeated: "I hope that your sister is
safe in Germany by now." Margaret checked herself and said, "Yes,
thank you; I heard on Tuesday." But the demon of vociferation was
in her, and the next moment she was off again.
"Only on Tuesday, for they live right away at Stettin. Did
you ever know any one living at Stettin?"
"Never," said Mrs. Wilcox gravely, while her neighbour, a
young man low down in the Education Office, began to discuss what
people who lived at Stettin ought to look like. Was there such a
thing as Stettininity? Margaret swept on.
"People at Stettin drop things into boats out of overhanging
warehouses. At least, our cousins do, but aren't particularly
rich. The town isn't interesting, except for a clock that rolls
its eyes, and the view of the Oder, which truly is something
special. Oh, Mrs. Wilcox, you would love the Oder! The river,
or rather rivers--there seem to be dozens of them--are intense
blue, and the plain they run through an intensest green."
"Indeed! That sounds like a most beautiful view, Miss
Schlegel."
"So I say, but Helen, who will muddle things, says no, it's
like music. The course of the Oder is to be like music. It's
obliged to remind her of a symphonic poem. The part by the
landing-stage is in B minor, if I remember rightly, but lower
down things get extremely mixed. There is a slodgy theme in
several keys at once, meaning mud-banks, and another for the
navigable canal, and the exit into the Baltic is in C sharp
major, pianissimo."
"What do the overhanging warehouses make of that?" asked the
man, laughing.
"They make a great deal of it," replied Margaret,
unexpectedly rushing off on a new track. "I think it's
affectation to compare the Oder to music, and so do you, but the
overhanging warehouses of Stettin take beauty seriously, which we
don't, and the average Englishman doesn't, and despises all who
do. Now don't say 'Germans have no taste,' or I shall scream.
They haven't. But--but--such a tremendous but! --they take
poetry seriously. They do take poetry seriously.
"Is anything gained by that?"
"Yes, yes. The German is always on the lookout for beauty.
He may miss it through stupidity, or misinterpret it, but he is
always asking beauty to enter his life, and I believe that in the
end it will come. At Heidelberg I met a fat veterinary surgeon
whose voice broke with sobs as he repeated some mawkish poetry.
So easy for me to laugh--I, who never repeat poetry, good or bad,
and cannot remember one fragment of verse to thrill myself with.
My blood boils--well, I'm half German, so put it down to
patriotism--when I listen to the tasteful contempt of the average
islander for things Teutonic, whether they're Böcklin or my
veterinary surgeon. 'Oh, Böcklin,' they say; 'he strains
after beauty, he peoples Nature with gods too consciously.' Of
course Böcklin strains, because he wants something--beauty
and all the other intangible gifts that are floating about the
world. So his landscapes don't come off, and Leader's do."
"I am not sure that I agree. Do you?" said he, turning to
Mrs. Wilcox.
She replied: "I think Miss Schlegel puts everything
splendidly"; and a chill fell on the conversation.
"Oh, Mrs. Wilcox, say something nicer than that. It's such a
snub to be told you put things splendidly. "
"I do not mean it as a snub. Your last speech interested me
so much. Generally people do not seem quite to like Germany. I
have long wanted to hear what is said on the other side."
"The other side? Then you do disagree. Oh, good! Give us
your side."
"I have no side. But my husband"--her voice softened, the
chill increased--"has very little faith in the Continent, and our
children have all taken after him."
"On what grounds? Do they feel that the Continent is in bad
form?"
Mrs. Wilcox had no idea; she paid little attention to
grounds. She was not intellectual, nor even alert, and it was
odd that, all the same, she should give the idea of greatness.
Margaret, zigzagging with her friends over Thought and Art, was
conscious of a personality that transcended their own and dwarfed
their activities. There was no bitterness in Mrs. Wilcox; there
was not even criticism; she was lovable, and no ungracious or
uncharitable word had passed her lips. Yet she and daily life
were out of focus: one or the other must show blurred. And at
lunch she seemed more out of focus than usual, and nearer the
line that divides life from a life that may be of greater
importance.
"You will admit, though, that the Continent--it seems silly
to speak of 'the Continent,' but really it is all more like
itself than any part of it is like England. England is unique.
Do have another jelly first. I was going to say that the
Continent, for good or for evil, is interested in ideas. Its
Literature and Art have what one might call the kink of the
unseen about them, and this persists even through decadence and
affectation. There is more liberty of action in England, but for
liberty of thought go to bureaucratic Prussia. People will there
discuss with humility vital questions that we here think
ourselves too good to touch with tongs."
"I do not want to go to Prussian" said Mrs. Wilcox--"not even
to see that interesting view that you were describing. And for
discussing with humility I am too old. We never discuss anything
at Howards End."
"Then you ought to!" said Margaret. "Discussion keeps a
house alive. It cannot stand by bricks and mortar alone."
"It cannot stand without them," said Mrs. Wilcox,
unexpectedly catching on to the thought, and rousing, for the
first and last time, a faint hope in the breasts of the
delightful people. "It cannot stand without them, and I
sometimes think--But I cannot expect your generation to agree,
for even my daughter disagrees with me here."
"Never mind us or her. Do say!"
"I sometimes think that it is wiser to leave action and
discussion to men."
There was a little silence.
"One admits that the arguments against the suffrage are
extraordinarily strong," said a girl opposite, leaning forward
and crumbling her bread.
"Are they? I never follow any arguments. I am only too
thankful not to have a vote myself."
"We didn't mean the vote, though, did we?" supplied
Margaret. "Aren't we differing on something much wider, Mrs.
Wilcox? Whether women are to remain what they have been since
the dawn of history; or whether, since men have moved forward so
far, they too may move forward a little now. I say they may. I
would even admit a biological change."
"I don't know, I don't know."
"I must be getting back to my overhanging warehouse," said
the man. "They've turned disgracefully strict.
Mrs. Wilcox also rose.
"Oh, but come upstairs for a little. Miss Quested plays. Do
you like MacDowell? Do you mind him only having two noises? If
you must really go, I'll see you out. Won't you even have
coffee?"
They left the dining-room, closing the door behind them, and
as Mrs. Wilcox buttoned up her jacket, she said: "What an
interesting life you all lead in London!"
"No, we don't," said Margaret, with a sudden revulsion. "We
lead the lives of gibbering monkeys. Mrs. Wilcox--really--We
have something quiet and stable at the bottom. We really have.
All my friends have. Don't pretend you enjoyed lunch, for you
loathed it, but forgive me by coming again, alone, or by asking
me to you."
"I am used to young people," said Mrs. Wilcox, and with each
word she spoke the outlines of known things grew dim. "I hear a
great deal of chatter at home, for we, like you, entertain a
great deal. With us it is more sport and politics, but--I
enjoyed my lunch very much, Miss Schlegel, dear, and am not
pretending, and only wish I could have joined in more. For one
thing, I'm not particularly well just today. For another, you
younger people move so quickly that it dazes me. Charles is the
same, Dolly the same. But we are all in the same boat, old and
young. I never forget that."
They were silent for a moment. Then, with a newborn emotion,
they shook hands. The conversation ceased suddenly when Margaret
re-entered the dining-room: her friends had been talking over her
new friend, and had dismissed her as uninteresting.
Several days passed.
Was Mrs. Wilcox one of the unsatisfactory people--there are
many of them--who dangle intimacy and then withdraw it? They
evoke our interests and affections, and keep the life of the
spirit dawdling round them. Then they withdraw. When physical
passion is involved, there is a definite name for such
behaviour--flirting--and if carried far enough it is punishable
by law. But no law--not public opinion even--punishes those who
coquette with friendship, though the dull ache that they inflict,
the sense of misdirected effort and exhaustion, may be as
intolerable. Was she one of these?
Margaret feared so at first, for, with a Londoner's
impatience, she wanted everything to be settled up immediately.
She mistrusted the periods of quiet that are essential to true
growth. Desiring to book Mrs. Wilcox as a friend, she pressed on
the ceremony, pencil, as it were, in hand, pressing the more
because the rest of the family were away, and the opportunity
seemed favourable. But the elder woman would not be hurried.
She refused to fit in with the Wickham Place set, or to reopen
discussion of Helen and Paul, whom Margaret would have utilized
as a short-cut. She took her time, or perhaps let time take her,
and when the crisis did come all was ready.
The crisis opened with a message: would Miss Schlegel come
shopping? Christmas was nearing, and Mrs. Wilcox felt
behind-hand with the presents. She had taken some more days in
bed, and must make up for lost time. Margaret accepted, and at
eleven o'clock one cheerless morning they started out in a
brougham.
"First of all," began Margaret, "we must make a list and tick
off the people's names. My aunt always does, and this fog may
thicken up any moment. Have you any ideas?"
"I thought we would go to Harrod's or the Haymarket Stores,"
said Mrs. Wilcox rather hopelessly. "Everything is sure to be
there. I am not a good shopper. The din is so confusing, and
your aunt is quite right--one ought to make a list. Take my
notebook, then, and write your own name at the top of the
page."
"Oh, hooray!" said Margaret, writing it. "How very kind of
you to start with me!" But she did not want to receive anything
expensive. Their acquaintance was singular rather than intimate,
and she divined that the Wilcox clan would resent any expenditure
on outsiders; the more compact families do. She did not want to
be thought a second Helen, who would snatch presents since she
could not snatch young men, nor to be exposed, like a second Aunt
Juley, to the insults of Charles. A certain austerity of
demeanour was best, and she added: "I don't really want a
Yuletide gift, though. In fact, I'd rather not."
"Why?"
"Because I've odd ideas about Christmas. Because I have all
that money can buy. I want more people, but no more things."
"I should like to give you something worth your acquaintance,
Miss Schlegel, in memory of your kindness to me during my lonely
fortnight. It has so happened that I have been left alone, and
you have stopped me from brooding. I am too apt to brood."
"If that is so," said Margaret, "if I have happened to be of
use to you, which I didn't know, you cannot pay me back with
anything tangible."
" I suppose not, but one would like to. Perhaps I shall
think of something as we go about."
Her name remained at the head of the list, but nothing was
written opposite it. They drove from shop to shop. The air was
white, and when they alighted it tasted like cold pennies. At
times they passed through a clot of grey. Mrs. Wilcox's vitality
was low that morning, and it was Margaret who decided on a horse
for this little girl, a golliwog for that, for the rector's wife
a copper warming-tray. "We always give the servants money."
"Yes, do you, yes, much easier," replied Margaret, but felt the
grotesque impact of the unseen upon the seen, and saw issuing
from a forgotten manger at Bethlehem this torrent of coins and
toys. Vulgarity reigned. Public-houses, besides their usual
exhortation against temperance reform, invited men to "Join our
Christmas goose club"--one bottle of gin, etc., or two, according
to subscription. A poster of a woman in tights heralded the
Christmas pantomime, and little red devils, who had come in again
that year, were prevalent upon the Christmas-cards. Margaret was
no morbid idealist. She did not wish this spate of business and
self-advertisement checked. It was only the occasion of it that
struck her with amazement annually. How many of these
vacillating shoppers and tired shop-assistants realized that it
was a divine event that drew them together? She realized it,
though standing outside in the matter. She was not a Christian
in the accepted sense; she did not believe that God had ever
worked among us as a young artisan. These people, or most of
them, believed it, and if pressed, would affirm it in words. But
the visible signs of their belief were Regent Street or Drury
Lane, a little mud displaced, a little money spent, a little food
cooked, eaten, and forgotten. Inadequate. But in public who
shall express the unseen adequately? It is private life that
holds out the mirror to infinity; personal intercourse, and that
alone, that ever hints at a personality beyond our daily
vision.
"No, I do like Christmas on the whole," she announced. "In
its clumsy way, it does approach Peace and Goodwill. But oh, it
is clumsier every year."
"Is it? I am only used to country Christmases."
"We are usually in London, and play the game with
vigour--carols at the Abbey, clumsy midday meal, clumsy dinner
for the maids, followed by Christmas-tree and dancing of poor
children, with songs from Helen. The drawing-room does very well
for that. We put the tree in the powder-closet, and draw a
curtain when the candles are lighted, and with the looking-glass
behind it looks quite pretty. I wish we might have a
powder-closet in our next house. Of course, the tree has to be
very small, and the presents don't hang on it. No; the presents
reside in a sort of rocky landscape made of crumpled brown
paper."
"You spoke of your 'next house,' Miss Schlegel. Then are you
leaving Wickham Place?"
"Yes, in two or three years, when the lease expires. We
must."
"Have you been there long?"
"All our lives."
"You will be very sorry to leave it."
"I suppose so. We scarcely realize it yet. My father--" She
broke off, for they had reached the stationery department of the
Haymarket Stores, and Mrs. Wilcox wanted to order some private
greeting cards.
"If possible, something distinctive," she sighed. At the
counter she found a friend, bent on the same errand, and
conversed with her insipidly, wasting much time. "My husband and
our daughter are motoring."
"Bertha too? Oh, fancy, what a coincidence!" Margaret,
though not practical, could shine in such company as this. While
they talked, she went through a volume of specimen cards, and
submitted one for Mrs. Wilcox's inspection. Mrs. Wilcox was
delighted--so original, words so sweet; she would order a hundred
like that, and could never be sufficiently grateful. Then, just
as the assistant was booking the order, she said: "Do you know,
I'll wait. On second thoughts, I'll wait. There's plenty of
time still, isn't there, and I shall be able to get Evie's
opinion."
They returned to the carriage by devious paths; when they
were in, she said, "But couldn't you get it renewed?"
"I beg your pardon?" asked Margaret.
"The lease, I mean."
"Oh, the lease! Have you been thinking of that all the
time? How very kind of you!"
"Surely something could be done."
"No; values have risen too enormously. They mean to pull
down Wickham Place, and build flats like yours."
"But how horrible!"
"Landlords are horrible."
Then she said vehemently: "It is monstrous, Miss Schlegel; it
isn't right. I had no idea that this was hanging over you. I do
pity you from the bottom of my heart. To be parted from your
house, your father's house--it oughtn't to be allowed. It is
worse than dying. I would rather die than--Oh, poor girls! Can
what they call civilization be right, if people mayn't die in the
room where they were born? My dear, I am so sorry--"
Margaret did not know what to say. Mrs. Wilcox had been
overtired by the shopping, and was inclined to hysteria.
"Howards End was nearly pulled down once. It would have
killed me."
"Howards End must be a very different house to ours. We are
fond of ours, but there is nothing distinctive about it. As you
saw, it is an ordinary London house. We shall easily find
another."
"So you think."
"Again my lack of experience, I suppose!" said Margaret,
easing away from the subject. "I can't say anything when you
take up that line, Mrs. Wilcox. I wish I could see myself as you
see me--foreshortened into a backfisch. Quite the
ingénue. Very charming--wonderfully well read for my age,
but incapable--"
Mrs. Wilcox would not be deterred. "Come down with me to
Howards End now," she said, more vehemently than ever. "I want
you to see it. You have never seen it. I want to hear what you
say about it, for you do put things so wonderfully."
Margaret glanced at the pitiless air and then at the tired
face of her companion. "Later on I should love it," she
continued, "but it's hardly the weather for such an expedition,
and we ought to start when we're fresh. Isn't the house shut up,
too?"
She received no answer. Mrs. Wilcox appeared to be
annoyed.
"Might I come some other day?"
Mrs. Wilcox bent forward and tapped the glass. "Back to
Wickham Place, please!" was her order to the coachman. Margaret
had been snubbed.
"A thousand thanks, Miss Schlegel, for all your help."
"Not at all."
"It is such a comfort to get the presents off my mind--the
Christmas-cards especially. I do admire your choice."
It was her turn to receive no answer. In her turn Margaret
became annoyed.
"My husband and Evie will be back the day after tomorrow.
That is why I dragged you out shopping today. I stayed in town
chiefly to shop, but got through nothing, and now he writes that
they must cut their tour short, the weather is so bad, and the
police-traps have been so bad--nearly as bad as in Surrey. Ours
is such a careful chauffeur, and my husband feels it particularly
hard that they should be treated like roadhogs."
"Why?"
"Well, naturally he--he isn't a road-hog."
"He was exceeding the speed-limit, I conclude. He must
expect to suffer with the lower animals."
Mrs. Wilcox was silenced. In growing discomfort they drove
homewards. The city seemed Satanic, the narrower streets
oppressing like the galleries of a mine. No harm was done by the
fog to trade, for it lay high, and the lighted windows of the
shops were thronged with customers. It was rather a darkening of
the spirit which fell back upon itself, to find a more grievous
darkness within. Margaret nearly spoke a dozen times, but
something throttled her. She felt petty and awkward, and her
meditations on Christmas grew more cynical. Peace? It may bring
other gifts, but is there a single Londoner to whom Christmas is
peaceful? The craving for excitement and for elaboration has
ruined that blessing. Goodwill? Had she seen any example of it
in the hordes of purchasers? Or in herself. She had failed to
respond to this invitation merely because it was a little queer
and imaginative--she, whose birthright it was to nourish
imagination! Better to have accepted, to have tired themselves a
little by the journey, than coldly to reply, "Might I come some
other day?" Her cynicism left her. There would be no other
day. This shadowy woman would never ask her again.
They parted at the Mansions. Mrs. Wilcox went in after due
civilities, and Margaret watched the tall, lonely figure sweep up
the hall to the lift. As the glass doors closed on it she had
the sense of an imprisonment. The beautiful head disappeared
first, still buried in the muff, the long trailing skirt
followed. A woman of undefinable rarity was going up
heaven-ward, like a specimen in a bottle. And into what a
heaven--a vault as of hell, sooty black, from which soots
descended!
At lunch her brother, seeing her inclined for silence,
insisted on talking. Tibby was not ill-natured, but from
babyhood something drove him to do the unwelcome and the
unexpected. Now he gave her a long account of the day-school
that he sometimes patronized. The account was interesting, and
she had often pressed him for it before, but she could not attend
now, for her mind was focussed on the invisible. She discerned
that Mrs. Wilcox, though a loving wife and mother, had only one
passion in life--her house--and that the moment was solemn when
she invited a friend to share this passion with her. To answer
"another day" was to answer as a fool. "Another day" will do for
brick and mortar, but not for the Holy of Holies into which
Howards End had been transfigured. Her own curiosity was
slight. She had heard more than enough about it in the summer.
The nine windows, the vine, and the wych-elm had no pleasant
connections for her, and she would have preferred to spend the
afternoon at a concert. But imagination triumphed. While her
brother held forth she determined to go, at whatever cost, and to
compel Mrs. Wilcox to go, too. When lunch was over she stepped
over to the flats.
Mrs. Wilcox had just gone away for the night.
Margaret said that it was of no consequence, hurried
downstairs, and took a hansom to King's Cross. She was convinced
that the escapade was important, though it would have puzzled her
to say why. There was a question of imprisonment and escape, and
though she did not know the time of the train, she strained her
eyes for the St. Pancras' clock.
Then the clock of King's Cross swung into sight, a second
moon in that infernal sky, and her cab drew up at the station.
There was a train for Hilton in five minutes. She took a ticket,
asking in her agitation for a single. As she did so, a grave and
happy voice saluted her and thanked her.
"I will come if I still may," said Margaret, laughing
nervously.
"You are coming to sleep, dear, too. It is in the morning
that my house is most beautiful. You are coming to stop. I
cannot show you my meadow properly except at sunrise. These
fogs"--she pointed at the station roof--"never spread far. I
dare say they are sitting in the sun in Hertfordshire, and you
will never repent joining them.
"I shall never repent joining you."
"It is the same."
They began the walk up the long platform. Far at its end
stood the train, breasting the darkness without. They never
reached it. Before imagination could triumph, there were cries
of "Mother! Mother!" and a heavy-browed girl darted out of the
cloak-room and seized Mrs. Wilcox by the arm.
"Evie!" she gasped. "Evie, my pet--"
The girl called, "Father! I say! look who's here."
"Evie, dearest girl, why aren't you in Yorkshire?"
"No--motor smash--changed plans--Father's coming."
"Why, Ruth!" cried Mr. Wilcox, joining them. "What in the
name of all that's wonderful are you doing here, Ruth?"
Mrs. Wilcox had recovered herself.
"Oh, Henry dear! --here's a lovely surprise--but let me
introduce--but I think you know Miss Schlegel."
"Oh, yes," he replied, not greatly interested. "But how's
yourself, Ruth?"
"Fit as a fiddle," she answered gaily.
"So are we and so was our car, which ran A-1 as far as Ripon,
but there a wretched horse and cart which a fool of a
driver--"
"Miss Schlegel, our little outing must be for another
day."
"I was saying that this fool of a driver, as the policeman
himself admits--"
"Another day, Mrs. Wilcox. Of course."
"--But as we've insured against third party risks, it won't
so much matter--"
"--Cart and car being practically at right angles--"
The voices of the happy family rose high. Margaret was left
alone. No one wanted her. Mrs. Wilcox walked out of King's
Cross between her husband and her daughter, listening to both of
them.
The funeral was over. The carriages rolled away through the
soft mud, and only the poor remained. They approached to the
newly-dug shaft and looked their last at the coffin, now almost
hidden beneath the spadefuls of clay. It was their moment. Most
of them were women from the dead woman's district, to whom black
garments had been served out by Mr. Wilcox's orders. Pure
curiosity had brought others. They thrilled with the excitement
of a death, and of a rapid death, and stood in groups or moved
between the graves, like drops of ink. The son of one of them, a
wood-cutter, was perched high above their heads, pollarding one
of the churchyard elms. From where he sat he could see the
village of Hilton, strung upon the North Road, with its accreting
suburbs; the sunset beyond, scarlet and orange, winking at him
beneath brows of grey; the church; the plantations; and behind
him an unspoilt country of fields and farms. But he, too, was
rolling the event luxuriously in his mouth. He tried to tell his
mother down below all that he had felt when he saw the coffin
approaching: how he could not leave his work, and yet did not
like to go on with it; how he had almost slipped out of the tree,
he was so upset; the rooks had cawed, and no wonder--it was as if
rooks knew too. His mother claimed the prophetic power
herself--she had seen a strange look about Mrs. Wilcox for some
time. London had done the mischief, said others. She had been a
kind lady; her grandmother had been kind, too--a plainer person,
but very kind. Ah, the old sort was dying out! Mr. Wilcox, he
was a kind gentleman. They advanced to the topic again and
again, dully, but with exaltation. The funeral of a rich person
was to them what the funeral of Alcestis or Ophelia is to the
educated. It was Art; though remote from life, it enhanced
life's values, and they witnessed it avidly.
The grave-diggers, who had kept up an undercurrent of
disapproval--they disliked Charles; it was not a moment to speak
of such things, but they did not like Charles Wilcox--the
grave-diggers finished their work and piled up the wreaths and
crosses above it. The sun set over Hilton: the grey brows of the
evening flushed a little, and were cleft with one scarlet frown.
Chattering sadly to each other, the mourners passed through the
lych-gate and traversed the chestnut avenues that led down to the
village. The young wood-cutter stayed a little longer, poised
above the silence and swaying rhythmically. At last the bough
fell beneath his saw. With a grunt, he descended, his thoughts
dwelling no longer on death, but on love, for he was mating. He
stopped as he passed the new grave; a sheaf of tawny
chrysanthemums had caught his eye. "They didn't ought to have
coloured flowers at buryings," he reflected. Trudging on a few
steps, he stopped again, looked furtively at the dusk, turned
back, wrenched a chrysanthemum from the sheaf, and hid it in his
pocket.
After him came silence absolute. The cottage that abutted on
the churchyard was empty, and no other house stood near. Hour
after hour the scene of the interment remained without an eye to
witness it. Clouds drifted over it from the west; or the church
may have been a ship, high-prowed, steering with all its company
towards infinity. Towards morning the air grew colder, the sky
clearer, the surface of the earth hard and sparkling above the
prostrate dead. The wood-cutter, returning after a night of joy,
reflected: "They lilies, they chrysants; it's a pity I didn't
take them all."
Up at Howards End they were attempting breakfast. Charles
and Evie sat in the dining-room, with Mrs. Charles. Their
father, who could not bear to see a face, breakfasted upstairs.
He suffered acutely. Pain came over him in spasms, as if it was
physical, and even while he was about to eat, his eyes would fill
with tears, and he would lay down the morsel untasted.
He remembered his wife's even goodness during thirty years.
Not anything in detail--not courtship or early raptures--but just
the unvarying virtue, that seemed to him a woman's noblest
quality. So many women are capricious, breaking into odd flaws
of passion or frivolity. Not so his wife. Year after year,
summer and winter, as bride and mother, she had been the same, he
had always trusted her. Her tenderness! Her innocence! The
wonderful innocence that was hers by the gift of God. Ruth knew
no more of worldly wickedness and wisdom than did the flowers in
her garden, or the grass in her field. Her idea of
business--"Henry, why do people who have enough money try to get
more money?" Her idea of politics--"I am sure that if the
mothers of various nations could meet, there would be no more
wars." Her idea of religion--ah, this had been a cloud, but a
cloud that passed. She came of Quaker stock, and he and his
family, formerly Dissenters, were now members of the Church of
England. The rector's sermons had at first repelled her, and she
had expressed a desire for "a more inward light," adding, "not so
much for myself as for baby" (Charles). Inward light must have
been granted, for he heard no complaints in later years. They
brought up their three children without dispute. They had never
disputed.
She lay under the earth now. She had gone, and as if to make
her going the more bitter, had gone with a touch of mystery that
was all unlike her. "Why didn't you tell me you knew of it?" he
had moaned, and her faint voice had answered: "I didn't want to,
Henry--I might have been wrong--and every one hates illnesses."
He had been told of the horror by a strange doctor, whom she had
consulted during his absence from town. Was this altogether
just? Without fully explaining, she had died. It was a fault on
her part, and--tears rushed into his eyes--what a little fault!
It was the only time she had deceived him in those thirty
years.
He rose to his feet and looked out of the window, for Evie
had come in with the letters, and he could meet no one's eye. Ah
yes--she had been a good woman--she had been steady. He chose
the word deliberately. To him steadiness included all
praise.
He himself, gazing at the wintry garden, is in appearance a
steady man. His face was not as square as his son's, and,
indeed, the chin, though firm enough in outline, retreated a
little, and the lips, ambiguous, were curtained by a moustache.
But there was no external hint of weakness. The eyes, if capable
of kindness and goodfellowship, if ruddy for the moment with
tears, were the eyes of one who could not be driven. The
forehead, too, was like Charles's. High and straight, brown and
polished, merging abruptly into temples and skull, it has the
effect of a bastion that protected his head from the world. At
times it had the effect of a blank wall. He had dwelt behind it,
intact and happy, for fifty years.
"The post's come, Father," said Evie awkwardly.
"Thanks. Put it down."
"Has the breakfast been all right?"
"Yes, thanks."
The girl glanced at him and at it with constraint. She did
not know what to do.
"Charles says do you want the Times?"
"No, I'll read it later."
"Ring if you want anything, Father, won't you?"
"I've all I want."
Having sorted the letters from the circulars, she went back
to the dining-room.
"Father's eaten nothing," she announced, sitting down with
wrinkled brows behind the tea-urn--
Charles did not answer, but after a moment he ran quickly
upstairs, opened the door, and said: "Look here, Father, you must
eat, you know"; and having paused for a reply that did not come,
stole down again. "He's going to read his letters first, I
think," he said evasively; "I dare say he will go on with his
breakfast afterwards." Then he took up the Times, and
for some time there was no sound except the clink of cup against
saucer and of knife on plate.
Poor Mrs. Charles sat between her silent companions,
terrified at the course of events, and a little bored. She was a
rubbishy little creature, and she knew it. A telegram had
dragged her from Naples to the death-bed of a woman whom she had
scarcely known. A word from her husband had plunged her into
mourning. She desired to mourn inwardly as well, but she wished
that Mrs. Wilcox, since fated to die, could have died before the
marriage, for then less would have been expected of her.
Crumbling her toast, and too nervous to ask for the butter, she
remained almost motionless, thankful only for this, that her
father-in-law was having his breakfast upstairs.
At last Charles spoke. "They had no business to be
pollarding those elms yesterday," he said to his sister.
"No indeed."
"I must make a note of that," he continued. "I am surprised
that the rector allowed it."
"Perhaps it may not be the rector's affair."
"Whose else could it be?"
"The lord of the manor."
"Impossible."
"Butter, Dolly?"
"Thank you, Evie dear. Charles--"
"Yes, dear?"
"I didn't know one could pollard elms. I thought one only
pollarded willows."
"Oh no, one can pollard elms."
"Then why oughtn't the elms in the churchyard to be
pollarded?"
Charles frowned a little, and turned again to his sister.
"Another point. I must speak to Chalkeley."
"Yes, rather; you must complain to Chalkeley.
"It's no good him saying he is not responsible for those
men. He is responsible."
"Yes, rather."
Brother and sister were not callous. They spoke thus, partly
because they desired to keep Chalkeley up to the mark--a healthy
desire in its way--partly because they avoided the personal note
in life. All Wilcoxes did. It did not seem to them of supreme
importance. Or it may be as Helen supposed: they realized its
importance, but were afraid of it. Panic and emptiness, could one
glance behind. They were not callous, and they left the
breakfast-table with aching hearts. Their mother never had come
in to breakfast. It was in the other rooms, and especially in
the garden, that they felt her loss most. As Charles went out to
the garage, he was reminded at every step of the woman who had
loved him and whom he could never replace. What battles he had
fought against her gentle conservatism! How she had disliked
improvements, yet how loyally she had accepted them when made!
He and his father--what trouble they had had to get this very
garage! With what difficulty had they persuaded her to yield
them to the paddock for it--the paddock that she loved more
dearly than the garden itself! The vine--she had got her way
about the vine. It still encumbered the south wall with its
unproductive branches. And so with Evie, as she stood talking to
the cook. Though she could take up her mother's work inside the
house, just as the man could take it up without, she felt that
something unique had fallen out of her life. Their grief, though
less poignant than their father's, grew from deeper roots, for a
wife may be replaced; a mother never.
Charles would go back to the office. There was little to do
at Howards End. The contents of his mother's will had been long
known to them. There were no legacies, no annuities, none of the
posthumous bustle with which some of the dead prolong their
activities. Trusting her husband, she had left him everything
without reserve. She was quite a poor woman--the house had been
all her dowry, and the house would come to Charles in time. Her
water-colours Mr. Wilcox intended to reserve for Paul, while Evie
would take the jewellery and lace. How easily she slipped out of
life! Charles thought the habit laudable, though he did not
intend to adopt it himself, whereas Margaret would have seen in
it an almost culpable indifference to earthly fame.
Cynicism--not the superficial cynicism that snarls and sneers,
but the cynicism that can go with courtesy and tenderness--that
was the note of Mrs. Wilcox's will. She wanted not to vex
people. That accomplished, the earth might freeze over her for
ever.
No, there was nothing for Charles to wait for. He could not
go on with his honeymoon, so he would go up to London and
work--he felt too miserable hanging about. He and Dolly would
have the furnished flat while his father rested quietly in the
country with Evie. He could also keep an eye on his own little
house, which was being painted and decorated for him in one of
the Surrey suburbs, and in which he hoped to install himself soon
after Christmas. Yes, he would go up after lunch in his new
motor, and the town servants, who had come down for the funeral,
would go up by train.
He found his father's chauffeur in the garage, said,
"Morning" without looking at the man's face, and, bending over
the car, continued: "Hullo! my new car's been driven!"
"Has it, sir?"
"Yes," said Charles, getting rather red; "and whoever's
driven it hasn't cleaned it properly, for there's mud on the
axle. Take it off."
The man went for the cloths without a word. He was a
chauffeur as ugly as sin--not that this did him disservice with
Charles, who thought charm in a man rather rot, and had soon got
rid of the little Italian beast with whom they had started.
"Charles--" His bride was tripping after him over the
hoar-frost, a dainty black column, her little face and elaborate
mourning hat forming the capital thereof.
"One minute, I'm busy. Well, Crane, who's been driving it,
do you suppose?"
"Don't know, I'm sure, sir. No one's driven it since I've
been back, but, of course, there's the fortnight I've been away
with the other car in Yorkshire."
The mud came off easily.
"Charles, your father's down. Something's happened. He
wants you in the house at once. Oh, Charles!"
"Wait, dear, wait a minute. Who had the key to the garage
while you were away, Crane?"
"The gardener, sir."
"Do you mean to tell me that old Penny can drive a
motor?"
"No, sir; no one's had the motor out, sir."
"Then how do you account for the mud on the axle?"
"I can't, of course, say for the time I've been in
Yorkshire. No more mud now, sir."
Charles was vexed. The man was treating him as a fool, and
if his heart had not been so heavy he would have reported him to
his father. But it was not a morning for complaints. Ordering
the motor to be round after lunch, he joined his wife, who had
all the while been pouring out some incoherent story about a
letter and a Miss Schlegel.
"Now, Dolly, I can attend to you. Miss Schlegel? What does
she want?"
When people wrote a letter Charles always asked what they
wanted. Want was to him the only cause of action. And the
question in this case was correct, for his wife replied, "She
wants Howards End."
"Howards End? Now, Crane, just don't forget to put on the
Stepney wheel."
"No, sir."
"Now, mind you don't forget, for I--Come, little woman." When
they were out of the chauffeur's sight he put his arm around her
waist and pressed her against him. All his affection and half
his attention--it was what he granted her throughout their happy
married life.
"But you haven't listened, Charles--"
"What's wrong?"
"I keep on telling you--Howards End. Miss Schlegels got
it."
"Got what?" asked Charles, unclasping her. "What the dickens
are you talking about?"
"Now, Charles, you promised not to say those naughty--"
"Look here, I'm in no mood for foolery. It's no morning for
it either."
"I tell you--I keep on telling you--Miss Schlegel--she's got
it--your mother's left it to her--and you've all got to move
out!"
"Howards End?"
"Howards End!" she screamed, mimicking him, and as
she did so Evie came dashing out of the shrubbery.
"Dolly, go back at once! My father's much annoyed with you.
Charles"--she hit herself wildly--"come in at once to Father.
He's had a letter that's too awful."
Charles began to run, but checked himself, and stepped
heavily across the gravel path. There the house was--the nine
windows, the unprolific vine. He exclaimed, "Schlegels again!"
and as if to complete chaos, Dolly said, "Oh no, the matron of
the nursing home has written instead of her."
"Come in, all three of you!" cried his father, no longer
inert. "Dolly, why have you disobeyed me?"
"Oh, Mr. Wilcox--"
"I told you not to go out to the garage. I've heard you all
shouting in the garden. I won't have it. Come in."
He stood in the porch, transformed, letters in his hand.
"Into the dining-room, every one of you. We can't discuss
private matters in the middle of all the servants. Here,
Charles, here; read these. See what you make."
Charles took two letters, and read them as he followed the
procession. The first was a covering note from the matron. Mrs.
Wilcox had desired her, when the funeral should be over, to
forward the enclosed. The enclosed--it was from his mother
herself. She had written: "To my husband: I should like Miss
Schlegel (Margaret) to have Howards End."
"I suppose we're going to have a talk about this?" he
remarked, ominously calm.
"Certainly. I was coming out to you when Dolly--"
"Well, let's sit down."
"Come, Evie, don't waste time, sit down."
In silence they drew up to the breakfast-table. The events
of yesterday--indeed, of this morning--suddenly receded into a
past so remote that they seemed scarcely to have lived in it.
Heavy breathings were heard. They were calming themselves.
Charles, to steady them further, read the enclosure out loud: "A
note in my mother's handwriting, in an envelope addressed to my
father, sealed. Inside: 'I should like Miss Schlegel (Margaret)
to have Howards End.' No date, no signature. Forwarded through
the matron of that nursing home. Now, the question is--"
Dolly interrupted him. "But I say that note isn't legal.
Houses ought to be done by a lawyer, Charles, surely."
Her husband worked his jaw severely. Little lumps appeared
in front of either ear--a symptom that she had not yet learnt to
respect, and she asked whether she might see the note. Charles
looked at his father for permission, who said abstractedly, "Give
it her." She seized it, and at once exclaimed: "Why, it's only in
pencil! I said so. Pencil never counts."
"We know that it is not legally binding, Dolly," said Mr.
Wilcox, speaking from out of his fortress. "We are aware of
that. Legally, I should be justified in tearing it up and
throwing it into the fire. Of course, my dear, we consider you
as one of the family, but it will be better if you do not
interfere with what you do not understand."
Charles, vexed both with his father and his wife, then
repeated: "The question is--" He had cleared a space of the
breakfast-table from plates and knives, so that he could draw
patterns on the tablecloth. "The question is whether Miss
Schlegel, during the fortnight we were all away, whether she
unduly--" He stopped.
"I don't think that," said his father, whose nature was
nobler than his son's
"Don't think what?"
"That she would have--that it is a case of undue influence.
No, to my mind the question is the--the invalid's condition at
the time she wrote."
"My dear father, consult an expert if you like, but I don't
admit it is my mother's writing."
"Why, you just said it was!" cried Dolly.
"Never mind if I did," he blazed out; "and hold your
tongue."
The poor little wife coloured at this, and, drawing her
handkerchief from her pocket, shed a few tears. No one noticed
her. Evie was scowling like an angry boy. The two men were
gradually assuming the manner of the committee-room. They were
both at their best when serving on committees. They did not make
the mistake of handling human affairs in the bulk, but disposed
of them item by item, sharply. Calligraphy was the item before
them now, and on it they turned their well-trained brains.
Charles, after a little demur, accepted the writing as genuine,
and they passed on to the next point. It is the best--perhaps
the only--way of dodging emotion. They were the average human
article, and had they considered the note as a whole it would
have driven them miserable or mad. Considered item by item, the
emotional content was minimized, and all went forward smoothly.
The clock ticked, the coals blazed higher, and contended with the
white radiance that poured in through the windows. Unnoticed,
the sun occupied his sky, and the shadows of the tree stems,
extraordinarily solid, fell like trenches of purple across the
frosted lawn. It was a glorious winter morning. Evie's fox
terrier, who had passed for white, was only a dirty grey dog now,
so intense was the purity that surrounded him. He was
discredited, but the blackbirds that he was chasing glowed with
Arabian darkness, for all the conventional colouring of life had
been altered. Inside, the clock struck ten with a rich and
confident note. Other clocks confirmed it, and the discussion
moved towards its close.
To follow it is unnecessary. It is rather a moment when the
commentator should step forward. Ought the Wilcoxes to have
offered their home to Margaret? I think not. The appeal was too
flimsy. It was not legal; it had been written in illness, and
under the spell of a sudden friendship; it was contrary to the
dead woman's intentions in the past, contrary to her very nature,
so far as that nature was understood by them. To them Howards
End was a house: they could not know that to her it had been a
spirit, for which she sought a spiritual heir. And--pushing one
step farther in these mists--may they not have decided even
better than they supposed? Is it credible that the possessions
of the spirit can be bequeathed at all? Has the soul offspring?
A wych-elm tree, a vine, a wisp of hay with dew on it--can
passion for such things be transmitted where there is no bond of
blood? No; the Wilcoxes are not to be blamed. The problem is
too terrific, and they could not even perceive a problem. No; it
is natural and fitting that after due debate they should tear the
note up and throw it on to their dining-room fire. The practical
moralist may acquit them absolutely. He who strives to look
deeper may acquit them--almost. For one hard fact remains. They
did neglect a personal appeal. The woman who had died did say to
them, "Do this," and they answered, "We will not."
The incident made a most painful impression on them. Grief
mounted into the brain and worked there disquietingly. Yesterday
they had lamented: "She was a dear mother, a true wife: in our
absence she neglected her health and died." Today they thought:
"She was not as true, as dear, as we supposed." The desire for a
more inward light had found expression at last, the unseen had
impacted on the seen, and all that they could say was
"Treachery." Mrs. Wilcox had been treacherous to the family, to
the laws of property, to her own written word. How did she
expect Howards End to be conveyed to Miss Schlegel? Was her
husband, to whom it legally belonged, to make it over to her as a
free gift? Was the said Miss Schlegel to have a life interest in
it, or to own it absolutely? Was there to be no compensation for
the garage and other improvements that they had made under the
assumption that all would be theirs some day? Treacherous!
treacherous and absurd! When we think the dead both treacherous
and absurd, we have gone far towards reconciling ourselves to
their departure. That note, scribbled in pencil, sent through
the matron, was unbusinesslike as well as cruel, and decreased at
once the value of the woman who had written it.
"Ah, well!" said Mr. Wilcox, rising from the table. "I
shouldn't have thought it possible."
"Mother couldn't have meant it," said Evie, still
frowning.
"No, my girl, of course not."
"Mother believed so in ancestors too--it isn't like her to
leave anything to an outsider, who'd never appreciate. "
"The whole thing is unlike her," he announced. "If Miss
Schlegel had been poor, if she had wanted a house, I could
understand it a little. But she has a house of her own. Why
should she want another? She wouldn't have any use of Howards
End."
"That time may prove," murmured Charles.
"How?" asked his sister.
"Presumably she knows--mother will have told her. She got
twice or three times into the nursing home. Presumably she is
awaiting developments."
"What a horrid woman!" And Dolly, who had recovered, cried,
"Why, she may be coming down to turn us out now!"
Charles put her right. "I wish she would," he said
ominously. "I could then deal with her."
"So could I," echoed his father, who was feeling rather in
the cold. Charles had been kind in undertaking the funeral
arrangements and in telling him to eat his breakfast, but the boy
as he grew up was a little dictatorial, and assumed the post of
chairman too readily. "I could deal with her, if she comes, but
she won't come. You're all a bit hard on Miss Schlegel."
"That Paul business was pretty scandalous, though."
"I want no more of the Paul business, Charles, as I said at
the time, and besides, it is quite apart from this business.
Margaret Schlegel has been officious and tiresome during this
terrible week, and we have all suffered under her, but upon my
soul she's honest. She's not in collusion with the matron. I'm
absolutely certain of it. Nor was she with the doctor. I'm
equally certain of that. She did not hide anything from us, for
up to that very afternoon she was as ignorant as we are. She,
like ourselves, was a dupe--" He stopped for a moment. "You
see, Charles, in her terrible pain your poor mother put us all in
false positions. Paul would not have left England, you would not
have gone to Italy, nor Evie and I into Yorkshire, if only we had
known. Well, Miss Schlegel's position has been equally false.
Take all in all, she has not come out of it badly."
Evie said: "But those chrysanthemums--"
"Or coming down to the funeral at all--" echoed Dolly.
"Why shouldn't she come down? She had the right to, and she
stood far back among the Hilton women. The flowers--certainly we
should not have sent such flowers, but they may have seemed the
right thing to her, Evie, and for all you know they may be the
custom in Germany. "
"Oh, I forget she isn't really English," cried Evie. "That
would explain a lot."
"She's a cosmopolitan," said Charles, looking at his watch.
"I admit I'm rather down on cosmopolitans. My fault, doubtless.
I cannot stand them, and a German cosmopolitan is the limit. I
think that's about all, isn't it? I want to run down and see
Chalkeley. A bicycle will do. And, by the way, I wish you'd
speak to Crane some time. I'm certain he's had my new car
out."
"Has he done it any harm?"
"No."
"In that case I shall let it pass. It's not worth while
having a row."
Charles and his father sometimes disagreed. But they always
parted with an increased regard for one another, and each desired
no doughtier comrade when it was necessary to voyage for a little
past the emotions. So the sailors of Ulysses voyaged past the
Sirens, having first stopped one another's ears with wool.
Charles need not have been anxious. Miss Schlegel had never
heard of his mother's strange request. She was to hear of it in
after years, when she had built up her life differently, and it
was to fit into position as the headstone of the corner. Her
mind was bent on other questions now, and by her also it would
have been rejected as the fantasy of an invalid.
She was parting from these Wilcoxes for the second time.
Paul and his mother, ripple and great wave, had flowed into her
life and ebbed out of it for ever. The ripple had left no traces
behind: the wave had strewn at her feet fragments torn from the
unknown. A curious seeker, she stood for a while at the verge of
the sea that tells so little, but tells a little, and watched the
outgoing of this last tremendous tide. Her friend had vanished
in agony, but not, she believed, in degradation. Her withdrawal
had hinted at other things besides disease and pain. Some leave
our life with tears, others with an insane frigidity; Mrs. Wilcox
had taken the middle course, which only rarer natures can
pursue. She had kept proportion. She had told a little of her
grim secret to her friends, but not too much; she had shut up her
heart--almost, but not entirely. It is thus, if there is any
rule, that we ought to die--neither as victim nor as fanatic, but
as the seafarer who can greet with an equal eye the deep that he
is entering, and the shore that he must leave.
The last word--whatever it would be--had certainly not been
said in Hilton churchyard. She had not died there. A funeral is
not death, any more than baptism is birth or marriage union. All
three are the clumsy devices, coming now too late, now too early,
by which Society would register the quick motions of man. In
Margaret's eyes Mrs. Wilcox had escaped registration. She had
gone out of life vividly, her own way, and no dust was so truly
dust as the contents of that heavy coffin, lowered with
ceremonial until it rested on the dust of the earth, no flowers
so utterly wasted as the chrysanthemums that the frost must have
withered before morning. Margaret had once said she "loved
superstition." It was not true. Few women had tried more
earnestly to pierce the accretions in which body and soul are
enwrapped. The death of Mrs. Wilcox had helped her in her work.
She saw a little more clearly than hitherto what a human being
is, and to what he may aspire. Truer relationships gleamed.
Perhaps the last word would be hope--hope even on this side of
the grave.
Meanwhile, she could take an interest in the survivors. In
spite of her Christmas duties, in spite of her brother, the
Wilcoxes continued to play a considerable part in her thoughts.
She had seen so much of them in the final week. They were not
"her sort," they were often suspicious and stupid, and deficient
where she excelled; but collision with them stimulated her, and
she felt an interest that verged into liking, even for Charles.
She desired to protect them, and often felt that they could
protect her, excelling where she was deficient. Once past the
rocks of emotion, they knew so well what to do, whom to send for;
their hands were on all the ropes, they had grit as well as
grittiness, and she valued grit enormously. They led a life that
she could not attain to--the outer life of "telegrams and anger,"
which had detonated when Helen and Paul had touched in June, and
had detonated again the other week. To Margaret this life was to
remain a real force. She could not despise it, as Helen and
Tibby affected to do. It fostered such virtues as neatness,
decision, and obedience, virtues of the second rank, no doubt,
but they have formed our civilization. They form character, too;
Margaret could not doubt it: they keep the soul from becoming
sloppy. How dare Schlegels despise Wilcoxes, when it takes all
sorts to make a world?
"Don't brood too much," she wrote to Helen, "on the
superiority of the unseen to the seen. It's true, but to brood
on it is mediaeval. Our business is not to contrast the two, but
to reconcile them."
Helen replied that she had no intention of brooding on such a
dull subject. What did her sister take her for? The weather was
magnificent. She and the Mosebachs had gone tobogganing on the
only hill that Pomerania boasted. It was fun, but overcrowded,
for the rest of Pomerania had gone there too. Helen loved the
country, and her letter glowed with physical exercise and
poetry. She spoke of the scenery, quiet, yet august; of the
snow-clad fields, with their scampering herds of deer; of the
river and its quaint entrance into the Baltic Sea; of the
Oderberge, only three hundred feet high, from which one slid all
too quickly back into the Pomeranian plains, and yet these
Oderberge were real mountains, with pine-forests, streams, and
views complete. "It isn't size that counts so much as the way
things are arranged." In another paragraph she referred to Mrs.
Wilcox sympathetically, but the news had not bitten into her.
She had not realized the accessories of death, which are in a
sense more memorable than death itself. The atmosphere of
precautions and recriminations, and in the midst a human body
growing more vivid because it was in pain; the end of that body
in Hilton churchyard; the survival of something that suggested
hope, vivid in its turn against life's workaday
cheerfulness;--all these were lost to Helen, who only felt that a
pleasant lady could now be pleasant no longer. She returned to
Wickham Place full of her own affairs--she had had another
proposal--and Margaret, after a moment's hesitation, was content
that this should be so.
The proposal had not been a serious matter. It was the work
of Fräulein Mosebach, who had conceived the large and
patriotic notion of winning back her cousins to the Fatherland by
matrimony. England had played Paul Wilcox, and lost; Germany
played Herr Förstmeister someone--Helen could not remember
his name.
Herr Förstmeister lived in a wood, and standing on the
summit of the Oderberge, he had pointed out his house to Helen,
or rather, had pointed out the wedge of pines in which it lay.
She had exclaimed, "Oh, how lovely! That's the place for me!"
and in the evening Frieda appeared in her bedroom. "I have a
message, dear Helen," etc., and so she had, but had been very
nice when Helen laughed; quite understood--a forest too solitary
and damp--quite agreed, but Herr Förstmeister believed he
had assurance to the contrary. Germany had lost, but with
good-humour; holding the manhood of the world, she felt bound to
win. "And there will even be someone for Tibby," concluded
Helen. "There now, Tibby, think of that; Frieda is saving up a
little girl for you, in pig-tails and white worsted stockings,
but the feet of the stockings are pink, as if the little girl had
trodden in strawberries. I've talked too much. My head aches.
Now you talk."
Tibby consented to talk. He too was full of his own affairs,
for he had just been up to try for a scholarship at Oxford. The
men were down, and the candidates had been housed in various
colleges, and had dined in hall. Tibby was sensitive to beauty,
the experience was new, and he gave a description of his visit
that was almost glowing. The august and mellow University,
soaked with the richness of the western counties that it has
served for a thousand years, appealed at once to the boy's taste:
it was the kind of thing he could understand, and he understood
it all the better because it was empty. Oxford is--Oxford: not a
mere receptacle for youth, like Cambridge. Perhaps it wants its
inmates to love it rather than to love one another: such at all
events was to be its effect on Tibby. His sisters sent him there
that he might make friends, for they knew that his education had
been cranky, and had severed him from other boys and men. He
made no friends. His Oxford remained Oxford empty, and he took
into life with him, not the memory of a radiance, but the memory
of a colour scheme.
It pleased Margaret to hear her brother and sister talking.
They did not get on overwell as a rule. For a few moments she
listened to them, feeling elderly and benign. Then something
occurred to her, and she interrupted:
"Helen, I told you about poor Mrs. Wilcox; that sad
business?"
"Yes."
"I have had a correspondence with her son. He was winding up
the estate, and wrote to ask me whether his mother had wanted me
to have anything. I thought it good of him, considering I knew
her so little. I said that she had once spoken of giving me a
Christmas present, but we both forgot about it afterwards."
"I hope Charles took the hint."
"Yes--that is to say, her husband wrote later on, and thanked
me for being a little kind to her, and actually gave me her
silver vinaigrette. Don't you think that is extraordinarily
generous? It has made me like him very much. He hopes that this
will not be the end of our acquaintance, but that you and I will
go and stop with Evie some time in the future. I like Mr.
Wilcox. He is taking up his work--rubber--it is a big business.
I gather he is launching out rather. Charles is in it, too.
Charles is married--a pretty little creature, but she doesn't
seem wise. They took on the flat, but now they have gone off to
a house of their own."
Helen, after a decent pause, continued her account of
Stettin. How quickly a situation changes! In June she had been
in a crisis; even in November she could blush and be unnatural;
now it was January, and the whole affair lay forgotten. Looking
back on the past six months, Margaret realized the chaotic nature
of our daily life, and its difference from the orderly sequence
that has been fabricated by historians. Actual life is full of
false clues and sign-posts that lead nowhere. With infinite
effort we nerve ourselves for a crisis that never comes. The
most successful career must show a waste of strength that might
have removed mountains, and the most unsuccessful is not that of
the man who is taken unprepared, but of him who has prepared and
is never taken. On a tragedy of that kind our national morality
is duly silent. It assumes that preparation against danger is in
itself a good, and that men, like nations, are the better for
staggering through life fully armed. The tragedy of preparedness
has scarcely been handled, save by the Greeks. Life is indeed
dangerous, but not in the way morality would have us believe. It
is indeed unmanageable, but the essence of it is not a battle.
It is unmanageable because it is a romance, and its essence is
romantic beauty.
Margaret hoped that for the future she would be less
cautious, not more cautious, than she had been in the past.
Over two years passed, and the Schlegel household continued to
lead its life of cultured but not ignoble ease, still swimming
gracefully on the grey tides of London. Concerts and plays swept
past them, money had been spent and renewed, reputations won and
lost, and the city herself, emblematic of their lives, rose and
fell in a continual flux, while her shallows washed more widely
against the hills of Surrey and over the fields of
Hertfordshire. This famous building had arisen, that was
doomed. Today Whitehall had been transformed: it would be the
turn of Regent Street tomorrow. And month by month the roads
smelt more strongly of petrol, and were more difficult to cross,
and human beings heard each other speak with greater difficulty,
breathed less of the air, and saw less of the sky. Nature
withdrew: the leaves were falling by midsummer; the sun shone
through dirt with an admired obscurity.
To speak against London is no longer fashionable. The Earth
as an artistic cult has had its day, and the literature of the
near future will probably ignore the country and seek inspiration
from the town. One can understand the reaction. Of Pan and the
elemental forces, the public has heard a little too much--they
seem Victorian, while London is Georgian--and those who care for
the earth with sincerity may wait long ere the pendulum swings
back to her again. Certainly London fascinates. One visualizes
it as a tract of quivering grey, intelligent without purpose, and
excitable without love; as a spirit that has altered before it
can be chronicled; as a heart that certainly beats, but with no
pulsation of humanity. It lies beyond everything: Nature, with
all her cruelty, comes nearer to us than do these crowds of men.
A friend explains himself: the earth is explicable--from her we
came, and we must return to her. But who can explain Westminster
Bridge Road or Liverpool Street in the morning--the city
inhaling--or the same thoroughfares in the evening--the city
exhaling her exhausted air? We reach in desperation beyond the
fog, beyond the very stars, the voids of the universe are
ransacked to justify the monster, and stamped with a human face.
London is religion's opportunity--not the decorous religion of
theologians, but anthropomorphic, crude. Yes, the continuous
flow would be tolerable if a man of our own sort--not anyone
pompous or tearful--were caring for us up in the sky.
The Londoner seldom understands his city until it sweeps him,
too, away from his moorings, and Margaret's eyes were not opened
until the lease of Wickham Place expired. She had always known
that it must expire, but the knowledge only became vivid about
nine months before the event. Then the house was suddenly ringed
with pathos. It had seen so much happiness. Why had it to be
swept away? In the streets of the city she noted for the first
time the architecture of hurry, and heard the language of hurry
on the mouths of its inhabitants--clipped words, formless
sentences, potted expressions of approval or disgust. Month by
month things were stepping livelier, but to what goal? The
population still rose, but what was the quality of the men born?
The particular millionaire who owned the freehold of Wickham
Place, and desired to erect Babylonian flats upon it--what right
had he to stir so large a portion of the quivering jelly? He was
not a fool--she had heard him expose Socialism--but true insight
began just where his intelligence ended, and one gathered that
this was the case with most millionaires. What right had such
men--But Margaret checked herself. That way lies madness. Thank
goodness she, too, had some money, and could purchase a new
home.
Tibby, now in his second year at Oxford, was down for the
Easter vacation, and Margaret took the opportunity of having a
serious talk with him. Did he at all know where he wanted to
live? Tibby didn't know that he did know. Did he at all know
what he wanted to do? He was equally uncertain, but when pressed
remarked that he should prefer to be quite free of any
profession. Margaret was not shocked, but went on sewing for a
few minutes before she replied:
"I was thinking of Mr. Vyse. He never strikes me as
particularly happy."
"Ye-es," said Tibby, and then held his mouth open in a
curious quiver, as if he, too, had thoughts of Mr. Vyse, had seen
round, through, over, and beyond Mr. Vyse, had weighed Mr. Vyse,
grouped him, and finally dismissed him as having no possible
bearing on the subject under discussion. That bleat of Tibby's
infuriated Helen. But Helen was now down in the dining-room
preparing a speech about political economy. At times her voice
could be heard declaiming through the floor.
"But Mr. Vyse is rather a wretched, weedy man, don't you
think? Then there's Guy. That was a pitiful business.
Besides"--shifting to the general--" every one is the better for
some regular work."
Groans.
"I shall stick to it," she continued, smiling. "I am not
saying it to educate you; it is what I really think. I believe
that in the last century men have developed the desire for work,
and they must not starve it. It's a new desire. It goes with a
great deal that's bad, but in itself it's good, and I hope that
for women, too, 'not to work' will soon become as shocking as
'not to be married' was a hundred years ago."
"I have no experience of this profound desire to which you
allude," enunciated Tibby.
"Then we'll leave the subject till you do. I'm not going to
rattle you round. Take your time. Only do think over the lives
of the men you like most, and see how they've arranged them."
"I like Guy and Mr. Vyse most," said Tibby faintly, and leant
so far back in his chair that he extended in a horizontal line
from knees to throat.
"And don't think I'm not serious because I don't use the
traditional arguments--making money, a sphere awaiting you, and
so on--all of which are, for various reasons, cant." She sewed
on. "I'm only your sister. I haven't any authority over you,
and I don't want to have any. Just to put before you what I
think the truth. You see"--she shook off the pince-nez to which
she had recently taken--"in a few years we shall be the same age
practically, and I shall want you to help me. Men are so much
nicer than women."
"Labouring under such a delusion, why do you not marry?"
"I sometimes jolly well think I would if I got the
chance."
"Has nobody arst you?"
"Only ninnies."
"Do people ask Helen?"
"Plentifully."
"Tell me about them."
"No."
"Tell me about your ninnies, then."
"They were men who had nothing better to do," said his
sister, feeling that she was entitled to score this point. "So
take warning: you must work, or else you must pretend to work,
which is what I do. Work, work, work if you'd save your soul and
your body. It is honestly a necessity, dear boy. Look at the
Wilcoxes, look at Mr. Pembroke. With all their defects of temper
and understanding, such men give me more pleasure than many who
are better equipped and I think it is because they have worked
regularly and honestly.
"Spare me the Wilcoxes," he moaned.
"I shall not. They are the right sort."
"Oh, goodness me, Meg!" he protested, suddenly sitting up,
alert and angry. Tibby, for all his defects, had a genuine
personality.
"Well, they're as near the right sort as you can
imagine."
"No, no--oh, no!"
"I was thinking of the younger son, whom I once classed as a
ninny, but who came back so ill from Nigeria. He's gone out
there again, Evie Wilcox tells me--out to his duty."
"Duty" always elicited a groan.
"He doesn't want the money, it is work he wants, though it is
beastly work--dull country, dishonest natives, an eternal fidget
over fresh water and food. A nation who can produce men of that
sort may well be proud. No wonder England has become an
Empire."
"Empire!"
"I can't bother over results," said Margaret, a little
sadly. "They are too difficult for me. I can only look at the
men. An Empire bores me, so far, but I can appreciate the
heroism that builds it up. London bores me, but what thousands
of splendid people are labouring to make London--"
"What it is," he sneered.
"What it is, worse luck. I want activity without
civilization. How paradoxical! Yet I expect that is what we
shall find in heaven."
"And I," said Tibby, "want civilization without activity,
which, I expect, is what we shall find in the other place."
"You needn't go as far as the other place, Tibbi-kins, if you
want that. You can find it at Oxford."
"Stupid--"
"If I'm stupid, get me back to the house-hunting. I'll even
live in Oxford if you like--North Oxford. I'll live anywhere
except Bournemouth, Torquay, and Cheltenham. Oh yes, or
Ilfracombe and Swanage and Tunbridge Wells and Surbiton and
Bedford. There on no account."
"London, then."
"I agree, but Helen rather wants to get away from London.
However, there's no reason we shouldn't have a house in the
country and also a flat in town, provided we all stick together
and contribute. Though of course--Oh, how one does maunder on,
and to think, to think of the people who are really poor. How do
they live? Not to move about the world would kill me."
As she spoke, the door was flung open, and Helen burst in in
a state of extreme excitement.
"Oh, my dears, what do you think? You'll never guess. A
woman's been here asking me for her husband. Her
what?" (Helen was fond of supplying her own surprise.)
"Yes, for her husband, and it really is so."
"Not anything to do with Bracknell?" cried Margaret, who had
lately taken on an unemployed of that name to clean the knives
and boots.
"I offered Bracknell, and he was rejected. So was Tibby.
(Cheer up, Tibby!) It's no one we know. I said, 'Hunt, my good
woman; have a good look round, hunt under the tables, poke up the
chimney, shake out the antimacassars. Husband? husband?' Oh,
and she so magnificently dressed and tinkling like a
chandelier."
"Now, Helen, what did happen really?"
"What I say. I was, as it were, orating my speech. Annie
opens the door like a fool, and shows a female straight in on me,
with my mouth open. Then we began--very civilly. 'I want my
husband, what I have reason to believe is here.' No--how unjust
one is. She said 'whom,' not 'what.' She got it perfectly. So I
said, 'Name, please?' and she said, 'Lan, Miss,' and there we
were.
"Lan?"
"Lan or Len. We were not nice about our vowels.
Lanoline."
"But what an extraordinary--"
"I said, 'My good Mrs. Lanoline, we have some grave
misunderstanding here. Beautiful as I am, my modesty is even
more remarkable than my beauty, and never, never has Mr. Lanoline
rested his eyes on mine.'"
"I hope you were pleased," said Tibby.
"Of course," Helen squeaked. "A perfectly delightful
experience. Oh, Mrs. Lanoline's a dear--she asked for a husband
as if he was an umbrella. She mislaid him Saturday
afternoon--and for a long time suffered no inconvenience. But
all night, and all this morning her apprehensions grew.
Breakfast didn't seem the same--no, no more did lunch, and so she
strolled up to 2, Wickham Place as being the most likely place
for the missing article."
"But how on earth--"
"Don't begin how on earthing. 'I know what I know,' she kept
repeating, not uncivilly, but with extreme gloom. In vain I
asked her what she did know. Some knew what others knew, and
others didn't, and if they didn't, then others again had better
be careful. Oh dear, she was incompetent! She had a face like a
silkworm, and the dining-room reeks of orris-root. We chatted
pleasantly a little about husbands, and I wondered where hers was
too, and advised her to go to the police. She thanked me. We
agreed that Mr. Lanoline's a notty, notty man, and hasn't no
business to go on the lardy-da. But I think she suspected me up
to the last. Bags I writing to Aunt Juley about this. Now, Meg,
remember--bags I."
"Bag it by all means," murmured Margaret, putting down her
work. "I'm not sure that this is so funny, Helen. It means some
horrible volcano smoking somewhere, doesn't it?"
"I don't think so--she doesn't really mind. The admirable
creature isn't capable of tragedy."
"Her husband may be, though," said Margaret, moving to the
window.
"Oh, no, not likely. No one capable of tragedy could have
married Mrs. Lanoline."
"Was she pretty?"
"Her figure may have been good once."
The flats, their only outlook, hung like an ornate curtain
between Margaret and the welter of London. Her thoughts turned
sadly to house-hunting. Wickham Place had been so safe. She
feared, fantastically, that her own little flock might be moving
into turmoil and squalor, into nearer contact with such episodes
as these.
"Tibby and I have again been wondering where we'll live next
September," she said at last.
"Tibby had better first wonder what he'll do," retorted
Helen; and that topic was resumed, but with acrimony. Then tea
came, and after tea Helen went on preparing her speech, and
Margaret prepared one, too, for they were going out to a
discussion society on the morrow. But her thoughts were
poisoned. Mrs. Lanoline had risen out of the abyss, like a faint
smell, a goblin football, telling of a life where love and hatred
had both decayed.
The mystery, like so many mysteries, was explained. Next day,
just as they were dressed to go out to dinner, a Mr. Bast
called. He was a clerk in the employment of the Porphyrion Fire
Insurance Company. Thus much from his card. He had come "about
the lady yesterday." Thus much from Annie, who had shown him into
the dining-room.
"Cheers, children!" cried Helen. "It's Mrs. Lanoline."
Tibby was interested. The three hurried downstairs, to find,
not the gay dog they expected, but a young man, colourless,
toneless, who had already the mournful eyes above a drooping
moustache that are so common in London, and that haunt some
streets of the city like accusing presences. One guessed him as
the third generation, grandson to the shepherd or ploughboy whom
civilization had sucked into the town; as one of the thousands
who have lost the life of the body and failed to reach the life
of the spirit. Hints of robustness survived in him, more than a
hint of primitive good looks, and Margaret, noting the spine that
might have been straight, and the chest that might have
broadened, wondered whether it paid to give up the glory of the
animal for a tail coat and a couple of ideas. Culture had worked
in her own case, but during the last few weeks she had doubted
whether it humanized the majority, so wide and so widening is the
gulf that stretches between the natural and the philosophic man,
so many the good chaps who are wrecked in trying to cross it.
She knew this type very well--the vague aspirations, the mental
dishonesty, the familiarity with the outsides of books. She knew
the very tones in which he would address her. She was only
unprepared for an example of her own visiting-card.
"You wouldn't remember giving me this, Miss Schlegel?" said
he, uneasily familiar.
"No; I can't say I do."
"Well, that was how it happened, you see."
"Where did we meet, Mr. Bast? For the minute I don't
remember."
"It was a concert at the Queen's Hall. I think you will
recollect," he added pretentiously, "when I tell you that it
included a performance of the Fifth Symphony of Beethoven."
"We hear the Fifth practically every time it's done, so I'm
not sure--do you remember, Helen?"
"Was it the time the sandy cat walked round the
balustrade?"
He thought not.
"Then I don't remember. That's the only Beethoven I ever
remember specially."
"And you, if I may say so, took away my umbrella,
inadvertently of course."
"Likely enough," Helen laughed, "for I steal umbrellas even
oftener than I hear Beethoven. Did you get it back?"
"Yes, thank you, Miss Schlegel."
"The mistake arose out of my card, did it?" interposed
Margaret.
"Yes, the mistake arose--it was a mistake."
"The lady who called here yesterday thought that you were
calling too, and that she could find you?" she continued, pushing
him forward, for, though he had promised an explanation, he
seemed unable to give one.
"That's so, calling too--a mistake."
"Then why--?" began Helen, but Margaret laid a hand on her
arm.
"I said to my wife," he continued more rapidly--"I said to
Mrs. Bast, 'I have to pay a call on some friends,' and Mrs. Bast
said to me, 'Do go.' While I was gone, however, she wanted me on
important business, and thought I had come here, owing to the
card, and so came after me, and I beg to tender my apologies, and
hers as well, for any inconvenience we may have inadvertently
caused you."
"No inconvenience," said Helen; "but I still don't
understand."
An air of evasion characterized Mr. Bast. He explained
again, but was obviously lying, and Helen didn't see why he
should get off. She had the cruelty of youth. Neglecting her
sister's pressure, she said, "I still don't understand. When did
you say you paid this call?"
"Call? What call?" said he, staring as if her question had
been a foolish one, a favourite device of those in
mid-stream.
"This afternoon call."
"In the afternoon, of course!" he replied, and looked at
Tibby to see how the repartee went. But Tibby, himself a
repartee, was unsympathetic, and said, "Saturday afternoon or
Sunday afternoon?"
"S-Saturday."
"Really!" said Helen; "and you were still calling on Sunday,
when your wife came here. A long visit."
"I don't call that fair," said Mr. Bast, going scarlet and
handsome. There was fight in his eyes." I know what you mean,
and it isn't so."
"Oh, don't let us mind," said Margaret, distressed again by
odours from the abyss.
"It was something else," he asserted, his elaborate manner
breaking down. "I was somewhere else to what you think, so
there!"
"It was good of you to come and explain," she said. "The
rest is naturally no concern of ours."
"Yes, but I want--I wanted--have you ever read The Ordeal
of Richard Feverel?"
Margaret nodded.
"It's a beautiful book. I wanted to get back to the Earth,
don't you see, like Richard does in the end. Or have you ever
read Stevenson's Prince Otto?"
Helen and Tibby groaned gently.
"That's another beautiful book. You get back to the Earth in
that. I wanted--" He mouthed affectedly. Then through the mists
of his culture came a hard fact, hard as a pebble. "I walked all
the Saturday night," said Leonard. "I walked." A thrill of
approval ran through the sisters. But culture closed in again.
He asked whether they had ever read E. V. Lucas's Open
Road.
Said Helen, "No doubt it's another beautiful book, but I'd
rather hear about your road."
"Oh, I walked."
"How far?"
"I don't know, nor for how long. It got too dark to see my
watch."
"Were you walking alone, may I ask?"
"Yes," he said, straightening himself; "but we'd been talking
it over at the office. There's been a lot of talk at the office
lately about these things. The fellows there said one steers by
the Pole Star, and I looked it up in the celestial atlas, but
once out of doors everything gets so mixed--"
"Don't talk to me about the Pole Star," interrupted Helen,
who was becoming interested. "I know its little ways. It goes
round and round, and you go round after it."
"Well, I lost it entirely. First of all the street lamps,
then the trees, and towards morning it got cloudy."
Tibby, who preferred his comedy undiluted, slipped from the
room. He knew that this fellow would never attain to poetry, and
did not want to hear him trying. Margaret and Helen remained.
Their brother influenced them more than they knew: in his absence
they were stirred to enthusiasm more easily.
"Where did you start from?" cried Margaret. "Do tell us
more."
"I took the Underground to Wimbledon. As I came out of the
office I said to myself, 'I must have a walk once in a way. If I
don't take this walk now, I shall never take it.' I had a bit of
dinner at Wimbledon, and then--"
"But not good country there, is it?"
"It was gas-lamps for hours. Still, I had all the night, and
being out was the great thing. I did get into woods, too,
presently."
"Yes, go on," said Helen.
"You've no idea how difficult uneven ground is when it's
dark."
"Did you actually go off the roads?"
"Oh yes. I always meant to go off the roads, but the worst
of it is that it's more difficult to find one's way."
"Mr. Bast, you're a born adventurer," laughed Margaret. "No
professional athlete would have attempted what you've done. It's
a wonder your walk didn't end in a broken neck. Whatever did
your wife say?"
"Professional athletes never move without lanterns and
compasses," said Helen. "Besides, they can't walk. It tires
them. Go on."
"I felt like R. L. S. You probably remember how in
Virginibus--"
"Yes, but the wood. This 'ere wood. How did you get out of
it?"
"I managed one wood, and found a road the other side which
went a good bit uphill. I rather fancy it was those North Downs,
for the road went off into grass, and I got into another wood.
That was awful, with gorse bushes. I did wish I'd never come,
but suddenly it got light--just while I seemed going under one
tree. Then I found a road down to a station, and took the first
train I could back to London."
"But was the dawn wonderful?" asked Helen.
With unforgettable sincerity he replied, "No." The word flew
again like a pebble from the sling. Down toppled all that had
seemed ignoble or literary in his talk, down toppled tiresome R.
L. S. and the "love of the earth" and his silk top-hat. In the
presence of these women Leonard had arrived, and he spoke with a
flow, an exultation, that he had seldom known.
"The dawn was only grey, it was nothing to mention--"
"Just a grey evening turned upside down. I know."
"--and I was too tired to lift up my head to look at it, and
so cold too. I'm glad I did it, and yet at the time it bored me
more than I can say. And besides--you can believe me or not as
you choose--I was very hungry. That dinner at Wimbledon--I meant
it to last me all night like other dinners. I never thought that
walking would make such a difference. Why, when you're walking
you want, as it were, a breakfast and luncheon and tea during the
night as well, and I'd nothing but a packet of Woodbines. Lord,
I did feel bad! Looking back, it wasn't what you may call
enjoyment. It was more a case of sticking to it. I did stick.
I--I was determined. Oh, hang it all! what's the good--I mean,
the good of living in a room for ever? There one goes on day
after day, same old game, same up and down to town, until you
forget there is any other game. You ought to see once in a way
what's going on outside, if it's only nothing particular after
all."
"I should just think you ought," said Helen, sitting on the
edge of the table.
The sound of a lady's voice recalled him from sincerity, and
he said: "Curious it should all come about from reading something
of Richard Jefferies."
"Excuse me, Mr. Bast, but you're wrong there. It didn't. It
came from something far greater."
But she could not stop him. Borrow was imminent after
Jefferies--Borrow, Thoreau, and sorrow. R. L. S. brought up the
rear, and the outburst ended in a swamp of books. No disrespect
to these great names. The fault is ours, not theirs. They mean
us to use them for sign-posts, and are not to blame if, in our
weakness, we mistake the sign-post for the destination. And
Leonard had reached the destination. He had visited the county
of Surrey when darkness covered its amenities, and its cosy
villas had re-entered ancient night. Every twelve hours this
miracle happens, but he had troubled to go and see for himself.
Within his cramped little mind dwelt something that was greater
than Jefferies' books--the spirit that led Jefferies to write
them; and his dawn, though revealing nothing but monotones, was
part of the eternal sunrise that shows George Borrow
Stonehenge.
"Then you don't think I was foolish?" he asked, becoming
again the naïve and sweet-tempered boy for whom Nature had
intended him.
"Heavens, no!" replied Margaret.
"Heaven help us if we do!" replied Helen.
"I'm very glad you say that. Now, my wife would never
understand--not if I explained for days."
"No, it wasn't foolish!" cried Helen, her eyes aflame.
"You've pushed back the boundaries; I think it splendid of
you."
"You've not been content to dream as we have--"
"Though we have walked, too--"
"I must show you a picture upstairs--"
Here the door-bell rang. The hansom had come to take them to
their evening party.
"Oh, bother, not to say dash--I had forgotten we were dining
out; but do, do, come round again and have a talk."
"Yes, you must--do," echoed Margaret.
Leonard, with extreme sentiment, replied: "No, I shall not.
It's better like this."
"Why better?" asked Margaret.
"No, it is better not to risk a second interview. I shall
always look back on this talk with you as one of the finest
things in my life. Really. I mean this. We can never repeat.
It has done me real good, and there we had better leave it."
"That's rather a sad view of life, surely."
"Things so often get spoiled."
"I know," flashed Helen, "but people don't."
He could not understand this. He continued in a vein which
mingled true imagination and false. What he said wasn't wrong,
but it wasn't right, and a false note jarred. One little twist,
they felt, and the instrument might be in tune. One little
strain, and it might be silent for ever. He thanked the ladies
very much, but he would not call again. There was a moment's
awkwardness, and then Helen said: "Go, then; perhaps you know
best; but never forget you're better than Jefferies." And he
went. Their hansom caught him up at the corner, passed with a
waving of hands, and vanished with its accomplished load into the
evening.
London was beginning to illuminate herself against the
night. Electric lights sizzled and jagged in the main
thoroughfares, gas-lamps in the side streets glimmered a canary
gold or green. The sky was a crimson battlefield of spring, but
London was not afraid. Her smoke mitigated the splendour, and
the clouds down Oxford Street were a delicately painted ceiling,
which adorned while it did not distract. She has never known the
clear-cut armies of the purer air. Leonard hurried through her
tinted wonders, very much part of the picture. His was a grey
life, and to brighten it he had ruled off a few corners for
romance. The Miss Schlegels--or, to speak more accurately, his
interview with them--were to fill such a corner, nor was it by
any means the first time that he had talked intimately to
strangers. The habit was analogous to a debauch, an outlet,
though the worst of outlets, for instincts that would not be
denied. Terrifying him, it would beat down his suspicions and
prudence until he was confiding secrets to people whom he had
scarcely seen. It brought him many fears and some pleasant
memories. Perhaps the keenest happiness he had ever known was
during a railway journey to Cambridge, where a decent-mannered
undergraduate had spoken to him. They had got into conversation,
and gradually Leonard flung reticence aside, told some of his
domestic troubles, and hinted at the rest. The undergraduate,
supposing they could start a friendship, asked him to "coffee
after hall," which he accepted, but afterwards grew shy, and took
care not to stir from the commercial hotel where he lodged. He
did not want Romance to collide with the Porphyrion, still less
with Jacky, and people with fuller, happier lives are slow to
understand this. To the Schlegels, as to the undergraduate, he
was an interesting creature, of whom they wanted to see more.
But they to him were denizens of Romance, who must keep to the
corner he had assigned them, pictures that must not walk out of
their frames.
His behaviour over Margaret's visiting-card had been
typical. His had scarcely been a tragic marriage. Where there
is no money and no inclination to violence tragedy cannot be
generated. He could not leave his wife, and he did not want to
hit her. Petulance and squalor were enough. Here "that card"
had come in. Leonard, though furtive, was untidy, and left it
lying about. Jacky found it, and then began, "What's that card,
eh?" "Yes, don't you wish you knew what that card was?" "Len,
who's Miss Schlegel?" etc. Months passed, and the card, now as a
joke, now as a grievance, was handed about, getting dirtier and
dirtier. It followed them when they moved from Cornelia Road to
Tulse Hill. It was submitted to third parties. A few inches of
pasteboard, it became the battlefield on which the souls of
Leonard and his wife contended. Why did he not say, "A lady took
my umbrella, another gave me this that I might call for my
umbrella"? Because Jacky would have disbelieved him? Partly,
but chiefly because he was sentimental. No affection gathered
round the card, but it symbolized the life of culture, that Jacky
should never spoil. At night he would say to himself, "Well, at
all events, she doesn't know about that card. Yah! done her
there!"
Poor Jacky! she was not a bad sort, and had a great deal to
bear. She drew her own conclusion--she was only capable of
drawing one conclusion--and in the fulness of time she acted upon
it. All the Friday Leonard had refused to speak to her, and had
spent the evening observing the stars. On the Saturday he went
up, as usual, to town, but he came not back Saturday night nor
Sunday morning, nor Sunday afternoon. The inconvenience grew
intolerable, and though she was now of a retiring habit, and shy
of women, she went up to Wickham Place. Leonard returned in her
absence. The card, the fatal card, was gone from the pages of
Ruskin, and he guessed what had happened.
"Well?" he had exclaimed, greeting her with peals of
laughter. "I know where you've been, but you don't know where
I've been. "
Jacky sighed, said, "Len, I do think you might explain," and
resumed domesticity.
Explanations were difficult at this stage, and Leonard was
too silly--or it is tempting to write, too sound a chap to
attempt them. His reticence was not entirely the shoddy article
that a business life promotes, the reticence that pretends that
nothing is something, and hides behind the Daily
Telegraph. The adventurer, also, is reticent, and it is an
adventure for a clerk to walk for a few hours in darkness. You
may laugh at him, you who have slept nights on the veldt, with
your rifle beside you and all the atmosphere of adventure past.
And you also may laugh who think adventures silly. But do not be
surprised if Leonard is shy whenever he meets you, and if the
Schlegels rather than Jacky hear about the dawn.
That the Schlegels had not thought him foolish became a
permanent joy. He was at his best when he thought of them. It
buoyed him as he journeyed home beneath fading heavens. Somehow
the barriers of wealth had fallen, and there had been--he could
not phrase it--a general assertion of the wonder of the world.
"My conviction," says the mystic, "gains infinitely the moment
another soul will believe in it," and they had agreed that there
was something beyond life's daily grey. He took off his top-hat
and smoothed it thoughtfully. He had hitherto supposed the
unknown to be books, literature, clever conversation, culture.
One raised oneself by study, and got upsides with the world. But
in that quick interchange a new light dawned. Was that
something" walking in the dark among the surburban hills?
He discovered that he was going bareheaded down Regent
Street. London came back with a rush. Few were about at this
hour, but all whom he passed looked at him with a hostility that
was the more impressive because it was unconscious. He put his
hat on. It was too big; his head disappeared like a pudding into
a basin, the ears bending outwards at the touch of the curly
brim. He wore it a little backwards, and its effect was greatly
to elongate the face and to bring out the distance between the
eyes and the moustache. Thus equipped, he escaped criticism. No
one felt uneasy as he titupped along the pavements, the heart of
a man ticking fast in his chest.
The sisters went out to dinner full of their adventure, and
when they were both full of the same subject, there were few
dinner-parties that could stand up against them. This particular
one, which was all ladies, had more kick in it than most, but
succumbed after a struggle. Helen at one part of the table,
Margaret at the other, would talk of Mr. Bast and of no one else,
and somewhere about the entree their monologues collided, fell
ruining, and became common property. Nor was this all. The
dinner-party was really an informal discussion club; there was a
paper after it, read amid coffee-cups and laughter in the
drawing-room, but dealing more or less thoughtfully with some
topic of general interest. After the paper came a debate, and in
this debate Mr. Bast also figured, appearing now as a bright spot
in civilization, now as a dark spot, according to the temperament
of the speaker. The subject of the paper had been, "How ought I
to dispose of my money?" the reader professing to be a
millionaire on the point of death, inclined to bequeath her
fortune for the foundation of local art galleries, but open to
conviction from other sources. The various parts had been
assigned beforehand, and some of the speeches were amusing. The
hostess assumed the ungrateful role of "the millionaire's eldest
son," and implored her expiring parent not to dislocate Society
by allowing such vast sums to pass out of the family. Money was
the fruit of self-denial, and the second generation had a right
to profit by the self-denial of the first. What right had "Mr.
Bast" to profit? The National Gallery was good enough for the
likes of him. After property had had its say--a saying that is
necessarily ungracious--the various philanthropists stepped
forward. Something must be done for "Mr. Bast": his conditions
must be improved without impairing his independence; he must have
a free library, or free tennis-courts; his rent must be paid in
such a way that he did not know it was being paid; it must be
made worth his while to join the Territorials; he must be
forcibly parted from his uninspiring wife, the money going to her
as compensation; he must be assigned a Twin Star, some member of
the leisured classes who would watch over him ceaselessly (groans
from Helen); he must be given food but no clothes, clothes but no
food, a third-return ticket to Venice, without either food or
clothes when he arrived there. In short, he might be given
anything and everything so long as it was not the money
itself.
And here Margaret interrupted.
"Order, order, Miss Schlegel!" said the reader of the paper.
"You are here, I understand, to advise me in the interests of the
Society for the Preservation of Places of Historic Interest or
Natural Beauty. I cannot have you speaking out of your role. It
makes my poor head go round, and I think you forget that I am
very ill."
"Your head won't go round if only you'll listen to my
argument," said Margaret. "Why not give him the money itself.
You're supposed to have about thirty thousand a year."
"Have I? I thought I had a million."
"Wasn't a million your capital? Dear me! we ought to have
settled that. Still, it doesn't matter. Whatever you've got, I
order you to give as many poor men as you can three hundred a
year each. "
"But that would be pauperizing them," said an earnest girl,
who liked the Schlegels, but thought them a little unspiritual at
times.
"Not if you gave them so much. A big windfall would not
pauperize a man. It is these little driblets, distributed among
too many, that do the harm. Money's educational. It's far more
educational than the things it buys." There was a protest. "In a
sense," added Margaret, but the protest continued. "Well, isn't
the most civilized thing going, the man who has learnt to wear
his income properly?"
"Exactly what your Mr. Basts won't do."
"Give them a chance. Give them money. Don't dole them out
poetry-books and railway-tickets like babies. Give them the
wherewithal to buy these things. When your Socialism comes it
may be different, and we may think in terms of commodities
instead of cash. Till it comes give people cash, for it is the
warp of civilization, whatever the woof may be. The imagination
ought to play upon money and realize it vividly, for it's
the--the second most important thing in the world. It is so
sluffed over and hushed up, there is so little clear
thinking--oh, political economy, of course, but so few of us
think clearly about our own private incomes, and admit that
independent thoughts are in nine cases out of ten the result of
independent means. Money: give Mr. Bast money, and don't bother
about his ideals. He'll pick up those for himself."
She leant back while the more earnest members of the club
began to misconstrue her. The female mind, though cruelly
practical in daily life, cannot bear to hear ideals belittled in
conversation, and Miss Schlegel was asked however she could say
such dreadful things, and what it would profit Mr. Bast if he
gained the whole world and lost his own soul. She answered,
"Nothing, but he would not gain his soul until he had gained a
little of the world." Then they said, "No they did not believe
it," and she admitted that an overworked clerk may save his soul
in the superterrestrial sense, where the effort will be taken for
the deed, but she denied that he will ever explore the spiritual
resources of this world, will ever know the rarer joys of the
body, or attain to clear and passionate intercourse with his
fellows. Others had attacked the fabric of Society-Property,
Interest, etc.; she only fixed her eyes on a few human beings, to
see how, under present conditions, they could be made happier.
Doing good to humanity was useless: the many-coloured efforts
thereto spreading over the vast area like films and resulting in
an universal grey. To do good to one, or, as in this case, to a
few, was the utmost she dare hope for.
Between the idealists, and the political economists, Margaret
had a bad time. Disagreeing elsewhere, they agreed in disowning
her, and in keeping the administration of the millionaire's money
in their own hands. The earnest girl brought forward a scheme of
"personal supervision and mutual help," the effect of which was
to alter poor people until they became exactly like people who
were not so poor. The hostess pertinently remarked that she, as
eldest son, might surely rank among the millionaire's legatees.
Margaret weakly admitted the claim, and another claim was at once
set up by Helen, who declared that she had been the millionaire's
housemaid for over forty years, overfed and underpaid; was
nothing to be done for her, so corpulent and poor? The
millionaire then read out her last will and testament, in which
she left the whole of her fortune to the Chancellor of the
Exchequer. Then she died. The serious parts of the discussion
had been of higher merit than the playful--in a men's debate is
the reverse more general? --but the meeting broke up hilariously
enough, and a dozen happy ladies dispersed to their homes.
Helen and Margaret walked the earnest girl as far as
Battersea Bridge Station, arguing copiously all the way. When
she had gone they were conscious of an alleviation, and of the
great beauty of the evening. They turned back towards Oakley
Street. The lamps and the plane-trees, following the line of the
embankment, struck a note of dignity that is rare in English
cities. The seats, almost deserted, were here and there occupied
by gentlefolk in evening dress, who had strolled out from the
houses behind to enjoy fresh air and the whisper of the rising
tide. There is something continental about Chelsea Embankment.
It is an open space used rightly, a blessing more frequent in
Germany than here. As Margaret and Helen sat down, the city
behind them seemed to be a vast theatre, an opera-house in which
some endless trilogy was performing, and they themselves a pair
of satisfied subscribers, who did not mind losing a little of the
second act.
"Cold?"
"No."
"Tired?"
"Doesn't matter."
The earnest girl's train rumbled away over the bridge.
"I say, Helen--"
"Well?"
"Are we really going to follow up Mr. Bast?"
"I don't know."
"I think we won't."
"As you like."
"It's no good, I think, unless you really mean to know
people. The discussion brought that home to me. We got on well
enough with him in a spirit of excitement, but think of rational
intercourse. We mustn't play at friendship. No, it's no
good."
"There's Mrs. Lanoline, too," Helen yawned. "So dull."
"Just so, and possibly worse than dull."
"I should like to know how he got hold of your card."
"But he said--something about a concert and an
umbrella--"
"Then did the card see the wife--"
"Helen, come to bed."
"No, just a little longer, it is so beautiful. Tell me; oh
yes; did you say money is the warp of the world?"
"Yes."
"Then what's the woof?"
"Very much what one chooses," said Margaret. "It's something
that isn't money--one can't say more."
"Walking at night?"
"Probably."
"For Tibby, Oxford?"
"It seems so."
"For you?"
"Now that we have to leave Wickham Place, I begin to think
it's that. For Mrs. Wilcox it was certainly Howards End."
One's own name will carry immense distances. Mr. Wilcox, who
was sitting with friends many seats away, heard his, rose to his
feet, and strolled along towards the speakers.
"It is sad to suppose that places may ever be more important
than people," continued Margaret.
"Why, Meg? They're so much nicer generally. I'd rather
think of that forester's house in Pomerania than of the fat Herr
Förstmeister who lived in it."
"I believe we shall come to care about people less and less,
Helen. The more people one knows the easier it becomes to
replace them. It's one of the curses of London. I quite expect
to end my life caring most for a place."
Here Mr. Wilcox reached them. It was several weeks since
they had met.
"How do you do?" he cried. "I thought I recognized your
voices. Whatever are you both doing down here?"
His tones were protective. He implied that one ought not to
sit out on Chelsea Embankment without a male escort. Helen
resented this, but Margaret accepted it as part of the good man's
equipment.
"What an age it is since I've seen you, Mr. Wilcox. I met
Evie in the Tube, though, lately. I hope you have good news of
your son."
"Paul?" said Mr. Wilcox, extinguishing his cigarette, and
sitting down between them. "Oh, Paul's all right. We had a line
from Madeira. He'll be at work again by now."
"Ugh--" said Helen, shuddering from complex causes.
"I beg your pardon?"
"Isn't the climate of Nigeria too horrible?"
"Someone's got to go," he said simply. "England will never
keep her trade overseas unless she is prepared to make
sacrifices. Unless we get firm in West Africa, Ger--untold
complications may follow. Now tell me all your news."
"Oh, we've had a splendid evening," cried Helen, who always
woke up at the advent of a visitor. "We belong to a kind of club
that reads papers, Margaret and I--all women, but there is a
discussion after. This evening it was on how one ought to leave
one's money--whether to one's family, or to the poor, and if so
how--oh, most interesting."
The man of business smiled. Since his wife's death he had
almost doubled his income. He was an important figure at last, a
reassuring name on company prospectuses, and life had treated him
very well. The world seemed in his grasp as he listened to the
River Thames, which still flowed inland from the sea. So
wonderful to the girls, it held no mysteries for him. He had
helped to shorten its long tidal trough by taking shares in the
lock at Teddington, and if he and other capitalists thought good,
some day it could be shortened again. With a good dinner inside
him and an amiable but academic woman on either flank, he felt
that his hands were on all the ropes of life, and that what he
did not know could not be worth knowing.
"Sounds a most original entertainment!" he exclaimed, and
laughed in his pleasant way. "I wish Evie would go to that sort
of thing. But she hasn't the time. She's taken to breed
Aberdeen terriers--jolly little dogs.
"I expect we'd better be doing the same, really."
"We pretend we're improving ourselves, you see," said Helen a
little sharply, for the Wilcox glamour is not of the kind that
returns, and she had bitter memories of the days when a speech
such as he had just made would have impressed her favourably.
"We suppose it is a good thing to waste an evening once a
fortnight over a debate, but, as my sister says, it may be better
to breed dogs."
"Not at all. I don't agree with your sister. There's
nothing like a debate to teach one quickness. I often wish I had
gone in for them when I was a youngster. It would have helped me
no end."
"Quickness--?"
"Yes. Quickness in argument. Time after time I've missed
scoring a point because the other man has had the gift of the gab
and I haven't. Oh, I believe in these discussions."
The patronizing tone thought Margaret, came well enough from
a man who was old enough to be their father. She had always
maintained that Mr. Wilcox had a charm. In times of sorrow or
emotion his inadequacy had pained her, but it was pleasant to
listen to him now, and to watch his thick brown moustache and
high forehead confronting the stars. But Helen was nettled. The
aim of their debates she implied was Truth.
"Oh yes, it doesn't much matter what subject you take," said
he.
Margaret laughed and said, "But this is going to be far
better than the debate itself." Helen recovered herself and
laughed too. "No, I won't go on," she declared. "I'll just put
our special case to Mr. Wilcox."
"About Mr. Bast? Yes, do. He'll be more lenient to a
special case.
"But, Mr. Wilcox, do first light another cigarette. It's
this. We've just come across a young fellow, who's evidently
very poor, and who seems interest--"
"What's his profession?"
"Clerk."
"What in?"
"Do you remember, Margaret?"
"Porphyrion Fire Insurance Company."
"Oh yes; the nice people who gave Aunt Juley a new
hearth-rug. He seems interesting, in some ways very, and one
wishes one could help him. He is married to a wife whom he
doesn't seem to care for much. He likes books, and what one may
roughly call adventure, and if he had a chance--But he is so
poor. He lives a life where all the money is apt to go on
nonsense and clothes. One is so afraid that circumstances will
be too strong for him and that he will sink. Well, he got mixed
up in our debate. He wasn't the subject of it, but it seemed to
bear on his point. Suppose a millionaire died, and desired to
leave money to help such a man. How should he be helped? Should
he be given three hundred pounds a year direct, which was
Margaret's plan? Most of them thought this would pauperize him.
Should he and those like him be given free libraries? I said
'No!' He doesn't want more books to read, but to read books
rightly. My suggestion was he should be given something every
year towards a summer holiday, but then there is his wife, and
they said she would have to go too. Nothing seemed quite right!
Now what do you think? Imagine that you were a millionaire, and
wanted to help the poor. What would you do?"
Mr. Wilcox, whose fortune was not so very far below the
standard indicated, laughed exuberantly. "My dear Miss Schlegel,
I will not rush in where your sex has been unable to tread. I
will not add another plan to the numerous excellent ones that
have been already suggested. My only contribution is this: let
your young friend clear out of the Porphyrion Fire Insurance
Company with all possible speed."
"Why?" said Margaret.
He lowered his voice. "This is between friends. It'll be in
the Receiver's hands before Christmas. It'll smash," he added,
thinking that she had not understood.
"Dear me, Helen, listen to that. And he'll have to get
another place!"
"Will have? Let him leave the ship before it
sinks. Let him get one now."
"Rather than wait, to make sure?"
"Decidedly."
"Why's that?"
Again the Olympian laugh, and the lowered voice. "Naturally
the man who's in a situation when he applies stands a better
chance, is in a stronger position, than the man who isn't. It
looks as if he's worth something. I know by myself--(this is
letting you into the State secrets)--it affects an employer
greatly. Human nature, I'm afraid."
"I hadn't thought of that," murmured Margaret, while Helen
said, "Our human nature appears to be the other way round. We
employ people because they're unemployed. The boot man, for
instance."
"And how does he clean the boots?"
"Not well," confessed Margaret.
"There you are!"
"Then do you really advise us to tell this youth--"
"I advise nothing," he interrupted, glancing up and down the
Embankment, in case his indiscretion had been overheard. "I
oughtn't to have spoken--but I happen to know, being more or less
behind the scenes. The Porphyrion's a bad, bad concern--Now,
don't say I said so. It's outside the Tariff Ring."
"Certainly I won't say. In fact, I don't know what that
means."
"I thought an insurance company never smashed," was Helen's
contribution. "Don't the others always run in and save
them?"
"You're thinking of reinsurance," said Mr. Wilcox mildly.
"It is exactly there that the Porphyrion is weak. It has tried
to undercut, has been badly hit by a long series of small fires,
and it hasn't been able to reinsure. I'm afraid that public
companies don't save one another for love."
"'Human nature,' I suppose," quoted Helen, and he laughed and
agreed that it was. When Margaret said that she supposed that
clerks, like every one else, found it extremely difficult to get
situations in these days, he replied, "Yes, extremely," and rose
to rejoin his friends. He knew by his own office--seldom a
vacant post, and hundreds of applicants for it; at present no
vacant post.
"And how's Howards End looking?" said Margaret, wishing to
change the subject before they parted. Mr. Wilcox was a little
apt to think one wanted to get something out of him.
"It's let."
"Really. And you wandering homeless in long-haired Chelsea?
How strange are the ways of Fate!"
"No; it's let unfurnished. We've moved."
"Why, I thought of you both as anchored there for ever. Evie
never told me."
"I dare say when you met Evie the thing wasn't settled. We
only moved a week ago. Paul has rather a feeling for the old
place, and we held on for him to have his holiday there; but,
really, it is impossibly small. Endless drawbacks. I forget
whether you've been up to it?"
"As far as the house, never."
"Well, Howards End is one of those converted farms. They
don't really do, spend what you will on them. We messed away
with a garage all among the wych-elm roots, and last year we
enclosed a bit of the meadow and attempted a mockery. Evie got
rather keen on Alpine plants. But it didn't do--no, it didn't
do. You remember, or your sister will remember, the farm with
those abominable guinea-fowls, and the hedge that the old woman
never would cut properly, so that it all went thin at the
bottom. And, inside the house, the beams--and the staircase
through a door--picturesque enough, but not a place to live in."
He glanced over the parapet cheerfully. "Full tide. And the
position wasn't right either. The neighbourhood's getting
suburban. Either be in London or out of it, I say; so we've
taken a house in Ducie Street, close to Sloane Street, and a
place right down in Shropshire--Oniton Grange. Ever heard of
Oniton? Do come and see us--right away from everywhere, up
towards Wales. "
"What a change!" said Margaret. But the change was in her
own voice, which had become most sad. "I can't imagine Howards
End or Hilton without you."
"Hilton isn't without us," he replied. "Charles is there
still."
"Still?" said Margaret, who had not kept up with the
Charles'. "But I thought he was still at Epsom. They were
furnishing that Christmas--one Christmas. How everything
alters! I used to admire Mrs. Charles from our windows very
often. Wasn't it Epsom?"
"Yes, but they moved eighteen months ago. Charles, the good
chap"--his voice dropped--"thought I should be lonely. I didn't
want him to move, but he would, and took a house at the other end
of Hilton, down by the Six Hills. He had a motor, too. There
they all are, a very jolly party--he and she and the two
grandchildren."
"I manage other people's affairs so much better than they
manage them themselves," said Margaret as they shook hands.
"When you moved out of Howards End, I should have moved Mr.
Charles Wilcox into it. I should have kept so remarkable a place
in the family."
"So it is," he replied. "I haven't sold it, and don't mean
to."
"No; but none of you are there."
"Oh, we've got a splendid tenant--Hamar Bryce, an invalid.
If Charles ever wanted it--but he won't. Dolly is so dependent
on modern conveniences. No, we have all decided against Howards
End. We like it in a way, but now we feel that it is neither one
thing nor the other. One must have one thing or the other."
"And some people are lucky enough to have both. You're doing
yourself proud, Mr. Wilcox. My congratulations."
"And mine," said Helen.
"Do remind Evie to come and see us--two, Wickham Place. We
shan't be there very long, either."
"You, too, on the move?"
"Next September," Margaret sighed.
"Every one moving! Good-bye."
The tide had begun to ebb. Margaret leant over the parapet
and watched it sadly. Mr. Wilcox had forgotten his wife, Helen
her lover; she herself was probably forgetting. Every one
moving. Is it worth while attempting the past when there is this
continual flux even in the hearts of men?
Helen roused her by saying: "What a prosperous vulgarian Mr.
Wilcox has grown! I have very little use for him in these days.
However, he did tell us about the Porphyrion. Let us write to
Mr. Bast as soon as ever we get home, and tell him to clear out
of it at once."
"Do; yes, that's worth doing. Let us."
"Let's ask him to tea."
Leonard accepted the invitation to tea next Saturday. But he
was right; the visit proved a conspicuous failure.
"Sugar?" said Margaret.
"Cake?" said Helen. "The big cake or the little deadlies?
I'm afraid you thought my letter rather odd, but we'll
explain--we aren't odd, really--not affected, really. We're
over-expressive: that's all. "
As a lady's lap-dog Leonard did not excel. He was not an
Italian, still less a Frenchman, in whose blood there runs the
very spirit of persiflage and of gracious repartee. His wit was
the Cockney's; it opened no doors into imagination, and Helen was
drawn up short by "The more a lady has to say, the better,"
administered waggishly.
"Oh, yes," she said.
"Ladies brighten--"
"Yes, I know. The darlings are regular sunbeams. Let me
give you a plate."
"How do you like your work?" interposed Margaret.
He, too, was drawn up short. He would not have these women
prying into his work. They were Romance, and so was the room to
which he had at last penetrated, with the queer sketches of
people bathing upon its walls, and so were the very tea-cups,
with their delicate borders of wild strawberries. But he would
not let Romance interfere with his life. There is the devil to
pay then.
"Oh, well enough," he answered.
"Your company is the Porphyrion, isn't it?"
"Yes, that's so"--becoming rather offended. "It's funny how
things get round."
"Why funny?" asked Helen, who did not follow the workings of
his mind. "It was written as large as life on your card, and
considering we wrote to you there, and that you replied on the
stamped paper--"
"Would you call the Porphyrion one of the big Insurance
Companies?" pursued Margaret.
"It depends what you call big."
"I mean by big, a solid, well-established concern, that
offers a reasonably good career to its employés."
"I couldn't say--some would tell you one thing and others
another," said the employe uneasily. "For my own part"--he shook
his head--"I only believe half I hear. Not that even; it's
safer. Those clever ones come to the worse grief, I've often
noticed. Ah, you can't be too careful."
He drank, and wiped his moustache, which was going to be one
of those moustaches that always droop into tea-cups--more bother
than they're worth, surely, and not fashionable either.
"I quite agree, and that's why I was curious to know: is it a
solid, well-established concern?"
Leonard had no idea. He understood his own corner of the
machine, but nothing beyond it. He desired to confess neither
knowledge nor ignorance, and under these circumstances, another
motion of the head seemed safest. To him, as to the British
public, the Porphyrion was the Porphyrion of the advertisement--a
giant, in the classical style, but draped sufficiently, who held
in one hand a burning torch, and pointed with the other to St.
Paul's and Windsor Castle. A large sum of money was inscribed
below, and you drew your own conclusions. This giant caused
Leonard to do arithmetic and write letters, to explain the
regulations to new clients, and re-explain them to old ones. A
giant was of an impulsive morality--one knew that much. He would
pay for Mrs. Munt's hearth-rug with ostentatious haste, a large
claim he would repudiate quietly, and fight court by court. But
his true fighting weight, his antecedents, his amours with other
members of the commercial Pantheon--all these were as uncertain
to ordinary mortals as were the escapades of Zeus. While the
gods are powerful, we learn little about them. It is only in the
days of their decadence that a strong light beats into
heaven.
"We were told the Porphyrion's no go," blurted Helen. "We
wanted to tell you; that's why we wrote."
"A friend of ours did think that it is unsufficiently
reinsured," said Margaret.
Now Leonard had his clue. He must praise the Porphyrion.
"You can tell your friend," he said, "that he's quite wrong."
"Oh, good!"
The young man coloured a little. In his circle to be wrong
was fatal. The Miss Schlegels did not mind being wrong. They
were genuinely glad that they had been misinformed. To them
nothing was fatal but evil.
"Wrong, so to speak," he added.
"How 'so to speak'?"
"I mean I wouldn't say he's right altogether."
But this was a blunder. "Then he is right partly," said the
elder woman, quick as lightning.
Leonard replied that every one was right partly, if it came
to that.
"Mr. Bast, I don't understand business, and I dare say my
questions are stupid, but can you tell me what makes a concern
'right' or 'wrong'?"
Leonard sat back with a sigh.
"Our friend, who is also a business man, was so positive. He
said before Christmas--"
"And advised you to clear out of it," concluded Helen. "But
I don't see why he should know better than you do."
Leonard rubbed his hands. He was tempted to say that he knew
nothing about the thing at all. But a commercial training was
too strong for him. Nor could he say it was a bad thing, for
this would be giving it away; nor yet that it was good, for this
would be giving it away equally. He attempted to suggest that it
was something between the two, with vast possibilities in either
direction, but broke down under the gaze of four sincere eyes.
As yet he scarcely distinguished between the two sisters. One
was more beautiful and more lively, but "the Miss Schlegels"
still remained a composite Indian god, whose waving arms and
contradictory speeches were the product of a single mind.
"One can but see," he remarked, adding, "as Ibsen says,
'things happen.'" He was itching to talk about books and make the
most of his romantic hour. Minute after minute slipped away,
while the ladies, with imperfect skill, discussed the subject of
reinsurance or praised their anonymous friend. Leonard grew
annoyed--perhaps rightly. He made vague remarks about not being
one of those who minded their affairs being talked over by
others, but they did not take the hint. Men might have shown
more tact. Women, however tactful elsewhere, are heavy-handed
here. They cannot see why we should shroud our incomes and our
prospects in a veil. "How much exactly have you, and how much do
you expect to have next June?" And these were women with a
theory, who held that reticence about money matters is absurd,
and that life would be truer if each would state the exact size
of the golden island upon which he stands, the exact stretch of
warp over which he throws the woof that is not money. How can we
do justice to the pattern otherwise?
And the precious minutes slipped away, and Jacky and squalor
came nearer. At last he could bear it no longer, and broke in,
reciting the names of books feverishly. There was a moment of
piercing joy when Margaret said, "So you like Carlyle,"
and then the door opened, and "Mr. Wilcox, Miss Wilcox" entered,
preceded by two prancing puppies.
"Oh, the dears! Oh, Evie, how too impossibly sweet!"
screamed Helen, falling on her hands and knees.
"We brought the little fellows round," said Mr. Wilcox.
"I bred 'em myself."
"Oh, really! Mr. Bast, come and play with puppies."
"I've got to be going now," said Leonard sourly.
"But play with puppies a little first."
"This is Ahab, that's Jezebel," said Evie, who was one of
those who name animals after the less successful characters of
Old Testament history.
"I've got to be going."
Helen was too much occupied with puppies to notice him.
"Mr. Wilcox, Mr. Ba--Must you be really? Good-bye!"
"Come again," said Helen from the floor.
Then Leonard's gorge arose. Why should he come again? What
was the good of it? He said roundly: "No, I shan't; I knew it
would be a failure."
Most people would have let him go. "A little mistake. We
tried knowing another class--impossible." But the Schlegels had
never played with life. They had attempted friendship, and they
would take the consequences. Helen retorted, "I call that a very
rude remark. What do you want to turn on me like that for?" and
suddenly the drawing-room re-echoed to a vulgar row.
"You ask me why I turn on you?"
"Yes."
"What do you want to have me here for?"
"To help you, you silly boy!" cried Helen. "And don't
shout."
"I don't want your patronage. I don't want your tea. I was
quite happy. What do you want to unsettle me for?" He turned to
Mr. Wilcox. "I put it to this gentleman. I ask you, sir, am I to
have my brain picked?"
Mr. Wilcox turned to Margaret with the air of humorous
strength that he could so well command. "Are we intruding, Miss
Schlegel? Can we be of any use or shall we go?"
But Margaret ignored him.
"I'm connected with a leading insurance company, sir. I
receive what I take to be an invitation from these--ladies" (he
drawled the word). "I come, and it's to have my brain picked. I
ask you, is it fair?"
"Highly unfair," said Mr. Wilcox, drawing a gasp from Evie,
who knew that her father was becoming dangerous.
"There, you hear that? Most unfair, the gentleman says.
There! Not content with"--pointing at Margaret--"you can't deny
it." His voice rose: he was falling into the rhythm of a scene
with Jacky. "But as soon as I'm useful it's a very different
thing. 'Oh yes, send for him. Cross-question him. Pick his
brains.' Oh yes. Now, take me on the whole, I'm a quiet fellow:
I'm law-abiding, I don't wish any unpleasantness; but I--I--"
"You," said Margaret--"you--you--"
Laughter from Evie, as at a repartee.
"You are the man who tried to walk by the Pole Star."
More laughter.
"You saw the sunrise."
Laughter.
"You tried to get away from the fogs that are stifling us
all--away past books and houses to the truth. You were looking
for a real home. "
"I fail to see the connection," said Leonard, hot with stupid
anger.
"So do I." There was a pause. "You were that last
Sunday--you are this today. Mr. Bast! I and my sister have
talked you over. We wanted to help you; we also supposed you
might help us. We did not have you here out of charity--which
bores us--but because we hoped there would be a connection
between last Sunday and other days. What is the good of your
stars and trees, your sunrise and the wind, if they do not enter
into our daily lives? They have never entered into mine, but
into yours, we thought--Haven't we all to struggle against life's
daily greyness, against pettiness, against mechanical
cheerfulness, against suspicion? I struggle by remembering my
friends; others I have known by remembering some place--some
beloved place or tree--we thought you one of these."
"Of course, if there's been any misunderstanding," mumbled
Leonard, "all I can do is to go. But I beg to state--" He
paused. Ahab and Jezebel danced at his boots and made him look
ridiculous. "You were picking my brain for official
information--I can prove it--I--He blew his nose and left
them.
"Can I help you now?" said Mr. Wilcox, turning to Margaret.
"May I have one quiet word with him in the hall?"
"Helen, go after him--do anything--anything--to make
the noodle understand."
Helen hesitated.
"But really--" said their visitor. "Ought she to?"
At once she went.
He resumed. "I would have chimed in, but I felt that you
could polish him off for yourselves--I didn't interfere. You
were splendid, Miss Schlegel--absolutely splendid. You can take
my word for it, but there are very few women who could have
managed him."
"Oh yes," said Margaret distractedly.
"Bowling him over with those long sentences was what fetched
me," cried Evie.
"Yes, indeed," chuckled her father; "all that part about
'mechanical cheerfulness'--oh, fine!"
"I'm very sorry," said Margaret, collecting herself. "He's a
nice creature really. I cannot think what set him off. It has
been most unpleasant for you."
"Oh, I didn't mind." Then he changed his mood. He
asked if he might speak as an old friend, and, permission given,
said: "Oughtn't you really to be more careful?"
Margaret laughed, though her thoughts still strayed after
Helen. "Do you realize that it's all your fault?" she said.
"You're responsible."
"I?"
"This is the young man whom we were to warn against the
Porphyrion. We warn him, and--look!"
Mr. Wilcox was annoyed. "I hardly consider that a fair
deduction," he said.
"Obviously unfair," said Margaret. "I was only thinking how
tangled things are. It's our fault mostly--neither yours nor
his."
"Not his?"
"No."
"Miss Schlegel, you are too kind."
"Yes, indeed," nodded Evie, a little contemptuously.
"You behave much too well to people, and then they impose on
you. I know the world and that type of man, and as soon as I
entered the room I saw you had not been treating him properly.
You must keep that type at a distance. Otherwise they forget
themselves. Sad, but true. They aren't our sort, and one must
face the fact."
"Ye-es."
"Do admit that we should never have had the outburst if he
was a gentleman."
"I admit it willingly," said Margaret, who was pacing up and
down the room. "A gentleman would have kept his suspicions to
himself."
Mr. Wilcox watched her with a vague uneasiness.
"What did he suspect you of?"
"Of wanting to make money out of him."
"Intolerable brute! But how were you to benefit?"
"Exactly. How indeed! Just horrible, corroding suspicion.
One touch of thought or of goodwill would have brushed it away.
Just the senseless fear that does make men intolerable
brutes."
"I come back to my original point. You ought to be more
careful, Miss Schlegel. Your servants ought to have orders not
to let such people in."
She turned to him frankly. "Let me explain exactly why we
like this man, and want to see him again."
"That's your clever way of thinking. I shall never believe
you like him."
"I do. Firstly, because he cares for physical adventure,
just as you do. Yes, you go motoring and shooting; he would like
to go camping out. Secondly, he cares for something special
in adventure. It is quickest to call that special
something poetry--"
"Oh, he's one of that writer sort."
"No--oh no! I mean he may be, but it would be loathsome
stiff. His brain is filled with the husks of books,
culture--horrible; we want him to wash out his brain and go to
the real thing. We want to show him how he may get upsides with
life. As I said, either friends or the country, some"--she
hesitated--"either some very dear person or some very dear place
seems necessary to relieve life's daily grey, and to show that it
is grey. If possible, one should have both."
Some of her words ran past Mr. Wilcox. He let them run
past. Others he caught and criticized with admirable
lucidity.
"Your mistake is this, and it is a very common mistake. This
young bounder has a life of his own. What right have you to
conclude it is an unsuccessful life, or, as you call it,
'grey'?"
"Because--"
"One minute. You know nothing about him. He probably has
his own joys and interests--wife, children, snug little home.
That's where we practical fellows"--he smiled--"are more tolerant
than you intellectuals. We live and let live, and assume that
things are jogging on fairly well elsewhere, and that the
ordinary plain man may be trusted to look after his own affairs.
I quite grant--I look at the faces of the clerks in my own
office, and observe them to be dull, but I don't know what's
going on beneath. So, by the way, with London. I have heard you
rail against London, Miss Schlegel, and it seems a funny thing to
say but I was very angry with you. What do you know about
London? You only see civilization from the outside. I don't say
in your case, but in too many cases that attitude leads to
morbidity, discontent, and Socialism."
She admitted the strength of his position, though it
undermined imagination. As he spoke, some outposts of poetry and
perhaps of sympathy fell ruining, and she retreated to what she
called her "second line"--to the special facts of the case.
"His wife is an old bore," she said simply. "He never came
home last Saturday night because he wanted to be alone, and she
thought he was with us."
"With you?"
"Yes." Evie tittered. "He hasn't got the cosy home that you
assumed. He needs outside interests."
"Naughty young man!" cried the girl.
"Naughty?" said Margaret, who hated naughtiness more than
sin. "When you're married, Miss Wilcox, won't you want outside
interests?"
"He has apparently got them," put in Mr. Wilcox slyly.
"Yes, indeed, Father."
"He was tramping in Surrey, if you mean that," said Margaret,
pacing away rather crossly.
"Oh, I dare say!"
"Miss Wilcox, he was!"
"M-m-m-m!" from Mr. Wilcox, who thought the episode amusing,
if risqué. With most ladies he would not have discussed
it, but he was trading on Margaret's reputation as an
emanicipated woman.
"He said so, and about such a thing he wouldn't lie."
They both began to laugh.
"That's where I differ from you. Men lie about their
positions and prospects, but not about a thing of that sort."
He shook his head. "Miss Schlegel, excuse me, but I know the
type."
"I said before--he isn't a type. He cares about adventures
rightly. He's certain that our smug existence isn't all. He's
vulgar and hysterical and bookish, but I don't think that sums
him up. There's manhood in him as well. Yes, that's what I'm
trying to say. He's a real man."
As she spoke their eyes met, and it was as if Mr. Wilcox's
defences fell. She saw back to the real man in him. Unwittingly
she had touched his emotions. A woman and two men--they had
formed the magic triangle of sex, and the male was thrilled to
jealousy, in case the female was attracted by another male.
Love, say the ascetics, reveals our shameful kinship with the
beasts. Be it so: one can bear that; jealousy is the real
shame. It is jealousy, not love, that connects us with the
farmyard intolerably, and calls up visions of two angry cocks and
a complacent hen. Margaret crushed complacency down because she
was civilized. Mr. Wilcox, uncivilized, continued to feel anger
long after he had rebuilt his defences, and was again presenting
a bastion to the world.
"Miss Schlegel, you're a pair of dear creatures, but you
really must be careful in this uncharitable world. What
does your brother say?"
"I forget."
"Surely he has some opinion?"
"He laughs, if I remember correctly."
"He's very clever, isn't he?" said Evie, who had met and
detested Tibby at Oxford.
"Yes, pretty well--but I wonder what Helen's doing."
"She is very young to undertake this sort of thing," said Mr.
Wilcox.
Margaret went out into the landing. She heard no sound, and
Mr. Bast's topper was missing from the hall.
"Helen!" she called.
"Yes!" replied a voice from the library.
"You in there?"
"Yes--he's gone some time."
Margaret went to her. "Why, you're all alone," she said.
"Yes--it's all right, Meg--Poor, poor creature--"
"Come back to the Wilcoxes and tell me later--Mr. W. much
concerned, and slightly titillated."
"Oh, I've no patience with him. I hate him. Poor dear Mr.
Bast! he wanted to talk literature, and we would talk business.
Such a muddle of a man, and yet so worth pulling through. I like
him extraordinarily. "
"Well done," said Margaret, kissing her, "but come into the
drawing-room now, and don't talk about him to the Wilcoxes. Make
light of the whole thing."
Helen came and behaved with a cheerfulness that reassured
their visitor--this hen at all events was fancy-free.
"He's gone with my blessing," she cried, "and now for
puppies."
As they drove away, Mr. Wilcox said to his daughter:
"I am really concerned at the way those girls go on. They
are as clever as you make 'em, but unpractical--God bless me!
One of these days they'll go too far. Girls like that oughtn't
to live alone in London. Until they marry, they ought to have
someone to look after them. We must look in more often--we're
better than no one. You like them, don't you, Evie?"
Evie replied: "Helen's right enough, but I can't stand the
toothy one. And I shouldn't have called either of them
girls."
Evie had grown up handsome. Dark-eyed, with the glow of
youth under sunburn, built firmly and firm-lipped, she was the
best the Wilcoxes could do in the way of feminine beauty. For
the present, puppies and her father were the only things she
loved, but the net of matrimony was being prepared for her, and a
few days later she was attracted to a Mr. Percy Cahill, an uncle
of Mrs. Charles, and he was attracted to her.
The Age of Property holds bitter moments even for a
proprietor. When a move is imminent, furniture becomes
ridiculous, and Margaret now lay awake at nights wondering where,
where on earth they and all their belongings would be deposited
in September next. Chairs, tables, pictures, books, that had
rumbled down to them through the generations, must rumble forward
again like a slide of rubbish to which she longed to give the
final push, and send toppling into the sea. But there were all
their father's books--they never read them, but they were their
father's, and must be kept. There was the marble-topped
chiffonier--their mother had set store by it, they could not
remember why. Round every knob and cushion in the house
sentiment gathered, a sentiment that was at times personal, but
more often a faint piety to the dead, a prolongation of rites
that might have ended at the grave.
It was absurd, if you came to think of it; Helen and Tibby
came to think of it: Margaret was too busy with the
house-agents. The feudal ownership of land did bring dignity,
whereas the modern ownership of movables is reducing us again to
a nomadic horde. We are reverting to the civilization of
luggage, and historians of the future will note how the middle
classes accreted possessions without taking root in the earth,
and may find in this the secret of their imaginative poverty.
The Schlegels were certainly the poorer for the loss of Wickham
Place. It had helped to balance their lives, and almost to
counsel them. Nor is their ground-landlord spiritually the
richer. He has built flats on its site, his motor-cars grow
swifter, his exposures of Socialism more trenchant. But he has
spilt the precious distillation of the years, and no chemistry of
his can give it back to society again.
Margaret grew depressed; she was anxious to settle on a house
before they left town to pay their annual visit to Mrs. Munt.
She enjoyed this visit, and wanted to have her mind at ease for
it. Swanage, though dull, was stable, and this year she longed
more than usual for its fresh air and for the magnificent downs
that guard it on the north. But London thwarted her; in its
atmosphere she could not concentrate. London only stimulates, it
cannot sustain; and Margaret, hurrying over its surface for a
house without knowing what sort of a house she wanted, was paying
for many a thrilling sensation in the past. She could not even
break loose from culture, and her time was wasted by concerts
which it would be a sin to miss, and invitations which it would
never do to refuse. At last she grew desperate; she resolved
that she would go nowhere and be at home to no one until she
found a house, and broke the resolution in half an hour.
Once she had humorously lamented that she had never been to
Simpson's restaurant in the Strand. Now a note arrived from Miss
Wilcox, asking her to lunch there. Mr. Cahill was coming, and
the three would have such a jolly chat, and perhaps end up at the
Hippodrome. Margaret had no strong regard for Evie, and no
desire to meet her fiancé, and she was surprised that
Helen, who had been far funnier about Simpson's, had not been
asked instead. But the invitation touched her by its intimate
tone. She must know Evie Wilcox better than she supposed, and
declaring that she "simply must," she accepted.
But when she saw Evie at the entrance of the restaurant,
staring fiercely at nothing after the fashion of athletic women,
her heart failed her anew. Miss Wilcox had changed perceptibly
since her engagement. Her voice was gruffer, her manner more
downright, and she was inclined to patronize the more foolish
virgin. Margaret was silly enough to be pained at this.
Depressed at her isolation, she saw not only houses and
furniture, but the vessel of life itself slipping past her, with
people like Evie and Mr. Cahill on board.
There are moments when virtue and wisdom fail us, and one of
them came to her at Simpson's in the Strand. As she trod the
staircase, narrow, but carpeted thickly, as she entered the
eating-room, where saddles of mutton were being trundled up to
expectant clergymen, she had a strong, if erroneous, conviction
of her own futility, and wished she had never come out of her
backwater, where nothing happened except art and literature, and
where no one ever got married or succeeded in remaining engaged.
Then came a little surprise. "Father might be of the party--yes,
Father was." With a smile of pleasure she moved forward to greet
him, and her feeling of loneliness vanished.
"I thought I'd get round if I could," said he. "Evie told me
of her little plan, so I just slipped in and secured a table.
Always secure a table first. Evie, don't pretend you want to sit
by your old father, because you don't. Miss Schlegel, come in my
side, out of pity. My goodness, but you look tired! Been
worrying round after your young clerks?"
"No, after houses," said Margaret, edging past him into the
box. "I'm hungry, not tired; I want to eat heaps."
"That's good. What'll you have?"
"Fish pie," said she, with a glance at the menu.
"Fish pie! Fancy coming for fish pie to Simpson's. It's not
a bit the thing to go for here. "
"Go for something for me, then," said Margaret, pulling off
her gloves. Her spirits were rising, and his reference to
Leonard Bast had warmed her curiously.
"Saddle of mutton," said he after profound reflection: "and
cider to drink. That's the type of thing. I like this place,
for a joke, once in a way. It is so thoroughly Old English.
Don't you agree?"
"Yes," said Margaret, who didn't. The order was given, the
joint rolled up, and the carver, under Mr. Wilcox's direction,
cut the meat where it was succulent, and piled their plates
high. Mr. Cahill insisted on sirloin, but admitted that he had
made a mistake later on. He and Evie soon fell into a
conversation of the "No, I didn't; yes, you did"
type--conversation which, though fascinating to those who are
engaged in it, neither desires nor deserves the attention of
others.
"It's a golden rule to tip the carver. Tip everywhere's my
motto."
"Perhaps it does make life more human."
"Then the fellows know one again. Especially in the East, if
you tip, they remember you from year's end to year's end.
"Have you been in the East?"
"Oh, Greece and the Levant. I used to go out for sport and
business to Cyprus; some military society of a sort there. A few
piastres, properly distributed, help to keep one's memory green.
But you, of course, think this shockingly cynical. How's your
discussion society getting on? Any new Utopias lately?"
"No, I'm house-hunting, Mr. Wilcox, as I've already told you
once. Do you know of any houses?"
"Afraid I don't."
"Well, what's the point of being practical if you can't find
two distressed females a house? We merely want a small house
with large rooms, and plenty of them."
"Evie, I like that! Miss Schlegel expects me to turn house
agent for her!"
"What's that, Father?
"I want a new home in September, and someone must find it. I
can't."
"Percy, do you know of anything?"
"I can't say I do," said Mr. Cahill.
"How like you! You're never any good."
"Never any good. Just listen to her! Never any good. Oh,
come!"
"Well, you aren't. Miss Schlegel, is he?"
The torrent of their love, having splashed these drops at
Margaret, swept away on its habitual course. She sympathized
with it now, for a little comfort had restored her geniality.
Speech and silence pleased her equally, and while Mr. Wilcox made
some preliminary inquiries about cheese, her eyes surveyed the
restaurant, and admired its well-calculated tributes to the
solidity of our past. Though no more Old English than the works
of Kipling, it had selected its reminiscences so adroitly that
her criticism was lulled, and the guests whom it was nourishing
for imperial purposes bore the outer semblance of Parson Adams or
Tom Jones. Scraps of their talk jarred oddly on the ear. "Right
you are! I'll cable out to Uganda this evening," came from the
table behind. "Their Emperor wants war; well, let him have it,"
was the opinion of a clergyman. She smiled at such
incongruities. "Next time," she said to Mr. Wilcox, "you shall
come to lunch with me at Mr. Eustace Miles's."
"With pleasure."
"No, you'd hate it," she said, pushing her glass towards him
for some more cider. "It's all proteids and body-buildings, and
people come up to you and beg your pardon, but you have such a
beautiful aura."
"A what?"
"Never heard of an aura? Oh, happy, happy man! I scrub at
mine for hours. Nor of an astral plane?"
He had heard of astral planes, and censured them.
"Just so. Luckily it was Helen's aura, not mine, and she had
to chaperone it and do the politenesses. I just sat with my
handkerchief in my mouth till the man went."
"Funny experiences seem to come to you two girls. No one's
ever asked me about my--what d'ye call it? Perhaps I've not got
one."
"You're bound to have one, but it may be such a terrible
colour that no one dares mention it."
"Tell me, though, Miss Schlegel, do you really believe in the
supernatural and all that?"
"Too difficult a question."
"Why's that? Gruyère or Stilton?"
"Gruyère, please."
"Better have Stilton."
"Stilton. Because, though I don't believe in auras, and
think Theosophy's only a halfway-house--"
"--Yet there may be something in it all the same," he
concluded, with a frown.
"Not even that. It may be halfway in the wrong direction. I
can't explain. I don't believe in all these fads, and yet I
don't like saying that I don't believe in them."
He seemed unsatisfied, and said: "So you wouldn't give me
your word that you don't hold with astral bodies and all
the rest of it?"
"I could," said Margaret, surprised that the point was of any
importance to him. "Indeed, I will. When I talked about
scrubbing my aura, I was only trying to be funny. But why do you
want this settled?"
"I don't know."
"Now, Mr. Wilcox, you do know."
"Yes, I am," "No, you're not," burst from the lovers
opposite. Margaret was silent for a moment, and then changed the
subject.
"How's your house?"
"Much the same as when you honoured it last week."
"I don't mean Ducie Street. Howards End, of course."
"Why 'of course'?"
"Can't you turn out your tenant and let it to us? We're
nearly demented."
"Let me think. I wish I could help you. But I thought you
wanted to be in town. One bit of advice: fix your district, then
fix your price, and then don't budge. That's how I got both
Ducie Street and Oniton. I said to myself, 'I mean to be exactly
here,' and I was, and Oniton's a place in a thousand."
"But I do budge. Gentlemen seem to mesmerize houses--cow
them with an eye, and up they come, trembling. Ladies can't.
It's the houses that are mesmerizing me. I've no control over
the saucy things. Houses are alive. No?"
"I'm out of my depth," he said, and added: "Didn't you talk
rather like that to your office boy?"
"Did I? --I mean I did, more or less. I talk the same way to
every one--or try to."
"Yes, I know. And how much do you suppose that he understood
of it?"
"That's his lookout. I don't believe in suiting my
conversation to my company. One can doubtless hit upon some
medium of exchange that seems to do well enough, but it's no more
like the real thing than money is like food. There's no
nourishment in it. You pass it to the lower classes, and they
pass it back to you, and this you call 'social intercourse' or
'mutual endeavour,' when it's mutual priggishness if it's
anything. Our friends at Chelsea don't see this. They say one
ought to be at all costs intelligible, and sacrifice--"
"Lower classes," interrupted Mr. Wilcox, as it were thrusting
his hand into her speech. "Well, you do admit that there are
rich and poor. That's something."
Margaret could not reply. Was he incredibly stupid, or did
he understand her better than she understood herself?
"You do admit that, if wealth was divided up equally, in a
few years there would be rich and poor again just the same. The
hard-working man would come to the top, the wastrel sink to the
bottom."
"Every one admits that."
"Your Socialists don't."
"My Socialists do. Yours mayn't; but I strongly suspect
yours of being not Socialists, but ninepins, which you have
constructed for your own amusement. I can't imagine any living
creature who would bowl over quite so easily."
He would have resented this had she not been a woman. But
women may say anything--it was one of his holiest beliefs--and he
only retorted, with a gay smile: "I don't care. You've made two
damaging admissions, and I'm heartily with you in both."
In time they finished lunch, and Margaret, who had excused
herself from the Hippodrome, took her leave. Evie had scarcely
addressed her, and she suspected that the entertainment had been
planned by the father. He and she were advancing out of their
respective families towards a more intimate acquaintance. It had
begun long ago. She had been his wife's friend, and, as such, he
had given her that silver vinaigrette as a memento. It was
pretty of him to have given that vinaigrette, and he had always
preferred her to Helen--unlike most men. But the advance had
been astonishing lately. They had done more in a week than in
two years, and were really beginning to know each other.
She did not forget his promise to sample Eustace Miles, and
asked him as soon as she could secure Tibby as his chaperon. He
came, and partook of body-building dishes with humility.
Next morning the Schlegels left for Swanage. They had not
succeeded in finding a new home.
As they were seated at Aunt Juley's breakfast-table at The
Bays, parrying her excessive hospitality and enjoying the view of
the bay, a letter came for Margaret and threw her into
perturbation. It was from Mr. Wilcox. It announced an
"important change" in his plans. Owing to Evie's marriage, he
had decided to give up his house in Ducie Street, and was willing
to let it on a yearly tenancy. It was a businesslike letter, and
stated frankly what he would do for them and what he would not
do. Also the rent. If they approved, Margaret was to come up
at once--the words were underlined, as is necessary when
dealing with women--and to go over the house with him. If they
disapproved, a wire would oblige, as he should put it into the
hands of an agent.
The letter perturbed, because she was not sure what it
meant. If he liked her, if he had manoeuvred to get her to
Simpson's, might this be a manoeuvre to get her to London, and
result in an offer of marriage? She put it to herself as
indelicately as possible, in the hope that her brain would cry,
"Rubbish, you're a self-conscious fool!" But her brain only
tingled a little and was silent, and for a time she sat gazing at
the mincing waves, and wondering whether the news would seem
strange to the others.
As soon as she began speaking, the sound of her own voice
reassured her. There could be nothing in it. The replies also
were typical, and in the buff of conversation her fears
vanished.
"You needn't go though--" began her hostess.
"I needn't, but hadn't I better? It's really getting rather
serious. We let chance after chance slip, and the end of it is
we shall be bundled out bag and baggage into the street. We
don't know what we want, that's the mischief with
us--"
"No, we have no real ties," said Helen, helping herself to
toast.
"Shan't I go up to town today, take the house if it's the
least possible, and then come down by the afternoon train
tomorrow, and start enjoying myself. I shall be no fun to myself
or to others until this business is off my mind."
"But you won't do anything rash, Margaret?"
"There's nothing rash to do."
"Who are the Wilcoxes?" said Tibby, a question that
sounds silly, but was really extremely subtle, as his aunt found
to her cost when she tried to answer it. "I don't
manage the Wilcoxes; I don't see where they come
in."
"No more do I," agreed Helen. "It's funny that we just don't
lose sight of them. Out of all our hotel acquaintances, Mr.
Wilcox is the only one who has stuck. It is now over three
years, and we have drifted away from far more interesting people
in that time.
"Interesting people don't get one houses."
"Meg, if you start in your honest-English vein, I shall throw
the treacle at you."
"It's a better vein than the cosmopolitan," said Margaret,
getting up. "Now, children, which is it to be? You know the
Ducie Street house. Shall I say yes or shall I say no? Tibby
love--which? I'm specially anxious to pin you both."
"It all depends what meaning you attach to the word
'possi--'"
"It depends on nothing of the sort. Say 'yes.'"
"Say 'no.'"
Then Margaret spoke rather seriously. "I think," she said,
"that our race is degenerating. We cannot settle even this
little thing; what will it be like when we have to settle a big
one?"
"It will be as easy as eating," returned Helen.
"I was thinking of Father. How could he settle to leave
Germany as he did, when he had fought for it as a young man, and
all his feelings and friends were Prussian? How could he break
loose with Patriotism and begin aiming at something else? It
would have killed me. When he was nearly forty he could change
countries and ideals--and we, at our age, can't change houses.
It's humiliating."
"Your father may have been able to change countries," said
Mrs. Munt with asperity, "and that may or may not be a good
thing. But he could change houses no better than you can, in
fact, much worse. Never shall I forget what poor Emily suffered
in the move from Manchester."
"I knew it," cried Helen. "I told you so. It is the little
things one bungles at. The big, real ones are nothing when they
come."
"Bungle, my dear! You are too little to recollect--in fact,
you weren't there. But the furniture was actually in the vans
and on the move before the lease for Wickham Place was signed,
and Emily took train with baby--who was Margaret then--and the
smaller luggage for London, without so much as knowing where her
new home would be. Getting away from that house may be hard, but
it is nothing to the misery that we all went through getting you
into it."
Helen, with her mouth full, cried: "And that's the man who
beat the Austrians, and the Danes, and the French, and who beat
the Germans that were inside himself. And we're like him."
"Speak for yourself," said Tibby. "Remember that I am
cosmopolitan, please."
"Helen may be right."
"Of course she's right," said Helen.
Helen might be right, but she did not go up to London.
Margaret did that. An interrupted holiday is the worst of the
minor worries, and one may be pardoned for feeling morbid when a
business letter snatches one away from the sea and friends. She
could not believe that her father had ever felt the same. Her
eyes had been troubling her lately, so that she could not read in
the train, and it bored her to look at the landscape, which she
had seen but yesterday. At Southampton she "waved" to Frieda:
Frieda was on her way down to join them at Swanage, and Mrs. Munt
had calculated that their trains would cross. But Frieda was
looking the other way, and Margaret travelled on to town feeling
solitary and old-maidish. How like an old maid to fancy that Mr.
Wilcox was courting her! She had once visited a spinster--poor,
silly, and unattractive--whose mania it was that every man who
approached her fell in love. How Margaret's heart had bled for
the deluded thing! How she had lectured, reasoned, and in
despair acquiesced! "I may have been deceived by the curate, my
dear, but the young fellow who brings the midday post really is
fond of me, and has, as a matter fact--" It had always seemed to
her the most hideous corner of old age, yet she might be driven
into it herself by the mere pressure of virginity.
Mr. Wilcox met her at Waterloo himself. She felt certain
that he was not the same as usual; for one thing, he took offence
at everything she said.
"This is awfully kind of you," she began, "but I'm afraid
it's not going to do. The house has not been built that suits
the Schlegel family."
"What! Have you come up determined not to deal?"
"Not exactly."
"Not exactly? In that case let's be starting."
She lingered to admire the motor, which was new and a fairer
creature than the vermilion giant that had borne Aunt Juley to
her doom three years before.
"Presumably it's very beautiful," she said. "How do you like
it, Crane?"
"Come, let's be starting," repeated her host. "How on earth
did you know that my chauffeur was called Crane?"
"Why, I know Crane: I've been for a drive with Evie once. I
know that you've got a parlourmaid called Milton. I know all
sorts of things."
"Evie!" he echoed in injured tones. "You won't see her.
She's gone out with Cahill. It's no fun, I can tell you, being
left so much alone. I've got my work all day--indeed, a great
deal too much of it--but when I come home in the evening, I tell
you, I can't stand the house."
"In my absurd way, I'm lonely too," Margaret replied. "It's
heart-breaking to leave one's old home. I scarcely remember
anything before Wickham Place, and Helen and Tibby were born
there. Helen says--"
"You, too, feel lonely?"
"Horribly. Hullo, Parliament's back!"
Mr. Wilcox glanced at Parliament contemptuously. The more
important ropes of life lay elsewhere. "Yes, they are talking
again." said he. "But you were going to say--"
"Only some rubbish about furniture. Helen says it alone
endures while men and houses perish, and that in the end the
world will be a desert of chairs and sofas--just imagine
it! --rolling through infinity with no one to sit upon them."
"Your sister always likes her little joke.
"She says 'Yes,' my brother says 'No,' to Ducie Street. It's
no fun helping us, Mr. Wilcox, I assure you."
"You are not as unpractical as you pretend. I shall never
believe it."
Margaret laughed. But she was--quite as unpractical. She
could not concentrate on details. Parliament, the Thames, the
irresponsive chauffeur, would flash into the field of
house-hunting, and all demand some comment or response. It is
impossible to see modern life steadily and see it whole, and she
had chosen to see it whole. Mr. Wilcox saw steadily. He never
bothered over the mysterious or the private. The Thames might
run inland from the sea, the chauffeur might conceal all passion
and philosophy beneath his unhealthy skin. They knew their own
business, and he knew his.
Yet she liked being with him. He was not a rebuke, but a
stimulus, and banished morbidity. Some twenty years her senior,
he preserved a gift that she supposed herself to have already
lost--not youth's creative power, but its self-confidence and
optimism. He was so sure that it was a very pleasant world. His
complexion was robust, his hair had receded but not thinned, the
thick moustache and the eyes that Helen had compared to
brandy-balls had an agreeable menace in them, whether they were
turned towards the slums or towards the stars. Some day--in the
millennium--there may be no need for his type. At present,
homage is due to it from those who think themselves superior, and
who possibly are."
"At all events you responded to my telegram promptly," he
remarked.
"Oh, even I know a good thing when I see it."
"I'm glad you don't despise the goods of this world."
"Heavens, no! Only idiots and prigs do that."
"I am glad, very glad," he repeated, suddenly softening and
turning to her, as if the remark had pleased him. "There is so
much cant talked in would-be intellectual circles. I am glad you
don't share it. Self-denial is all very well as a means of
strengthening the character. But I can't stand those people who
run down comforts. They have usually some axe to grind. Can
you?"
"Comforts are of two kinds," said Margaret, who was keeping
herself in hand--"those we can share with others, like fire,
weather, or music; and those we can't--food, for instance. It
depends."
"I mean reasonable comforts, of course. I shouldn't like to
think that you--" He bent nearer; the sentence died unfinished.
Margaret's head turned very stupid, and the inside of it seemed
to revolve like the beacon in a lighthouse. He did not kiss her,
for the hour was half-past twelve, and the car was passing by the
stables of Buckingham Palace. But the atmosphere was so charged
with emotion that people only seemed to exist on her account, and
she was surprised that Crane did not realize this, and turn
round. Idiot though she might be, surely Mr. Wilcox was
more--how should one put it? --more psychological than usual.
Always a good judge of character for business purposes, he seemed
this afternoon to enlarge his field, and to note qualities
outside neatness, obedience, and decision.
"I want to go over the whole house," she announced when they
arrived. "As soon as I get back to Swanage, which will be
tomorrow afternoon, I'll talk it over once more with Helen and
Tibby, and wire you 'yes' or 'no.'"
"Right. The dining-room." And they began their survey.
The dining-room was big, but over-furnished. Chelsea would
have moaned aloud. Mr. Wilcox had eschewed those decorative
schemes that wince, and relent, and refrain, and achieve beauty
by sacrificing comfort and pluck. After so much self-colour and
self-denial, Margaret viewed with relief the sumptuous dado, the
frieze, the gilded wall-paper, amid whose foliage parrots sang.
It would never do with her own furniture, but those heavy chairs,
that immense side-board loaded with presentation plate, stood up
against its pressure like men. The room suggested men, and
Margaret, keen to derive the modern capitalist from the warriors
and hunters of the past, saw it as an ancient guest-hall, where
the lord sat at meat among his thanes. Even the Bible--the Dutch
Bible that Charles had brought back from the Boer War--fell into
position. Such a room admitted loot.
"Now the entrance-hall."
The entrance-hall was paved.
"Here we fellows smoke."
We fellows smoked in chairs of maroon leather. It was as if
a motor-car had spawned. "Oh, jolly!" said Margaret, sinking
into one of them.
"You do like it?" he said, fixing his eyes on her upturned
face, and surely betraying an almost intimate note. "It's all
rubbish not making oneself comfortable. Isn't it?"
"Ye-es. Semi-rubbish. Are those Cruikshanks?"
"Gillrays. Shall we go on upstairs?"
"Does all this furniture come from Howards End?"
"The Howards End furniture has all gone to Oniton."
"Does--However, I'm concerned with the house, not the
furniture. How big is this smoking-room?"
"Thirty by fifteen. No, wait a minute. Fifteen and a
half?."
"Ah, well. Mr. Wilcox, aren't you ever amused at the
solemnity with which we middle classes approach the subject of
houses?"
They proceeded to the drawing-room. Chelsea managed better
here. It was sallow and ineffective. One could visualize the
ladies withdrawing to it, while their lords discussed life's
realities below, to the accompaniment of cigars. Had Mrs.
Wilcox's drawing-room looked thus at Howards End? Just as this
thought entered Margaret's brain, Mr. Wilcox did ask her to be
his wife, and the knowledge that she had been right so overcame
her that she nearly fainted.
But the proposal was not to rank among the world's great love
scenes.
"Miss Schlegel"--his voice was firm--"I have had you up on
false pretences. I want to speak about a much more serious
matter than a house."
Margaret almost answered: "I know--"
"Could you be induced to share my--is it probable--"
"Oh, Mr. Wilcox!" she interrupted, holding the piano and
averting her eyes. "I see, I see. I will write to you
afterwards if I may."
He began to stammer. "Miss Schlegel--Margaret--you don't
understand."
"Oh yes! Indeed, yes!" said Margaret.
"I am asking you to be my wife."
So deep already was her sympathy, that when he said, "I am
asking you to be my wife," she made herself give a little start.
She must show surprise if he expected it. An immense joy came
over her. It was indescribable. It had nothing to do with
humanity, and most resembled the all-pervading happiness of fine
weather. Fine weather is due to the sun, but Margaret could
think of no central radiance here. She stood in his drawing-room
happy, and longing to give happiness. On leaving him she
realized that the central radiance had been love.
"You aren't offended, Miss Schlegel?"
"How could I be offended?"
There was a moment's pause. He was anxious to get rid of
her, and she knew it. She had too much intuition to look at him
as he struggled for possessions that money cannot buy. He
desired comradeship and affection, but he feared them, and she,
who had taught herself only to desire, and could have clothed the
struggle with beauty, held back, and hesitated with him.
"Good-bye," she continued. "You will have a letter from
me--I am going back to Swanage tomorrow.
"Thank you."
"Good-bye, and it's you I thank."
"I may order the motor round, mayn't I?"
"That would be most kind."
"I wish I had written instead. Ought I to have written?"
"Not at all."
"There's just one question--"
She shook her head. He looked a little bewildered, and they
parted.
They parted without shaking hands: she had kept the
interview, for his sake, in tints of the quietest grey. Yet she
thrilled with happiness ere she reached her own house. Others
had loved her in the past, if one may apply to their brief
desires so grave a word, but those others had been
"ninnies"--young men who had nothing to do, old men who could
find nobody better. And she had often "loved," too, but only so
far as the facts of sex demanded: mere yearnings for the
masculine, to be dismissed for what they were worth, with a
smile. Never before had her personality been touched. She was
not young or very rich, and it amazed her that a man of any
standing should take her seriously. As she sat trying to do
accounts in her empty house, amidst beautiful pictures and noble
books, waves of emotion broke, as if a tide of passion was
flowing through the night air. She shook her head, tried to
concentrate her attention, and failed. In vain did she repeat:
"But I've been through this sort of thing before." She had never
been through it; the big machinery, as opposed to the little, had
been set in motion, and the idea that Mr. Wilcox loved, obsessed
her before she came to love him in return.
She would come to no decision yet. "Oh, sir, this is so
sudden"--that prudish phrase exactly expressed her when her time
came. Premonitions are not preparation. She must examine more
closely her own nature and his; she must talk it over judicially
with Helen. It had been a strange love-scene--the central
radiance unacknowledged from first to last. She, in his place,
would have said "Ich liebe dich," but perhaps it was not his
habit to open the heart. He might have done it if she had
pressed him--as a matter of duty, perhaps; England expects every
man to open his heart once; but the effort would have jarred him,
and never, if she could avoid it, should he lose those defences
that he had chosen to raise against the world. He must never be
bothered with emotional talk, or with a display of sympathy. He
was an elderly man now, and it would be futile and impudent to
correct him.
Mrs. Wilcox strayed in and out, ever a welcome ghost;
surveying the scene, thought Margaret, without one hint of
bitterness.
If one wanted to show a foreigner England, perhaps the wisest
course would be to take him to the final section of the Purbeck
Hills, and stand him on their summit, a few miles to the east of
Corfe. Then system after system of our island would roll
together under his feet. Beneath him is the valley of the Frome,
and all the wild lands that come tossing down from Dorchester,
black and gold, to mirror their gorse in the expanses of Poole.
The valley of the Stour is beyond, unaccountable stream, dirty at
Blandford, pure at Wimborne--the Stour, sliding out of fat
fields, to marry the Avon beneath the tower of Christchurch. The
valley of the Avon--invisible, but far to the north the trained
eye may see Clearbury Ring that guards it, and the imagination
may leap beyond that on to Salisbury Plain itself, and beyond the
Plain to all the glorious downs of Central England. Nor is
Suburbia absent. Bournemouth's ignoble coast cowers to the
right, heralding the pine-trees that mean, for all their beauty,
red houses, and the Stock Exchange, and extend to the gates of
London itself. So tremendous is the City's trail! But the
cliffs of Freshwater it shall never touch, and the island will
guard the Island's purity till the end of time. Seen from the
west, the Wight is beautiful beyond all laws of beauty. It is as
if a fragment of England floated forward to greet the
foreigner--chalk of our chalk, turf of our turf, epitome of what
will follow. And behind the fragment lies Southampton, hostess
to the nations, and Portsmouth, a latent fire, and all around it,
with double and treble collision of tides, swirls the sea. How
many villages appear in this view! How many castles! How many
churches, vanished or triumphant! How many ships, railways, and
roads! What incredible variety of men working beneath that
lucent sky to what final end! The reason fails, like a wave on
the Swanage beach; the imagination swells, spreads, and deepens,
until it becomes geographic and encircles England.
So Frieda Mosebach, now Frau Architect Liesecke, and mother
to her husband's baby, was brought up to these heights to be
impressed, and, after a prolonged gaze, she said that the hills
were more swelling here than in Pomerania, which was true, but
did not seem to Mrs. Munt apposite. Poole Harbour was dry, which
led her to praise the absence of muddy foreshore at Friedrich
Wilhelms Bad, Rügen, where beech-trees hang over the
tideless Baltic, and cows may contemplate the brine. Rather
unhealthy Mrs. Munt thought this would be, water being safer when
it moved about.
"And your English lakes--Vindermere, Grasmere--are they,
then, unhealthy?"
"No, Frau Liesecke; but that is because they are fresh water,
and different. Salt water ought to have tides, and go up and
down a great deal, or else it smells. Look, for instance, at an
aquarium."
"An aquarium! Oh, Meesis Munt, you mean to tell me
that fresh aquariums stink less than salt? Why, when Victor, my
brother-in-law, collected many tadpoles--"
"You are not to say 'stink,'" interrupted Helen; "at least,
you may say it, but you must pretend you are being funny while
you say it."
"Then 'smell.' And the mud of your Pool down there--does it
not smell, or may I say 'stink, ha, ha'?"
"There always has been mud in Poole Harbour," said Mrs. Munt,
with a slight frown. "The rivers bring it down, and a most
valuable oyster-fishery depends upon it."
"Yes, that is so," conceded Frieda; and another international
incident was closed.
"'Bournemouth is,'" resumed their hostess, quoting a local
rhyme to which she was much attached--" 'Bournemouth is, Poole
was, and Swanage is to be the most important town of all and
biggest of the three.' Now, Frau Liesecke, I have shown you
Bournemouth, and I have shown you Poole, so let us walk backward
a little, and look down again at Swanage."
"Aunt Juley, wouldn't that be Meg's train?"
A tiny puff of smoke had been circling the harbour, and now
was bearing southwards towards them over the black and the
gold.
"Oh, dearest Margaret, I do hope she won't be overtired."
"Oh, I do wonder--I do wonder whether she's taken the
house."
"I hope she hasn't been hasty."
"So do I--oh, so do I."
"Will it be as beautiful as Wickham Place?" Frieda asked.
"I should think it would. Trust Mr. Wilcox for doing himself
proud. All those Ducie Street houses are beautiful in their
modern way, and I can't think why he doesn't keep on with it.
But it's really for Evie that he went there, and now that Evie's
going to be married--"
"Ah!"
"You've never seen Miss Wilcox, Frieda. How absurdly
matrimonial you are!"
"But sister to that Paul?"
"Yes."
"And to that Charles," said Mrs. Munt with feeling. "Oh,
Helen, Helen, what a time that was!"
Helen laughed. "Meg and I haven't got such tender hearts.
If there's a chance of a cheap house, we go for it."
"Now look, Frau Liesecke, at my niece's train. You see, it
is coming towards us--coming, coming; and, when it gets to Corfe,
it will actually go through the downs, on which we are
standing, so that, if we walk over, as I suggested, and look down
on Swanage, we shall see it coming on the other side. Shall
we?"
Frieda assented, and in a few minutes they had crossed the
ridge and exchanged the greater view for the lesser. Rather a
dull valley lay below, backed by the slope of the coastward
downs. They were looking across the Isle of Purbeck and on to
Swanage, soon to be the most important town of all, and ugliest
of the three. Margaret's train reappeared as promised, and was
greeted with approval by her aunt. It came to a standstill in
the middle distance, and there it had been planned that Tibby
should meet her, and drive her, and a tea-basket, up to join
them.
"You see," continued Helen to her cousin, "the Wilcoxes
collect houses as your Victor collects tadpoles. They have, one,
Ducie Street; two, Howards End, where my great rumpus was; three,
a country seat in Shropshire; four, Charles has a house in
Hilton; and five, another near Epsom; and six, Evie will have a
house when she marries, and probably a pied-à-terre in the
country--which makes seven. Oh yes, and Paul a hut in Africa
makes eight. I wish we could get Howards End. That was
something like a dear little house! Didn't you think so, Aunt
Juley?"
" I had too much to do, dear, to look at it," said Mrs. Munt,
with a gracious dignity. "I had everything to settle and
explain, and Charles Wilcox to keep in his place besides. It
isn't likely I should remember much. I just remember having
lunch in your bedroom."
"Yes so do I. But, oh dear, dear, how dead it all seems!
And in the autumn there began this anti-Pauline movement--you,
and Frieda, and Meg, and Mrs. Wilcox, all obsessed with the idea
that I might yet marry Paul."
"You yet may," said Frieda despondently.
Helen shook her head. "The Great Wilcox Peril will never
return. If I'm certain of anything it's of that."
"One is certain of nothing but the truth of one's own
emotions."
The remark fell damply on the conversation. But Helen
slipped her arm round her cousin, somehow liking her the better
for making it. It was not an original remark, nor had Frieda
appropriated it passionately, for she had a patriotic rather than
a philosophic mind. Yet it betrayed that interest in the
universal which the average Teuton possesses and the average
Englishman does not. It was, however illogically, the good, the
beautiful, the true, as opposed to the respectable, the pretty,
the adequate. It was a landscape of Böcklin's beside a
landscape of Leader's, strident and ill-considered, but quivering
into supernatural life. It sharpened idealism, stirred the
soul. It may have been a bad preparation for what followed.
"Look!" cried Aunt Juley, hurrying away from generalities
over the narrow summit of the down. "Stand where I stand, and
you will see the pony-cart coming. I see the pony-cart
coming."
They stood and saw the pony-cart coming. Margaret and Tibby
were presently seen coming in it. Leaving the outskirts of
Swanage, it drove for a little through the budding lanes, and
then began the ascent.
"Have you got the house?" they shouted, long before she could
possibly hear.
Helen ran down to meet her. The highroad passed over a
saddle, and a track went thence at right angles along the ridge
of the down.
"Have you got the house?"
Margaret shook her head.
"Oh, what a nuisance! So we're as we were?"
"Not exactly."
She got out, looking tired.
"Some mystery," said Tibby. "We are to be enlightened
presently."
Margaret came close up to her and whispered that she had had
a proposal of marriage from Mr. Wilcox.
Helen was amused. She opened the gate on to the downs so
that her brother might lead the pony through. "It's just like a
widower," she remarked. "They've cheek enough for anything, and
invariably select one of their first wife's friends."
Margaret's face flashed despair.
"That type--" She broke off with a cry. "Meg, not anything
wrong with you?"
"Wait one minute," said Margaret, whispering always.
"But you've never conceivably--you've never--" She pulled
herself together. "Tibby, hurry up through; I can't hold this
gate indefinitely. Aunt Juley! I say, Aunt Juley, make the tea,
will you, and Frieda; we've got to talk houses, and I'll come on
afterwards." And then, turning her face to her sister's, she
burst into tears.
Margaret was stupefied. She heard herself saying, "Oh,
really--" She felt herself touched with a hand that
trembled.
"Don't," sobbed Helen, "don't, don't, Meg, don't!" She
seemed incapable of saying any other word. Margaret, trembling
herself, led her forward up the road, till they strayed through
another gate on to the down.
"Don't, don't do such a thing! I tell you not to--don't! I
know--don't!"
"What do you know?"
"Panic and emptiness," sobbed Helen. "Don't!"
Then Margaret thought, "Helen is a little selfish. I have
never behaved like this when there has seemed a chance of her
marrying. She said: "But we would still see each other very
often, and--"
"It's not a thing like that," sobbed Helen. And she broke
right away and wandered distractedly upwards, stretching her
hands towards the view and crying.
"What's happened to you?" called Margaret, following through
the wind that gathers at sundown on the northern slopes of
hills. "But it's stupid!" And suddenly stupidity seized her,
and the immense landscape was blurred. But Helen turned
back.
" Meg--"
"I don't know what's happened to either of us," said
Margaret, wiping her eyes. "We must both have gone mad." Then
Helen wiped hers, and they even laughed a little.
"Look here, sit down."
"All right; I'll sit down if you'll sit down."
"There. (One kiss.) Now, whatever, whatever is the
matter?"
"I do mean what I said. Don't; it wouldn't do."
"Oh, Helen, stop saying 'don't'! It's ignorant. It's as if
your head wasn't out of the slime. 'Don't' is probably what Mrs.
Bast says all the day to Mr. Bast."
Helen was silent.
"Well?"
"Tell me about it first, and meanwhile perhaps I'll have got
my head out of the slime."
"That's better. Well, where shall I begin? When I arrived
at Waterloo--no, I'll go back before that, because I'm anxious
you should know everything from the first. The 'first' was about
ten days ago. It was the day Mr. Bast came to tea and lost his
temper. I was defending him, and Mr. Wilcox became jealous about
me, however slightly. I thought it was the involuntary thing,
which men can't help any more than we can. You know--at least, I
know in my own case--when a man has said to me, 'So-and-so's a
pretty girl,' I am seized with a momentary sourness against
So-and-so, and long to tweak her ear. It's a tiresome feeling,
but not an important one, and one easily manages it. But it
wasn't only this in Mr. Wilcox's case, I gather now."
"Then you love him?"
Margaret considered. "It is wonderful knowing that a real
man cares for you," she said. "The mere fact of that grows more
tremendous. Remember, I've known and liked him steadily for
nearly three years.
"But loved him?"
Margaret peered into her past. It is pleasant to analyze
feelings while they are still only feelings, and unembodied in
the social fabric. With her arm round Helen, and her eyes
shifting over the view, as if this county or that could reveal
the secret of her own heart, she meditated honestly, and said,
"No."
"But you will?"
"Yes," said Margaret, "of that I'm pretty sure. Indeed, I
began the moment he spoke to me."
"And have settled to marry him?"
"I had, but am wanting a long talk about it now. What is it
against him, Helen? You must try and say."
Helen, in her turn, looked outwards. "It is ever since
Paul," she said finally.
"But what has Mr. Wilcox to do with Paul?"
"But he was there, they were all there that morning when I
came down to breakfast, and saw that Paul was frightened--the man
who loved me frightened and all his paraphernalia fallen, so that
I knew it was impossible, because personal relations are the
important thing for ever and ever, and not this outer life of
telegrams and anger."
She poured the sentence forth in one breath, but her sister
understood it, because it touched on thoughts that were familiar
between them.
"That's foolish. In the first place, I disagree about the
outer life. Well, we've often argued that. The real point is
that there is the widest gulf between my love-making and yours.
Yours--was romance; mine will be prose. I'm not running it
down--a very good kind of prose, but well considered, well
thought out. For instance, I know all Mr. Wilcox's faults. He's
afraid of emotion. He cares too much about success, too little
about the past. His sympathy lacks poetry, and so isn't sympathy
really. I'd even say"--she looked at the shining lagoons--"that,
spiritually, he's not as honest as I am. Doesn't that satisfy
you?"
"No, it doesn't," said Helen. "It makes me feel worse and
worse. You must be mad."
Margaret made a movement of irritation.
"I don't intend him, or any man or any woman, to be all my
life--good heavens, no! There are heaps of things in me that he
doesn't, and shall never, understand."
Thus she spoke before the wedding ceremony and the physical
union, before the astonishing glass shade had fallen that
interposes between married couples and the world. She was to
keep her independence more than do most women as yet. Marriage
was to alter her fortunes rather than her character, and she was
not far wrong in boasting that she understood her future
husband. Yet he did alter her character--a little. There was an
unforeseen surprise, a cessation of the winds and odours of life,
a social pressure that would have her think conjugally.
"So with him," she continued. "There are heaps of things in
him--more especially things that he does--that will always be
hidden from me. He has all those public qualities which you so
despise and enable all this--" She waved her hand at the
landscape, which confirmed anything. "If Wilcoxes hadn't worked
and died in England for thousands of years, you and I couldn't
sit here without having our throats cut. There would be no
trains, no ships to carry us literary people about in, no fields
even. Just savagery. No--perhaps not even that. Without their
spirit life might never have moved out of protoplasm. More and
more do I refuse to draw my income and sneer at those who
guarantee it. There are times when it seems to me--"
"And to me, and to all women. So one kissed Paul."
"That's brutal," said Margaret. "Mine is an absolutely
different case. I've thought things out."
"It makes no difference thinking things out. They come to
the same."
" Rubbish!"
There was a long silence, during which the tide returned into
Poole Harbour. "One would lose something," murmured Helen,
apparently to herself. The water crept over the mud-flats
towards the gorse and the blackened heather. Branksea Island
lost its immense foreshores, and became a sombre episode of
trees. Frome was forced inward towards Dorchester, Stour against
Wimborne, Avon towards Salisbury, and over the immense
displacement the sun presided, leading it to triumph ere he sank
to rest. England was alive, throbbing through all her estuaries,
crying for joy through the mouths of all her gulls, and the north
wind, with contrary motion, blew stronger against her rising
seas. What did it mean? For what end are her fair complexities,
her changes of soil, her sinuous coast? Does she belong to those
who have moulded her and made her feared by other lands, or to
those who have added nothing to her power, but have somehow seen
her, seen the whole island at once, lying as a jewel in a silver
sea, sailing as a ship of souls, with all the brave world's fleet
accompanying her towards eternity?
Margaret had often wondered at the disturbance that takes
place in the world's waters, when Love, who seems so tiny a
pebble, slips in. Whom does Love concern beyond the beloved and
the lover? Yet his impact deluges a hundred shores. No doubt
the disturbance is really the spirit of the generations,
welcoming the new generation, and chafing against the ultimate
Fate, who holds all the seas in the palm of her hand. But Love
cannot understand this. He cannot comprehend another's infinity;
he is conscious only of his own--flying sunbeam, falling rose,
pebble that asks for one quiet plunge below the fretting
interplay of space and time. He knows that he will survive at
the end of things, and be gathered by Fate as a jewel from the
slime, and be handed with admiration round the assembly of the
gods. "Men did produce this," they will say, and, saying, they
will give men immortality. But meanwhile--what agitations
meanwhile! The foundations of Property and Propriety are laid
bare, twin rocks; Family Pride flounders to the surface, puffing
and blowing, and refusing to be comforted; Theology, vaguely
ascetic, gets up a nasty ground swell. Then the lawyers are
aroused--cold brood--and creep out of their holes. They do what
they can; they tidy up Property and Propriety, reassure Theology
and Family Pride. Half-guineas are poured on the troubled
waters, the lawyers creep back, and, if all has gone well, Love
joins one man and woman together in Matrimony.
Margaret had expected the disturbance, and was not irritated
by it. For a sensitive woman she had steady nerves, and could
bear with the incongruous and the grotesque; and, besides, there
was nothing excessive about her love-affair. Good-humour was the
dominant note of her relations with Mr. Wilcox, or, as I must now
call him, Henry. Henry did not encourage romance, and she was no
girl to fidget for it. An acquaintance had become a lover, might
become a husband, but would retain all that she had noted in the
acquaintance; and love must confirm an old relation rather than
reveal a new one.
In this spirit she promised to marry him.
He was in Swanage on the morrow, bearing the
engagement-ring. They greeted one another with a hearty
cordiality that impressed Aunt Juley. Henry dined at The Bays,
but he had engaged a bedroom in the principal hotel: he was one
of those men who knew the principal hotel by instinct. After
dinner he asked Margaret if she wouldn't care for a turn on the
Parade. She accepted, and could not repress a little tremor; it
would be her first real love scene. But as she put on her hat
she burst out laughing. Love was so unlike the article served up
in books: the joy, though genuine, was different; the mystery an
unexpected mystery. For one thing, Mr. Wilcox still seemed a
stranger.
For a time they talked about the ring; then she said:
"Do you remember the Embankment at Chelsea? It can't be ten
days ago."
"Yes," he said, laughing. "And you and your sister were head
and ears deep in some Quixotic scheme. Ah well!"
"I little thought then, certainly. Did you?"
"I don't know about that; I shouldn't like to say."
"Why, was it earlier?" she cried. "Did you think of me this
way earlier! How extraordinarily interesting, Henry! Tell
me."
But Henry had no intention of telling. Perhaps he could not
have told, for his mental states became obscure as soon as he had
passed through them. He misliked the very word "interesting,"
connoting it with wasted energy and even with morbidity. Hard
facts were enough for him.
"I didn't think of it," she pursued. "No; when you spoke to
me in the drawing-room, that was practically the first. It was
all so different from what it's supposed to be. On the stage, or
in books, a proposal is--how shall I put it? --a full-blown
affair, a kind of bouquet; it loses its literal meaning. But in
life a proposal really is a proposal--"
"By the way--"
"--a suggestion, a seed," she concluded; and the thought flew
away into darkness.
"I was thinking, if you didn't mind, that we ought to spend
this evening in a business talk; there will be so much to
settle."
"I think so too. Tell me, in the first place, how did you
get on with Tibby?"
"With your brother?"
"Yes, during cigarettes."
"Oh, very well."
"I am so glad," she answered, a little surprised. "What did
you talk about? Me, presumably."
"About Greece too."
"Greece was a very good card, Henry. Tibby's only a boy
still, and one has to pick and choose subjects a little. Well
done."
"I was telling him I have shares in a currant-farm near
Calamata.
"What a delightful thing to have shares in! Can't we go
there for our honeymoon?"
"What to do?"
"To eat the currants. And isn't there marvellous
scenery?"
"Moderately, but it's not the kind of place one could
possibly go to with a lady."
"Why not?"
"No hotels."
"Some ladies do without hotels. Are you aware that Helen and
I have walked alone over the Apennines, with our luggage on our
backs?"
"I wasn't aware, and, if I can manage it, you will never do
such a thing again."
She said more gravely: "You haven't found time for a talk
with Helen yet, I suppose?"
"No."
"Do, before you go. I am so anxious you two should be
friends."
"Your sister and I have always hit it off," he said
negligently. "But we're drifting away from our business. Let me
begin at the beginning. You know that Evie is going to marry
Percy Cahill."
"Dolly's uncle."
"Exactly. The girl's madly in love with him. A very good
sort of fellow, but he demands--and rightly--a suitable provision
with her. And in the second place, you will naturally
understand, there is Charles. Before leaving town, I wrote
Charles a very careful letter. You see, he has an increasing
family and increasing expenses, and the I. and W. A. is nothing
particular just now, though capable of development.
"Poor fellow!" murmured Margaret, looking out to sea, and not
understanding.
"Charles being the elder son, some day Charles will have
Howards End; but I am anxious, in my own happiness, not to be
unjust to others."
"Of course not," she began, and then gave a little cry. "You
mean money. How stupid I am! Of course not!"
Oddly enough, he winced a little at the word. "Yes. Money,
since you put it so frankly. I am determined to be just to
all--just to you, just to them. I am determined that my children
shall have no case against me."
"Be generous to them," she said sharply. "Bother
justice!"
"I am determined--and have already written to Charles to that
effect--"
"But how much have you got?"
"What?"
"How much have you a year? I've six hundred."
"My income?"
"Yes. We must begin with how much you have, before we can
settle how much you can give Charles. Justice, and even
generosity, depend on that."
"I must say you're a downright young woman," he observed,
patting her arm and laughing a little. "What a question to
spring on a fellow!"
"Don't you know your income? Or don't you want to tell it
me?"
"I--"
"That's all right"--now she patted him--"don't tell me. I
don't want to know. I can do the sum just as well by
proportion. Divide your income into ten parts. How many parts
would you give to Evie, how many to Charles, how many to
Paul?"
"The fact is, my dear, I hadn't any intention of bothering
you with details. I only wanted to let you know that--well, that
something must be done for the others, and you've understood me
perfectly, so let's pass on to the next point."
"Yes, we've settled that," said Margaret, undisturbed by his
strategic blunderings. "Go ahead; give away all you can, bearing
in mind I've a clear six hundred. What a mercy it is to have all
this money about one!"
"We've none too much, I assure you; you're marrying a poor
man.
"Helen wouldn't agree with me here," she continued. "Helen
daren't slang the rich, being rich herself, but she would like
to. There's an odd notion, that I haven't yet got hold of,
running about at the back of her brain, that poverty is somehow
'real.' She dislikes all organization, and probably confuses
wealth with the technique of wealth. Sovereigns in a stocking
wouldn't bother her; cheques do. Helen is too relentless. One
can't deal in her high-handed manner with the world."
"There's this other point, and then I must go back to my
hotel and write some letters. What's to be done now about the
house in Ducie Street?"
"Keep it on--at least, it depends. When do you want to marry
me?"
She raised her voice, as too often, and some youths, who were
also taking the evening air, overheard her. "Getting a bit hot,
eh?" said one. Mr. Wilcox turned on them, and said sharply, "I
say!" There was silence. "Take care I don't report you to the
police." They moved away quietly enough, but were only biding
their time, and the rest of the conversation was punctuated by
peals of ungovernable laughter.
Lowering his voice and infusing a hint of reproof into it, he
said: "Evie will probably be married in September. We could
scarcely think of anything before then."
"The earlier the nicer, Henry. Females are not supposed to
say such things, but the earlier the nicer."
"How about September for us too?" he asked, rather dryly.
"Right. Shall we go into Ducie Street ourselves in
September? Or shall we try to bounce Helen and Tibby into it?
That's rather an idea. They are so unbusinesslike, we could make
them do anything by judicious management. Look here--yes. We'll
do that. And we ourselves could live at Howards End or
Shropshire."
He blew out his cheeks. "Heavens! how you women do fly
round! My head's in a whirl. Point by point, Margaret. Howards
End's impossible. I let it to Hamar Bryce on a three years'
agreement last March. Don't you remember? Oniton. Well, that
is much, much too far away to rely on entirely. You will be able
to be down there entertaining a certain amount, but we must have
a house within easy reach of Town. Only Ducie Street has huge
drawbacks. There's a mews behind."
Margaret could not help laughing. It was the first she had
heard of the mews behind Ducie Street. When she was a possible
tenant it had suppressed itself, not consciously, but
automatically. The breezy Wilcox manner, though genuine, lacked
the clearness of vision that is imperative for truth. When Henry
lived in Ducie Street he remembered the mews; when he tried to
let he forgot it; and if anyone had remarked that the mews must
be either there or not, he would have felt annoyed, and
afterwards have found some opportunity of stigmatizing the
speaker as academic. So does my grocer stigmatize me when I
complain of the quality of his sultanas, and he answers in one
breath that they are the best sultanas, and how can I expect the
best sultanas at that price? It is a flaw inherent in the
business mind, and Margaret may do well to be tender to it,
considering all that the business mind has done for England.
"Yes, in summer especially, the mews is a serious nuisance.
The smoking room, too, is an abominable little den. The house
opposite has been taken by operatic people. Ducie Street's going
down, it's my private opinion."
"How sad! It's only a few years since they built those
pretty houses."
"Shows things are moving. Good for trade."
"I hate this continual flux of London. It is an epitome of
us at our worst--eternal formlessness; all the qualities, good,
bad, and indifferent, streaming away--streaming, streaming for
ever. That's why I dread it so. I mistrust rivers, even in
scenery. Now, the sea--"
"High tide, yes."
"Hoy toid"--from the promenading youths.
"And these are the men to whom we give the vote," observed
Mr. Wilcox, omitting to add that they were also the men to whom
he gave work as clerks--work that scarcely encouraged them to
grow into other men. "However, they have their own lives and
interests. Let's get on."
He turned as he spoke, and prepared to see her back to The
Bays. The business was over. His hotel was in the opposite
direction, and if he accompanied her his letters would be late
for the post. She implored him not to come, but he was
obdurate.
"A nice beginning, if your aunt saw you slip in alone!"
"But I always do go about alone. Considering I've walked
over the Apennines, it's common sense. You will make me so
angry. I don't the least take it as a compliment."
He laughed, and lit a cigar. "It isn't meant as a
compliment, my dear. I just won't have you going about in the
dark. Such people about too! It's dangerous. "
"Can't I look after myself? I do wish--"
"Come along, Margaret; no wheedling."
A younger woman might have resented his masterly ways, but
Margaret had too firm a grip of life to make a fuss. She was, in
her own way, as masterly. If he was a fortress she was a
mountain peak, whom all might tread, but whom the snows made
nightly virginal. Disdaining the heroic outfit, excitable in her
methods, garrulous, episodical, shrill, she misled her lover much
as she had misled her aunt. He mistook her fertility for
weakness. He supposed her "as clever as they make 'em," but no
more, not realizing that she was penetrating to the depths of his
soul, and approving of what she found there.
And if insight were sufficient, if the inner life were the
whole of life, their happiness has been assured.
They walked ahead briskly. The parade and the road after it
were well lighted, but it was darker in Aunt Juley's garden. As
they were going up by the side-paths, through some rhododendrons,
Mr. Wilcox, who was in front, said "Margaret" rather huskily,
turned, dropped his cigar, and took her in his arms.
She was startled, and nearly screamed, but recovered herself
at once, and kissed with genuine love the lips that were pressed
against her own. It was their first kiss, and when it was over
he saw her safely to the door and rang the bell for her, but
disappeared into the night before the maid answered it. On
looking back, the incident displeased her. It was so isolated.
Nothing in their previous conversation had heralded it, and,
worse still, no tenderness had ensued. If a man cannot lead up
to passion he can at all events lead down from it, and she had
hoped, after her complaisance, for some interchange of gentle
words. But he had hurried away as if ashamed, and for an instant
she was reminded of Helen and Paul.
Charles had just been scolding his Dolly. She deserved the
scolding, and had bent before it, but her head, though bloody,
was unsubdued, and her chirrupings began to mingle with his
retreating thunder.
"You've woken the baby. I knew you would. (Rum-ti-foo,
Rackety-tackety Tompkin!) I'm not responsible for what Uncle
Percy does, nor for anybody else or anything, so there!"
"Who asked him while I was away? Who asked my sister down to
meet him? Who sent them out in the motor day after day?"
"Charles, that reminds me of some poem."
"Does it indeed? We shall all be dancing to a very different
music presently. Miss Schlegel has fairly got us on toast."
"I could simply scratch that woman's eyes out, and to say
it's my fault is most unfair."
"It's your fault, and five months ago you admitted it."
"I didn't."
"You did."
"Tootle, tootle, playing on the pootle!" exclaimed Dolly,
suddenly devoting herself to the child.
"It's all very well to turn the conversation, but Father
would never have dreamt of marrying as long as Evie was there to
make him comfortable. But you must needs start match-making.
Besides, Cahill's too old."
"Of course, if you're going to be rude to Uncle Percy--"
"Miss Schlegel always meant to get hold of Howards End, and,
thanks to you, she's got it."
"I call the way you twist things round and make them hang
together most unfair. You couldn't have been nastier if you'd
caught me flirting. Could he, diddums?"
"We're in a bad hole, and must make the best of it. I shall
answer the pater's letter civilly. He's evidently anxious to do
the decent thing. But I do not intend to forget these Schlegels
in a hurry. As long as they're on their best behaviour--Dolly,
are you listening? --we'll behave, too. But if I find them
giving themselves airs, or monopolizing my father, or at all
ill-treating him, or worrying him with their artistic
beastliness, I intend to put my foot down, yes, firmly. Taking
my mother's place! Heaven knows what poor old Paul will say when
the news reaches him."
The interlude closes. It has taken place in Charles's garden
at Hilton. He and Dolly are sitting in deck-chairs, and their
motor is regarding them placidly from its garage across the
lawn. A short-frocked edition of Charles also regards them
placidly; a perambulator edition is squeaking; a third edition is
expected shortly. Nature is turning out Wilcoxes in this
peaceful abode, so that they may inherit the earth.
Margaret greeted her lord with peculiar tenderness on the
morrow. Mature as he was, she might yet be able to help him to
the building of the rainbow bridge that should connect the prose
in us with the passion. Without it we are meaningless fragments,
half monks, half beasts, unconnected arches that have never
joined into a man. With it love is born, and alights on the
highest curve, glowing against the grey, sober against the fire.
Happy the man who sees from either aspect the glory of these
outspread wings. The roads of his soul lie clear, and he and his
friends shall find easy-going.
It was hard-going in the roads of Mr. Wilcox's soul. From
boyhood he had neglected them. "I am not a fellow who bothers
about my own inside." Outwardly he was cheerful, reliable, and
brave; but within, all had reverted to chaos, ruled, so far as it
was ruled at all, by an incomplete asceticism. Whether as boy,
husband, or widower, he had always the sneaking belief that
bodily passion is bad, a belief that is desirable only when held
passionately. Religion had confirmed him. The words that were
read aloud on Sunday to him and to other respectable men were the
words that had once kindled the souls of St. Catharine and St.
Francis into a white-hot hatred of the carnal. He could-not be
as the saints and love the Infinite with a seraphic ardour, but
he could be a little ashamed of loving a wife. "Amabat, amare
timebat." And it was here that Margaret hoped to help him.
It did not seem so difficult. She need trouble him with no
gift of her own. She would only point out the salvation that was
latent in his own soul, and in the soul of every man. Only
connect! That was the whole of her sermon. Only connect the
prose and the passion, and both will be exalted, and human love
will be seen at its height. Live in fragments no longer. Only
connect, and the beast and the monk, robbed of the isolation that
is life to either, will die.
Nor was the message difficult to give. It need not take the
form of a good "talking." By quiet indications the bridge would
be built and span their lives with beauty.
But she failed. For there was one quality in Henry for which
she was never prepared, however much she reminded herself of it:
his obtuseness. He simply did not notice things, and there was
no more to be said. He never noticed that Helen and Frieda were
hostile, or that Tibby was not interested in currant plantations;
he never noticed the lights and shades that exist in the grayest
conversation, the finger-posts, the milestones, the collisions,
the illimitable views. Once--on another occasion--she scolded
him about it. He was puzzled, but replied with a laugh: "My
motto is Concentrate. I've no intention of frittering away my
strength on that sort of thing." "It isn't frittering away the
strength," she protested. "It's enlarging the space in which you
may be strong." He answered: "You're a clever little woman, but
my motto's Concentrate." And this morning he concentrated with a
vengeance.
They met in the rhododendrons of yesterday. In the daylight
the bushes were inconsiderable and the path was bright in the
morning sun. She was with Helen, who had been ominously quiet
since the affair was settled. "Here we all are!" she cried, and
took him by one hand, retaining her sister's in the other.
"Here we are. Good-morning, Helen."
Helen replied, "Good-morning, Mr. Wilcox."
"Henry, she has had such a nice letter from the queer, cross
boy--Do you remember him? He had a sad moustache, but the back
of his head was young."
"I have had a letter too. Not a nice one--I want to talk it
over with you:" for Leonard Bast was nothing to him now that she
had given him her word; the triangle of sex was broken for
ever.
"Thanks to your hint, he's clearing out of the
Porphyrion."
"Not a bad business that Porphyrion," he said absently, as he
took his own letter out of his pocket.
"Not a bad--" she exclaimed, dropping his hand.
"Surely, on Chelsea Embankment--"
"Here's our hostess. Good-morning, Mrs. Munt. Fine
rhododendrons. Good morning, Frau Liesecke; we manage to grow
flowers in England, don't we?"
"Not a bad business?"
"No. My letter's about Howards End. Bryce has been ordered
abroad, and wants to sublet it. I am far from sure that I shall
give him permission. There was no clause in the agreement. In
my opinion, subletting is a mistake. If he can find me another
tenant, whom I consider suitable, I may cancel the agreement.
Morning, Schlegel. Don't you think that's better than
subletting?"
Helen had dropped her hand now, and he had steered her past
the whole party to the seaward side of the house. Beneath them
was the bourgeois little bay, which must have yearned all through
the centuries for just such a watering-place as Swanage to be
built on its margin. The waves were colourless, and the
Bournemouth steamer gave a further touch of insipidity, drawn up
against the pier and hooting wildly for excursionists.
"When there is a sublet I find that damage--"
"Do excuse me, but about the Porphyrion. I don't feel
easy--might I just bother you, Henry?"
Her manner was so serious that he stopped, and asked her a
little sharply what she wanted.
"You said on Chelsea Embankment, surely, that it was a bad
concern, so we advised this clerk to clear out. He writes this
morning that he's taken our advice, and now you say it's not a
bad concern. "
"A clerk who clears out of any concern, good or bad, without
securing a berth somewhere else first, is a fool, and I've no
pity for him."
"He has not done that. He's going into a bank in Camden
Town, he says. The salary's much lower, but he hopes to
manage--a branch of Dempster's Bank. Is that all right?"
"Dempster! My goodness me, yes."
"More right than the Porphyrion?"
"Yes, yes, yes; safe as houses--safer."
"Very many thanks. I'm sorry--if you sublet--?"
"If he sublets, I shan't have the same control. In theory
there should be no more damage done at Howards End; in practice
there will be. Things may be done for which no money can
compensate. For instance, I shouldn't want that fine wych-elm
spoilt. It hangs--Margaret, we must go and see the old place
some time. It's pretty in its way. We'll motor down and have
lunch with Charles."
"I should enjoy that," said Margaret bravely.
"What about next Wednesday?"
"Wednesday? No, I couldn't well do that. Aunt Juley expects
us to stop here another week at least."
"But you can give that up now."
"Er--no," said Margaret, after a moment's thought.
"Oh, that'll be all right. I'll speak to her."
"This visit is a high solemnity. My aunt counts on it year
after year. She turns the house upside down for us; she invites
our special friends--she scarcely knows Frieda, and we can't
leave her on her hands. I missed one day, and she would be so
hurt if I didn't stay the full ten."
"But I'll say a word to her. Don't you bother."
"Henry, I won't go. Don't bully me."
"You want to see the house, though?"
"Very much--I've heard so much about it, one way or the
other. Aren't there pigs' teeth in the wych-elm?"
"Pigs' teeth?"
"And you chew the bark for toothache."
"What a rum notion! Of course not!"
"Perhaps I have confused it with some other tree. There are
still a great number of sacred trees in England, it seems."
But he left her to intercept Mrs. Munt, whose voice could be
heard in the distance: to be intercepted himself by Helen.
"Oh, Mr. Wilcox, about the Porphyrion--" she began, and went
scarlet all over her face.
"It's all right," called Margaret, catching them up.
"Dempster's Bank's better."
"But I think you told us the Porphyrion was bad, and would
smash before Christmas."
"Did I? It was still outside the Tariff Ring, and had to
take rotten policies. Lately it came in--safe as houses
now."
"In other words, Mr. Bast need never have left it."
"No, the fellow needn't."
"--and needn't have started life elsewhere at a greatly
reduced salary."
"He only says 'reduced,'" corrected Margaret, seeing trouble
ahead.
"With a man so poor, every reduction must be great. I
consider it a deplorable misfortune."
Mr. Wilcox, intent on his business with Mrs. Munt, was going
steadily on, but the last remark made him say: "What? What's
that? Do you mean that I'm responsible?"
"You're ridiculous, Helen."
"You seem to think--" He looked at his watch. "Let me
explain the point to you. It is like this. You seem to assume,
when a business concern is conducting a delicate negotiation, it
ought to keep the public informed stage by stage. The
Porphyrion, according to you, was bound to say, 'I am trying all
I can to get into the Tariff Ring. I am not sure that I shall
succeed, but it is the only thing that will save me from
insolvency, and I am trying.' My dear Helen--"
"Is that your point? A man who had little money has
less--that's mine."
"I am grieved for your clerk. But it is all in the day's
work. It's part of the battle of life."
"A man who had little money," she repeated, "has less, owing
to us. Under these circumstances I do not consider 'the battle
of life' a happy expression."
"Oh come, come!" he protested pleasantly. "You're not to
blame. No one's to blame."
"Is no one to blame for anything?"
"I wouldn't say that, but you're taking it far too
seriously. Who is this fellow?"
"We have told you about the fellow twice already," said
Helen. "You have even met the fellow. He is very poor and his
wife is an extravagant imbecile. He is capable of better
things. We--we, the upper classes--thought we would help him
from the height of our superior knowledge--and here's the
result!"
He raised his finger. "Now, a word of advice."
"I require no more advice."
"A word of advice. Don't take up that sentimental attitude
over the poor. See that she doesn't, Margaret. The poor are
poor, and one's sorry for them, but there it is. As civilization
moves forward, the shoe is bound to pinch in places, and it's
absurd to pretend that anyone is responsible personally. Neither
you, nor I, nor my informant, nor the man who informed him, nor
the directors of the Porphyrion, are to blame for this clerk's
loss of salary. It's just the shoe pinching--no one can help it;
and it might easily have been worse."
Helen quivered with indignation.
"By all means subscribe to charities--subscribe to them
largely--but don't get carried away by absurd schemes of Social
Reform. I see a good deal behind the scenes, and you can take it
from me that there is no Social Question--except for a few
journalists who try to get a living out of the phrase. There are
just rich and poor, as there always have been and always will
be. Point me out a time when men have been equal--"
"I didn't say--"
"Point me out a time when desire for equality has made them
happier. No, no. You can't. There always have been rich and
poor. I'm no fatalist. Heaven forbid! But our civilization is
moulded by great impersonal forces" (his voice grew complacent;
it always did when he eliminated the personal), "and there always
will be rich and poor. You can't deny it" (and now it was a
respectful voice)--"and you can't deny that, in spite of all, the
tendency of civilization has on the whole been upward."
"Owing to God, I suppose," flashed Helen.
He stared at her.
"You grab the dollars. God does the rest."
It was no good instructing the girl if she was going to talk
about God in that neurotic modern way. Fraternal to the last, he
left her for the quieter company of Mrs. Munt. He thought, "She
rather reminds me of Dolly."
Helen looked out at the sea.
"Don't even discuss political economy with Henry," advised
her sister. "It'll only end in a cry."
"But he must be one of those men who have reconciled science
with religion," said Helen slowly. "I don't like those men.
They are scientific themselves, and talk of the survival of the
fittest, and cut down the salaries of their clerks, and stunt the
independence of all who may menace their comfort, but yet they
believe that somehow good--and it is always that sloppy
'somehow'--will be the outcome, and that in some mystical way the
Mr. Basts of the future will benefit because the Mr. Basts of
today are in pain."
"He is such a man in theory. But oh, Helen, in theory!"
"But oh, Meg, what a theory!"
"Why should you put things so bitterly, dearie?"
"Because I'm an old maid," said Helen, biting her lip. "I
can't think why I go on like this myself." She shook off her
sister's hand and went into the house. Margaret, distressed at
the day's beginning, followed the Bournemouth steamer with her
eyes. She saw that Helen's nerves were exasperated by the
unlucky Bast business beyond the bounds of politeness. There
might at any minute be a real explosion, which even Henry would
notice. Henry must be removed.
"Margaret!" her aunt called. "Magsy! It isn't true, surely,
what Mr. Wilcox says, that you want to go away early next
week?"
"Not 'want,'" was Margaret's prompt reply; "but there is so
much to be settled, and I do want to see the Charles'."
"But going away without taking the Weymouth trip, or even the
Lulworth?" said Mrs. Munt, coming nearer. "Without going once
more up Nine Barrows Down?"
"I'm afraid so."
Mr. Wilcox rejoined her with, "Good! I did the breaking of
the ice."
A wave of tenderness came over her. She put a hand on either
shoulder, and looked deeply into the black, bright eyes. What
was behind their competent stare? She knew, but was not
disquieted.
Margaret had no intention of letting things slide, and the
evening before she left Swanage she gave her sister a thorough
scolding. She censured her, not for disapproving of the
engagement, but for throwing over her disapproval a veil of
mystery. Helen was equally frank. "Yes," she said, with the air
of one looking inwards, "there is a mystery. I can't help it.
It's not my fault. It's the way life has been made." Helen in
those days was over-interested in the subconscious self. She
exaggerated the Punch and Judy aspect of life, and spoke of
mankind as puppets, whom an invisible showman twitches into love
and war. Margaret pointed out that if she dwelt on this she,
too, would eliminate the personal. Helen was silent for a
minute, and then burst into a queer speech, which cleared the
air. "Go on and marry him. I think you're splendid; and if
anyone can pull it off, you will." Margaret denied that there was
anything to "pull off," but she continued: "Yes, there is, and I
wasn't up to it with Paul. I can only do what's easy. I can
only entice and be enticed. I can't, and won't attempt difficult
relations. If I marry, it will either be a man who's strong
enough to boss me or whom I'm strong enough to boss. So I shan't
ever marry, for there aren't such men. And Heaven help any one
whom I do marry, for I shall certainly run away from him before
you can say 'Jack Robinson.' There! Because I'm uneducated. But
you, you're different; you're a heroine."
"Oh, Helen! Am I? Will it be as dreadful for poor Henry as
all that?"
"You mean to keep proportion, and that's heroic, it's Greek,
and I don't see why it shouldn't succeed with you. Go on and
fight with him and help him. Don't ask me for help, or
even for sympathy. Henceforward I'm going my own way. I mean to
be thorough, because thoroughness is easy. I mean to dislike
your husband, and to tell him so. I mean to make no concessions
to Tibby. If Tibby wants to live with me, he must lump me. I
mean to love you more than ever. Yes, I do. You and I
have built up something real, because it is purely spiritual.
There's no veil of mystery over us. Unreality and mystery begin
as soon as one touches the body. The popular view is, as usual,
exactly the wrong one. Our bothers are over tangible
things--money, husbands, house-hunting. But Heaven will work of
itself."
Margaret was grateful for this expression of affection, and
answered, "Perhaps." All vistas close in the unseen--no one
doubts it--but Helen closed them rather too quickly for her
taste. At every turn of speech one was confronted with reality
and the absolute. Perhaps Margaret grew too old for metaphysics,
perhaps Henry was weaning her from them, but she felt that there
was something a little unbalanced in the mind that so readily
shreds the visible. The business man who assumes that this life
is everything, and the mystic who asserts that it is nothing,
fail, on this side and on that, to hit the truth. "Yes, I see,
dear; it's about halfway between," Aunt Juley had hazarded in
earlier years. No; truth, being alive, was not halfway between
anything. It was only to be found by continuous excursions into
either realm, and though proportion is the final secret, to
espouse it at the outset is to insure sterility.
Helen, agreeing here, disagreeing there, would have talked
till midnight, but Margaret, with her packing to do, focussed the
conversation on Henry. She might abuse Henry behind his back,
but please would she always, be civil to him in company? "I
definitely dislike him, but I'll do what I can," promised Helen.
"Do what you can with my friends in return."
This conversation made Margaret easier. Their inner life was
so safe that they could bargain over externals in a way that
would have been incredible to Aunt Juley, and impossible for
Tibby or Charles. There are moments when the inner life actually
"pays," when years of self-scrutiny, conducted for no ulterior
motive, are suddenly of practical use. Such moments are still
rare in the West; that they come at all promises a fairer
future. Margaret, though unable to understand her sister, was
assured against estrangement, and returned to London with a more
peaceful mind.
The following morning, at eleven o'clock, she presented
herself at the offices of the Imperial and West African Rubber
Company. She was glad to go there, for Henry had implied his
business rather than described it, and the formlessness and
vagueness that one associates with Africa had hitherto brooded
over the main sources of his wealth. Not that a visit to the
office cleared things up. There was just the ordinary surface
scum of ledgers and polished counters and brass bars that began
and stopped for no possible reason, of electric-light globes
blossoming in triplets, of little rabbit hutches faced with glass
or wire, of little rabbits. And even when she penetrated to the
inner depths, she found only the ordinary table and Turkey
carpet, and though the map over the fireplace did depict a
helping of West Africa, it was a very ordinary map. Another map
hung opposite, on which the whole continent appeared, looking
like a whale marked out for blubber, and by its side was a door,
shut, but Henry's voice came through it, dictating a "strong"
letter. She might have been at the Porphyrion, or Dempster's
Bank, or her own wine-merchant's. Everything seems just alike in
these days. But perhaps she was seeing the Imperial side of the
company rather than its West African, and Imperialism always had
been one of her difficulties.
"One minute!" called Mr. Wilcox on receiving her name. He
touched a bell, the effect of which was to produce Charles.
Charles had written his father an adequate letter--more
adequate than Evie's, through which a girlish indignation
throbbed. And he greeted his future stepmother with
propriety.
"I hope that my wife--how do you do? --will give you a decent
lunch," was his opening. "I left instructions, but we live in a
rough-and-ready way. She expects you back to tea, too, after you
have had a look at Howards End. I wonder what you'll think of
the place. I wouldn't touch it with tongs myself. Do sit down!
It's a measly little place."
"I shall enjoy seeing it," said Margaret, feeling, for the
first time, shy.
"You'll see it at its worst, for Bryce decamped abroad last
Monday without even arranging for a charwoman to clear up after
him. I never saw such a disgraceful mess. It's unbelievable.
He wasn't in the house a month."
"I've more than a little bone to pick with Bryce," called
Henry from the inner chamber.
"Why did he go so suddenly?"
"Invalid type; couldn't sleep."
"Poor fellow!"
"Poor fiddlesticks!" said Mr. Wilcox, joining them. "He had
the impudence to put up notice-boards without as much as saying
with your leave or by your leave. Charles flung them down."
"Yes, I flung them down," said Charles modestly.
"I've sent a telegram after him, and a pretty sharp one,
too. He, and he in person is responsible for the upkeep of that
house for the next three years."
"The keys are at the farm; we wouldn't have the keys."
"Quite right."
"Dolly would have taken them, but I was in, fortunately."
"What's Mr. Bryce like?" asked Margaret.
But nobody cared. Mr. Bryce was the tenant, who had no right
to sublet; to have defined him further was a waste of time. On
his misdeeds they descanted profusely, until the girl who had
been typing the strong letter came out with it. Mr. Wilcox added
his signature. "Now we'll be off," said he.
A motor-drive, a form of felicity detested by Margaret,
awaited her. Charles saw them in, civil to the last, and in a
moment the offices of the Imperial and West African Rubber
Company faded away. But it was not an impressive drive. Perhaps
the weather was to blame, being grey and banked high with weary
clouds. Perhaps Hertfordshire is scarcely intended for
motorists. Did not a gentleman once motor so quickly through
Westmoreland that he missed it? and if Westmoreland can be
missed, it will fare ill with a county whose delicate structure
particularly needs the attentive eye. Hertfordshire is England
at its quietest, with little emphasis of river and hill; it is
England meditative. If Drayton were with us again to write a new
edition of his incomparable poem, he would sing the nymphs of
Hertfordshire as indeterminate of feature, with hair obfuscated
by the London smoke. Their eyes would be sad, and averted from
their fate towards the Northern flats, their leader not Isis or
Sabrina, but the slowly flowing Lea. No glory of raiment would
be theirs, no urgency of dance; but they would be real
nymphs.
The chauffeur could not travel as quickly as he had hoped,
for the Great North Road was full of Easter traffic. But he went
quite quick enough for Margaret, a poor-spirited creature, who
had chickens and children on the brain.
"They're all right," said Mr. Wilcox. "They'll learn--like
the swallows and the telegraph-wires."
"Yes, but, while they're learning--"
"The motor's come to stay," he answered. "One must get
about. There's a pretty church--oh, you aren't sharp enough.
Well, look out, if the road worries you--right outward at the
scenery. "
She looked at the scenery. It heaved and merged like
porridge. Presently it congealed. They had arrived.
Charles's house on the left; on the right the swelling forms
of the Six Hills. Their appearance in such a neighbourhood
surprised her. They interrupted the stream of residences that
was thickening up towards Hilton. Beyond them she saw meadows
and a wood, and beneath them she settled that soldiers of the
best kind lay buried. She hated war and liked soldiers--it was
one of her amiable inconsistencies.
But here was Dolly, dressed up to the nines, standing at the
door to greet them, and here were the first drops of the rain.
They ran in gaily, and after a long wait in the drawing-room sat
down to the rough-and-ready lunch, every dish in which concealed
or exuded cream. Mr. Bryce was the chief topic of conversation.
Dolly described his visit with the key, while her father-in-law
gave satisfaction by chaffing her and contradicting all she
said. It was evidently the custom to laugh at Dolly. He chaffed
Margaret, too, and Margaret, roused from a grave meditation, was
pleased, and chaffed him back. Dolly seemed surprised, and eyed
her curiously. After lunch the two children came down. Margaret
disliked babies, but hit it off better with the two-year-old, and
sent Dolly into fits of laughter by talking sense to him. "Kiss
them now, and come away," said Mr. Wilcox. She came, but refused
to kiss them: it was such hard luck on the little things, she
said, and though Dolly proffered Chorly-worly and Porgly-woggles
in turn, she was obdurate.
By this time it was raining steadily. The car came round
with the hood up, and again she lost all sense of space. In a
few minutes they stopped, and Crane opened the door of the
car.
"What's happened?" asked Margaret.
"What do you suppose?" said Henry.
A little porch was close up against her face.
"Are we there already?"
"We are."
"Well, I never! In years ago it seemed so far away."
Smiling, but somehow disillusioned, she jumped out, and her
impetus carried her to the front-door. She was about to open it,
when Henry said: "That's no good; it's locked. Who's got the
key?"
As he had himself forgotten to call for the key at the farm,
no one replied. He also wanted to know who had left the front
gate open, since a cow had strayed in from the road, and was
spoiling the croquet lawn. Then he said rather crossly:
"Margaret, you wait in the dry. I'll go down for the key. It
isn't a hundred yards.
"Mayn't I come too?"
"No; I shall be back before I'm gone."
Then the car turned away, and it was as if a curtain had
risen. For the second time that day she saw the appearance of
the earth.
There were the greengage-trees that Helen had once described,
there the tennis lawn, there the hedge that would be glorious
with dog-roses in June, but the vision now was of black and
palest green. Down by the dell-hole more vivid colours were
awakening, and Lent Lilies stood sentinel on its margin, or
advanced in battalions over the grass. Tulips were a tray of
jewels. She could not see the wych-elm tree, but a branch of the
celebrated vine, studded with velvet knobs, had covered the
porch. She was struck by the fertility of the soil; she had
seldom been in a garden where the flowers looked so well, and
even the weeds she was idly plucking out of the porch were
intensely green. Why had poor Mr. Bryce fled from all this
beauty? For she had already decided that the place was
beautiful.
"Naughty cow! Go away!" cried Margaret to the cow, but
without indignation.
Harder came the rain, pouring out of a windless sky, and
spattering up from the notice-boards of the house-agents, which
lay in a row on the lawn where Charles had hurled them. She must
have interviewed Charles in another world--where one did have
interviews. How Helen would revel in such a notion! Charles
dead, all people dead, nothing alive but houses and gardens. The
obvious dead, the intangible alive, and--no connection at all
between them! Margaret smiled. Would that her own fancies were
as clear-cut! Would that she could deal as high-handedly with
the world! Smiling and sighing, she laid her hand upon the
door. It opened. The house was not locked up at all.
She hesitated. Ought she to wait for Henry? He felt
strongly about property, and might prefer to show her over
himself. On the other hand, he had told her to keep in the dry,
and the porch was beginning to drip. So she went in, and the
drought from inside slammed the door behind.
Desolation greeted her. Dirty finger-prints were on the
hall-windows, flue and rubbish on its unwashed boards. The
civilization of luggage had been here for a month, and then
decamped. Dining-room and drawing room--right and left--were
guessed only by their wall-papers. They were just rooms where
one could shelter from the rain. Across the ceiling of each ran
a great beam. The dining-room and hall revealed theirs openly,
but the drawing-room's was match-boarded--because the facts of
life must be concealed from ladies? Drawing-room, dining-room,
and hall--how petty the names sounded! Here were simply three
rooms where children could play and friends shelter from the
rain. Yes, and they were beautiful.
Then she opened one of the doors opposite--there were
two--and exchanged wall-papers for whitewash. It was the
servants' part, though she scarcely realized that: just rooms
again, where friends might shelter. The garden at the back was
full of flowering cherries and plums. Farther on were hints of
the meadow and a black cliff of pines. Yes, the meadow was
beautiful.
Penned in by the desolate weather, she recaptured the sense
of space which the motor had tried to rob from her. She
remembered again that ten square miles are not ten times as
wonderful as one square mile, that a thousand square miles are
not practically the same as heaven. The phantom of bigness,
which London encourages, was laid for ever when she paced from
the hall at Howards End to its kitchen and heard the rains run
this way and that where the watershed of the roof divided
them.
Now Helen came to her mind, scrutinizing half Wessex from the
ridge of the Purbeck Downs, and saying: "You will have to lose
something." She was not so sure. For instance, she would double
her kingdom by opening the door that concealed the stairs.
Now she thought of the map of Africa; of empires; of her
father; of the two supreme nations, streams of whose life warmed
her blood, but, mingling, had cooled her brain. She paced back
into the hall, and as she did so the house reverberated.
"Is that you, Henry?" she called.
There was no answer, but the house reverberated again.
"Henry, have you got in?"
But it was the heart of the house beating, faintly at first,
then loudly, martially. It dominated the rain.
It is the starved imagination, not the well-nourished, that
is afraid. Margaret flung open the door to the stairs. A noise
as of drums seemed to deafen her. A woman, an old woman, was
descending, with figure erect, with face impassive, with lips
that parted and said dryly:
"Oh! Well, I took you for Ruth Wilcox."
Margaret stammered: "I--Mrs. Wilcox--I?"
"In fancy, of course--in fancy. You had her way of walking.
Good-day." And the old woman passed out into the rain.
"It gave her quite a turn," said Mr. Wilcox, when retailing
the incident to Dolly at tea-time. "None of you girls have any
nerves, really. Of course, a word from me put it all right, but
silly old Miss Avery--she frightened you, didn't she, Margaret?
There you stood clutching a bunch of weeds. She might have said
something, instead of coming down the stairs with that alarming
bonnet on. I passed her as I came in. Enough to make the car
shy. I believe Miss Avery goes in for being a character; some
old maids do." He lit a cigarette. "It is their last resource.
Heaven knows what she was doing in the place; but that's Bryce's
business, not mine."
"I wasn't as foolish as you suggest," said Margaret. "She
only startled me, for the house had been silent so long."
"Did you take her for a spook?" asked Dolly, for whom
"spooks" and "going to church" summarized the unseen.
"Not exactly."
"She really did frighten you," said Henry, who was far from
discouraging timidity in females. "Poor Margaret! And very
naturally. Uneducated classes are so stupid."
"Is Miss Avery uneducated classes?" Margaret asked, and found
herself looking at the decoration scheme of Dolly's
drawing-room.
"She's just one of the crew at the farm. People like that
always assume things. She assumed you'd know who she was. She
left all the Howards End keys in the front lobby, and assumed
that you'd seen them as you came in, that you'd lock up the house
when you'd done, and would bring them on down to her. And there
was her niece hunting for them down at the farm. Lack of
education makes people very casual. Hilton was full of women
like Miss Avery once."
"I shouldn't have disliked it, perhaps."
"Or Miss Avery giving me a wedding present," said Dolly.
Which was illogical but interesting. Through Dolly, Margaret
was destined to learn a good deal.
"But Charles said I must try not to mind, because she had
known his grandmother."
"As usual, you've got the story wrong, my good Dorothea."
"I mean great-grandmother--the one who left Mrs. Wilcox the
house. Weren't both of them and Miss Avery friends when Howards
End, too, was a farm?"
Her father-in-law blew out a shaft of smoke. His attitude to
his dead wife was curious. He would allude to her, and hear her
discussed, but never mentioned her by name. Nor was he
interested in the dim, bucolic past. Dolly was--for the
following reason.
"Then hadn't Mrs. Wilcox a brother--or was it an uncle?
Anyhow, he popped the question, and Miss Avery, she said 'No.'
Just imagine, if she'd said 'Yes,' she would have been Charles's
aunt. (Oh, I say,--that's rather good! 'Charlie's Aunt'! I must
chaff him about that this evening.) And the man went out and was
killed. Yes, I'm certain I've got it right now. Tom Howard--he
was the last of them."
"I believe so," said Mr. Wilcox negligently.
"I say! Howards End--Howard's Ended!" cried Dolly. "I'm
rather on the spot this evening, eh?"
"I wish you'd ask whether Crane's ended."
"Oh, Mr. Wilcox, how can you?"
"Because, if he has had enough tea, we ought to go.--Dolly's
a good little woman," he continued, "but a little of her goes a
long way. I couldn't live near her if you paid me."
Margaret smiled. Though presenting a firm front to
outsiders, no Wilcox could live near, or near the possessions of,
any other Wilcox. They had the colonial spirit, and were always
making for some spot where the white man might carry his burden
unobserved. Of course, Howards End was impossible, so long as
the younger couple were established in Hilton. His objections to
the house were plain as daylight now.
Crane had had enough tea, and was sent to the garage, where
their car had been trickling muddy water over Charles's. The
downpour had surely penetrated the Six Hills by now, bringing
news of our restless civilization. "Curious mounds," said,
Henry, "but in with you now; another time." He had to be up in
London by seven--if possible, by six-thirty. Once more she lost
the sense of space; once more trees, houses, people, animals,
hills, merged and heaved into one dirtiness, and she was at
Wickham Place.
Her evening was pleasant. The sense of flux which had
haunted her all the year disappeared for a time. She forgot the
luggage and the motor-cars, and the hurrying men who know so much
and connect so little. She recaptured the sense of space, which
is the basis of all earthly beauty, and, starting from Howards
End, she attempted to realize England. She failed--visions do
not come when we try, though they may come through trying. But
an unexpected love of the island awoke in her, connecting on this
side with the joys of the flesh, on that with the inconceivable.
Helen and her father had known this love, poor Leonard Bast was
groping after it, but it had been hidden from Margaret till this
afternoon. It had certainly come through the house and old Miss
Avery. Through them: the notion of "through" persisted; her mind
trembled towards a conclusion which only the unwise have put into
words. Then, veering back into warmth, it dwelt on ruddy bricks,
flowering plum-trees, and all the tangible joys of spring.
Henry, after allaying her agitation, had taken her over his
property, and had explained to her the use and dimensions of the
various rooms. He had sketched the history of the little
estate. "It is so unlucky," ran the monologue, "that money
wasn't put into it about fifty years ago. Then it had
four--five-times the land--thirty acres at least. One could have
made something out of it then--a small park, or at all events
shrubberies, and rebuilt the house farther away from the road.
What's the good of taking it in hand now? Nothing but the meadow
left, and even that was heavily mortgaged when I first had to do
with things--yes, and the house too. Oh, it was no joke." She
saw two women as he spoke, one old, the other young, watching
their inheritance melt away. She saw them greet him as a
deliverer. "Mismanagement did it--besides, the days for small
farms are over. It doesn't pay--except with intensive
cultivation. Small holdings, back to the land--ah!
philanthropic bunkum. Take it as a rule that nothing pays on a
small scale. Most of the land you see (they were standing at an
upper window, the only one which faced west) belongs to the
people at the Park--they made their pile over copper--good
chaps. Avery's Farm, Sishe's--what they call the Common, where
you see that ruined oak--one after the other fell in, and so did
this, as near as is no matter. "But Henry had saved it; without
fine feelings or deep insight, but he had saved it, and she loved
him for the deed. "When I had more control I did what I could:
sold off the two and a half animals, and the mangy pony, and the
superannuated tools; pulled down the outhouses; drained; thinned
out I don't know how many guelder-roses and elder-trees; and
inside the house I turned the old kitchen into a hall, and made a
kitchen behind where the dairy was. Garage and so on came
later. But one could still tell it's been an old farm. And yet
it isn't the place that would fetch one of your artistic crew."
No, it wasn't; and if he did not quite understand it, the
artistic crew would still less: it was English, and the wych-elm
that she saw from the window was an English tree. No report had
prepared her for its peculiar glory. It was neither warrior, nor
lover, nor god; in none of these roles do the English excel. It
was a comrade, bending over the house, strength and adventure in
its roots, but in its utmost fingers tenderness, and the girth,
that a dozen men could not have spanned, became in the end
evanescent, till pale bud clusters seemed to float in the air.
It was a comrade. House and tree transcended any similes of
sex. Margaret thought of them now, and was to think of them
through many a windy night and London day, but to compare either
to man, to woman, always dwarfed the vision. Yet they kept
within limits of the human. Their message was not of eternity,
but of hope on this side of the grave. As she stood in the one,
gazing at the other, truer relationship had gleamed.
Another touch, and the account of her day is finished. They
entered the garden for a minute, and to Mr. Wilcox's surprise she
was right. Teeth, pigs' teeth, could be seen in the bark of the
wych-elm tree--just the white tips of them showing.
"Extraordinary!" he cried. "Who told you?"
"I heard of it one winter in London," was her answer, for
she, too, avoided mentioning Mrs. Wilcox by name.
Evie heard of her father's engagement when she was in for a
tennis tournament, and her play went simply to pot. That she
should marry and leave him had seemed natural enough; that he,
left alone, should do the same was deceitful; and now Charles and
Dolly said that it was all her fault. "But I never dreamt of
such a thing," she grumbled. "Dad took me to call now and then,
and made me ask her to Simpson's. Well, I'm altogether off Dad."
It was also an insult to their mother's memory; there they were
agreed, and Evie had the idea of returning Mrs. Wilcox's lace and
jewellery "as a protest." Against what it would protest she was
not clear; but being only eighteen, the idea of renunciation
appealed to her, the more as she did not care for jewellery or
lace. Dolly then suggested that she and Uncle Percy should
pretend to break off their engagement, and then perhaps Mr.
Wilcox would quarrel with Miss Schlegel, and break off his; or
Paul might be cabled for. But at this point Charles told them
not to talk nonsense. So Evie settled to marry as soon as
possible; it was no good hanging about with these Schlegels
eyeing her. The date of her wedding was consequently put forward
from September to August, and in the intoxication of presents she
recovered much of her good-humour.
Margaret found that she was expected to figure at this
function, and to figure largely; it would be such an opportunity,
said Henry, for her to get to know his set. Sir James Bidder
would be there, and all the Cahills and the Fussells, and his
sister-in-law, Mrs. Warrington Wilcox, had fortunately got back
from her tour round the world. Henry she loved, but his set
promised to be another matter. He had not the knack of
surrounding himself with nice people--indeed, for a man of
ability and virtue his choice had been singularly unfortunate; he
had no guiding principle beyond a certain preference for
mediocrity; he was content to settle one of the greatest things
in life haphazard, and so, while his investments went right, his
friends generally went wrong. She would be told, "Oh,
So-and-so's a good sort--a thundering good sort," and find, on
meeting him, that he was a brute or a bore. If Henry had shown
real affection, she would have understood, for affection explains
everything. But he seemed without sentiment. The "thundering
good sort" might at any moment become "a fellow for whom I never
did have much use, and have less now," and be shaken off cheerily
into oblivion. Margaret had done the same as a schoolgirl. Now
she never forgot anyone for whom she had once cared; she
connected, though the connection might be bitter, and she hoped
that some day Henry would do the same.
Evie was not to be married from Ducie Street. She had a
fancy for something rural, and, besides, no one would be in
London then, so she left her boxes for a few weeks at Oniton
Grange, and her banns were duly published in the parish church,
and for a couple of days the little town, dreaming between the
ruddy hills, was roused by the clang of our civilization, and
drew up by the roadside to let the motors pass. Oniton had been
a discovery of Mr. Wilcox's--a discovery of which he was not
altogether proud. It was up towards the Welsh border, and so
difficult of access that he had concluded it must be something
special. A ruined castle stood in the grounds. But having got
there, what was one to do? The shooting was bad, the fishing
indifferent, and women-folk reported the scenery as nothing
much. The place turned out to be in the wrong part of
Shropshire, damn it, and though he never damned his own property
aloud, he was only waiting to get it off his hands, and then to
let fly. Evie's marriage was its last appearance in public. As
soon as a tenant was found, it became a house for which he never
had had much use, and had less now, and, like Howards End, faded
into Limbo.
But on Margaret Oniton was destined to make a lasting
impression. She regarded it as her future home, and was anxious
to start straight with the clergy, etc., and, if possible, to see
something of the local life. It was a market-town--as tiny a one
as England possesses--and had for ages served that lonely valley,
and guarded our marches against the Kelt. In spite of the
occasion, in spite of the numbing hilarity that greeted her as
soon as she got into the reserved saloon at Paddington, her
senses were awake and watching, and though Oniton was to prove
one of her innumerable false starts, she never forgot it, nor the
things that happened there.
The London party only numbered eight--the Fussells, father
and son, two Anglo-Indian ladies named Mrs. Plynlimmon and Lady
Edser, Mrs. Warrington Wilcox and her daughter, and lastly, the
little girl, very smart and quiet, who figures at so many
weddings, and who kept a watchful eye on Margaret, the
bride-elect, Dolly was absent--a domestic event detained her at
Hilton; Paul had cabled a humorous message; Charles was to meet
them with a trio of motors at Shrewsbury. Helen had refused her
invitation; Tibby had never answered his. The management was
excellent, as was to be expected with anything that Henry
undertook; one was conscious of his sensible and generous brain
in the background. They were his guests as soon as they reached
the train; a special label for their luggage; a courier; a
special lunch; they had only to look pleasant and, where
possible, pretty. Margaret thought with dismay of her own
nuptials--presumably under the management of Tibby. "Mr.
Theobald Schlegel and Miss Helen Schlegel request the pleasure of
Mrs. Plynlimmon's company on the occasion of the marriage of
their sister Margaret." The formula was incredible, but it must
soon be printed and sent, and though Wickham Place need not
compete with Oniton, it must feed its guests properly, and
provide them with sufficient chairs. Her wedding would either be
ramshackly or bourgeois--she hoped the latter. Such an affair as
the present, staged with a deftness that was almost beautiful,
lay beyond her powers and those of her friends.
The low rich purr of a Great Western express is not the worst
background for conversation, and the journey passed pleasantly
enough. Nothing could have exceeded the kindness of the two
men. They raised windows for some ladies, and lowered them for
others, they rang the bell for the servant, they identified the
colleges as the train slipped past Oxford, they caught books or
bag-purses in the act of tumbling on to the floor. Yet there was
nothing finicky about their politeness: it had the Public School
touch, and, though sedulous, was virile. More battles than
Waterloo have been won on our playing-fields, and Margaret bowed
to a charm of which she did not wholly approve, and said nothing
when the Oxford colleges were identified wrongly. "Male and
female created He them"; the journey to Shrewsbury confirmed this
questionable statement, and the long glass saloon, that moved so
easily and felt so comfortable, became a forcing-house for the
idea of sex.
At Shrewsbury came fresh air. Margaret was all for
sight-seeing, and while the others were finishing their tea at
the Raven, she annexed a motor and hurried over the astonishing
city. Her chauffeur was not the faithful Crane, but an Italian,
who dearly loved making her late. Charles, watch in hand, though
with a level brow, was standing in front of the hotel when they
returned. It was perfectly all right, he told her; she was by no
means the last. And then he dived into the coffee-room, and she
heard him say, "For God's sake, hurry the women up; we shall
never be off," and Albert Fussell reply, "Not I; I've done my
share," and Colonel Fussell opine that the ladies were getting
themselves up to kill. Presently Myra (Mrs. Warrington's
daughter) appeared, and as she was his cousin, Charles blew her
up a little: she had been changing her smart traveling hat for a
smart motor hat. Then Mrs. Warrington herself, leading the quiet
child; the two Anglo-Indian ladies were always last. Maids,
courier, heavy luggage, had already gone on by a branch-line to a
station nearer Oniton, but there were five hat-boxes and four
dressing-bags to be packed, and five dust-cloaks to be put on,
and to be put off at the last moment, because Charles declared
them not necessary. The men presided over everything with
unfailing good-humour. By half-past five the party was ready,
and went out of Shrewsbury by the Welsh Bridge.
Shropshire had not the reticence of Hertfordshire. Though
robbed of half its magic by swift movement, it still conveyed the
sense of hills. They were nearing the buttresses that force the
Severn eastern and make it an English stream, and the sun,
sinking over the Sentinels of Wales, was straight in their eyes.
Having picked up another guest, they turned southward, avoiding
the greater mountains, but conscious of an occasional summit,
rounded and mild, whose colouring differed in quality from that
of the lower earth, and whose contours altered more slowly.
Quiet mysteries were in progress behind those tossing horizons:
the West, as ever, was retreating with some secret which may not
be worth the discovery, but which no practical man will ever
discover.
They spoke of Tariff Reform.
Mrs. Warrington was just back from the Colonies. Like many
other critics of Empire, her mouth had been stopped with food,
and she could only exclaim at the hospitality with which she had
been received, and warn the Mother Country against trifling with
young Titans. "They threaten to cut the painter," she cried,
"and where shall we be then? Miss Schlegel, you'll undertake to
keep Henry sound about Tariff Reform? It is our last hope."
Margaret playfully confessed herself on the other side, and
they began to quote from their respective hand-books while the
motor carried them deep into the hills. Curious these were,
rather than impressive, for their outlines lacked beauty, and the
pink fields--on their summits suggested the handkerchiefs of a
giant spread out to dry. An occasional outcrop of rock, an
occasional wood, an occasional "forest," treeless and brown, all
hinted at wildness to follow, but the main colour was an
agricultural green. The air grew cooler; they had surmounted the
last gradient, and Oniton lay below them with its church, its
radiating houses, its castle, its river-girt peninsula. Close to
the castle was a grey mansion, unintellectual but kindly,
stretching with its grounds across the peninsula's neck--the sort
of mansion that was built all over England in the beginning of
the last century, while architecture was still an expression of
the national character. That was the Grange, remarked Albert,
over his shoulder, and then he jammed the brake on, and the motor
slowed down and stopped. "I'm sorry," said he, turning round.
"Do you mind getting out--by the door on the right? Steady
on!"
"What's happened?" asked Mrs. Warrington.
Then the car behind them drew up, and the voice of Charles
was heard saying: "Get out the women at once." There was a
concourse of males, and Margaret and her companions were hustled
out and received into the second car. What had happened? As it
started off again, the door of a cottage opened, and a girl
screamed wildly at them.
"What is it?" the ladies cried.
Charles drove them a hundred yards without speaking. Then he
said: "It's all right. Your car just touched a dog."
"But stop!" cried Margaret, horrified.
"It didn't hurt him."
"Didn't really hurt him?" asked Myra.
"No."
"Do please stop!" said Margaret, leaning forward.
She was standing up in the car, the other occupants holding her
knees to steady her. "I want to go back, please."
Charles took no notice.
"We've left Mr. Fussell behind," said another; "and Angelo,
and Crane."
"Yes, but no woman."
"I expect a little of"--Mrs. Warrington scratched her palm--"
will be more to the point than one of us!"
"The insurance company sees to that," remarked Charles, "and
Albert will do the talking."
"I want to go back, though, I say!" repeated Margaret,
getting angry.
Charles took no notice. The motor, loaded with refugees,
continued to travel very slowly down the hill. "The men are
there," chorused the others. "Men will see to it."
"The men can't see to it. Oh, this is ridiculous!
Charles, I ask you to stop."
"Stopping's no good," drawled Charles.
"Isn't it?" said Margaret, and jumped straight out of the
car.
She fell on her knees, cut her gloves, shook her hat over her
ear. Cries of alarm followed her. "You've hurt yourself,"
exclaimed Charles, jumping after her.
"Of course I've hurt myself!" she retorted.
"May I ask what--"
"There's nothing to ask," said Margaret.
"Your hand's bleeding."
"I know."
"I'm in for a frightful row from the pater."
"You should have thought of that sooner, Charles."
Charles had never been in such a position before. It was a
woman in revolt who was hobbling away from him, and the sight was
too strange to leave any room for anger. He recovered himself
when the others caught them up: their sort he understood. He
commanded them to go back.
Albert Fussell was seen walking towards them.
"It's all right!" he called. "It wasn't a dog, it was a
cat."
"There!" exclaimed Charles triumphantly. "It's only a rotten
cat.
"Got room in your car for a little un? I cut as soon as I
saw it wasn't a dog; the chauffeurs are tackling the girl." But
Margaret walked forward steadily. Why should the chauffeurs
tackle the girl? Ladies sheltering behind men, men sheltering
behind servants--the whole system's wrong, and she must challenge
it.
"Miss Schlegel! 'Pon my word, you've hurt your hand."
"I'm just going to see," said Margaret. "Don't you wait, Mr.
Fussell."
The second motor came round the corner. "lt is all right,
madam," said Crane in his turn. He had taken to calling her
madam.
"What's all right? The cat?"
"Yes, madam. The girl will receive compensation for it."
"She was a very ruda girla," said Angelo from the third motor
thoughtfully.
"Wouldn't you have been rude?"
The Italian spread out his hands, implying that he had not
thought of rudeness, but would produce it if it pleased her. The
situation became absurd. The gentlemen were again buzzing round
Miss Schlegel with offers of assistance, and Lady Edser began to
bind up her hand. She yielded, apologizing slightly, and was led
back to the car, and soon the landscape resumed its motion, the
lonely cottage disappeared, the castle swelled on its cushion of
turf, and they had arrived. No doubt she had disgraced herself.
But she felt their whole journey from London had been unreal.
They had no part with the earth and its emotions. They were
dust, and a stink, and cosmopolitan chatter, and the girl whose
cat had been killed had lived more deeply than they.
"Oh, Henry," she exclaimed, "I have been so naughty," for she
had decided to take up this line. "We ran over a cat. Charles
told me not to jump out, but I would, and look!" She held out
her bandaged hand. "Your poor Meg went such a flop."
Mr. Wilcox looked bewildered. In evening dress, he was
standing to welcome his guests in the hall.
"Thinking it was a dog," added Mrs. Warrington.
"Ah, a dog's a companion!" said Colonel Fussell. "A dog'll
remember you."
"Have you hurt yourself, Margaret?"
"Not to speak about; and it's my left hand."
"Well, hurry up and change."
She obeyed, as did the others. Mr. Wilcox then turned to his
son.
"Now, Charles, what's happened?"
Charles was absolutely honest. He described what he believed
to have happened. Albert had flattened out a cat, and Miss
Schlegel had lost her nerve, as any woman might. She had been
got safely into the other car, but when it was in motion had
leapt out--again, in spite of all that they could say. After
walking a little on the road, she had calmed down and had said
that she was sorry. His father accepted this explanation, and
neither knew that Margaret had artfully prepared the way for it.
It fitted in too well with their view of feminine nature. In the
smoking-room, after dinner, the Colonel put forward the view that
Miss Schlegel had jumped it out of devilry. Well he remembered
as a young man, in the harbour of Gibraltar once, how a girl--a
handsome girl, too--had jumped overboard for a bet. He could see
her now, and all the lads overboard after her. But Charles and
Mr. Wilcox agreed it was much more probably nerves in Miss
Schlegel's case. Charles was depressed. That woman had a
tongue. She would bring worse disgrace on his father before she
had done with them. He strolled out on to the castle mound to
think the matter over. The evening was exquisite. On three
sides of him a little river whispered, full of messages from the
west; above his head the ruins made patterns against the sky. He
carefully reviewed their dealings with this family, until he
fitted Helen, and Margaret, and Aunt Juley into an orderly
conspiracy. Paternity had made him suspicious. He had two
children to look after, and more coming, and day by day they
seemed less likely to grow up rich men. "It is all very well,"
he reflected, "the pater saying that he will be just to all, but
one can't be just indefinitely. Money isn't elastic. What's to
happen if Evie has a family? And, come to that, so may the
pater. There'll not be enough to go round, for there's none
coming in, either through Dolly or Percy. It's damnable!" He
looked enviously at the Grange, whose windows poured light and
laughter. First and last, this wedding would cost a pretty
penny. Two ladies were strolling up and down the garden terrace,
and as the syllables "Imperialism" were wafted to his ears, he
guessed that one of them was his aunt. She might have helped
him, if she too had not had a family to provide for. "Every one
for himself," he repeated--a maxim which had cheered him in the
past, but which rang grimly enough among the ruins of Oniton. He
lacked his father's ability in business, and so had an ever
higher regard for money; unless he could inherit plenty, he
feared to leave his children poor.
As he sat thinking, one of the ladies left the terrace and
walked into the meadow; he recognized her as Margaret by the
white bandage that gleamed on her arm, and put out his cigar,
lest the gleam should betray him. She climbed up the mound in
zigzags, and at times stooped down, as if she was stroking the
turf. It sounds absolutely incredible, but for a moment Charles
thought that she was in love with him, and had come out to tempt
him. Charles believed in temptresses, who are indeed the strong
man's necessary complement, and having no sense of humour, he
could not purge himself of the thought by a smile. Margaret, who
was engaged to his father, and his sister's wedding-guest, kept
on her way without noticing him, and he admitted that he had
wronged her on this point. But what was she doing? Why was she
stumbling about amongst the rubble and catching her dress in
brambles and burrs? As she edged round the keep, she must have
got to leeward and smelt his cigar-smoke, for she exclaimed,
"Hullo! Who's that?"
Charles made no answer.
"Saxon or Kelt?" she continued, laughing in the darkness.
"But it doesn't matter. Whichever you are, you will have to
listen to me. I love this place. I love Shropshire. I hate
London. I am glad that this will be my home. Ah, dear"--she was
now moving back towards the house--"what a comfort to have
arrived!"
"That woman means mischief," thought Charles, and compressed
his lips. In a few minutes he followed her indoors, as the
ground was getting damp. Mists were rising from the river, and
presently it became invisible, though it whispered more loudly.
There had been a heavy downpour in the Welsh hills.
Next morning a fine mist covered the peninsula. The weather
promised well, and the outline of the castle mound grew clearer
each moment that Margaret watched it. Presently she saw the
keep, and the sun painted the rubble gold, and charged the white
sky with blue. The shadow of the house gathered itself together
and fell over the garden. A cat looked up at her window and
mewed. Lastly the river appeared, still holding the mists
between its banks and its overhanging alders, and only visible as
far as a hill, which cut off its upper reaches.
Margaret was fascinated by Oniton. She had said that she
loved it, but it was rather its romantic tension that held her.
The rounded Druids of whom she had caught glimpses in her drive,
the rivers hurrying down from them to England, the carelessly
modelled masses of the lower hills, thrilled her with poetry.
The house was insignificant, but the prospect from it would be an
eternal joy, and she thought of all the friends she would have to
stop in it, and of the conversion of Henry himself to a rural
life. Society, too, promised favourably. The rector of the
parish had dined with them last night, and she found that he was
a friend of her father's, and so knew what to find in her. She
liked him. He would introduce her to the town. While, on her
other side, Sir James Bidder sat, repeating that she only had to
give the word, and he would whip up the county families for
twenty miles round. Whether Sir James, who was Garden Seeds, had
promised what he could perform, she doubted, but so long as Henry
mistook them for the county families when they did call, she was
content.
Charles and Albert Fussell now crossed the lawn. They were
going for a morning dip, and a servant followed them with their
bathing-dresses. She had meant to take a stroll herself before
breakfast, but saw that the day was still sacred to men, and
amused herself by watching their contretemps. In the first place
the key of the bathing-shed could not be found. Charles stood by
the riverside with folded hands, tragical, while the servant
shouted, and was misunderstood by another servant in the garden.
Then came a difficulty about a spring-board, and soon three
people were running backwards and forwards over the meadow, with
orders and counter orders and recriminations and apologies. If
Margaret wanted to jump from a motor-car, she jumped; if Tibby
thought paddling would benefit his ankles, he paddled; if a clerk
desired adventure, he took a walk in the dark. But these
athletes seemed paralysed. They could not bathe without their
appliances, though the morning sun was calling and the last mists
were rising from the dimpling stream. Had they found the life of
the body after all? Could not the men whom they despised as
milksops beat them, even on their own ground?
She thought of the bathing arrangements as they should be in
her day--no worrying of servants, no appliances, beyond good
sense. Her reflections were disturbed by the quiet child, who
had come out to speak to the cat, but was now watching her watch
the men. She called, "Good-morning, dear," a little sharply.
Her voice spread consternation. Charles looked round, and though
completely attired in indigo blue, vanished into the shed, and
was seen no more.
"Miss Wilcox is up--" the child whispered, and then became
unintelligible.
"What's that?"
It sounded like, "--cut-yoke--sack back--"
"I can't hear."
"--On the bed--tissue-paper--"
Gathering that the wedding-dress was on view, and that a
visit would be seemly, she went to Evie's room. All was hilarity
here. Evie, in a petticoat, was dancing with one of the
Anglo-Indian ladies, while the other was adoring yards of white
satin. They screamed, they laughed, they sang, and the dog
barked.
Margaret screamed a little too, but without conviction. She
could not feel that a wedding was so funny. Perhaps something
was missing in her equipment.
Evie gasped: "Dolly is a rotter not to be here! Oh, we would
rag just then!" Then Margaret went down to breakfast.
Henry was already installed; he ate slowly and spoke little,
and was, in Margaret's eyes, the only member of their party who
dodged emotion successfully. She could not suppose him
indifferent either to the loss of his daughter or to the presence
of his future wife. Yet he dwelt intact, only issuing orders
occasionally--orders that promoted the comfort of his guests. He
inquired after her hand; he set her to pour out the coffee and
Mrs. Warrington to pour out the tea. When Evie came down there
was a moment's awkwardness, and both ladies rose to vacate their
places. "Burton," called Henry, "serve tea and coffee from the
side-board!" It wasn't genuine tact, but it was tact, of a
sort--the sort that is as useful as the genuine, and saves even
more situations at Board meetings. Henry treated a marriage like
a funeral, item by item, never raising his eyes to the whole, and
"Death, where is thy sting? Love, where is thy victory?" one
would exclaim at the close.
After breakfast she claimed a few words with him. It was
always best to approach him formally. She asked for the
interview, because he was going on to shoot grouse tomorrow, and
she was returning to Helen in town.
"Certainly, dear," said he. "Of course, I have the time.
What do you want?"
"Nothing."
"I was afraid something had gone wrong."
"No; I have nothing to say, but you may talk."
Glancing at his watch, he talked of the nasty curve at the
lych-gate. She heard him with interest. Her surface could
always respond to his without contempt, though all her deeper
being might be yearning to help him. She had abandoned any plan
of action. Love is the best, and the more she let herself love
him, the more chance was there that he would set his soul in
order. Such a moment as this, when they sat under fair weather
by the walks of their future home, was so sweet to her that its
sweetness would surely pierce to him. Each lift of his eyes,
each parting of the thatched lip from the clean-shaven, must
prelude the tenderness that kills the Monk and the Beast at a
single blow. Disappointed a hundred times, she still hoped. She
loved him with too clear a vision to fear his cloudiness.
Whether he droned trivialities, as today, or sprang kisses on her
in the twilight, she could pardon him, she could respond.
"If there is this nasty curve," she suggested, "couldn't we
walk to the church? Not, of course, you and Evie; but the rest
of us might very well go on first, and that would mean fewer
carriages."
"One can't have ladies walking through the Market Square.
The Fussells wouldn't like it; they were awfully particular at
Charles's wedding. My--she--one of our party was anxious to
walk, and certainly the church was just round the corner, and I
shouldn't have minded; but the Colonel made a great point of
it."
"You men shouldn't be so chivalrous," said Margaret
thoughtfully.
"Why not?"
She knew why not, but said that she did not know.
He then announced that, unless she had anything special to
say, he must visit the wine-cellar, and they went off together in
search of Burton. Though clumsy and a little inconvenient,
Oniton was a genuine country house. They clattered down flagged
passages, looking into room after room, and scaring unknown maids
from the performance of obscure duties. The wedding-breakfast
must be in readiness when they came back from church, and tea
would be served in the garden. The sight of so many agitated and
serious people made Margaret smile, but she reflected that they
were paid to be serious, and enjoyed being agitated. Here were
the lower wheels of the machine that was tossing Evie up into
nuptial glory. A little boy blocked their way with pig-tails.
His mind could not grasp their greatness, and he said: "By your
leave; let me pass, please." Henry asked him where Burton was.
But the servants were so new that they did not know one another's
names. In the still-room sat the band, who had stipulated for
champagne as part of their fee, and who were already drinking
beer. Scents of Araby came from the kitchen, mingled with
cries. Margaret knew what had happened there, for it happened at
Wickham Place. One of the wedding dishes had boiled over, and
the cook was throwing cedar-shavings to hide the smell. At last
they came upon the butler. Henry gave him the keys, and handed
Margaret down the cellar-stairs. Two doors were unlocked. She,
who kept all her wine at the bottom of the linen-cupboard, was
astonished at the sight. "We shall never get through it!" she
cried, and the two men were suddenly drawn into brotherhood, and
exchanged smiles. She felt as if she had again jumped out of the
car while it was moving.
Certainly Oniton would take some digesting. It would be no
small business to remain herself, and yet to assimilate such an
establishment. She must remain herself, for his sake as well as
her own, since a shadowy wife degrades the husband whom she
accompanies; and she must assimilate for reasons of common
honesty, since she had no right to marry a man and make him
uncomfortable. Her only ally was the power of Home. The loss of
Wickham Place had taught her more than its possession. Howards
End had repeated the lesson. She was determined to create new
sanctities among these hills.
After visiting the wine-cellar, she dressed, and then came
the wedding, which seemed a small affair when compared with the
preparations for it. Everything went like one o'clock. Mr.
Cahill materialized out of space, and was waiting for his bride
at the church door. No one dropped the ring or mispronounced the
responses, or trod on Evie's train, or cried. In a few
minutes--the clergymen performed their duty, the register was
signed, and they were back in their carriages, negotiating the
dangerous curve by the lych-gate. Margaret was convinced that
they had not been married at all, and that the Norman church had
been intent all the time on other business.
There were more documents to sign at the house, and the
breakfast to eat, and then a few more people dropped in for the
garden party. There had been a great many refusals, and after
all it was not a very big affair--not as big as Margaret's would
be. She noted the dishes and the strips of red carpet, that
outwardly she might give Henry what was proper. But inwardly she
hoped for something better than this blend of Sunday church and
fox-hunting. If only someone had been upset! But this wedding
had gone off so particularly well--"quite like a Durbar" in the
opinion of Lady Edser, and she thoroughly agreed with her.
So the wasted day lumbered forward, the bride and bridegroom
drove off, yelling with laughter, and for the second time the sun
retreated towards the hills of Wales. Henry, who was more tired
than he owned, came up to her in the castle meadow, and, in tones
of unusual softness, said that he was pleased. Everything had
gone off so well. She felt that he was praising her, too, and
blushed; certainly she had done all she could with his
intractable friends, and had made a special point of kowtowing to
the men. They were breaking camp this evening: only the
Warringtons and quiet child would stay the night, and the others
were already moving towards the house to finish their packing.
"I think it did go off well," she agreed. "Since I had to jump
out of the motor, I'm thankful I lighted on my left hand. I am
so very glad about it, Henry dear; I only hope that the guests at
ours may be half as comfortable. You must all remember that we
have no practical person among us, except my aunt, and she is not
used to entertainments on a large scale."
"I know," he said gravely. "Under the circumstances, it
would be better to put everything into the hands of Harrod's or
Whiteley's, or even to go to some hotel."
"You desire a hotel?"
"Yes, because--well, I mustn't interfere with you. No doubt
you want to be married from your old home."
"My old home's falling into pieces, Henry. I only want my
new. Isn't it a perfect evening--"
"The Alexandrina isn't bad--"
"The Alexandrina," she echoed, more occupied with the threads
of smoke that were issuing from their chimneys, and ruling the
sunlit slopes with parallels of grey.
"It's off Curzon Street."
"Is it? Let's be married from off Curzon Street."
Then she turned westward, to gaze at the swirling gold. Just
where the river rounded the hill the sun caught it. Fairyland
must lie above the bend, and its precious liquid was pouring
towards them past Charles's bathing-shed. She gazed so long that
her eyes were dazzled, and when they moved back to the house, she
could not recognize the faces of people who were coming out of
it. A parlour-maid was preceding them.
"Who are those people?" she asked.
"They're callers!" exclaimed Henry. "It's too late for
callers."
"Perhaps they're town people who want to see the wedding
presents."
"I'm not at home yet to townees."
"Well, hide among the ruins, and if I can stop them, I
will."
He thanked her.
Margaret went forward, smiling socially. She supposed that
these were unpunctual guests, who would have to be content with
vicarious civility, since Evie and Charles were gone, Henry
tired, and the others in their rooms. She assumed the airs of a
hostess; not for long. For one of the group was Helen--Helen in
her oldest clothes, and dominated by that tense, wounding
excitement that had made her a terror in their nursery days.
"What is it?" she called. "Oh, what's wrong? Is Tibby
ill?"
Helen spoke to her two companions, who fell back. Then she
bore forward furiously.
"They're starving!" she shouted. "I found them
starving!"
"Who? Why have you come?"
"The Basts."
"Oh, Helen!" moaned Margaret. "Whatever have you done
now?"
"He has lost his place. He has been turned out of his bank.
Yes, he's done for. We upper classes have ruined him, and I
suppose you'll tell me it's the battle of life. Starving. His
wife is ill. Starving. She fainted in the train."
"Helen, are you mad?"
"Perhaps. Yes. If you like, I'm mad. But I've brought
them. I'll stand injustice no longer. I'll show up the
wretchedness that lies under this luxury, this talk of impersonal
forces, this cant about God doing what we're too slack to do
ourselves."
"Have you actually brought two starving people from London to
Shropshire, Helen?"
Helen was checked. She had not thought of this, and her
hysteria abated. "There was a restaurant car on the train," she
said.
"Don't be absurd. They aren't starving, and you know it.
Now, begin from the beginning. I won't have such theatrical
nonsense. How dare you! Yes, how dare you!" she repeated, as
anger filled her, "bursting in to Evie's wedding in this
heartless way. My goodness! but you've a perverted notion of
philanthropy. Look"--she indicated the house--"servants, people
out of the windows. They think it's some vulgar scandal, and I
must explain, 'Oh no, it's only my sister screaming, and only two
hangers-on of ours, whom she has brought here for no conceivable
reason.'"
"Kindly take back that word 'hangers-on,'" said Helen,
ominously calm.
"Very well," conceded Margaret, who for all her wrath was
determined to avoid a real quarrel. "I, too, am sorry about
them, but it beats me why you've brought them here, or why you're
here yourself.
"It's our last chance of seeing Mr. Wilcox."
Margaret moved towards the house at this. She was determined
not to worry Henry.
"He's going to Scotland. I know he is. I insist on seeing
him."
"Yes, tomorrow."
"I knew it was our last chance."
"How do you do, Mr. Bast?" said Margaret, trying to control
her voice. "This is an odd business. What view do you take of
it?"
"There is Mrs. Bast, too," prompted Helen.
Jacky also shook hands. She, like her husband, was shy, and,
furthermore, ill, and furthermore, so bestially stupid that she
could not grasp what was happening. She only knew that the lady
had swept down like a whirlwind last night, had paid the rent,
redeemed the furniture, provided them with a dinner and
breakfast, and ordered them to meet her at Paddington next
morning. Leonard had feebly protested, and when the morning
came, had suggested that they shouldn't go. But she, half
mesmerized, had obeyed. The lady had told them to, and they
must, and their bed-sitting-room had accordingly changed into
Paddington, and Paddington into a railway carriage, that shook,
and grew hot, and grew cold, and vanished entirely, and
reappeared amid torrents of expensive scent. "You have fainted,"
said the lady in an awe-struck voice. "Perhaps the air will do
you good." And perhaps it had, for here she was, feeling rather
better among a lot of flowers.
"I'm sure I don't want to intrude," began Leonard, in answer
to Margaret's question. "But you have been so kind to me in the
past in warning me about the Porphyrion that I wondered--why, I
wondered whether--"
"Whether we could get him back into the Porphyrion again,"
supplied Helen. "Meg, this has been a cheerful business. A
bright evening's work that was on Chelsea Embankment."
Margaret shook her head and returned to Mr. Bast.
"I don't understand. You left the Porphyrion because we
suggested it was a bad concern, didn't you?"
"That's right."
"And went into a bank instead?"
"I told you all that," said Helen; "and they reduced their
staff after he had been in a month, and now he's penniless, and I
consider that we and our informant are directly to blame."
"I hate all this," Leonard muttered.
"I hope you do, Mr. Bast. But it's no good mincing matters.
You have done yourself no good by coming here. If you intend to
confront Mr. Wilcox, and to call him to account for a chance
remark, you will make a very great mistake."
"I brought them. I did it all," cried Helen.
"I can only advise you to go at once. My sister has put you
in a false position, and it is kindest to tell you so. It's too
late to get to town, but you'll find a comfortable hotel in
Oniton, where Mrs. Bast can rest, and I hope you'll be my guests
there."
"That isn't what I want, Miss Schlegel," said Leonard.
"You're very kind, and no doubt it's a false position, but you
make me miserable. I seem no good at all."
"It's work he wants," interpreted Helen. "Can't you
see?"
Then he said: "Jacky, let's go. We're more bother than we're
worth. We're costing these ladies pounds and pounds already to
get work for us, and they never will. There's nothing we're good
enough to do."
"We would like to find you work," said Margaret rather
conventionally. "We want to--I, like my sister. You're only
down in your luck. Go to the hotel, have a good night's rest,
and some day you shall pay me back the bill, if you prefer
it."
But Leonard was near the abyss, and at such moments men see
clearly. "You don't know what you're talking about," he said.
"I shall never get work now. If rich people fail at one
profession, they can try another. Not I. I had my groove, and
I've got out of it. I could do one particular branch of
insurance in one particular office well enough to command a
salary, but that's all. Poetry's nothing, Miss Schlegel. One's
thoughts about this and that are nothing. Your money, too, is
nothing, if you'll understand me. I mean if a man over twenty
once loses his own particular job, it's all over with him. I
have seen it happen to others. Their friends gave them money for
a little, but in the end they fall over the edge. It's no good.
It's the whole world pulling. There always will be rich and
poor."
He ceased.
"Won't you have something to eat?" said Margaret. "I don't
know what to do. It isn't my house, and though Mr. Wilcox would
have been glad to see you at any other time--as I say, I don't
know what to do, but I undertake to do what I can for you.
Helen, offer them something. Do try a sandwich, Mrs. Bast."
They moved to a long table behind which a servant was still
standing. Iced cakes, sandwiches innumerable, coffee,
claret-cup, champagne, remained almost intact: their overfed
guests could do no more. Leonard refused. Jacky thought she
could manage a little. Margaret left them whispering together
and had a few more words with Helen.
She said: "Helen, I like Mr. Bast. I agree that he's worth
helping. I agree that we are directly responsible."
"No, indirectly. Via Mr. Wilcox."
"Let me tell you once for all that if you take up that
attitude, I'll do nothing. No doubt you're right logically, and
are entitled to say a great many scathing things about Henry.
Only, I won't have it. So choose.
Helen looked at the sunset.
"If you promise to take them quietly to the George, I will
speak to Henry about them--in my own way, mind; there is to be
none of this absurd screaming about justice. I have no use for
justice. If it was only a question of money, we could do it
ourselves. But he wants work, and that we can't give him, but
possibly Henry can."
"It's his duty to," grumbled Helen.
"Nor am I concerned with duty. I'm concerned with the
characters of various people whom we know, and how, things being
as they are, things may be made a little better. Mr. Wilcox
hates being asked favours: all business men do. But I am going
to ask him, at the risk of a rebuff, because I want to make
things a little better."
"Very well. I promise. You take it very calmly. "
"Take them off to the George, then, and I'll try. Poor
creatures! but they look tried." As they parted, she added: "I
haven't nearly done with you, though, Helen. You have been most
self-indulgent. I can't get over it. You have less restraint
rather than more as you grow older. Think it over and alter
yourself, or we shan't have happy lives."
She rejoined Henry. Fortunately he had been sitting down:
these physical matters were important. "Was it townees?" he
asked, greeting her with a pleasant smile.
"You'll never believe me," said Margaret, sitting down beside
him. "It's all right now, but it was my sister."
"Helen here?" he cried, preparing to rise. "But she refused
the invitation. I thought she despised weddings."
"Don't get up. She has not come to the wedding. I've
bundled her off to the George."
Inherently hospitable, he protested.
"No; she has two of her protégés with her, and
must keep with them."
"Let 'em all come."
"My dear Henry, did you see them?"
"I did catch sight of a brown bunch of a woman,
certainly.
"The brown bunch was Helen, but did you catch sight of a
sea-green and salmon bunch?"
"What! are they out beanfeasting?"
"No; business. They wanted to see me, and later on I want to
talk to you about them."
She was ashamed of her own diplomacy. In dealing with a
Wilcox, how tempting it was to lapse from comradeship, and to
give him the kind of woman that he desired! Henry took the hint
at once, and said: "Why later on? Tell me now. No time like the
present."
"Shall I?"
"If it isn't a long story."
"Oh, not five minutes; but there's a sting at the end of it,
for I want you to find the man some work in your office."
"What are his qualifications?"
"I don't know. He's a clerk."
"How old?"
"Twenty-five, perhaps."
"What's his name?"
"Bast," said Margaret, and was about to remind him that they
had met at Wickham Place, but stopped herself. It had not been a
successful meeting.
"Where was he before?"
"Dempster's Bank."
"Why did he leave?" he asked, still remembering nothing.
"They reduced their staff."
"All right; I'll see him."
It was the reward of her tact and devotion through the day.
Now she understood why some women prefer influence to rights.
Mrs. Plynlimmon, when condemning suffragettes, had said: "The
woman who can't influence her husband to vote the way she wants
ought to be ashamed of herself." Margaret had winced, but she
was influencing Henry now, and though pleased at her little
victory, she knew that she had won it by the methods of the
harem.
"I should be glad if you took him," she said, "but I don't
know whether he's qualified."
"I'll do what I can. But, Margaret, this mustn't be taken as
a precedent."
"No, of course--of course--"
"I can't fit in your protégés every day.
Business would suffer."
"I can promise you he's the last. He--he's rather a special
case."
"Protégés always are."
She let it stand at that. He rose with a little extra touch
of complacency, and held out his hand to help her up. How wide
the gulf between Henry as he was and Henry as Helen thought he
ought to be! And she herself--hovering as usual between the two,
now accepting men as they are, now yearning with her sister for
Truth. Love and Truth--their warfare seems eternal. Perhaps the
whole visible world rests on it, and if they were one, life
itself, like the spirits when Prospero was reconciled to his
brother, might vanish into air, into thin air.
"Your protégé has made us late," said he. "The
Fussells will just be starting."
On the whole she sided with men as they are. Henry would
save the Basts as he had saved Howards End, while Helen and her
friends were discussing the ethics of salvation. His was a
slap-dash method, but the world has been built slap-dash, and the
beauty of mountain and river and sunset may be but the varnish
with which the unskilled artificer hides his joins. Oniton, like
herself, was imperfect. Its apple-trees were stunted, its castle
ruinous. It, too, had suffered in the border warfare between the
Anglo Saxon and the Kelt, between things as they are and as they
ought to be. Once more the west was retreating, once again the
orderly stars were dotting the eastern sky. There is certainly
no rest for us on the earth. But there is happiness, and as
Margaret descended the mound on her lover's arm, she felt that
she was having her share.
To her annoyance, Mrs. Bast was still in the garden; the
husband and Helen had left her there to finish her meal while
they went to engage rooms. Margaret found this woman repellent.
She had felt, when shaking her hand, an overpowering shame. She
remembered the motive of her call at Wickham Place, and smelt
again odours from the abyss--odours the more disturbing because
they were involuntary. For there was no malice in Jacky. There
she sat, a piece of cake in one hand, an empty champagne glass in
the other, doing no harm to anybody.
"She's overtired," Margaret whispered.
"She's something else," said Henry. "This won't do. I can't
have her in my garden in this state."
"Is she--" Margaret hesitated to add "drunk." Now that she
was going to marry him, he had grown particular. He
discountenanced risqué conversations now.
Henry went up to the woman. She raised her face, which
gleamed in the twilight like a puff-ball.
"Madam, you will be more comfortable at the hotel," he said
sharply.
Jacky replied: "If it isn't Hen!"
"Ne crois pas que le mari lui ressemble," apologized
Margaret. "Il est tout à fait différent."
"Henry!" she repeated, quite distinctly.
Mr. Wilcox was much annoyed. "I can't congratulate you on
your protégés," he remarked.
"Hen, don't go. You do love me, dear, don't you?"
"Bless us, what a person!" sighed Margaret, gathering up her
skirts.
Jacky pointed with her cake. "You're a nice boy, you are."
She yawned. "There now, I love you."
"Henry, I am awfully sorry."
"And pray why?" he asked, and looked at her so sternly that
she feared he was ill. He seemed more scandalized than the facts
demanded.
"To have brought this down on you."
"Pray don't apologize."
The voice continued.
"Why does she call you 'Hen'?" said Margaret innocently.
"Has she ever seen you before?"
"Seen Hen before!" said Jacky. "Who hasn't seen Hen? He's
serving you like me, my dear. These boys! You wait--Still we
love 'em."
"Are you now satisfied?" Henry asked.
Margaret began to grow frightened. "I don't know what it is
all about," she said. "Let's come in."
But he thought she was acting. He thought he was trapped.
He saw his whole life crumbling. "Don't you indeed?" he said
bitingly. "I do. Allow me to congratulate you on the success of
your plan."
"This is Helen's plan, not mine."
"I now understand your interest in the Basts. Very well
thought out. I am amused at your caution, Margaret. You are
quite right--it was necessary. I am a man, and have lived a
man's past. I have the honour to release you from your
engagement."
Still she could not understand. She knew of life's seamy
side as a theory; she could not grasp it as a fact. More words
from Jacky were necessary--words unequivocal, undenied.
"So that--" burst from her, and she went indoors. She
stopped herself from saying more.
"So what?" asked Colonel Fussell, who was getting ready to
start in the hall.
"We were saying--Henry and I were just having the fiercest
argument, my point being--" Seizing his fur coat from a footman,
she offered to help him on. He protested, and there was a
playful little scene.
"No, let me do that," said Henry, following.
"Thanks so much! You see--he has forgiven me!"
The Colonel said gallantly: "I don't expect there's much to
forgive.
He got into the car. The ladies followed him after an
interval. Maids, courier, and heavier luggage had been sent on
earlier by the branch--line. Still chattering, still thanking
their host and patronizing their future hostess, the guests were
home away.
Then Margaret continued: "So that woman has been your
mistress?"
"You put it with your usual delicacy," he replied.
"When, please?"
"Why?"
"When, please?"
"Ten years ago."
She left him without a word. For it was not her tragedy: it
was Mrs. Wilcox's.
Helen began to wonder why she had spent a matter of eight
pounds in making some people ill and others angry. Now that the
wave of excitement was ebbing, and had left her, Mr. Bast, and
Mrs. Bast stranded for the night in a Shropshire hotel, she asked
herself what forces had made the wave flow. At all events, no
harm was done. Margaret would play the game properly now, and
though Helen disapproved of her sister's methods, she knew that
the Basts would benefit by them in the long run.
"Mr. Wilcox is so illogical," she explained to Leonard, who
had put his wife to bed, and was sitting with her in the empty
coffee-room. "If we told him it was his duty to take you on, he
might refuse to do it. The fact is, he isn't properly educated.
I don't want to set you against him, but you'll find him a
trial."
"I can never thank you sufficiently, Miss Schlegel," was all
that Leonard felt equal to.
"I believe in personal responsibility. Don't you? And in
personal everything. I hate--I suppose I oughtn't to say
that--but the Wilcoxes are on the wrong tack surely. Or perhaps
it isn't their fault. Perhaps the little thing that says 'I' is
missing out of the middle of their heads, and then it's a waste
of time to blame them. There's a nightmare of a theory that says
a special race is being born which will rule the rest of us in
the future just because it lacks the little thing that says 'I.'
Had you heard that?"
"I get no time for reading."
"Had you thought it, then? That there are two kinds of
people--our kind, who live straight from the middle of their
heads, and the other kind who can't, because their heads have no
middle? They can't say 'I.' They aren't in fact, and so
they're supermen. Pierpont Morgan has never said 'I' in his
life."
Leonard roused himself. If his benefactress wanted
intellectual conversation, she must have it. She was more
important than his ruined past. "I never got on to Nietzsche,"
he said. "But I always understood that those supermen were
rather what you may call egoists."
"Oh, no, that's wrong," replied Helen. "No superman ever
said 'I want,' because 'I want' must lead to the question, 'Who
am I?' and so to Pity and to Justice. He only says 'want.' 'Want
Europe,' if he's Napoleon; 'want wives,' if he's Bluebeard; 'want
Botticelli,' if he's Pierpont Morgan. Never the 'I'; and if you
could pierce through him, you'd find panic and emptiness in the
middle."
Leonard was silent for a moment. Then he said: "May I take
it, Miss Schlegel, that you and I are both the sort that say
'I'?"
"Of course."
"And your sister too?"
"Of course," repeated Helen, a little sharply. She was
annoyed with Margaret, but did not want her discussed. "All
presentable people say 'I.'"
"But Mr. Wilcox--he is not perhaps--"
"I don't know that it's any good discussing Mr. Wilcox
either."
"Quite so, quite so," he agreed. Helen asked herself why she
had snubbed him. Once or twice during the day she had encouraged
him to criticize, and then had pulled him up short. Was she
afraid of him presuming? If so, it was disgusting of her.
But he was thinking the snub quite natural. Everything she
did was natural, and incapable of causing offence. While the
Miss Schlegels were together he had felt them scarcely human--a
sort of admonitory whirligig. But a Miss Schlegel alone was
different. She was in Helen's case unmarried, in Margaret's
about to be married, in neither case an echo of her sister. A
light had fallen at last into this rich upper world, and he saw
that it was full of men and women, some of whom were more
friendly to him than others. Helen had become "his" Miss
Schlegel, who scolded him and corresponded with him, and had
swept down yesterday with grateful vehemence. Margaret, though
not unkind, was severe and remote. He would not presume to help
her, for instance. He had never liked her, and began to think
that his original impression was true, and that her sister did
not like her either. Helen was certainly lonely. She, who gave
away so much, was receiving too little. Leonard was pleased to
think that he could spare her vexation by holding his tongue and
concealing what he knew about Mr. Wilcox. Jacky had announced
her discovery when he fetched her from the lawn. After the first
shock, he did not mind for himself. By now he had no illusions
about his wife, and this was only one new stain on the face of a
love that had never been pure. To keep perfection perfect, that
should be his ideal, if the future gave him time to have ideals.
Helen, and Margaret for Helen's sake, must not know.
Helen disconcerted him by fuming the conversation to his
wife. "Mrs. Bast--does she ever say 'I'?" she asked, half
mischievously, and then, "Is she very tired?"
"It's better she stops in her room," said Leonard.
"Shall I sit up with her?"
"No, thank you; she does not need company."
"Mr. Bast, what kind of woman is your wife?"
Leonard blushed up to his eyes.
"You ought to know my ways by now. Does that question offend
you?"
"No, oh no, Miss Schlegel, no."
"Because I love honesty. Don't pretend your marriage has
been a happy one. You and she can have nothing in common."
He did not deny it, but said shyly: "I suppose that's pretty
obvious; but Jacky never meant to do anybody any harm. When
things went wrong, or I heard things, I used to think it was her
fault, but, looking back, it's more mine. I needn't have married
her, but as I have I must stick to her and keep her."
"How long have you been married?"
"Nearly three years."
"What did your people say?"
"They will not have anything to do with us. They had a sort
of family council when they heard I was married, and cut us off
altogether."
Helen began to pace up and down the room. "My good boy, what
a mess!" she said gently. "Who are your people?"
He could answer this. His parents, who were dead, had been
in trade; his sisters had married commercial travellers; his
brother was a lay-reader.
"And your grandparents?"
Leonard told her a secret that he had held shameful up to
now. "They were just nothing at all," he said, "--agricultural
labourers and that sort."
"So! From which part?"
"Lincolnshire mostly, but my mother's father--he, oddly
enough, came from these parts round here."
"From this very Shropshire. Yes, that is odd. My mother's
people were Lancashire. But why do your brother and your sisters
object to Mrs. Bast?"
"Oh, I don't know."
"Excuse me, you do know. I am not a baby. I can bear
anything you tell me, and the more you tell the more I shall be
able to help. Have they heard anything against her?"
He was silent.
"I think I have guessed now," said Helen very gravely.
"I don't think so, Miss Schlegel; I hope not."
"We must be honest, even over these things. I have guessed.
I am frightfully, dreadfully sorry, but it does not make the
least difference to me. I shall feel just the same to both of
you. I blame, not your wife for these things, but men."
Leonard left it at that--so long as she did not guess the
man. She stood at the window and slowly pulled up the blinds.
The hotel looked over a dark square. The mists had begun. When
she turned back to him her eyes were shining.
"Don't you worry," he pleaded. "I can't bear that. We shall
be all right if I get work. If I could only get work--something
regular to do. Then it wouldn't be so bad again. I don't
trouble after books as I used. I can imagine that with regular
work we should settle down again. It stops one thinking. "
"Settle down to what?"
"Oh, just settle down."
"And that's to be life!" said Helen, with a catch in her
throat. "How can you, with all the beautiful things to see and
do--with music--with walking at night--"
"Walking is well enough when a man's in work," he answered.
"Oh, I did talk a lot of nonsense once, but there's nothing like
a bailiff in the house to drive it out of you. When I saw him
fingering my Ruskins and Stevensons, I seemed to see life
straight real, and it isn't a pretty sight. My books are back
again, thanks to you, but they'll never be the same to me again,
and I shan't ever again think night in the woods is
wonderful."
"Why not?" asked Helen, throwing up the window.
"Because I see one must have money."
"Well, you're wrong."
"I wish I was wrong, but--the clergyman--he has money of his
own, or else he's paid; the poet or the musician--just the same;
the tramp--he's no different. The tramp goes to the workhouse in
the end, and is paid for with other people's money. Miss
Schlegel, the real thing's money and all the rest is a
dream."
"You're still wrong. You've forgotten Death."
Leonard could not understand.
"If we lived for ever what you say would be true. But we
have to die, we have to leave life presently. Injustice and
greed would be the real thing if we lived for ever. As it is, we
must hold to other things, because Death is coming. I love
Death--not morbidly, but because He explains. He shows me the
emptiness of Money. Death and Money are the eternal foes. Not
Death and Life. Never mind what lies behind Death, Mr. Bast, but
be sure that the poet and the musician and the tramp will be
happier in it than the man who has never learnt to say, 'I am
I.'"
"I wonder."
"We are all in a mist--I know but I can help you this
far--men like the Wilcoxes are deeper in the mist than any.
Sane, sound Englishmen! building up empires, levelling all the
world into what they call common sense. But mention Death to
them and they're offended, because Death's really Imperial, and
He cries out against them for ever."
"I am as afraid of Death as any one."
"But not of the idea of Death."
"But what is the difference?"
"Infinite difference," said Helen, more gravely than
before.
Leonard looked at her wondering, and had the sense of great
things sweeping out of the shrouded night. But he could not
receive them, because his heart was still full of little things.
As the lost umbrella had spoilt the concert at Queen's Hall, so
the lost situation was obscuring the diviner harmonies now.
Death, Life and Materialism were fine words, but would Mr. Wilcox
take him on as a clerk? Talk as one would, Mr. Wilcox was king
of this world, the superman, with his own morality, whose head
remained in the clouds.
"I must be stupid," he said apologetically.
While to Helen the paradox became clearer and clearer.
"Death destroys a man: the idea of Death saves him." Behind the
coffins and the skeletons that stay the vulgar mind lies
something so immense that all that is great in us responds to
it. Men of the world may recoil from the charnel-house that they
will one day enter, but Love knows better. Death is his foe, but
his peer, and in their age-long struggle the thews of Love have
been strengthened, and his vision cleared, until there is no one
who can stand against him.
"So never give in," continued the girl, and restated again
and again the vague yet convincing plea that the Invisible lodges
against the Visible. Her excitement grew as she tried to cut the
rope that fastened Leonard to the earth. Woven of bitter
experience, it resisted her. Presently the waitress entered and
gave her a letter from Margaret. Another note, addressed to
Leonard, was inside. They read them, listening to the murmurings
of the river.
For many hours Margaret did nothing; then she controlled
herself, and wrote some letters. She was too bruised to speak to
Henry; she could pity him, and even determine to marry him, but
as yet all lay too deep in her heart for speech. On the surface
the sense of his degradation was too strong. She could not
command voice or look, and the gentle words that she forced out
through her pen seemed to proceed from some other person.
"My dearest boy," she began, "this is not to part us. It is
everything or nothing, and I mean it to be nothing. It happened
long before we ever met, and even if it had happened since, I
should be writing the same, I hope. I do understand."
But she crossed out "I do understand"; it struck a false
note. Henry could not bear to be understood. She also crossed
out, "It is everything or nothing. "Henry would resent so strong
a grasp of the situation. She must not comment; comment is
unfeminine.
"I think that'll about do," she thought.
Then the sense of his degradation choked her. Was he worth
all this bother? To have yielded to a woman of that sort was
everything, yes, it was, and she could not be his wife. She
tried to translate his temptation into her own language, and her
brain reeled. Men must be different, even to want to yield to
such a temptation. Her belief in comradeship was stifled, and
she saw life as from that glass saloon on the Great Western,
which sheltered male and female alike from the fresh air. Are
the sexes really races, each with its own code of morality, and
their mutual love a mere device of Nature to keep things going?
Strip human intercourse of the proprieties, and is it reduced to
this? Her judgment told her no. She knew that out of Nature's
device we have built a magic that will win us immortality. Far
more mysterious than the call of sex to sex is the tenderness
that we throw into that call; far wider is the gulf between us
and the farmyard than between the farm-yard and the garbage that
nourishes it. We are evolving, in ways that Science cannot
measure, to ends that Theology dares not contemplate. "Men did
produce one jewel," the gods will say, and, saying, will give us
immortality. Margaret knew all this, but for the moment she
could not feel it, and transformed the marriage of Evie and Mr.
Cahill into a carnival of fools, and her own marriage--too
miserable to think of that, she tore up the letter, and then
wrote another:
Dear Mr. Bast,
I have spoken to Mr. Wilcox about you, as I promised, and am sorry to say that he has no vacancy for you.
Yours truly,
M. J. Schlegel
She enclosed this in a note to Helen, over which she took less trouble than she might have done; but her head was aching, and she could not stop to pick her words:
Dear Helen,
Give him this. The Basts are no good. Henry found the woman drunk on the lawn. I am having a room got ready for you here, and will you please come round at once on getting this? The Basts are not at all the type we should trouble about. I may go round to them myself in the morning, and do anything that is fair.
M
In writing this, Margaret felt that she was being
practical. Something might be arranged for the Basts later on,
but they must be silenced for the moment. She hoped to avoid a
conversation between the woman and Helen. She rang the bell for
a servant, but no one answered it; Mr. Wilcox and the Warringtons
were gone to bed, and the kitchen was abandoned to Saturnalia.
Consequently she went over to the George herself. She did not
enter the hotel, for discussion would have been perilous, and,
saying that the letter was important, she gave it to the
waitress. As she recrossed the square she saw Helen and Mr. Bast
looking out of the window of the coffee-room, and feared she was
already too late. Her task was not yet over; she ought to tell
Henry what she had done.
This came easily, for she saw him in the hall. The night
wind had been rattling the pictures against the wall, and the
noise had disturbed him.
"Who's there?" he called, quite the householder.
Margaret walked in and past him.
"I have asked Helen to sleep," she said. "She is best here;
so don't lock the front-door."
"I thought someone had got in," said Henry.
"At the same time I told the man that we could do nothing for
him. I don't know about later, but now the Basts must clearly
go."
"Did you say that your sister is sleeping here, after
all?"
"Probably."
"Is she to be shown up to your room?"
"I have naturally nothing to say to her; I am going to bed.
Will you tell the servants about Helen? Could someone go to
carry her bag?"
He tapped a little gong, which had been bought to summon the
servants.
"You must make more noise than that if you want them to
hear."
Henry opened a door, and down the corridor came shouts of
laughter. "Far too much screaming there," he said, and strode
towards it. Margaret went upstairs, uncertain whether to be glad
that they had met, or sorry. They had behaved as if nothing had
happened, and her deepest instincts told her that this was
wrong. For his own sake, some explanation was due.
And yet--what could an explanation tell her? A date, a
place, a few details, which she could imagine all too clearly.
Now that the first shock was over, she saw that there was every
reason to premise a Mrs. Bast. Henry's inner life had long laid
open to her--his intellectual confusion, his obtuseness to
personal influence, his strong but furtive passions. Should she
refuse him because his outer life corresponded? Perhaps.
Perhaps, if the dishonour had been done to her, but it was done
long before her day. She struggled against the feeling. She
told herself that Mrs. Wilcox's wrong was her own. But she was
not a bargain theorist. As she undressed, her anger, her regard
for the dead, her desire for a scene, all grew weak. Henry must
have it as he liked, for she loved him, and some day she would
use her love to make him a better man.
Pity was at the bottom of her actions all through this
crisis. Pity, if one may generalize, is at the bottom of woman.
When men like us, it is for our better qualities, and however
tender their liking, we dare not be unworthy of it, or they will
quietly let us go. But unworthiness stimulates woman. It brings
out her deeper nature, for good or for evil.
Here was the core of the question. Henry must be forgiven,
and made better by love; nothing else mattered. Mrs. Wilcox,
that unquiet yet kindly ghost, must be left to her own wrong. To
her everything was in proportion now, and she, too, would pity
the man who was blundering up and down their lives. Had Mrs.
Wilcox known of his trespass? An interesting question, but
Margaret fell asleep, tethered by affection, and lulled by the
murmurs of the river that descended all the night from Wales.
She felt herself at one with her future home, colouring it and
coloured by it, and awoke to see, for the second time, Oniton
Castle conquering the morning mists.
"Henry dear--" was her greeting.
He had finished his breakfast, and was beginning the
Times. His sister-in-law was packing. She knelt by him
and took the paper from him, feeling that it was unusually heavy
and thick. Then, putting her face where it had been, she looked
up in his eyes.
"Henry dear, look at me. No, I won't have you shirking.
Look at me. There. That's all."
"You're referring to last evening," he said huskily. "I have
released you from your engagement. I could find excuses, but I
won't. No, I won't. A thousand times no. I'm a bad lot, and
must be left at that."
Expelled from his old fortress, Mr. Wilcox was building a new
one. He could no longer appear respectable to her, so he
defended himself instead in a lurid past. It was not true
repentance.
"Leave it where you will, boy. It's not going to trouble us:
I know what I'm talking about, and it will make no
difference."
"No difference?" he inquired. "No difference, when you find
that I am not the fellow you thought?" He was annoyed with Miss
Schlegel here. He would have preferred her to be prostrated by
the blow, or even to rage. Against the tide of his sin flowed
the feeling that she was not altogether womanly. Her eyes gazed
too straight; they had read books that are suitable for men
only. And though he had dreaded a scene, and though she had
determined against one, there was a scene, all the same. It was
somehow imperative.
"I am unworthy of you," he began. "Had I been worthy, I
should not have released you from your engagement. I know what I
am talking about. I can't bear to talk of such things. We had
better leave it. "
She kissed his hand. He jerked it from her, and, rising to
his feet, went on: "You, with your sheltered life, and refined
pursuits, and friends, and books, you and your sister, and women
like you--I say, how can you guess the temptations that lie round
a man?"
"It is difficult for us," said Margaret; "but if we are worth
marrying, we do guess."
"Cut off from decent society and family ties, what do you
suppose happens to thousands of young fellows overseas?
Isolated. No one near. I know by bitter experience, and yet you
say it makes 'no difference.'"
"Not to me."
He laughed bitterly. Margaret went to the side-board and
helped herself to one of the breakfast dishes. Being the last
down, she turned out the spirit-lamp that kept them warm. She
was tender, but grave. She knew that Henry was not so much
confessing his soul as pointing out the gulf between the male
soul and the female, and she did not desire to hear him on this
point.
"Did Helen come?" she asked.
He shook his head.
"But that won't do at all, at all! We don't want her
gossiping with Mrs. Bast."
"Good God! no!" he exclaimed, suddenly natural. Then he
caught himself up. "Let them gossip. My game's up, though I
thank you for your unselfishness--little as my thanks are
worth."
"Didn't she send me a message or anything?"
"I heard of none."
"Would you ring the bell, please?"
"What to do?"
"Why, to inquire."
He swaggered up to it tragically, and sounded a peal.
Margaret poured herself out some coffee. The butler came, and
said that Miss Schlegel had slept at the George, so far as he had
heard. Should he go round to the George?
"I'll go, thank you," said Margaret, and dismissed him.
"It is no good," said Henry. "Those things leak out; you
cannot stop a story once it has started. I have known cases of
other men--I despised them once, I thought that I'm
different, I shall never be tempted. Oh, Margaret--" He came and
sat down near her, improvising emotion. She could not bear to
listen to him. "We fellows all come to grief once in our time.
Will you believe that? There are moments when the strongest
man--'Let him who standeth, take heed lest he fall.' That's true,
isn't it? If you knew all, you would excuse me. I was far from
good influences--far even from England. I was very, very lonely,
and longed for a woman's voice. That's enough. I have told you
too much already for you to forgive me now."
"Yes, that's enough, dear."
"I have"--he lowered his voice--"I have been through
hell."
Gravely she considered this claim. Had he? Had he suffered
tortures of remorse, or had it been, "There! that's over. Now
for respectable life again"? The latter, if she read him
rightly. A man who has been through hell does not boast of his
virility. He is humble and hides it, if, indeed, it still
exists. Only in legend does the sinner come forth penitent, but
terrible, to conquer pure woman by his resistless power. Henry
was anxious to be terrible, but had not got it in him. He was a
good average Englishman, who had slipped. The really culpable
point--his faithlessness to Mrs. Wilcox--never seemed to strike
him. She longed to mention Mrs. Wilcox.
And bit by bit the story was told her. It was a very simple
story. Ten years ago was the time, a garrison town in Cyprus the
place. Now and then he asked her whether she could possibly
forgive him, and she answered, "I have already forgiven you,
Henry." She chose her words carefully, and so saved him from
panic. She played the girl, until he could rebuild his fortress
and hide his soul from the world. When the butler came to clear
away, Henry was in a very different mood--asked the fellow what
he was in such a hurry for, complained of the noise last night in
the servants' hall. Margaret looked intently at the butler. He,
as a handsome young man, was faintly attractive to her as a
woman--an attraction so faint as scarcely to be perceptible, yet
the skies would have fallen if she had mentioned it to Henry.
On her return from the George the building operations were
complete, and the old Henry fronted her, competent, cynical, and
kind. He had made a clean breast, had been forgiven, and the
great thing now was to forget his failure, and to send it the way
of other unsuccessful investments. Jacky rejoined Howards End
and Ducie Street, and the vermilion motor-car, and the Argentine
Hard Dollars, and all the things and people for whom he had never
had much use and had less now. Their memory hampered him. He
could scarcely attend to Margaret who brought back disquieting
news from the George. Helen and her clients had gone.
"Well, let them go--the man and his wife, I mean, for the
more we see of your sister the better."
"But they have gone separately--Helen very early, the Basts
just before I arrived. They have left no message. They have
answered neither of my notes. I don't like to think what it all
means."
"What did you say in the notes?"
"I told you last night."
"Oh--ah--yes! Dear, would you like one turn in the
garden?"
Margaret took his arm. The beautiful weather soothed her.
But the wheels of Evie's wedding were still at work, tossing the
guests outwards as deftly as they had drawn them in, and she
could not be with him long. It had been arranged that they
should motor to Shrewsbury, whence he would go north, and she
back to London with the Warringtons. For a fraction of time she
was happy. Then her brain recommenced.
"I am afraid there has been gossiping of some kind at the
George. Helen would not have left unless she had heard
something. I mismanaged that. It is wretched. I ought to--have
parted her from that woman at once.
"Margaret!" he exclaimed, loosing her arm impressively.
"Yes--yes, Henry?"
"I am far from a saint--in fact, the reverse--but you have
taken me, for better or worse. Bygones must be bygones. You
have promised to forgive me. Margaret, a promise is a promise.
Never mention that woman again."
"Except for some practical reason--never."
"Practical! You practical!"
"Yes, I'm practical," she murmured, stooping over the
mowing-machine and playing with the grass which trickled through
her fingers like sand.
He had silenced her, but her fears made him uneasy. Not for
the first time, he was threatened with blackmail. He was rich
and supposed to be moral; the Basts knew that he was not, and
might find it profitable to hint as much.
"At all events, you mustn't worry," he said. "This is a
man's business." He thought intently. "On no account mention it
to anybody."
Margaret flushed at advice so elementary, but he was really
paving the way for a lie. If necessary he would deny that he had
ever known Mrs. Bast, and prosecute her for libel. Perhaps he
never had known her. Here was Margaret, who behaved as if he had
not. There the house. Round them were half a dozen gardeners,
clearing up after his daughter's wedding. All was so solid and
spruce, that the past flew up out of sight like a spring-blind,
leaving only the last five minutes unrolled.
Glancing at these, he saw that the car would be round during
the next five, and plunged into action. Gongs were tapped,
orders issued, Margaret was sent to dress, and the housemaid to
sweep up the long trickle of grass that she had left across the
hall. As is Man to the Universe, so was the mind of Mr. Wilcox
to the minds of some men--a concentrated light upon a tiny spot,
a little Ten Minutes moving self-contained through its appointed
years. No Pagan he, who lives for the Now, and may be wiser than
all philosophers. He lived for the five minutes that have past,
and the five to come; he had the business mind.
How did he stand now, as his motor slipped out of Oniton and
breasted the great round hills? Margaret had heard a certain
rumour, but was all right. She had forgiven him, God bless her,
and he felt the manlier for it. Charles and Evie had not heard
it, and never must hear. No more must Paul. Over his children
he felt great tenderness, which he did not try to track to a
cause: Mrs. Wilcox was too far back in his life. He did not
connect her with the sudden aching love that he felt for Evie.
Poor little Evie! he trusted that Cahill would make her a decent
husband.
And Margaret? How did she stand?
She had several minor worries. Clearly her sister had heard
something. She dreaded meeting her in town. And she was anxious
about Leonard, for whom they certainly were responsible. Nor
ought Mrs. Bast to starve. But the main situation had not
altered. She still loved Henry. His actions, not his
disposition, had disappointed her, and she could bear that. And
she loved her future home. Standing up in the car, just where
she had leapt from it two days before, she gazed back with deep
emotion upon Oniton. Besides the Grange and the Castle keep, she
could now pick out the church and the black-and-white gables of
the George. There was the bridge, and the river nibbling its
green peninsula. She could even see the bathing-shed, but while
she was looking for Charles's new springboard, the forehead of
the hill rose up and hid the whole scene.
She never saw it again. Day and night the river flows down
into England, day after day the sun retreats into the Welsh
mountains, and the tower chimes, "See the Conquering Hero." But
the Wilcoxes have no part in the place, nor in any place. It is
not their names that recur in the parish register. It is not
their ghosts that sigh among the alders at evening. They have
swept into the valley and swept out of it, leaving a little dust
and a little money behind.
Tibby was now approaching his last year at Oxford. He had
moved out of college, and was contemplating the Universe, or such
portions of it as concerned him, from his comfortable lodgings in
Long Wall. He was not concerned with much. When a young man is
untroubled by passions and sincerely indifferent to public
opinion, his outlook is necessarily limited. Tibby neither
wished to strengthen the position of the rich nor to improve that
of the poor, and so was well content to watch the elms nodding
behind the mildly embattled parapets of Magdalen. There are
worse lives. Though selfish, he was never cruel; though affected
in manner, he never posed. Like Margaret, he disdained the
heroic equipment, and it was only after many visits that men
discovered Schlegel to possess a character and a brain. He had
done well in Mods, much to the surprise of those who attended
lectures and took proper exercise, and was now glancing
disdainfully at Chinese in case he should some day consent to
qualify as a Student Interpreter. To him thus employed Helen
entered. A telegram had preceded her.
He noticed, in a distant way, that his sister had altered.
As a rule he found her too pronounced, and had never come across
this look of appeal, pathetic yet dignified--the look of a sailor
who has lost everything at sea.
"I have come from Oniton," she began. "There has been a
great deal of trouble there."
"Who's for lunch?" said Tibby, picking up the claret, which
was warming in the hearth. Helen sat down submissively at the
table. "Why such an early start?" he asked.
"Sunrise or something--when I could get away."
"So I surmise. Why?"
"I don't know what's to be done, Tibby. I am very much upset
at a piece of news that concerns Meg, and do not want to face
her, and I am not going back to Wickham Place. I stopped here to
tell you this."
The landlady came in with the cutlets. Tibby put a marker in
the leaves of his Chinese Grammar and helped them. Oxford--the
Oxford of the vacation--dreamed and rustled outside, and indoors
the little fire was coated with grey where the sunshine touched
it. Helen continued her odd story.
"Give Meg my love and say that I want to be alone. I mean to
go to Munich or else Bonn."
"Such a message is easily given," said her brother.
"As regards Wickham Place and my share of the furniture, you
and she are to do exactly as you like. My own feeling is that
everything may just as well be sold. What does one want with
dusty economic, books, which have made the world no better, or
with mother's hideous chiffoniers? I have also another
commission for you. I want you to deliver a letter." She got
up. "I haven't written it yet. Why shouldn't I post it,
though?" She sat down again. "My head is rather wretched. I
hope that none of your friends are likely to come in."
Tibby locked the door. His friends often found it in this
condition. Then he asked whether anything had gone wrong at
Evie's wedding.
"Not there," said Helen, and burst into tears.
He had known her hysterical--it was one of her aspects with
which he had no concern--and yet these tears touched him as
something unusual. They were nearer the things that did concern
him, such as music. He laid down his knife and looked at her
curiously. Then, as she continued to sob, he went on with his
lunch.
The time came for the second course, and she was still
crying. Apple Charlotte was to follow, which spoils by waiting.
"Do you mind Mrs. Martlett coming in?" he asked, "or shall I take
it from her at the door?"
"Could I bathe my eyes, Tibby?"
He took her to his bedroom, and introduced the pudding in her
absence. Having helped himself, he put it down to warm in the
hearth. His hand stretched towards the Grammar, and soon he was
turning over the pages, raising his eyebrows scornfully, perhaps
at human nature, perhaps at Chinese. To him thus employed Helen
returned. She had pulled herself together, but the grave appeal
had not vanished from her eyes.
"Now for the explanation," she said. "Why didn't I begin
with it? I have found out something about Mr. Wilcox. He has
behaved very wrongly indeed, and ruined two people's lives. It
all came on me very suddenly last night; I am very much upset,
and I do not know what to do. Mrs. Bast--"
"Oh, those people!"
Helen seemed silenced.
"Shall I lock the door again?"
"No, thanks, Tibbikins. You're being very good to me. I
want to tell you the story before I go abroad. You must do
exactly what you like--treat it as part of the furniture. Meg
cannot have heard it yet, I think. But I cannot face her and
tell her that the man she is going to marry has misconducted
himself. I don't even know whether she ought to be told.
Knowing as she does that I dislike him, she will suspect me, and
think that I want to ruin her match. I simply don't know what to
make of such a thing. I trust your judgment. What would you
do?"
"I gather he has had a mistress," said Tibby.
Helen flushed with shame and anger. "And ruined two people's
lives. And goes about saying that personal actions count for
nothing, and there always will be rich and poor. He met her when
he was trying to get rich out in Cyprus--I don't wish to make him
worse than he is, and no doubt she was ready enough to meet him.
But there it is. They met. He goes his way and she goes hers.
What do you suppose is the end of such women?"
He conceded that it was a bad business.
"They end in two ways: Either they sink till the lunatic
asylums and the workhouses are full of them, and cause Mr. Wilcox
to write letters to the papers complaining of our national
degeneracy, or else they entrap a boy into marriage before it is
too late. She--I can't blame her.
"But this isn't all," she continued after a long pause,
during which the landlady served them with coffee. "I come now
to the business that took us to Oniton. We went all three.
Acting on Mr. Wilcox's advice, the man throws up a secure
situation and takes an insecure one, from which he is dismissed.
There are certain excuses, but in the main Mr. Wilcox is to
blame, as Meg herself admitted. It is only common justice that
he should employ the man himself. But he meets the woman, and,
like the cur that he is, he refuses, and tries to get rid of
them. He makes Meg write. Two notes came from her late that
evening--one for me, one for Leonard, dismissing him with barely
a reason. I couldn't understand. Then it comes out that Mrs.
Bast had spoken to Mr. Wilcox on the lawn while we left her to
get rooms, and was still speaking about him when Leonard came
back to her. This Leonard knew all along. He thought it natural
he should be ruined twice. Natural! Could you have contained
yourself?.
"It is certainly a very bad business," said Tibby.
His reply seemed to calm his sister. "I was afraid that I
saw it out of proportion. But you are right outside it, and you
must know. In a day or two--or perhaps a week--take whatever
steps you think fit. I leave it in your hands."
She concluded her charge.
"The facts as they touch Meg are all before you," she added;
and Tibby sighed and felt it rather hard that, because of his
open mind, he should be empanelled to serve as a juror. He had
never been interested in human beings, for which one must blame
him, but he had had rather too much of them at Wickham Place.
Just as some people cease to attend when books are mentioned, so
Tibby's attention wandered when "personal relations" came under
discussion. Ought Margaret to know what Helen knew the Basts to
know? Similar questions had vexed him from infancy, and at
Oxford he had learned to say that the importance of human beings
has been vastly overrated by specialists. The epigram, with its
faint whiff of the eighties, meant nothing. But he might have
let it off now if his sister had not been ceaselessly
beautiful.
"You see, Helen--have a cigarette--I don't see what I'm to
do."
"Then there's nothing to be done. I dare say you are right.
Let them marry. There remains the question of
compensation. "
"Do you want me to adjudicate that too? Had you not better
consult an expert?"
"This part is in confidence," said Helen. "It has nothing to
do with Meg, and do not mention it to her. The compensation--I
do not see who is to pay it if I don't, and I have already
decided on the minimum sum. As soon as possible I am placing it
to your account, and when I am in Germany you will pay it over
for me. I shall never forget your kindness, Tibbikins, if you do
this."
"What is the sum?"
"Five thousand."
"Good God alive!" said Tibby, and went crimson.
"Now, what is the good of driblets? To go through life
having done one thing--to have raised one person from the abyss:
not these puny gifts of shillings and blankets--making the grey
more grey. No doubt people will think me extraordinary."
"I don't care a damn what people think!" cried he, heated to
unusual manliness of diction. "But it's half what you have."
"Not nearly half." She spread out her hands over her soiled
skirt. "I have far too much, and we settled at Chelsea last
spring that three hundred a year is necessary to set a man on his
feet. What I give will bring in a hundred and fifty between
two. It isn't enough."
He could not recover. He was not angry or even shocked, and
he saw that Helen would still have plenty to live on. But it
amazed him to think what haycocks people can make of their
lives. His delicate intonations would not work, and he could
only blurt out that the five thousand pounds would mean a great
deal of bother for him personally.
"I didn't expect you to understand me."
"I? I understand nobody."
"But you'll do it?"
"Apparently."
"I leave you two commissions, then. The first concerns Mr.
Wilcox, and you are to use your discretion. The second concerns
the money, and is to be mentioned to no one, and carried out
literally. You will send a hundred pounds on account
tomorrow."
He walked with her to the station, passing through those
streets whose serried beauty never bewildered him and never
fatigued. The lovely creature raised domes and spires into the
cloudless blue, and only the ganglion of vulgarity round Carfax
showed how evanescent was the phantom, how faint its claim to
represent England. Helen, rehearsing her commission, noticed
nothing: the Basts were in her brain, and she retold the crisis
in a meditative way, which might have made other men curious.
She was seeing whether it would hold. He asked her once why she
had taken the Basts right into the heart of Evie's wedding. She
stopped like a frightened animal and said, "Does that seem to you
so odd?" Her eyes, the hand laid on the mouth, quite haunted
him, until they were absorbed into the figure of St. Mary the
Virgin, before whom he paused for a moment on the walk home.
It is convenient to follow him in the discharge of his
duties. Margaret summoned him the next day. She was terrified
at Helen's flight, and he had to say that she had called in at
Oxford. Then she said: "Did she seem worried at any rumour about
Henry?" He answered, "Yes." "I knew it was that!" she
exclaimed. "I'll write to her." Tibby was relieved.
He then sent the cheque to the address that Helen gave him,
and stated that later on he was instructed to forward five
thousand pounds. An answer came back, very civil and quiet in
tone--such an answer as Tibby himself would have given. The
cheque was returned, the legacy refused, the writer being in no
need of money. Tibby forwarded this to Helen, adding in the
fulness of his heart that Leonard Bast seemed somewhat a
monumental person after all. Helen's reply was frantic. He was
to take no notice. He was to go down at once and say that she
commanded acceptance. He went. A scurf of books and china
ornaments awaited them. The Basts had just been evicted for not
paying their rent, and had wandered no one knew whither. Helen
had begun bungling with her money by this time, and had even sold
out her shares in the Nottingham and Derby Railway. For some
weeks she did nothing. Then she reinvested, and, owing to the
good advice of her stockbrokers, became rather richer than she
had been before.
Houses have their own ways of dying, falling as variously as
the generations of men, some with a tragic roar, some quietly,
but to an after-life in the city of ghosts, while from
others--and thus was the death of Wickham Place--the spirit slips
before the body perishes. It had decayed in the spring,
disintegrating the girls more than they knew, and causing either
to accost unfamiliar regions. By September it was a corpse, void
of emotion, and scarcely hallowed by the memories of thirty years
of happiness. Through its round-topped doorway passed furniture,
and pictures, and books, until the last room was gutted and the
last van had rumbled away. It stood for a week or two longer,
open-eyed, as if astonished at its own emptiness. Then it fell.
Navvies came, and spilt it back into the grey. With their
muscles and their beery good temper, they were not the worst of
undertakers for a house which had always been human, and had not
mistaken culture for an end.
The furniture, with a few exceptions, went down into
Hertfordshire, Mr. Wilcox having most kindly offered Howards End
as a warehouse. Mr. Bryce had died abroad--an unsatisfactory
affair--and as there seemed little guarantee that the rent would
be paid regularly, he cancelled the agreement, and resumed
possession himself. Until he relet the house, the Schlegels were
welcome to stack their furniture in the garage and lower rooms.
Margaret demurred, but Tibby accepted the offer gladly; it saved
him from coming to any decision about the future. The plate and
the more valuable pictures found a safer home in London, but the
bulk of the things went country-ways, and were entrusted to the
guardianship of Miss Avery.
Shortly before the move, our hero and heroine were married.
They have weathered the storm, and may reasonably expect peace.
To have no illusions and yet to love--what stronger surety can a
woman find? She had seen her husband's past as well as his
heart. She knew her own heart with a thoroughness that
commonplace people believe impossible. The heart of Mrs. Wilcox
was alone hidden, and perhaps it is superstitious to speculate on
the feelings of the dead. They were married quietly--really
quietly, for as the day approached she refused to go through
another Oniton. Her brother gave her away, her aunt, who was out
of health, presided over a few colourless refreshments. The
Wilcoxes were represented by Charles, who witnessed the marriage
settlement, and by Mr. Cahill. Paul did send a cablegram. In a
few minutes, and without the aid of music, the clergyman made
them man and wife, and soon the glass shade had fallen that cuts
off married couples from the world. She, a monogamist, regretted
the cessation of some of life's innocent odours; he, whose
instincts were polygamous, felt morally braced by the change, and
less liable to the temptations that had assailed him in the
past.
They spent their honeymoon near Innsbruck. Henry knew of a
reliable hotel there, and Margaret hoped for a meeting with her
sister. In this she was disappointed. As they came south, Helen
retreated over the Brenner, and wrote an unsatisfactory postcard
from the shores of the Lake of Garda, saying that her plans were
uncertain and had better be ignored. Evidently she disliked
meeting Henry. Two months are surely enough to accustom an
outsider to a situation which a wife has accepted in two days,
and Margaret had again to regret her sister's lack of
self-control. In a long letter she pointed out the need of
charity in sexual matters: so little is known about them; it is
hard enough for those who are personally touched to judge; then
how futile must be the verdict of Society. "I don't say there is
no standard, for that would destroy morality; only that there can
be no standard until our impulses are classified and better
understood." Helen thanked her for her kind letter--rather a
curious reply. She moved south again, and spoke of wintering in
Naples.
Mr. Wilcox was not sorry that the meeting failed. Helen left
him time to grow skin over his wound. There were still moments
when it pained him. Had he only known that Margaret was awaiting
him--Margaret, so lively and intelligent, and yet so
submissive--he would have kept himself worthier of her.
Incapable of grouping the past, he confused the episode of Jacky
with another episode that had taken place in the days of his
bachelorhood. The two made one crop of wild oats, for which he
was heartily sorry, and he could not see that those oats are of a
darker stock which are rooted in another's dishonour. Unchastity
and infidelity were as confused to him as to the Middle Ages, his
only moral teacher. Ruth (poor old Ruth!) did not enter into his
calculations at all, for poor old Ruth had never found him
out.
His affection for his present wife grew steadily. Her
cleverness gave him no trouble, and, indeed, he liked to see her
reading poetry or something about social questions; it
distinguished her from the wives of other men. He had only to
call, and she clapped the book up and was ready to do what he
wished. Then they would argue so jollily, and once or twice she
had him in quite a tight corner, but as soon as he grew really
serious, she gave in. Man is for war, woman for the recreation
of the warrior, but he does not dislike it if she makes a show of
fight. She cannot win in a real battle, having no muscles, only
nerves. Nerves make her jump out of a moving motor-car, or
refuse to be married fashionably. The warrior may well allow her
to triumph on such occasions; they move not the imperishable
plinth of things that touch his peace.
Margaret had a bad attack of these nerves during the
honeymoon. He told her--casually, as was his habit--that Oniton
Grange was let. She showed her annoyance, and asked rather
crossly why she had not been consulted.
"I didn't want to bother you," he replied. "Besides, I have
only heard for certain this morning."
"Where are we to live?" said Margaret, trying to laugh. "I
loved the place extraordinarily. Don't you believe in having a
permanent home, Henry?"
He assured her that she misunderstood him. It is home life
that distinguishes us from the foreigner. But he did not believe
in a damp home.
"This is news. I never heard till this minute that Oniton
was damp."
"My dear girl!"--he flung out his hand--"have you eyes? have
you a skin? How could it be anything but damp in such a
situation? In the first place, the Grange is on clay, and built
where the castle moat must have been; then there's that
destestable little river, steaming all night like a kettle. Feel
the cellar walls; look up under the eaves. Ask Sir James or
anyone. Those Shropshire valleys are notorious. The only
possible place for a house in Shropshire is on a hill; but, for
my part, I think the country is too far from London, and the
scenery nothing special. "
Margaret could not resist saying, "Why did you go there,
then?"
"I--because--" He drew his head back and grew rather angry.
"Why have we come to the Tyrol, if it comes to that? One might
go on asking such questions indefinitely."
One might; but he was only gaining time for a plausible
answer. Out it came, and he believed it as soon as it was
spoken.
"The truth is, I took Oniton on account of Evie. Don't let
this go any further."
"Certainly not."
"I shouldn't like her to know that she nearly let me in for a
very bad bargain. No sooner did I sign the agreement than she
got engaged. Poor little girl! She was so keen on it all, and
wouldn't even wait to make proper inquiries about the shooting.
Afraid it would get snapped up--just like all of your sex. Well,
no harm's done. She has had her country wedding, and I've got
rid of my house to some fellows who are starting a preparatory
school."
"Where shall we live, then, Henry? I should enjoy living
somewhere."
"I have not yet decided. What about Norfolk?"
Margaret was silent. Marriage had not saved her from the
sense of flux. London was but a foretaste of this nomadic
civilization which is altering human nature so profoundly, and
throws upon personal relations a stress greater than they have
ever borne before. Under cosmopolitanism, if it comes, we shall
receive no help from the earth. Trees and meadows and mountains
will only be a spectacle, and the binding force that they once
exercised on character must be entrusted to Love alone. May Love
be equal to the task!
"It is now what?" continued Henry. "Nearly October. Let us
camp for the winter at Ducie Street, and look out for something
in the spring.
"If possible, something permanent. I can't be as young as I
was, for these alterations don't suit me. "
"But, my dear, which would you rather have--alterations or
rheumatism?"
"I see your point," said Margaret, getting up. "If Oniton is
really damp, it is impossible, and must be inhabited by little
boys. Only, in the spring, let us look before we leap. I will
take warning by Evie, and not hurry you. Remember that you have
a free hand this time. These endless moves must be bad for the
furniture, and are certainly expensive."
"What a practical little woman it is! What's it been
reading? Theo--theo--how much?"
"Theosophy."
So Ducie Street was her first fate--a pleasant enough fate.
The house, being only a little larger than Wickham Place, trained
her for the immense establishment that was promised in the
spring. They were frequently away, but at home life ran fairly
regularly. In the morning Henry went to the business, and his
sandwich--a relic this of some prehistoric craving--was always
cut by her own hand. He did not rely upon the sandwich for
lunch, but liked to have it by him in case he grew hungry at
eleven. When he had gone, there was the house to look after, and
the servants to humanize, and several kettles of Helen's to keep
on the boil. Her conscience pricked her a little about the
Basts; she was not sorry to have lost sight of them. No doubt
Leonard was worth helping, but being Henry's wife, she preferred
to help someone else. As for theatres and discussion societies,
they attracted her less and less. She began to "miss" new
movements, and to spend her spare time re-reading or thinking,
rather to the concern of her Chelsea friends. They attributed
the change to her marriage, and perhaps some deep instinct did
warn her not to travel further from her husband than was
inevitable. Yet the main cause lay deeper still; she had
outgrown stimulants, and was passing from words to things. It
was doubtless a pity not to keep up with Wedekind or John, but
some closing of the gates is inevitable after thirty, if the mind
itself is to become a creative power.
She was looking at plans one day in the following spring--they
had finally decided to go down into Sussex and build--when Mrs.
Charles Wilcox was announced.
"Have you heard the news?" Dolly cried, as soon as she
entered the room. "Charles is so ang--I mean he is sure you know
about it, or rather, that you don't know."
"Why, Dolly!" said Margaret, placidly kissing her. "Here's a
surprise! How are the boys and the baby?"
Boys and the baby were well, and in describing a great row
that there had been at Hilton Tennis Club, Dolly forgot her
news. The wrong people had tried to get in. The rector, as
representing the older inhabitants, had said--Charles had
said--the tax-collector had said--Charles had regretted not
saying--and she closed the description with, "But lucky you, with
four courts of your own at Midhurst."
"It will be very jolly," replied Margaret.
"Are those the plans? Does it matter me seeing them?"
"Of course not."
"Charles has never seen the plans."
"They have only just arrived. Here is the ground floor--no,
that's rather difficult. Try the elevation. We are to have a
good many gables and a picturesque sky-line."
"What makes it smell so funny?" said Dolly, after a moment's
inspection. She was incapable of understanding plans or
maps.
"I suppose the paper."
"And which way up is it?"
"Just the ordinary way up. That's the sky-line, and the part
that smells strongest is the sky."
"Well, ask me another. Margaret--oh--what was I going to
say? How's Helen?"
"Quite well."
"Is she never coming back to England? Every one thinks it's
awfully odd she doesn't."
"So it is," said Margaret, trying to conceal her vexation.
She was getting rather sore on this point. "Helen is odd,
awfully. She has now been away eight months.
"But hasn't she any address?"
"A poste restante somewhere in Bavaria is her address. Do
write her a line. I will look it up for you."
"No, don't bother. That's eight months she has been away,
surely?"
"Exactly. She left just after Evie's wedding. It would be
eight months."
"Just when baby was born, then?"
"Just so."
Dolly sighed, and stared enviously round the drawing-room.
She was beginning to lose her brightness and good looks. The
Charles' were not well off, for Mr. Wilcox, having brought up his
children with expensive tastes, believed in letting them shift
for themselves. After all, he had not treated them generously.
Yet another baby was expected, she told Margaret, and they would
have to give up the motor. Margaret sympathized, but in a formal
fashion, and Dolly little imagined that the step-mother was
urging Mr. Wilcox to make them a more liberal allowance. She
sighed again, and at last the particular grievance was
remembered. "Oh yes," she cried, "that is it: Miss Avery has
been unpacking your packing-cases."
"Why has she done that? How unnecessary!"
"Ask another. I suppose you ordered her to."
"I gave no such orders. Perhaps she was airing the things.
She did undertake to light an occasional fire."
"It was far more than an air," said Dolly solemnly. "The
floor sounds covered with books. Charles sent me to know what is
to be done, for he feels certain you don't know."
"Books!" cried Margaret, moved by the holy word. "Dolly, are
you serious? Has she been touching our books?"
"Hasn't she, though! What used to be the hall's full of
them. Charles thought for certain you knew of it."
"I am very much obliged to you, Dolly. What can have come
over Miss Avery? I must go down about it at once. Some of the
books are my brother's, and are quite valuable. She had no right
to open any of the cases."
"I say she's dotty. She was the one that never got married,
you know. Oh, I say, perhaps she thinks your books are
wedding-presents to herself. Old maids are taken that way
sometimes. Miss Avery hates us all like poison ever since her
frightful dust-up with Evie."
"I hadn't heard of that," said Margaret. A visit from Dolly
had its compensations.
"Didn't you know she gave Evie a present last August, and
Evie returned it, and then--oh, goloshes! You never read such a
letter as Miss Avery wrote."
"But it was wrong of Evie to return it. It wasn't like her
to do such a heartless thing."
"But the present was so expensive."
"Why does that make any difference, Dolly?"
"Still, when it costs over five pounds--I didn't see it, but
it was a lovely enamel pendant from a Bond Street shop. You
can't very well accept that kind of thing from a farm woman.
Now, can you?"
"You accepted a present from Miss Avery when you were
married.
"Oh, mine was old earthenware stuff--not worth a halfpenny.
Evie's was quite different. You'd have to ask anyone to the
wedding who gave you a pendant like that. Uncle Percy and Albert
and father and Charles all said it was quite impossible, and when
four men agree, what is a girl to do? Evie didn't want to upset
the old thing, so thought a sort of joking letter best, and
returned the pendant straight to the shop to save Miss Avery
trouble."
"But Miss Avery said--"
Dolly's eyes grew round. "It was a perfectly awful letter.
Charles said it was the letter of a madman. In the end she had
the pendant back again from the shop and threw it into the
duckpond.
"Did she give any reasons?"
"We think she meant to be invited to Oniton, and so climb
into society."
"She's rather old for that," said Margaret pensively. "May
not she have given the present to Evie in remembrance of her
mother?"
"That's a notion. Give every one their due, eh? Well, I
suppose I ought to be toddling. Come along, Mr. Muff--you want a
new coat, but I don't know who'll give it you, I'm sure;" and
addressing her apparel with mournful humour, Dolly moved from the
room.
Margaret followed her to ask whether Henry knew about Miss
Avery's rudeness.
"Oh yes."
"I wonder, then, why he let me ask her to look after the
house."
"But she's only a farm woman," said Dolly, and her
explanation proved correct. Henry only censured the lower
classes when it suited him. He bore with Miss Avery as with
Crane--because he could get good value out of them. "I have
patience with a man who knows his job," he would say, really
having patience with the job, and not the man. Paradoxical as it
may sound, he had something of the artist about him; he would
pass over an insult to his daughter sooner than lose a good
charwoman for his wife.
Margaret judged it better to settle the little trouble
herself. Parties were evidently ruffled. With Henry's
permission, she wrote a pleasant note to Miss Avery, asking her
to leave the cases untouched. Then, at the first convenient
opportunity, she went down herself, intending to repack her
belongings and store them properly in the local warehouse: the
plan had been amateurish and a failure. Tibby promised to
accompany her, but at the last moment begged to be excused. So,
for the second time in her life, she entered the house alone.
The day of her visit was exquisite, and the last of unclouded
happiness that she was to have for many months. Her anxiety
about Helen's extraordinary absence was still dormant, and as for
a possible brush with Miss Avery--that only gave zest to the
expedition. She had also eluded Dolly's invitation to luncheon.
Walking straight up from the station, she crossed the village
green and entered the long chestnut avenue that connects it with
the church. The church itself stood in the village once. But it
there attracted so many worshippers that the devil, in a pet,
snatched it from its foundations, and poised it on an
inconvenient knoll, three-quarters of a mile away. If this story
is true, the chestnut avenue must have been planted by the
angels. No more tempting approach could be imagined for the
luke-warm Christian, and if he still finds the walk too long, the
devil is defeated all the same, Science having built Holy
Trinity, a Chapel of Ease, near the Charles', and roofed it with
tin.
Up the avenue Margaret strolled slowly, stopping to watch the
sky that gleamed through the upper branches of the chestnuts, or
to finger the little horseshoes on the lower branches. Why has
not England a great mythology? Our folklore has never advanced
beyond daintiness, and the greater melodies about our
country-side have all issued through the pipes of Greece. Deep
and true as the native imagination can be, it seems to have
failed here. It has stopped with the witches and the fairies.
It cannot vivify one fraction of a summer field, or give names to
half a dozen stars. England still waits for the supreme moment
of her literature--for the great poet who shall voice her, or,
better still, for the thousand little poets whose voices shall
pass into our common talk.
At the church the scenery changed. The chestnut avenue
opened into a road, smooth but narrow, which led into the
untouched country. She followed it for over a mile. Its little
hesitations pleased her. Having no urgent destiny, it strolled
downhill or up as it wished, taking no trouble about the
gradients, nor about the view, which nevertheless expanded. The
great estates that throttle the south of Hertfordshire were less
obtrusive here, and the appearance of the land was neither
aristocratic nor suburban. To define it was difficult, but
Margaret knew what it was not: it was not snobbish. Though its
contours were slight, there was a touch of freedom in their sweep
to which Surrey will never attain, and the distant brow of the
Chilterns towered like a mountain. "Left to itself," was
Margaret's opinion, "this county would vote Liberal." The
comradeship, not passionate, that is our highest gift as a
nation, was promised by it, as by the low brick farm where she
called for the key.
But the inside of the farm was disappointing. A most
finished young person received her. "Yes, Mrs. Wilcox; no, Mrs.
Wilcox; oh yes, Mrs. Wilcox, auntie received your letter quite
duly. Auntie has gone up to your little place at the present
moment. Shall I send the servant to direct you?" Followed by:
"Of course, auntie does not generally look after your place; she
only does it to oblige a neighbour as something exceptional. It
gives her something to do. She spends quite a lot of her time
there. My husband says to me sometimes, 'Where's auntie?' I say,
'Need you ask? She's at Howards End.' Yes, Mrs. Wilcox. Mrs.
Wilcox, could I prevail upon you to accept a piece of cake? Not
if I cut it for you?"
Margaret refused the cake, but unfortunately this acquired
her gentility in the eyes of Miss Avery's niece.
"I cannot let you go on alone. Now don't. You really
mustn't. I will direct you myself if it comes to that. I must
get my hat. Now"--roguishly--"Mrs. Wilcox, don't you move while
I'm gone."
Stunned, Margaret did not move from the best parlour, over
which the touch of art nouveau had fallen. But the other rooms
looked in keeping, though they conveyed the peculiar sadness of a
rural interior. Here had lived an elder race, to which we look
back with disquietude. The country which we visit at week-ends
was really a home to it, and the graver sides of life, the
deaths, the partings, the yearnings for love, have their deepest
expression in the heart of the fields. All was not sadness. The
sun was shining without. The thrush sang his two syllables on
the budding guelder-rose. Some children were playing
uproariously in heaps of golden straw. It was the presence of
sadness at all that surprised Margaret, and ended by giving her a
feeling of completeness. In these English farms, if anywhere,
one might see life steadily and see it whole, group in one vision
its transitoriness and its eternal youth, connect--connect
without bitterness until all men are brothers. But her thoughts
were interrupted by the return of Miss Avery's niece, and were so
tranquillizing that she suffered the interruption gladly.
It was quicker to go out by the back door, and, after due
explanations, they went out by it. The niece was now mortified
by unnumerable chickens, who rushed up to her feet for food, and
by a shameless and maternal sow. She did not know what animals
were coming to. But her gentility withered at the touch of the
sweet air. The wind was rising, scattering the straw and
ruffling the tails of the ducks as they floated in families over
Evie's pendant. One of those delicious gales of spring, in which
leaves stiff in bud seem to rustle, swept over the land and then
fell silent. "Georgia," sang the thrush. "Cuckoo," came
furtively from the cliff of pine-trees. "Georgia, pretty
Georgia," and the other birds joined in with nonsense. The hedge
was a half-painted picture which would be finished in a few
days. Celandines grew on its banks, lords and ladies and
primroses in the defended hollows; the wild rose-bushes, still
bearing their withered hips, showed also the promise of blossom.
Spring had come, clad in no classical garb, yet fairer than all
springs; fairer even than she who walks through the myrtles of
Tuscany with the graces before her and the zephyr behind.
The two women walked up the lane full of outward civility.
But Margaret was thinking how difficult it was to be earnest
about furniture on such a day, and the niece was thinking about
hats. Thus engaged, they reached Howards End. Petulant cries of
"Auntie!" severed the air. There was no reply, and the front
door was locked.
"Are you sure that Miss Avery is up here?" asked
Margaret.
"Oh yes, Mrs. Wilcox, quite sure. She is here daily."
Margaret tried to look in through the dining-room window, but
the curtain inside was drawn tightly. So with the drawing-room
and the hall. The appearance of these curtains was familiar, yet
she did not remember them being there on her other visit: her
impression was that Mr. Bryce had taken everything away. They
tried the back. Here again they received no answer, and could
see nothing; the kitchen-window was fitted with a blind, while
the pantry and scullery had pieces of wood propped up against
them, which looked ominously like the lids of packing-cases.
Margaret thought of her books, and she lifted up her voice also.
At the first cry she succeeded.
"Well, well!" replied someone inside the house. "If it isn't
Mrs. Wilcox come at last!"
"Have you got the key, auntie?"
"Madge, go away," said Miss Avery, still invisible.
"Auntie, it's Mrs. Wilcox--"
Margaret supported her. "Your niece and I have come
together--"
"Madge, go away. This is no moment for your hat."
The poor woman went red. "Auntie gets more eccentric
lately," she said nervously.
"Miss Avery!" called Margaret. "I have come about the
furniture. Could you kindly let me in?"
"Yes, Mrs. Wilcox," said the voice, "of course." But after
that came silence. They called again without response. They
walked round the house disconsolately.
"I hope Miss Avery is not ill," hazarded Margaret.
"Well, if you'll excuse me," said Madge, "perhaps I ought to
be leaving you now. The servants need seeing to at the farm.
Auntie is so odd at times." Gathering up her elegancies, she
retired defeated, and, as if her departure had loosed a spring,
the front door opened at once.
Miss Avery said, "Well, come right in, Mrs. Wilcox!" quite
pleasantly and calmly.
"Thank you so much," began Margaret, but broke off at the
sight of an umbrella-stand. It was her own.
"Come right into the hall first," said Miss Avery. She drew
the curtain, and Margaret uttered a cry of despair. For an
appalling thing had happened. The hall was fitted up with the
contents of the library from Wickham Place. The carpet had been
laid, the big work-table drawn up near the window; the bookcases
filled the wall opposite the fireplace, and her father's
sword--this is what bewildered her particularly--had been drawn
from its scabbard and hung naked amongst the sober volumes. Miss
Avery must have worked for days.
"I'm afraid this isn't what we meant," she began. "Mr.
Wilcox and I never intended the cases to be touched. For
instance, these books are my brother's. We are storing them for
him and for my sister, who is abroad. When you kindly undertook
to look after things, we never expected you to do so much."
"The house has been empty long enough," said the old
woman.
Margaret refused to argue. "I dare say we didn't explain,"
she said civilly. "It has been a mistake, and very likely our
mistake."
"Mrs. Wilcox, it has been mistake upon mistake for fifty
years. The house is Mrs. Wilcox's, and she would not desire it
to stand empty any longer."
To help the poor decaying brain, Margaret said:
"Yes, Mrs. Wilcox's house, the mother of Mr. Charles."
"Mistake upon mistake," said Miss Avery. "Mistake upon
mistake."
"Well, I don't know," said Margaret, sitting down in one of
her own chairs. "I really don't know what's to be done." She
could not help laughing.
The other said: "Yes, it should be a merry house enough."
"I don't know--I dare say. Well, thank you very much, Miss
Avery. Yes, that's all right. Delightful."
"There is still the parlour." She went through the door
opposite and drew a curtain. Light flooded the drawing-room and
the drawing-room furniture from Wickham Place. "And the
dining-room." More curtains were drawn, more windows were flung
open to the spring. "Then through here--" Miss Avery continued
passing and repassing through the hall. Her voice was lost, but
Margaret heard her pulling up the kitchen blind. "I've not
finished here yet," she announced, returning. "There's still a
deal to do. The farm lads will carry your great wardrobes
upstairs, for there is no need to go into expense at Hilton."
"It is all a mistake," repeated Margaret, feeling that she
must put her foot down. "A misunderstanding. Mr. Wilcox and I
are not going to live at Howards End."
"Oh, indeed. On account of his hay fever?"
"We have settled to build a new home for ourselves in Sussex,
and part of this furniture--my part--will go down there
presently." She looked at Miss Avery intently, trying to
understand the kink in her brain. Here was no maundering old
woman. Her wrinkles were shrewd and humorous. She looked
capable of scathing wit and also of high but unostentatious
nobility.
"You think that you won't come back to live here, Mrs.
Wilcox, but you will."
"That remains to be seen," said Margaret, smiling. "We have
no intention of doing so for the present. We happen to need a
much larger house. Circumstances oblige us to give big parties.
Of course, some day--one never knows, does one?"
Miss Avery retorted: "Some day! Tcha! tcha! Don't talk
about some day. You are living here now."
"Am I?"
"You are living here, and have been for the last ten minutes,
if you ask me."
It was a senseless remark, but with a queer feeling of
disloyalty Margaret rose from her chair. She felt that Henry had
been obscurely censured. They went into the dining-room, where
the sunlight poured in upon her mother's chiffonier, and
upstairs, where many an old god peeped from a new niche. The
furniture fitted extraordinarily well. In the central room--over
the hall, the room that Helen had slept in four years ago--Miss
Avery had placed Tibby's old bassinette.
"The nursery," she said.
Margaret turned away without speaking.
At last everything was seen. The kitchen and lobby were
still stacked with furniture and straw, but, as far as she could
make out, nothing had been broken or scratched. A pathetic
display of ingenuity! Then they took a friendly stroll in the
garden. It had gone wild since her last visit. The gravel sweep
was weedy, and grass had sprung up at the very jaws of the
garage. And Evie's rockery was only bumps. Perhaps Evie was
responsible for Miss Avery's oddness. But Margaret suspected
that the cause lay deeper, and that the girl's silly letter had
but loosed the irritation of years.
"It's a beautiful meadow," she remarked. It was one of those
open-air drawing-rooms that have been formed, hundreds of years
ago, out of the smaller fields. So the boundary hedge zigzagged
down the hill at right angles, and at the bottom there was a
little green annex--a sort of powder-closet for the cows.
"Yes, the maidy's well enough," said Miss Avery, "for those
that is, who don't suffer from sneezing." And she cackled
maliciously. "I've seen Charlie Wilcox go out to my lads in hay
time--oh, they ought to do this--they mustn't do that--he'd learn
them to be lads. And just then the tickling took him. He has it
from his father, with other things. There's not one Wilcox that
can stand up against a field in June--I laughed fit to burst
while he was courting Ruth."
"My brother gets hay fever too," said Margaret.
"This house lies too much on the land for them. Naturally,
they were glad enough to slip in at first. But Wilcoxes are
better than nothing, as I see you've found."
Margaret laughed.
"They keep a place going, don't they? Yes, it is just
that."
"They keep England going, it is my opinion."
But Miss Avery upset her by replying: "Ay, they breed like
rabbits. Well, well, it's a funny world. But He who made it
knows what He wants in it, I suppose. If Mrs. Charlie is
expecting her fourth, it isn't for us to repine."
"They breed and they also work," said Margaret, conscious of
some invitation to disloyalty, which was echoed by the very
breeze and by the songs of the birds. "It certainly is a funny
world, but so long as men like my husband and his sons govern it,
I think it'll never be a bad one--never really bad."
"No, better'n nothing," said Miss Avery, and turned to the
wych-elm.
On their way back to the farm she spoke of her old friend
much more clearly than before. In the house Margaret had
wondered whether she quite distinguished the first wife from the
second. Now she said: "I never saw much of Ruth after her
grandmother died, but we stayed civil. It was a very civil
family. Old Mrs. Howard never spoke against anybody, nor let
anyone be turned away without food. Then it was never
'Trespassers will be prosecuted' in their land, but would people
please not come in. Mrs. Howard was never created to run a
farm."
"Had they no men to help them?" Margaret asked.
Miss Avery replied: "Things went on until there were no
men."
"Until Mr. Wilcox came along," corrected Margaret, anxious
that her husband should receive his dues.
"I suppose so; but Ruth should have married a--no disrespect
to you to say this, for I take it you were intended to get Wilcox
any way, whether she got him first or no."
"Whom should she have married?"
"A soldier!" exclaimed the old woman. "Some real
soldier."
Margaret was silent. It was a criticism of Henry's character
far more trenchant than any of her own. She felt
dissatisfied.
"But that's all over," she went on. "A better time is coming
now, though you've kept me long enough waiting. In a couple of
weeks I'll see your lights shining through the hedge of an
evening. Have you ordered in coals?"
"We are not coming," said Margaret firmly. She respected
Miss Avery too much to humour her. "No. Not coming. Never
coming. It has all been a mistake. The furniture must be
repacked at once, and I am very sorry but I am making other
arrangements, and must ask you to give me the keys."
"Certainly, Mrs. Wilcox," said Miss Avery, and resigned her
duties with a smile.
Relieved at this conclusion, and having sent her compliments
to Madge, Margaret walked back to the station. She had intended
to go to the furniture warehouse and give directions for removal,
but the muddle had turned out more extensive than she expected,
so she decided to consult Henry. It was as well that she did
this. He was strongly against employing the local man whom he
had previously recommended, and advised her to store in London
after all.
But before this could be done an unexpected trouble fell upon
her.
It was not unexpected entirely. Aunt Juley's health had been
bad all the winter. She had had a long series of colds and
coughs, and had been too busy to get rid of them. She had
scarcely promised her niece "to really take my tiresome chest in
hand," when she caught a chill and developed acute pneumonia.
Margaret and Tibby went down to Swanage. Helen was telegraphed
for, and that spring party that after all gathered in that
hospitable house had all the pathos of fair memories. On a
perfect day, when the sky seemed blue porcelain, and the waves of
the discreet little bay beat gentlest of tattoos upon the sand,
Margaret hurried up through the rhododendrons, confronted again
by the senselessness of Death. One death may explain itself, but
it throws no light upon another: the groping inquiry must begin
anew. Preachers or scientists may generalize, but we know that
no generality is possible about those whom we love; not one
heaven awaits them, not even one oblivion. Aunt Juley, incapable
of tragedy, slipped out of life with odd little laughs and
apologies for having stopped in it so long. She was very weak;
she could not rise to the occasion, or realize the great mystery
which all agree must await her; it only seemed to her that she
was quite done up--more done up than ever before; that she saw
and heard and felt less every moment; and that, unless something
changed, she would soon feel nothing. Her spare strength she
devoted to plans: could not Margaret take some steamer
expeditions? were mackerel cooked as Tibby liked them? She
worried herself about Helen's absence, and also that she could be
the cause of Helen's return. The nurses seemed to think such
interests quite natural, and perhaps hers was an average approach
to the Great Gate. But Margaret saw Death stripped of any false
romance; whatever the idea of Death may contain, the process can
be trivial and hideous.
"Important--Margaret dear, take the Lulworth when Helen
comes."
"Helen won't be able to stop, Aunt Juley. She has
telegraphed that she can only get away just to see you. She must
go back to Germany as soon as you are well."
"How very odd of Helen! Mr. Wilcox--"
"Yes, dear?"
"Can he spare you?"
Henry wished her to come, and had been very kind. Yet again
Margaret said so.
Mrs. Munt did not die. Quite outside her will, a more
dignified power took hold of her and checked her on the downward
slope. She returned, without emotion, as fidgety as ever. On
the fourth day she was out of danger.
"Margaret--important," it went on: "I should like you to have
some companion to take walks with. Do try Miss Conder."
"I have been a little walk with Miss Conder."
"But she is not really interesting. If only you had
Helen."
"I have Tibby, Aunt Juley."
"No, but he has to do his Chinese. Some real companion is
what you need. Really, Helen is odd."
"Helen is odd, very," agreed Margaret.
"Not content with going abroad, why does she want to go back
there at once?"
"No doubt she will change her mind when she sees us. She has
not the least balance."
That was the stock criticism about Helen, but Margaret's
voice trembled as she made it. By now she was deeply pained at
her sister's behaviour. It may be unbalanced to fly out of
England, but to stop away eight months argues that the heart is
awry as well as the head. A sick-bed could recall Helen, but she
was deaf to more human calls; after a glimpse at her aunt, she
would retire into her nebulous life behind some poste restante.
She scarcely existed; her letters had become dull and infrequent;
she had no wants and no curiosity. And it was all put down to
poor Henry's account! Henry, long pardoned by his wife, was
still too infamous to be greeted by his sister-in-law. It was
morbid, and, to her alarm, Margaret fancied that she could trace
the growth of morbidity back in Helen's life for nearly four
years. The flight from Oniton; the unbalanced patronage of the
Basts; the explosion of grief up on the Downs--all connected with
Paul, an insignificant boy whose lips had kissed hers for a
fraction of time. Margaret and Mrs. Wilcox had feared that they
might kiss again. Foolishly: the real danger was reaction.
Reaction against the Wilcoxes had eaten into her life until she
was scarcely sane. At twenty-five she had an idée fixe.
What hope was there for her as an old woman?
The more Margaret thought about it the more alarmed she
became. For many months she had put the subject away, but it was
too big to be slighted now. There was almost a taint of
madness. Were all Helen's actions to be governed by a tiny
mishap, such as may happen to any young man or woman? Can human
nature be constructed on lines so insignificant? The blundering
little encounter at Howards End was vital. It propagated itself
where graver intercourse lay barren; it was stronger than
sisterly intimacy, stronger than reason or books. In one of her
moods Helen had confessed that she still "enjoyed" it in a
certain sense. Paul had faded, but the magic of his caress
endured. And where there is enjoyment of the past there may also
be reaction--propagation at both ends.
Well, it is odd and sad that our minds should be such
seed-beds, and we without power to choose the seed. But man is
an odd, sad creature as yet, intent on pilfering the earth, and
heedless of the growths within himself. He cannot be bored about
psychology. He leaves it to the specialist, which is as if he
should leave his dinner to be eaten by a steam-engine. He cannot
be bothered to digest his own soul. Margaret and Helen have been
more patient, and it is suggested that Margaret has succeeded--so
far as success is yet possible. She does understand herself, she
has some rudimentary control over her own growth. Whether Helen
has succeeded one cannot say.
The day that Mrs. Munt rallied Helen's letter arrived. She
had posted it at Munich, and would be in London herself on the
morrow. It was a disquieting letter, though the opening was
affectionate and sane.
Dearest Meg,
Give Helen's love to Aunt Juley. Tell her that I love, and have loved, her ever since I can remember. I shall be in London Thursday.
My address will be care of the bankers. I have not yet settled on a hotel, so write or wire to me there and give me detailed news. If Aunt Juley is much better, or if, for a terrible reason, it would be no good my coming down to Swanage, you must not think it odd if I do not come. I have all sorts of plans in my head. I am living abroad at present, and want to get back as quickly as possible. Will you please tell me where our furniture is. I should like to take out one or two books; the rest are for you.
Forgive me, dearest Meg. This must read like rather a tiresome letter, but all letters are from your loving
Helen
It was a tiresome letter, for it tempted Margaret to tell
a lie. If she wrote that Aunt Juley was still in danger her
sister would come. Unhealthiness is contagious. We cannot be in
contact with those who are in a morbid state without ourselves
deteriorating. To "act for the best" might do Helen good, but
would do herself harm, and, at the risk of disaster, she kept her
colours flying a little longer. She replied that their aunt was
much better, and awaited developments.
Tibby approved of her reply. Mellowing rapidly, he was a
pleasanter companion than before. Oxford had done much for him.
He had lost his peevishness, and could hide his indifference to
people and his interest in food. But he had not grown more
human. The years between eighteen and twenty-two, so magical for
most, were leading him gently from boyhood to middle age. He had
never known young-manliness, that quality which warms the heart
till death, and gives Mr. Wilcox an imperishable charm. He was
frigid, through no fault of his own, and without cruelty. He
thought Helen wrong and Margaret right, but the family trouble
was for him what a scene behind footlights is for most people.
He had only one suggestion to make, and that was
characteristic.
"Why don't you tell Mr. Wilcox?"
"About Helen?"
"Perhaps he has come across that sort of thing."
"He would do all he could, but--"
"Oh, you know best. But he is practical."
It was the student's belief in experts. Margaret demurred
for one or two reasons. Presently Helen's answer came. She sent
a telegram requesting the address of the furniture, as she would
now return at once. Margaret replied, "Certainly not; meet me at
the bankers at four." She and Tibby went up to London. Helen was
not at the bankers, and they were refused her address. Helen had
passed into chaos.
Margaret put her arm round her brother. He was all that she
had left, and never had he seemed more unsubstantial.
"Tibby love, what next?"
He replied: "It is extraordinary."
"Dear, your judgment's often clearer than mine. Have you any
notion what's at the back?"
"None, unless it's something mental."
"Oh--that!" said Margaret. "Quite impossible." But the
suggestion had been uttered, and in a few minutes she took it up
herself. Nothing else explained. And London agreed with Tibby.
The mask fell off the city, and she saw it for what it really
is--a caricature of infinity. The familiar barriers, the streets
along which she moved, the houses between which she had made her
little journeys for so many years, became negligible suddenly.
Helen seemed one with grimy trees and the traffic and the
slowly-flowing slabs of mud. She had accomplished a hideous act
of renunciation and returned to the One. Margaret's own faith
held firm. She knew the human soul will be merged, if it be
merged at all, with the stars and the sea. Yet she felt that her
sister had been going amiss for many years. It was symbolic the
catastrophe should come now, on a London afternoon, while rain
fell slowly.
Henry was the only hope. Henry was definite. He might know
of some paths in the chaos that were hidden from them, and she
determined to take Tibby's advice and lay the whole matter in his
hands. They must call at his office. He could not well make it
worse. She went for a few moments into St. Paul's, whose dome
stands out of the welter so bravely, as if preaching the gospel
of form. But within, St. Paul's is as its surroundings--echoes
and whispers, inaudible songs, invisible mosaics, wet footmarks
crossing and recrossing the floor. Si monumentum requiris,
circumspice: it points us back to London. There was no hope of
Helen here.
Henry was unsatisfactory at first. That she had expected.
He was overjoyed to see her back from Swanage, and slow to admit
the growth of a new trouble. When they told him of their search,
he only chaffed Tibby and the Schlegels generally, and declared
that it was "just like Helen" to lead her relatives a dance.
"That is what we all say," replied Margaret. "But why should
it be just like Helen? Why should she be allowed to be so queer,
and to grow queerer?"
"Don't ask me. I'm a plain man of business. I live and let
live. My advice to you both is, don't worry. Margaret, you've
got black marks again under your eyes. You know that's strictly
forbidden. First your aunt--then your sister. No, we aren't
going to have it. Are we, Theobald?" He rang the bell. "I'll
give you some tea, and then you go straight to Ducie Street. I
can't have my girl looking as old as her husband."
"All the same, you have not quite seen our point," said
Tibby.
Mr. Wilcox, who was in good spirits, retorted, "I don't
suppose I ever shall." He leant back, laughing at the gifted but
ridiculous family, while the fire flickered over the map of
Africa. Margaret motioned to her brother to go on. Rather
diffident, he obeyed her.
"Margaret's point is this," he said. "Our sister may be
mad."
Charles, who was working in the inner room, looked round.
"Come in, Charles," said Margaret kindly. "Could you help us
at all? We are again in trouble."
"I'm afraid I cannot. What are the facts? We are all mad
more or less, you know, in these days."
"The facts are as follows," replied Tibby, who had at times a
pedantic lucidity. "The facts are that she has been in England
for three days and will not see us. She has forbidden the
bankers to give us her address. She refuses to answer
questions. Margaret finds her letters colourless. There are
other facts, but these are the most striking."
"She has never behaved like this before, then?" asked
Henry.
"Of course not!" said his wife, with a frown.
"Well, my dear, how am I to know?"
A senseless spasm of annoyance came over her. "You know
quite well that Helen never sins against affection," she said.
"You must have noticed that much in her, surely."
"Oh yes; she and I have always hit it off together."
"No, Henry--can't you see? --I don't mean that."
She recovered herself, but not before Charles had observed
her. Stupid and attentive, he was watching the scene.
"I was meaning that when she was eccentric in the past, one
could trace it back to the heart in the long run. She behaved
oddly because she cared for someone, or wanted to help them.
There's no possible excuse for her now. She is grieving us
deeply, and that is why I am sure that she is not well. 'Mad' is
too terrible a word, but she is not well. I shall never believe
it. I shouldn't discuss my sister with you if I thought she was
well--trouble you about her, I mean."
Henry began to grow serious. Ill-health was to him something
perfectly definite. Generally well himself, he could not realize
that we sink to it by slow gradations. The sick had no rights;
they were outside the pale; one could lie to them remorselessly.
When his first wife was seized, he had promised to take her down
into Hertfordshire, but meanwhile arranged with a nursing-home
instead. Helen, too, was ill. And the plan that he sketched out
for her capture, clever and well-meaning as it was, drew its
ethics from the wolf-pack.
"You want to get hold of her?" he said. "That's the problem,
isn't it? She has got to see a doctor."
"For all I know she has seen one already."
"Yes, yes; don't interrupt." He rose to his feet and thought
intently. The genial, tentative host disappeared, and they saw
instead the man who had carved money out of Greece and Africa,
and bought forests from the natives for a few bottles of gin.
"I've got it," he said at last. "It's perfectly easy. Leave it
to me. We'll send her down to Howards End."
"How will you do that?"
"After her books. Tell her that she must unpack them
herself. Then you can meet her there."
"But, Henry, that's just what she won't let me do. It's part
of her--whatever it is--never to see me."
"Of course you won't tell her you're going. When she is
there, looking at the cases, you'll just stroll in. If nothing
is wrong with her, so much the better. But there'll be the motor
round the corner, and we can run her up to a specialist in no
time."
Margaret shook her head. "It's quite impossible."
"Why?"
"It doesn't seem impossible to me," said Tibby; "it is surely
a very tippy plan."
"It is impossible, because--" She looked at her husband
sadly. "It's not the particular language that Helen and I talk
if you see my meaning. It would do splendidly for other people,
whom I don't blame."
"But Helen doesn't talk," said Tibby. "That's our whole
difficulty. She won't talk your particular language, and on that
account you think she's ill."
"No, Henry; it's sweet of you, but I couldn't."
"I see," he said; "you have scruples."
"I suppose so."
"And sooner than go against them you would have your sister
suffer. You could have got her down to Swanage by a word, but
you had scruples. And scruples are all very well. I am as
scrupulous as any man alive, I hope; but when it is a case like
this, when there is a question of madness--"
"I deny it's madness."
"You said just now--"
"It's madness when I say it, but not when you say it."
Henry shrugged his shoulders. "Margaret! Margaret!" he
groaned. "No education can teach a woman logic. Now, my dear,
my time is valuable. Do you want me to help you or not?"
"Not in that way."
"Answer my question. Plain question, plain answer.
Do--"
Charles surprised them by interrupting. "Pater, we may as
well keep Howards End out of it," he said.
"Why, Charles?"
Charles could give no reason; but Margaret felt as if, over
tremendous distance, a salutation had passed between them.
"The whole house is at sixes and sevens," he said crossly.
"We don't want any more mess."
"Who's 'we'?" asked his father. "My boy, pray, who's
'we'?"
"I am sure I beg your pardon," said Charles. "I appear
always to be intruding."
By now Margaret wished she had never mentioned her trouble to
her husband. Retreat was impossible. He was determined to push
the matter to a satisfactory conclusion, and Helen faded as he
talked. Her fair, flying hair and eager eyes counted for
nothing, for she was ill, without rights, and any of her friends
might hunt her. Sick at heart, Margaret joined in the chase.
She wrote her sister a lying letter, at her husband's dictation;
she said the furniture was all at Howards End, but could be seen
on Monday next at 3 p.m., when a charwoman would be in
attendance. It was a cold letter, and the more plausible for
that. Helen would think she was offended. And on Monday next
she and Henry were to lunch with Dolly, and then ambush
themselves in the garden.
After they had gone, Mr. Wilcox said to his son: "I can't
have this sort of behaviour, my boy. Margaret's too
sweet-natured to mind, but I mind for her."
Charles made no answer.
"Is anything wrong with you, Charles, this afternoon?"
"No, pater; but you may be taking on a bigger business than
you reckon."
"How?"
"Don't ask me."
One speaks of the moods of spring, but the days that are her
true children have only one mood; they are all full of the rising
and dropping of winds, and the whistling of birds. New flowers
may come out, the green embroidery of the hedges increase, but
the same heaven broods overhead, soft, thick, and blue, the same
figures, seen and unseen, are wandering by coppice and meadow.
The morning that Margaret had spent with Miss Avery, and the
afternoon she set out to entrap Helen, were the scales of a
single balance. Time might never have moved, rain never have
fallen, and man alone, with his schemes and ailments, was
troubling Nature until he saw her through a veil of tears.
She protested no more. Whether Henry was right or wrong, he
was most kind, and she knew of no other standard by which to
judge him. She must trust him absolutely. As soon as he had
taken up a business, his obtuseness vanished. He profited by the
slightest indications, and the capture of Helen promised to be
staged as deftly as the marriage of Evie.
They went down in the morning as arranged, and he discovered
that their victim was actually in Hilton. On his arrival he
called at all the livery-stables in the village, and had a few
minutes' serious conversation with the proprietors. What he
said, Margaret did not know--perhaps not the truth; but news
arrived after lunch that a lady had come by the London train, and
had taken a fly to Howards End.
"She was bound to drive," said Henry. "There will be her
books.
"I cannot make it out," said Margaret for the hundredth
time.
"Finish your coffee, dear. We must be off."
"Yes, Margaret, you know you must take plenty," said
Dolly.
Margaret tried, but suddenly lifted her hand to her eyes.
Dolly stole glances at her father-in-law which he did not
answer. In the silence the motor came round to the door.
"You're not fit for it," he said anxiously. "Let me go
alone. I know exactly what to do."
"Oh yes, I am fit," said Margaret, uncovering her face.
"Only most frightfully worried. I cannot feel that Helen is
really alive. Her letters and telegrams seem to have come from
someone else. Her voice isn't in them. I don't believe your
driver really saw her at the station. I wish I'd never mentioned
it. I know that Charles is vexed. Yes, he is--" She seized
Dolly's hand and kissed it. "There, Dolly will forgive me.
There. Now we'll be off."
Henry had been looking at her closely. He did not like this
breakdown.
"Don't you want to tidy yourself?" he asked.
"Have I time?"
"Yes, plenty."
She went to the lavatory by the front door, and as soon as
the bolt slipped, Mr. Wilcox said quietly:
"Dolly, I'm going without her."
Dolly's eyes lit up with vulgar excitement. She followed him
on tip-toe out to the car.
"Tell her I thought it best."
"Yes, Mr. Wilcox, I see."
"Say anything you like. All right."
The car started well, and with ordinary luck would have got
away. But Porgly-woggles, who was playing in the garden, chose
this moment to sit down in the middle of the path. Crane, in
trying to pass him, ran one wheel over a bed of wallflowers.
Dolly screamed. Margaret, hearing the noise, rushed out hatless,
and was in time to jump on the footboard. She said not a single
word: he was only treating her as she had treated Helen, and her
rage at his dishonesty only helped to indicate what Helen would
feel against them. She thought, "I deserve it: I am punished for
lowering my colours." And she accepted his apologies with a
calmness that astonished him.
"I still consider you are not fit for it," he kept
saying.
"Perhaps I was not at lunch. But the whole thing is spread
clearly before me now."
"I was meaning to act for the best."
"Just lend me your scarf, will you? This wind takes one's
hair so."
"Certainly, dear girl. Are you all right now?"
"Look! My hands have stopped trembling."
"And have quite forgiven me? Then listen. Her cab should
already have arrived at Howards End. (We're a little late, but no
matter.) Our first move will be to send it down to wait at the
farm, as, if possible, one doesn't want a scene before servants.
A certain gentleman"--he pointed at Crane's back--"won't drive
in, but will wait a little short of the front gate, behind the
laurels. Have you still the keys of the house?"
"Yes."
"Well, they aren't wanted. Do you remember how the house
stands?"
"Yes."
"If we don't find her in the porch, we can stroll round into
the garden. Our object--"
Here they stopped to pick up the doctor.
"I was just saying to my wife, Mansbridge, that our main
object is not to frighten Miss Schlegel. The house, as you know,
is my property, so it should seem quite natural for us to be
there. The trouble is evidently nervous--wouldn't you say so,
Margaret?"
The doctor, a very young man, began to ask questions about
Helen. Was she normal? Was there anything congenital or
hereditary? Had anything occurred that was likely to alienate
her from her family?
"Nothing," answered Margaret, wondering what would have
happened if she had added: "Though she did resent my husband's
immorality."
"She always was highly strung," pursued Henry, leaning back
in the car as it shot past the church. "A tendency to
spiritualism and those things, though nothing serious. Musical,
literary, artistic, but I should say normal--a very charming
girl."
Margaret's anger and terror increased every moment. How dare
these men label her sister! What horrors lay ahead! What
impertinences that shelter under the name of science! The pack
was turning on Helen, to deny her human rights, and it seemed to
Margaret that all Schlegels were threatened with her. "Were they
normal?" What a question to ask! And it is always those who
know nothing about human nature, who are bored by psychology and
shocked by physiology, who ask it. However piteous her sister's
state, she knew that she must be on her side. They would be mad
together if the world chose to consider them so.
It was now five minutes past three. The car slowed down by
the farm, in the yard of which Miss Avery was standing. Henry
asked her whether a cab had gone past. She nodded, and the next
moment they caught sight of it, at the end of the lane. The car
ran silently like a beast of prey. So unsuspicious was Helen
that she was sitting on the porch, with her back to the road.
She had come. Only her head and shoulders were visible. She sat
framed in the vine, and one of her hands played with the buds.
The wind ruffled her hair, the sun glorified it; she was as she
had always been.
Margaret was seated next to the door. Before her husband
could prevent her, she slipped out. She ran to the garden gate,
which was shut, passed through it, and deliberately pushed it in
his face. The noise alarmed Helen. Margaret saw her rise with
an unfamiliar movement, and, rushing into the porch, learnt the
simple explanation of all their fears--her sister was with
child.
"Is the truant all right?" called Henry.
She had time to whisper: "Oh, my darling--" The keys of the
house were in her hand. She unlocked Howards End and thrust
Helen into it. "Yes, all right," she said, and stood with her
back to the door.
"Margaret, you look upset!" said Henry. Mansbridge had
followed. Crane was at the gate, and the flyman had stood up on
the box. Margaret shook her head at them; she could not speak
any more. She remained clutching the keys, as if all their
future depended on them. Henry was asking more questions. She
shook her head again. His words had no sense. She heard him
wonder why she had let Helen in. "You might have given me a
knock with the gate," was another of his remarks. Presently she
heard herself speaking. She, or someone for her, said "Go away."
Henry came nearer. He repeated, "Margaret, you look upset
again. My dear, give me the keys. What are you doing with
Helen?"
"Oh, dearest, do go away, and I will manage it all."
"Manage what?"
He stretched out his hand for the keys. She might have
obeyed if it had not been for the doctor.
"Stop that at least," she said piteously; the doctor had
turned back, and was questioning the driver of Helen's cab. A
new feeling came over her; she was fighting for women against
men. She did not care about rights, but if men came into Howards
End, it should be over her body.
"Come, this is an odd beginning," said her husband.
The doctor came forward now, and whispered two words to Mr.
Wilcox--the scandal was out. Sincerely horrified, Henry stood
gazing at the earth.
"I cannot help it," said Margaret. "Do wait. It's not my
fault. Please all four of you to go away now."
Now the flyman was whispering to Crane.
"We are relying on you to help us, Mrs. Wilcox," said the
young doctor. "Could you go in and persuade your sister to come
out?"
"On what grounds?" said Margaret, suddenly looking him
straight in the eyes.
Thinking it professional to prevaricate, he murmured
something about a nervous breakdown.
"I beg your pardon, but it is nothing of the sort. You are
not qualified to attend my sister, Mr. Mansbridge. If we require
your services, we will let you know."
"I can diagnose the case more bluntly if you wish," he
retorted.
"You could, but you have not. You are, therefore, not
qualified to attend my sister."
"Come, come, Margaret!" said Henry, never raising his eyes.
"This is a terrible business, an appalling business. It's
doctor's orders. Open the door."
"Forgive me, but I will not."
"I don't agree."
Margaret was silent.
"This business is as broad as it's long," contributed the
doctor. "We had better all work together. You need us, Mrs.
Wilcox, and we need you."
"Quite so," said Henry.
"I do not need you in the least," said Margaret.
The two men looked at each other anxiously.
"No more does my sister, who is still many weeks from her
confinement."
"Margaret, Margaret!"
"Well, Henry, send your doctor away. What possible use is he
now?"
Mr. Wilcox ran his eye over the house. He had a vague
feeling that he must stand firm and support the doctor. He
himself might need support, for there was trouble ahead.
"It all turns on affection now," said Margaret. "Affection.
Don't you see?" Resuming her usual methods, she wrote the word
on the house with her finger. "Surely you see. I like Helen
very much, you not so much. Mr. Mansbridge doesn't know her.
That's all. And affection, when reciprocated, gives rights. Put
that down in your notebook, Mr. Mansbridge. It's a useful
formula."
Henry told her to be calm.
"You don't know what you want yourselves," said Margaret,
folding her arms. "For one sensible remark I will let you in.
But you cannot make it. You would trouble my sister for no
reason. I will not permit it. I'll stand here all the day
sooner."
"Mansbridge," said Henry in a low voice, "perhaps not
now."
The pack was breaking up. At a sign from his master, Crane
also went back into the car.
"Now, Henry, you," she said gently. None of her bitterness
had been directed at him. "Go away now, dear. I shall want your
advice later, no doubt. Forgive me if I have been cross. But,
seriously, you must go."
He was too stupid to leave her. Now it was Mr. Mansbridge
who called in a low voice to him.
"I shall soon find you down at Dolly's," she called, as the
gate at last clanged between them. The fly moved out of the way,
the motor backed, turned a little, backed again, and turned in
the narrow road. A string of farm carts came up in the middle;
but she waited through all, for there was no hurry. When all was
over and the car had started, she opened the door. "Oh, my
darling!" she said. "My darling, forgive me." Helen was standing
in the hall.
Margaret bolted the door on the inside. Then she would have
kissed her sister, but Helen, in a dignified voice, that came
strangely from her, said:
"Convenient! You did not tell me that the books were
unpacked. I have found nearly everything that I want.
"I told you nothing that was true."
"It has been a great surprise, certainly. Has Aunt Juley
been ill?"
"Helen, you wouldn't think I'd invent that?"
"I suppose not," said Helen, turning away, and crying a very
little. "But one loses faith in everything after this."
"We thought it was illness, but even then--I haven't behaved
worthily."
Helen selected another book.
"I ought not to have consulted anyone. What would our father
have thought of me?"
She did not think of questioning her sister, nor of rebuking
her. Both might be necessary in the future, but she had first to
purge a greater crime than any that Helen could have
committed--that want of confidence that is the work of the
devil.
"Yes, I am annoyed," replied Helen. "My wishes should have
been respected. I would have gone through this meeting if it was
necessary, but after Aunt Juley recovered, it was not necessary.
Planning my life, as I now have to do--"
"Come away from those books," called Margaret. "Helen, do
talk to me."
"I was just saying that I have stopped living haphazard. One
can't go through a great deal of"--she missed out the
noun--"without planning one's actions in advance. I am going to
have a child in June, and in the first place conversations,
discussions, excitement, are not good for me. I will go through
them if necessary, but only then. In the second place I have no
right to trouble people. I cannot fit in with England as I know
it. I have done something that the English never pardon. It
would not be right for them to pardon it. So I must live where I
am not known."
"But why didn't you tell me, dearest?"
"Yes," replied Helen judicially. "I might have, but decided
to wait."
" I believe you would never have told me."
"Oh yes, I should. We have taken a flat in Munich."
Margaret glanced out of window.
"By 'we' I mean myself and Monica. But for her, I am and
have been and always wish to be alone."
"I have not heard of Monica."
"You wouldn't have. She's an Italian--by birth at least.
She makes her living by journalism. I met her originally on
Garda. Monica is much the best person to see me through."
"You are very fond of her, then."
"She has been extraordinarily sensible with me."
Margaret guessed at Monica's type--"Italiano Inglesiato" they
had named it: the crude feminist of the South, whom one respects
but avoids. And Helen had turned to it in her need!
"You must not think that we shall never meet," said Helen,
with a measured kindness. "I shall always have a room for you
when you can be spared, and the longer you can be with me the
better. But you haven't understood yet, Meg, and of course it is
very difficult for you. This is a shock to you. It isn't to me,
who have been thinking over our futures for many months, and they
won't be changed by a slight contretemps, such as this. I cannot
live in England."
"Helen, you've not forgiven me for my treachery. You
couldn't talk like this to me if you had."
"Oh, Meg dear, why do we talk at all?" She dropped a book
and sighed wearily. Then, recovering herself, she said: "Tell
me, how is it that all the books are down here?"
"Series of mistakes."
"And a great deal of the furniture has been unpacked."
"All."
"Who lives here, then?"
"No one."
"I suppose you are letting it though--"
"The house is dead," said Margaret with a frown. "Why worry
on about it?"
"But I am interested. You talk as if I had lost all my
interest in life. I am still Helen, I hope. Now this hasn't the
feel of a dead house. The hall seems more alive even than in the
old days, when it held the Wilcoxes' own things."
"Interested, are you? Very well, I must tell you, I
suppose. My husband lent it on condition we--but by a mistake
all our things were unpacked, and Miss Avery, instead of--" She
stopped. "Look here, I can't go on like this. I warn you I
won't. Helen, why should you be so miserably unkind to me,
simply because you hate Henry?"
"I don't hate him now," said Helen. "I have stopped being a
schoolgirl, and, Meg, once again, I'm not being unkind. But as
for fitting in with your English life--no, put it out of your
head at once. Imagine a visit from me at Ducie Street! It's
unthinkable."
Margaret could not contradict her. It was appalling to see
her quietly moving forward with her plans, not bitter or
excitable, neither asserting innocence nor confessing guilt,
merely desiring freedom and the company of those who would not
blame her. She had been through--how much? Margaret did not
know. But it was enough to part her from old habits as well as
old friends.
"Tell me about yourself," said Helen, who had chosen her
books, and was lingering over the furniture.
"There's nothing to tell."
"But your marriage has been happy, Meg?"
"Yes, but I don't feel inclined to talk."
"You feel as I do."
"Not that, but I can't."
"No more can I. It is a nuisance, but no good trying."
Something had come between them. Perhaps it was Society,
which henceforward would exclude Helen. Perhaps it was a third
life, already potent as a spirit. They could find no
meeting-place. Both suffered acutely, and were not comforted by
the knowledge that affection survived.
"Look here, Meg, is the coast clear?"
"You mean that you want to go away from me?"
"I suppose so--dear old lady! it isn't any use. I knew we
should have nothing to say. Give my love to Aunt Juley and
Tibby, and take more yourself than I can say. Promise to come
and see me in Munich later."
"Certainly, dearest."
"For that is all we can do."
It seemed so. Most ghastly of all was Helen's common sense:
Monica had been extraordinarily good for her.
"I am glad to have seen you and the things." She looked at
the bookcase lovingly, as if she was saying farewell to the
past.
Margaret unbolted the door. She remarked: "The car has gone,
and here's your cab."
She led the way to it, glancing at the leaves and the sky.
The spring had never seemed more beautiful. The driver, who was
leaning on the gate, called out, "Please, lady, a message," and
handed her Henry's visiting-card through the bars.
"How did this come?" she asked.
Crane had returned with it almost at once.
She read the card with annoyance. It was covered with
instructions in domestic French. When she and her sister had
talked she was to come back for the night to Dolly's. "Il faut
dormir sur ce sujet." While Helen was to be found "une
comfortable chambre à l'hôtel." The final sentence
displeased her greatly until she remembered that the Charles' had
only one spare room, and so could not invite a third guest.
"Henry would have done what he could," she interpreted.
Helen had not followed her into the garden. The door once
open, she lost her inclination to fly. She remained in the hall,
going from bookcase to table. She grew more like the old Helen,
irresponsible and charming.
"This is Mr. Wilcox's house?" she inquired.
"Surely you remember Howards End?"
"Remember? I who remember everything! But it looks to be
ours now."
"Miss Avery was extraordinary," said Margaret, her own
spirits lightening a little. Again she was invaded by a slight
feeling of disloyalty. But it brought her relief, and she
yielded to it. "She loved Mrs. Wilcox, and would rather furnish
her house with our things than think of it empty. In consequence
here are all the library books. "
"Not all the books. She hasn't unpacked the Art Books, in
which she may show her sense. And we never used to have the
sword here."
"The sword looks well, though."
"Magnificent."
"Yes, doesn't it?"
"Where's the piano, Meg?"
"I warehoused that in London. Why?"
"Nothing."
"Curious, too, that the carpet fits."
"The carpet's a mistake," announced Helen. "I know that we
had it in London, but this floor ought to be bare. It is far too
beautiful."
"You still have a mania for under-furnishing. Would you care
to come into the dining-room before you start? There's no carpet
there.
They went in, and each minute their talk became more
natural.
"Oh, what a place for mother's chiffonier!" cried
Helen.
"Look at the chairs, though."
"Oh, look at them! Wickham Place faced north, didn't
it?"
"North-west."
"Anyhow, it is thirty years since any of those chairs have
felt the sun. Feel. Their little backs are quite warm."
"But why has Miss Avery made them set to partners? I shall
just--"
"Over here, Meg. Put it so that any one sitting will see the
lawn."
Margaret moved a chair. Helen sat down in it.
"Ye-es. The window's too high."
"Try a drawing-room chair."
"No, I don't like the drawing-room so much. The beam has
been match-boarded. It would have been so beautiful
otherwise. "
"Helen, what a memory you have for some things! You're
perfectly right. It's a room that men have spoilt through trying
to make it nice for women. Men don't know what we want--"
"And never will."
"I don't agree. In two thousand years they'll know."
"But the chairs show up wonderfully. Look where Tibby spilt
the soup."
"Coffee. It was coffee surely."
Helen shook her head. "Impossible. Tibby was far too young
to be given coffee at that time."
"Was Father alive?"
"Yes."
"Then you're right and it must have been soup. I was
thinking of much later--that unsuccessful visit of Aunt Juley's,
when she didn't realize that Tibby had grown up. It was coffee
then, for he threw it down on purpose. There was some rhyme,
'Tea, coffee--coffee, tea,' that she said to him every morning at
breakfast. Wait a minute--how did it go?"
"I know--no, I don't. What a detestable boy Tibby was!"
"But the rhyme was simply awful. No decent person could have
put up with it."
"Ah, that greengage tree," cried Helen, as if the garden was
also part of their childhood. "Why do I connect it with
dumbbells? And there come the chickens. The grass wants
cutting. I love yellow-hammers--"
Margaret interrupted her. "I have got it," she
announced.
'Tea, tea, coffee, tea,
Or chocolaritee.'
"That every morning for three weeks. No wonder Tibby was
wild."
"Tibby is moderately a dear now," said Helen.
"There! I knew you'd say that in the end. Of course he's a
dear."
A bell rang.
"Listen! what's that?"
Helen said, "Perhaps the Wilcoxes are beginning the
siege."
"What nonsense--listen!"
And the triviality faded from their faces, though it left
something behind--the knowledge that they never could be parted
because their love was rooted in common things. Explanations and
appeals had failed; they had tried for a common meeting-ground,
and had only made each other unhappy. And all the time their
salvation was lying round them--the past sanctifying the present;
the present, with wild heart-throb, declaring that there would
after all be a future, with laughter and the voices of children.
Helen, still smiling, came up to her sister. She said, "It is
always Meg." They looked into each other's eyes. The inner life
had paid.
Solemnly the clapper tolled. No one was in the front.
Margaret went to the kitchen, and struggled between packing-cases
to the window. Their visitor was only a little boy with a tin
can. And triviality returned.
"Little boy, what do you want?"
"Please, I am the milk."
"Did Miss Avery send you?" said Margaret, rather sharply.
"Yes, please."
"Then take it back and say we require no milk." While she
called to Helen, "No, it's not the siege, but possibly an attempt
to provision us against one."
"But I like milk," cried Helen. "Why send it away?"
"Do you? Oh, very well. But we've nothing to put it in, and
he wants the can."
"Please, I'm to call in the morning for the can," said the
boy.
"The house will be locked up then."
"In the morning would I bring eggs, too?"
"Are you the boy whom I saw playing in the stacks last
week?"
The child hung his head.
"Well, run away and do it again."
"Nice little boy," whispered Helen. "I say, what's your
name? Mine's Helen."
"Tom."
That was Helen all over. The Wilcoxes, too, would ask a
child its name, but they never told their names in return.
"Tom, this one here is Margaret. And at home we've another
called Tibby."
"Mine are lop-eared," replied Tom, supposing Tibby to be a
rabbit.
"You're a very good and rather a clever little boy. Mind you
come again.--Isn't he charming?"
"Undoubtedly," said Margaret. "He is probably the son of
Madge, and Madge is dreadful. But this place has wonderful
powers."
"What do you mean?"
"I don't know."
"Because I probably agree with you."
"It kills what is dreadful and makes what is beautiful
live."
"I do agree," said Helen, as she sipped the milk. "But you
said that the house was dead not half an hour ago."
"Meaning that I was dead. I felt it."
"Yes, the house has a surer life than we, even if it was
empty, and, as it is, I can't get over that for thirty years the
sun has never shone full on our furniture. After all, Wickham
Place was a grave. Meg, I've a startling idea."
"What is it?"
"Drink some milk to steady you."
Margaret obeyed.
"No, I won't tell you yet," said Helen, "because you may
laugh or be angry. Let's go upstairs first and give the rooms an
airing."
They opened window after window, till the inside, too, was
rustling to the spring. Curtains blew, picture-frames tapped
cheerfully. Helen uttered cries of excitement as she found this
bed obviously in its right place, that in its wrong one. She was
angry with Miss Avery for not having moved the wardrobes up.
"Then one would see really." She admired the view. She was the
Helen who had written the memorable letters four years ago. As
they leant out, looking westward, she said: "About my idea.
Couldn't you and I camp out in this house for the night?"
"I don't think we could well do that," said Margaret.
"Here are beds, tables, towels--"
"I know; but the house isn't supposed to be slept in, and
Henry's suggestion was--"
"I require no suggestions. I shall not alter anything in my
plans. But it would give me so much pleasure to have one night
here with you. It will be something to look back on. Oh, Meg
lovey, do let's!"
"But, Helen, my pet," said Margaret, "we can't without
getting Henry's leave. Of course, he would give it, but you said
yourself that you couldn't visit at Ducie Street now, and this is
equally intimate."
"Ducie Street is his house. This is ours. Our furniture,
our sort of people coming to the door. Do let us camp out, just
one night, and Tom shall feed us on eggs and milk. Why not?
It's a moon."
Margaret hesitated. "I feel Charles wouldn't like it," she
said at last. "Even our furniture annoyed him, and I was going
to clear it out when Aunt Juley's illness prevented me. I
sympathize with Charles. He feels it's his mother's house. He
loves it in rather an untaking way. Henry I could answer
for--not Charles."
"I know he won't like it," said Helen. "But I am going to
pass out of their lives. What difference will it make in the
long run if they say, 'And she even spent the night at Howards
End'?"
"How do you know you'll pass out of their lives? We have
thought that twice before."
"Because my plans--"
"--which you change in a moment."
"Then because my life is great and theirs are little," said
Helen, taking fire. "I know of things they can't know of, and so
do you. We know that there's poetry. We know that there's
death. They can only take them on hearsay. We know this is our
house, because it feels ours. Oh, they may take the title-deeds
and the doorkeys, but for this one night we are at home."
"It would be lovely to have you once more alone," said
Margaret. "It may be a chance in a thousand."
"Yes, and we could talk." She dropped her voice. "It won't
be a very glorious story. But under that wych-elm--honestly, I
see little happiness ahead. Cannot I have this one night with
you?"
"I needn't say how much it would mean to me."
"Then let us."
"It is no good hesitating. Shall I drive down to Hilton now
and get leave?"
"Oh, we don't want leave."
But Margaret was a loyal wife. In spite of imagination and
poetry--perhaps on account of them--she could sympathize with the
technical attitude that Henry would adopt. If possible, she
would be technical, too. A night's lodging--and they demanded no
more--need not involve the discussion of general principles.
"Charles may say no," grumbled Helen.
"We shan't consult him."
"Go if you like; I should have stopped without leave."
It was the touch of selfishness, which was not enough to mar
Helen's character, and even added to its beauty. She would have
stopped without leave, and escaped to Germany the next morning.
Margaret kissed her.
"Expect me back before dark. I am looking forward to it so
much. It is like you to have thought of such a beautiful
thing."
"Not a thing, only an ending," said Helen rather sadly; and
the sense of tragedy closed in on Margaret again as soon as she
left the house.
She was afraid of Miss Avery. It is disquieting to fulfil a
prophecy, however superficially. She was glad to see no watching
figure as she drove past the farm, but only little Tom, turning
somersaults in the straw.
The tragedy began quietly enough, and like many another talk,
by the man's deft assertion of his superiority. Henry heard her
arguing with the driver, stepped out and settled the fellow, who
was inclined to be rude, and then led the way to some chairs on
the lawn. Dolly, who had not been "told," ran out with offers of
tea. He refused them, and ordered her to wheel baby's
perambulator away, as they desired to be alone.
"But the diddums can't listen; he isn't nine months old," she
pleaded.
"That's not what I was saying," retorted her
father-in-law.
Baby was wheeled out of earshot, and did not hear about the
crisis till later years. It was now the turn of Margaret.
"Is it what we feared?" he asked.
"It is."
"Dear girl," he began, "there is a troublesome business ahead
of us, and nothing but the most absolute honesty and plain speech
will see us through." Margaret bent her head. "I am obliged to
question you on subjects we'd both prefer to leave untouched. As
you know, I am not one of your Bernard Shaws who consider nothing
sacred. To speak as I must will pain me, but there are
occasions--We are husband and wife, not children. I am a man of
the world, and you are a most exceptional woman."
All Margaret's senses forsook her. She blushed, and looked
past him at the Six Hills, covered with spring herbage. Noting
her colour, he grew still more kind.
"I see that you feel as I felt when--My poor little wife!
Oh, be brave! Just one or two questions, and I have done with
you. Was your sister wearing a wedding-ring?"
Margaret stammered a "No."
There was an appalling silence.
"Henry, I really came to ask a favour about Howards End."
"One point at a time. I am now obliged to ask for the name
of her seducer."
She rose to her feet and held the chair between them. Her
colour had ebbed, and she was grey. It did not displease him
that she should receive his question thus.
"Take your time," he counselled her. "Remember that this is
far worse for me than for you."
She swayed; he feared she was going to faint. Then speech
came, and she said slowly: "Seducer? No; I do not know her
seducer's name."
"Would she not tell you?"
"I never even asked her who seduced her," said Margaret,
dwelling on the hateful word thoughtfully.
"That is singular." Then he changed his mind. "Natural
perhaps, dear girl, that you shouldn't ask. But until his name
is known, nothing can be done. Sit down. How terrible it is to
see you so upset! I knew you weren't fit for it. I wish I
hadn't taken you."
Margaret answered, "I like to stand, if you don't mind, for
it gives me a pleasant view of the Six Hills."
"As you like."
"Have you anything else to ask me, Henry?"
"Next you must tell me whether you have gathered anything. I
have often noticed your insight, dear. I only wish my own was as
good. You may have guessed something, even though your sister
said nothing. The slightest hint would help us."
"Who is 'we'?"
"I thought it best to ring up Charles."
"That was unnecessary," said Margaret, growing warmer. "This
news will give Charles disproportionate pain."
"He has at once gone to call on your brother."
"That too was unnecessary."
"Let me explain, dear, how the matter stands. You don't
think that I and my son are other than gentlemen? It is in
Helen's interests that we are acting. It is still not too late
to save her name."
Then Margaret hit out for the first time. "Are we to make
her seducer marry her?" she asked.
"If possible. Yes."
"But, Henry, suppose he turned out to be married already?
One has heard of such cases."
"In that case he must pay heavily for his misconduct, and be
thrashed within an inch of his life."
So her first blow missed. She was thankful of it. What had
tempted her to imperil both of their lives? Henry's obtuseness
had saved her as well as himself. Exhausted with anger, she sat
down again, blinking at him as he told her as much as he thought
fit. At last she said: "May I ask you my question now?"
"Certainly, my dear."
"Tomorrow Helen goes to Munich--"
"Well, possibly she is right."
"Henry, let a lady finish. Tomorrow she goes; tonight, with
your permission, she would like to sleep at Howards End."
It was the crisis of his life. Again she would have recalled
the words as soon as they were uttered. She had not led up to
them with sufficient care. She longed to warn him that they were
far more important than he supposed. She saw him weighing them,
as if they were a business proposition.
"Why Howards End?" he said at last. "Would she not be more
comfortable, as I suggested, at the hotel?"
Margaret hastened to give him reasons. "It is an odd
request, but you know what Helen is and what women in her state
are." He frowned, and moved irritably. "She has the idea that
one night in your house would give her pleasure and do her good.
I think she's right. Being one of those imaginative girls, the
presence of all our books and furniture soothes her. This is a
fact. It is the end of her girlhood. Her last words to me were,
'A beautiful ending.'"
"She values the old furniture for sentimental reasons, in
fact."
"Exactly. You have quite understood. It is her last hope of
being with it."
"I don't agree there, my dear! Helen will have her share of
the goods wherever she goes--possibly more than her share, for
you are so fond of her that you'd give her anything of yours that
she fancies, wouldn't you? and I'd raise no objection. I could
understand it if it was her old home, because a home, or a
house"--he changed the word, designedly; he had thought of a
telling point--"because a house in which one has once lived
becomes in a sort of way sacred, I don't know why. Associations
and so on. Now Helen has no associations with Howards End,
though I and Charles and Evie have. I do not see why she wants
to stay the night there. She will only catch cold."
"Leave it that you don't see," cried Margaret. "Call it
fancy. But realize that fancy is a scientific fact. Helen is
fanciful, and wants to."
Then he surprised her--a rare occurrence. He shot an
unexpected bolt. "If she wants to sleep one night, she may want
to sleep two. We shall never get her out of the house,
perhaps."
"Well?" said Margaret, with the precipice in sight. "And
suppose we don't get her out of the house? Would it matter? She
would do no one any harm."
Again the irritated gesture.
"No, Henry," she panted, receding. "I didn't mean that. We
will only trouble Howards End for this one night. I take her to
London tomorrow--"
"Do you intend to sleep in a damp house, too?"
"She cannot be left alone."
"That's quite impossible! Madness. You must be here to meet
Charles."
"I have already told you that your message to Charles was
unnecessary, and I have no desire to meet him."
"Margaret--my Margaret--"
"What has this business to do with Charles? If it concerns
me little, it concerns you less, and Charles not at all."
"As the future owner of Howards End," said Mr. Wilcox,
arching his fingers, "I should say that it did concern
Charles."
"In what way? Will Helen's condition depreciate the
property?"
"My dear, you are forgetting yourself."
"I think you yourself recommended plain speaking."
They looked at each other in amazement. The precipice was at
their feet now.
"Helen commands my sympathy," said Henry. "As your husband,
I shall do all for her that I can, and I have no doubt that she
will prove more sinned against than sinning. But I cannot treat
her as if nothing has happened. I should be false to my position
in society if I did."
She controlled herself for the last time. "No, let us go
back to Helen's request," she said. "It is unreasonable, but the
request of an unhappy girl. Tomorrow she will go to Germany, and
trouble society no longer. Tonight she asks to sleep in your
empty house--a house which you do not care about, and which you
have not occupied for over a year. May she? Will you give my
sister leave? Will you forgive her--as you hope to be forgiven,
and as you have actually been forgiven? Forgive her for one
night only. That will be enough."
"As I have actually been forgiven--?"
"Never mind for the moment what I mean by that," said
Margaret. "Answer my question."
Perhaps some hint of her meaning did dawn on him. If so, he
blotted it out. Straight from his fortress he answered: "I seem
rather unaccommodating, but I have some experience of life, and
know how one thing leads to another. I am afraid that your
sister had better sleep at the hotel. I have my children and the
memory of my dear wife to consider. I am sorry, but see that she
leaves my house at once."
"You mentioned Mrs. Wilcox."
"I beg your pardon?"
"A rare occurrence. In reply, may I mention Mrs. Bast?"
"You have not been yourself all day," said Henry, and rose
from his seat with face unmoved. Margaret rushed at him and
seized both his hands. She was transfigured.
"Not any more of this!" she cried. "You shall see the
connection if it kills you, Henry! You have had a mistress--I
forgave you. My sister has a lover--you drive her from the
house. Do you see the connection? Stupid, hypocritical,
cruel--oh, contemptible! --a man who insults his wife when she's
alive and cants with her memory when she's dead. A man who ruins
a woman for his pleasure, and casts her off to ruin other men.
And gives bad financial advice, and then says he is not
responsible. These, man, are you. You can't recognize them,
because you cannot connect. I've had enough of your unweeded
kindness. I've spoilt you long enough. All your life you have
been spoiled. Mrs. Wilcox spoiled you. No one has ever told
what you are--muddled, criminally muddled. Men like you use
repentance as a blind, so don't repent. Only say to yourself,
'What Helen has done, I've done.'"
"The two cases are different," Henry stammered. His real
retort was not quite ready. His brain was still in a whirl, and
he wanted a little longer.
"In what way different? You have betrayed Mrs. Wilcox, Helen
only herself. You remain in society, Helen can't. You have had
only pleasure, she may die. You have the insolence to talk to me
of differences, Henry?"
Oh, the uselessness of it! Henry's retort came.
"I perceive you are attempting blackmail. It is scarcely a
pretty weapon for a wife to use against her husband. My rule
through life has been never to pay the least attention to
threats, and I can only repeat what I said before: I do not give
you and your sister leave to sleep at Howards End."
Margaret loosed his hands. He went into the house, wiping
first one and then the other on his handkerchief. For a little
she stood looking at the Six Hills, tombs of warriors, breasts of
the spring. Then she passed out into what was now the
evening.
Charles and Tibby met at Ducie Street, where the latter was
staying. Their interview was short and absurd. They had nothing
in common but the English language, and tried by its help to
express what neither of them understood. Charles saw in Helen
the family foe. He had singled her out as the most dangerous of
the Schlegels, and, angry as he was, looked forward to telling
his wife how right he had been. His mind was made up at once:
the girl must be got out of the way before she disgraced them
farther. If occasion offered she might be married to a villain
or, possibly, to a fool. But this was a concession to morality,
it formed no part of his main scheme. Honest and hearty was
Charles's dislike, and the past spread itself out very clearly
before him; hatred is a skilful compositor. As if they were
heads in a note-book, he ran through all the incidents of the
Schlegels' campaign: the attempt to compromise his brother, his
mother's legacy, his father's marriage, the introduction of the
furniture, the unpacking of the same. He had not yet heard of
the request to sleep at Howards End; that was to be their
master-stroke and the opportunity for his. But he already felt
that Howards End was the objective, and, though he disliked the
house, was determined to defend it.
Tibby, on the other hand, had no opinions. He stood above
the conventions: his sister had a right to do what she thought
right. It is not difficult to stand above the conventions when
we leave no hostages among them; men can always be more
unconventional than women, and a bachelor of independent means
need encounter no difficulties at all. Unlike Charles, Tibby had
money enough; his ancestors had earned it for him, and if he
shocked the people in one set of lodgings he had only to move
into another. His was the leisure without sympathy--an attitude
as fatal as the strenuous: a little cold culture may be raised on
it, but no art. His sisters had seen the family danger, and had
never forgotten to discount the gold islets that raised them from
the sea. Tibby gave all the praise to himself, and so despised
the struggling and the submerged.
Hence the absurdity of the interview; the gulf between them
was economic as well as spiritual. But several facts passed:
Charles pressed for them with an impertinence that the
undergraduate could not withstand. On what date had Helen gone
abroad? To whom? (Charles was anxious to fasten the scandal on
Germany.) Then, changing his tactics, he said roughly: "I suppose
you realize that you are your sister's protector?"
"In what sense?"
"If a man played about with my sister, I'd send a bullet
through him, but perhaps you don't mind."
"I mind very much," protested Tibby.
"Who d'ye suspect, then? Speak out, man. One always
suspects someone."
"No one. I don't think so." Involuntarily he blushed. He
had remembered the scene in his Oxford rooms.
"You are hiding something," said Charles. As interviews go,
he got the best of this one. "When you saw her last, did she
mention anyone's name? Yes, or no!" he thundered, so that Tibby
started.
"In my rooms she mentioned some friends, called the
Basts--"
"Who are the Basts?"
"People--friends of hers at Evie's wedding."
"I don't remember. But, by great Scott! I do. My aunt told
me about some tag-rag. Was she full of them when you saw her?
Is there a man? Did she speak of the man? Or--look here--have
you had any dealings with him?"
Tibby was silent. Without intending it, he had betrayed his
sister's confidence; he was not enough interested in human life
to see where things will lead to. He had a strong regard for
honesty, and his word, once given, had always been kept up to
now. He was deeply vexed, not only for the harm he had done
Helen, but for the flaw he had discovered in his own
equipment.
"I see--you are in his confidence. They met at your rooms.
Oh, what a family, what a family! God help the poor pater--"
And Tibby found himself alone.
Leonard--he would figure at length in a newspaper report, but
that evening he did not count for much. The foot of the tree was
in shadow, since the moon was still hidden behind the house. But
above, to right, to left, down the long meadow the moonlight was
streaming. Leonard seemed not a man, but a cause.
Perhaps it was Helen's way of falling in love--a curious way
to Margaret, whose agony and whose contempt of Henry were yet
imprinted with his image. Helen forgot people. They were husks
that had enclosed her emotion. She could pity, or sacrifice
herself, or have instincts, but had she ever loved in the noblest
way, where man and woman, having lost themselves in sex, desire
to lose sex itself in comradeship?
Margaret wondered, but said no word of blame. This was
Helen's evening. Troubles enough lay ahead of her--the loss of
friends and of social advantages, the agony, the supreme agony,
of motherhood, which is even yet not a matter of common
knowledge. For the present let the moon shine brightly and the
breezes of the spring blow gently, dying away from the gale of
the day, and let the earth, who brings increase, bring peace.
Not even to herself dare she blame Helen. She could not assess
her trespass by any moral code; it was everything or nothing.
Morality can tell us that murder is worse than stealing, and
group most sins in an order all must approve, but it cannot group
Helen. The surer its pronouncements on this point, the surer may
we be that morality is not speaking. Christ was evasive when
they questioned Him. It is those that cannot connect who hasten
to cast the first stone.
This was Helen's evening--won at what cost, and not to be
marred by the sorrows of others. Of her own tragedy Margaret
never uttered a word.
"One isolates," said Helen slowly. "I isolated Mr. Wilcox
from the other forces that were pulling Leonard downhill.
Consequently, I was full of pity, and almost of revenge. For
weeks I had blamed Mr. Wilcox only, and so, when your letters
came--"
"I need never have written them," sighed Margaret. "They
never shielded Henry. How hopeless it is to tidy away the past,
even for others!"
"I did not know that it was your own idea to dismiss the
Basts."
"Looking back, that was wrong of me."
"Looking back, darling, I know that it was right. It is
right to save the man whom one loves. I am less enthusiastic
about justice now. But we both thought you wrote at his
dictation. It seemed the last touch of his callousness. Being
very much wrought up by this time--and Mrs. Bast was upstairs. I
had not seen her, and had talked for a long time to Leonard--I
had snubbed him for no reason, and that should have warned me I
was in danger. So when the notes came I wanted us to go to you
for an explanation. He said that he guessed the explanation--he
knew of it, and you mustn't know. I pressed him to tell me. He
said no one must know; it was something to do with his wife.
Right up to the end we were Mr. Bast and Miss Schlegel. I was
going to tell him that he must be frank with me when I saw his
eyes, and guessed that Mr. Wilcox had ruined him in two ways, not
one. I drew him to me. I made him tell me. I felt very lonely
myself. He is not to blame. He would have gone on worshipping
me. I want never to see him again, though it sounds appalling.
I wanted to give him money and feel finished. Oh, Meg, the
little that is known about these things!"
She laid her face against the tree.
"The little, too, that is known about growth! Both times it
was loneliness, and the night, and panic afterwards. Did Leonard
grow out of Paul?"
Margaret did not speak for a moment. So tired was she that
her attention had actually wandered to the teeth--the teeth that
had been thrust into the tree's bark to medicate it. From where
she sat she could see them gleam. She had been trying to count
them. "Leonard is a better growth than madness," she said. "I
was afraid that you would react against Paul until you went over
the verge."
"I did react until I found poor Leonard. I am steady now. I
shan't ever like your Henry, dearest Meg, or even speak kindly
about him, but all that blinding hate is over. I shall never
rave against Wilcoxes any more. I understand how you married
him, and you will now be very happy."
Margaret did not reply.
"Yes," repeated Helen, her voice growing more tender, "I do
at last understand."
"Except Mrs. Wilcox, dearest, no one understands our little
movements."
"Because in death--I agree."
"Not quite. I feel that you and I and Henry are only
fragments of that woman's mind. She knows everything. She is
everything. She is the house, and the tree that leans over it.
People have their own deaths as well as their own lives, and even
if there is nothing beyond death, we shall differ in our
nothingness. I cannot believe that knowledge such as hers will
perish with knowledge such as mine. She knew about realities.
She knew when people were in love, though she was not in the
room. I don't doubt that she knew when Henry deceived her."
"Good-night, Mrs. Wilcox," called a voice.
"Oh, good-night, Miss Avery."
"Why should Miss Avery work for us?" Helen murmured.
"Why, indeed?"
Miss Avery crossed the lawn and merged into the hedge that
divided it from the farm. An old gap, which Mr. Wilcox had
filled up, had reappeared, and her track through the dew followed
the path that he had turfed over, when he improved the garden and
made it possible for games.
"This is not quite our house yet," said Helen. "When Miss
Avery called, I felt we are only a couple of tourists."
"We shall be that everywhere, and for ever."
"But affectionate tourists--"
"But tourists who pretend each hotel is their home."
"I can't pretend very long," said Helen. "Sitting under this
tree one forgets, but I know that tomorrow I shall see the moon
rise out of Germany. Not all your goodness can alter the facts
of the case. Unless you will come with me."
Margaret thought for a moment. In the past year she had
grown so fond of England that to leave it was a real grief. Yet
what detained her? No doubt Henry would pardon her outburst, and
go on blustering and muddling into a ripe old age. But what was
the good? She had just as soon vanish from his mind.
"Are you serious in asking me, Helen? Should I get on with
your Monica?"
"You would not, but I am serious in asking you."
"Still, no more plans now. And no more reminiscences."
They were silent for a little. It was Helen's evening.
The present flowed by them like a stream. The tree rustled.
It had made music before they were born, and would continue after
their deaths, but its song was of the moment. The moment had
passed. The tree rustled again. Their senses were sharpened,
and they seemed to apprehend life. Life passed. The tree
nestled again.
"Sleep now," said Margaret.
The peace of the country was entering into her. It has no
commerce with memory, and little with hope. Least of all is it
concerned with the hopes of the next five minutes. It is the
peace of the present, which passes understanding. Its murmur
came "now," and "now" once more as they trod the gravel, and
"now," as the moonlight fell upon their father's sword. They
passed upstairs, kissed, and amidst the endless iterations fell
asleep. The house had enshadowed the tree at first, but as the
moon rose higher the two disentangled, and were clear for a few
moments at midnight. Margaret awoke and looked into the garden.
How incomprehensible that Leonard Bast should have won her this
night of peace! Was he also part of Mrs. Wilcox's mind?
Far different was Leonard's development. The months after
Oniton, whatever minor troubles they might bring him, were all
overshadowed by Remorse. When Helen looked back she could
philosophize, or she could look into the future and plan for her
child. But the father saw nothing beyond his own sin. Weeks
afterwards, in the midst of other occupations, he would suddenly
cry out, "Brute--you brute, I couldn't have--" and be rent into
two people who held dialogues. Or brown rain would descend,
blotting out faces and the sky. Even Jacky noticed the change in
him. Most terrible were his sufferings when he awoke from
sleep. Sometimes he was happy at first, but grew conscious of a
burden hanging to him and weighing down his thoughts when they
would move. Or little irons scorched his body. Or a sword
stabbed him. He would sit at the edge of his bed, holding his
heart and moaning, "Oh what shall I do, whatever
shall I do?" Nothing brought ease. He could put
distance between him and the trespass, but it grew in his
soul.
Remorse is not among the eternal verities. The Greeks were
right to dethrone her. Her action is too capricious, as though
the Erinyes selected for punishment only certain men and certain
sins. And of all means to regeneration Remorse is surely the
most wasteful. It cuts away healthy tissues with the poisoned.
It is a knife that probes far deeper than the evil. Leonard was
driven straight through its torments and emerged pure, but
enfeebled--a better man, who would never lose control of himself
again, but also a smaller, who had less to control. Nor did
purity mean peace. The use of the knife can become a habit as
hard to shake off as passion itself, and Leonard continued to
start with a cry out of dreams.
He built up a situation that was far enough from the truth.
It never occurred to him that Helen was to blame. He forgot the
intensity of their talk, the charm that had been lent him by
sincerity, the magic of Oniton under darkness and of the
whispering river. Helen loved the absolute. Leonard had been
ruined absolutely, and had appeared to her as a man apart,
isolated from the world. A real man, who cared for adventure and
beauty, who desired to live decently and pay his way, who could
have travelled more gloriously through life than the Juggernaut
car that was crushing him. Memories of Evie's wedding had warped
her, the starched servants, the yards of uneaten food, the rustle
of overdressed women, motor-cars oozing grease on the gravel,
rubbish on a pretentious band. She had tasted the lees of this
on her arrival: in the darkness, after failure, they intoxicated
her. She and the victim seemed alone in a world of unreality,
and she loved him absolutely, perhaps for half an hour.
In the morning she was gone. The note that she left, tender
and hysterical in tone, and intended to be most kind, hurt her
lover terribly. It was as if some work of art had been broken by
him, some picture in the National Gallery slashed out of its
frame. When he recalled her talents and her social position, he
felt that the first passerby had a right to shoot him down. He
was afraid of the waitress and the porters at the
railway-station. He was afraid at first of his wife, though
later he was to regard her with a strange new tenderness, and to
think, "There is nothing to choose between us, after all."
The expedition to Shropshire crippled the Basts permanently.
Helen in her flight forgot to settle the hotel bill, and took
their return tickets away with her; they had to pawn Jacky's
bangles to get home, and the smash came a few days afterwards.
It is true that Helen offered him five thousands pounds, but such
a sum meant nothing to him. He could not see that the girl was
desperately righting herself, and trying to save something out of
the disaster, if it was only five thousand pounds. But he had to
live somehow. He turned to his family, and degraded himself to a
professional beggar. There was nothing else for him to do.
"A letter from Leonard," thought Blanche, his sister; "and
after all this time." She hid it, so that her husband should not
see, and when he had gone to his work read it with some emotion,
and sent the prodigal a little money out of her dress
allowance.
"A letter from Leonard!" said the other sister, Laura, a few
days later. She showed it to her husband. He wrote a cruel
insolent reply, but sent more money than Blanche, so Leonard soon
wrote to him again.
And during the winter the system was developed. Leonard
realized that they need never starve, because it would be too
painful for his relatives. Society is based on the family, and
the clever wastrel can exploit this indefinitely. Without a
generous thought on either side, pounds and pounds passed. The
donors disliked Leonard, and he grew to hate them intensely.
When Laura censured his immoral marriage, he thought bitterly,
"She minds that! What would she say if she knew the truth?"
When Blanche's husband offered him work, he found some pretext
for avoiding it. He had wanted work keenly at Oniton, but too
much anxiety had shattered him; he was joining the unemployable.
When his brother, the lay-reader, did not reply to a letter, he
wrote again, saying that he and Jacky would come down to his
village on foot. He did not intend this as blackmail. Still,
the brother sent a postal order, and it became part of the
system. And so passed his winter and his spring.
In the horror there are two bright spots. He never confused
the past. He remained alive, and blessed are those who live, if
it is only to a sense of sinfulness. The anodyne of muddledom,
by which most men blur and blend their mistakes, never passed
Leonard's lips--
And if I drink oblivion of a day,
So shorten I the stature of my soul.
It is a hard saying, and a hard man wrote it, but it lies
at the foot of all character.
And the other bright spot was his tenderness for Jacky. He
pitied her with nobility now--not the contemptuous pity of a man
who sticks to a woman through thick and thin. He tried to be
less irritable. He wondered what her hungry eyes
desired--nothing that she could express, or that he or any man
could give her. Would she ever receive the justice that is
mercy--the justice for by-products that the world is too busy to
bestow? She was fond of flowers, generous with money, and not
revengeful. If she had borne him a child he might have cared for
her. Unmarried, Leonard would never have begged; he would have
flickered out and died. But the whole of life is mixed. He had
to provide for Jacky, and went down dirty paths that she might
have a few feathers and dishes of food that suited her.
One day he caught sight of Margaret and her brother. He was
in St. Paul's. He had entered the cathedral partly to avoid the
rain and partly to see a picture that had educated him in former
years. But the light was bad, the picture ill placed, and Time
and Judgment were inside him now. Death alone still charmed him,
with her lap of poppies, on which all men shall sleep. He took
one glance, and turned aimlessly away towards a chair. Then down
the nave he saw Miss Schlegel and her brother. They stood in the
fairway of passengers, and their faces were extremely grave. He
was perfectly certain that they were in trouble about their
sister.
Once outside--and he fled immediately--he wished that he had
spoken to them. What was his life? What were a few angry words,
or even imprisonment? He had done wrong--that was the true
terror. Whatever they might know, he would tell them everything
he knew. He re-entered St. Paul's. But they had moved in his
absence, and had gone to lay their difficulties before Mr. Wilcox
and Charles.
The sight of Margaret turned remorse into new channels. He
desired to confess, and though the desire is proof of a weakened
nature, which is about to lose the essence of human intercourse,
it did not take an ignoble form. He did not suppose that
confession would bring him happiness. It was rather that he
yearned to get clear of the tangle. So does the suicide yearn.
The impulses are akin, and the crime of suicide lies rather in
its disregard for the feelings of those whom we leave behind.
Confession need harm no one--it can satisfy that test--and though
it was un-English, and ignored by our Anglican cathedral, Leonard
had a right to decide upon it.
Moreover, he trusted Margaret. He wanted her hardness now.
That cold, intellectual nature of hers would be just, if unkind.
He would do whatever she told him, even if he had to see Helen.
That was the supreme punishment she would exact. And perhaps she
would tell him how Helen was. That was the supreme reward.
He knew nothing about Margaret, not even whether she was
married to Mr. Wilcox, and tracking her out took several days.
That evening he toiled through the wet to Wickham Place, where
the new flats were now appearing. Was he also the cause of their
move? Were they expelled from society on his account? Thence to
a public library, but could find no satisfactory Schlegel in the
directory. On the morrow he searched again. He hung about
outside Mr. Wilcox's office at lunch time, and, as the clerks
came out said: "Excuse me, sir, but is your boss married?" Most
of them stared, some said, "What's that to you?" but one, who had
not yet acquired reticence, told him what he wished. Leonard
could not learn the private address. That necessitated more
trouble with directories and tubes. Ducie Street was not
discovered till the Monday, the day that Margaret and her husband
went down on their hunting expedition to Howards End.
He called at about four o'clock. The weather had changed,
and the sun shone gaily on the ornamental steps--black and white
marble in triangles. Leonard lowered his eyes to them after
ringing the bell. He felt in curious health: doors seemed to be
opening and shutting inside his body, and he had been obliged to
steep sitting up in bed, with his back propped against the wall.
When the parlourmaid came he could not see her face; the brown
rain had descended suddenly.
"Does Mrs. Wilcox live here?" he asked.
"She's out," was the answer.
"When will she be back?"
"I'll ask," said the parlourmaid.
Margaret had given instructions that no one who mentioned her
name should ever be rebuffed. Putting the door on the chain--for
Leonard's appearance demanded this--she went through to the
smoking-room, which was occupied by Tibby. Tibby was asleep. He
had had a good lunch. Charles Wilcox had not yet rung him up for
the distracting interview. He said drowsily: "I don't know.
Hilton. Howards End. Who is it?"
"I'll ask, sir."
"No, don't bother."
"They have taken the car to Howards End," said the
parlourmaid to Leonard.
He thanked her, and asked whereabouts that place was.
"You appear to want to know a good deal," she remarked. But
Margaret had forbidden her to be mysterious. She told him
against her better judgment that Howards End was in
Hertfordshire.
"Is it a village, please?"
"Village! It's Mr. Wilcox's private house--at least, it's
one of them. Mrs. Wilcox keeps her furniture there. Hilton is
the village."
"Yes. And when will they be back?"
"Mr. Schlegel doesn't know. We can't know everything, can
we?" She shut him out, and went to attend to the telephone,
which was ringing furiously.
He loitered away another night of agony. Confession grew
more difficult. As soon as possible he went to bed. He watched
a patch of moonlight cross the floor of their lodging, and, as
sometimes happens when the mind is overtaxed, he fell asleep for
the rest of the room, but kept awake for the patch of moonlight.
Horrible! Then began one of those disintegrating dialogues.
Part of him said: "Why horrible? It's ordinary light from the
room." "But it moves." "So does the moon." "But it is a clenched
fist." "Why not?" "But it is going to touch me." "Let it." And,
seeming to gather motion, the patch ran up his blanket.
Presently a blue snake appeared; then another, parallel to it.
"Is there life in the moon?" "Of course." "But I thought it was
uninhabited." "Not by Time, Death, Judgment, and the smaller
snakes." "Smaller snakes!" said Leonard indignantly and aloud.
"What a notion!" By a rending effort of the will he woke the
rest of the room up. Jacky, the bed, their food, their clothes
on the chair, gradually entered his consciousness, and the horror
vanished outwards, like a ring that is spreading through
water.
"I say, Jacky, I'm going out for a bit."
She was breathing regularly. The patch of light fell clear
of the striped blanket, and began to cover the shawl that lay
over her feet. Why had he been afraid? He went to the window,
and saw that the moon was descending through a clear sky. He saw
her volcanoes, and the bright expanses that a gracious error has
named seas. They paled, for the sun, who had lit them up, was
coming to light the earth. Sea of Serenity, Sea of Tranquillity,
Ocean of the Lunar Storms, merged into one lucent drop, itself to
slip into the sempiternal dawn. And he had been afraid of the
moon!
He dressed among the contending lights, and went through his
money. It was running low again, but enough for a return ticket
to Hilton. As it clinked Jacky opened her eyes.
"Hullo, Len! What ho, Len!"
"What ho, Jacky! see you again later."
She turned over and slept.
The house was unlocked, their landlord being a salesman at
Convent Garden. Leonard passed out and made his way down to the
station. The train, though it did not start for an hour, was
already drawn up at the end of the platform, and he lay down in
it and slept. With the first jolt he was in daylight; they had
left the gateways of King's Cross, and were under blue sky.
Tunnels followed, and after each the sky grew bluer, and from the
embankment at Finsbury Park he had his first sight of the sun.
It rolled along behind the eastern smokes--a wheel, whose fellow
was the descending moon--and as yet it seemed the servant of the
blue sky, not its lord. He dozed again. Over Tewin Water it was
day. To the left fell the shadow of the embankment and its
arches; to the right Leonard saw up into the Tewin Woods and
towards the church, with its wild legend of immortality. Six
forest trees--that is a fact--grow out of one of the graves in
Tewin churchyard. The grave's occupant--that is the legend--is
an atheist, who declared that if God existed, six forest trees
would grow out of her grave. These things in Hertfordshire; and
farther afield lay the house of a hermit--Mrs. Wilcox had known
him--who barred himself up, and wrote prophecies, and gave all he
had to the poor. While, powdered in between, were the villas of
business men, who saw life more steadily, though with the
steadiness of the half-closed eye. Over all the sun was
streaming, to all the birds were singing, to all the primroses
were yellow, and the speedwell blue, and the country, however
they interpreted her, was uttering her cry of "now." She did not
free Leonard yet, and the knife plunged deeper into his heart as
the train drew up at Hilton. But remorse had become
beautiful.
Hilton was asleep, or at the earliest, breakfasting. Leonard
noticed the contrast when he stepped out of it into the country.
Here men had been up since dawn. Their hours were ruled, not by
a London office, but by the movements of the crops and the sun.
That they were men of the finest type only the sentimentalist can
declare. But they kept to the life of daylight. They are
England's hope. Clumsily they carry forward the torch of the
sun, until such time as the nation sees fit to take it up. Half
clodhopper, half board-school prig, they can still throw back to
a nobler stock, and breed yeomen.
At the chalk pit a motor passed him. In it was another type,
whom Nature favours--the Imperial. Healthy, ever in motion, it
hopes to inherit the earth. It breeds as quickly as the yeoman,
and as soundly; strong is the temptation to acclaim it as a
super-yeoman, who carries his country's virtue overseas. But the
Imperialist is not what he thinks or seems. He is a destroyer.
He prepares the way for cosmopolitanism, and though his ambitions
may be fulfilled, the earth that he inherits will be grey.
To Leonard, intent on his private sin, there came the
conviction of innate goodness elsewhere. It was not the optimism
which he had been taught at school. Again and again must the
drums tap, and the goblins stalk over the universe before joy can
be purged of the superficial. It was rather paradoxical, and
arose from his sorrow. Death destroys a man, but the idea of
death saves him--that is the best account of it that has yet been
given. Squalor and tragedy can beckon to all that is great in
us, and strengthen the wings of love. They can beckon; it is not
certain that they will, for they are not love's servants. But
they can beckon, and the knowledge of this incredible truth
comforted him.
As he approached the house all thought stopped.
Contradictory notions stood side by side in his mind. He was
terrified but happy, ashamed, but had done no sin. He knew the
confession: "Mrs. Wilcox, I have done wrong," but sunrise had
robbed its meaning, and he felt rather on a supreme
adventure.
He entered a garden, steadied himself against a motor-car
that he found in it, found a door open and entered a house. Yes,
it would be very easy. From a room to the left he heard voices,
Margaret's amongst them. His own name was called aloud, and a
man whom he had never seen said, "Oh, is he there? I am not
surprised. I now thrash him within an inch of his life."
"Mrs. Wilcox," said Leonard, "I have done wrong."
The man took him by the collar and cried, "Bring me a stick."
Women were screaming. A stick, very bright, descended. It hurt
him, not where it descended, but in the heart. Books fell over
him in a shower. Nothing had sense.
"Get some water," commanded Charles, who had all through kept
very calm. "He's shamming. Of course I only used the blade.
Here, carry him out into the air."
Thinking that he understood these things, Margaret obeyed
him. They laid Leonard, who was dead, on the gravel; Helen
poured water over him.
"That's enough," said Charles.
"Yes, murder's enough," said Miss Avery, coming out of the
house with the sword.
When Charles left Ducie Street he had caught the first train
home, but had no inkling of the newest development until late at
night. Then his father, who had dined alone, sent for him, and
in very grave tones inquired for Margaret.
"I don't know where she is, pater," said Charles. "Dolly
kept back dinner nearly an hour for her."
"Tell me when she comes in--."
Another hour passed. The servants went to bed, and Charles
visited his father again, to receive further instructions. Mrs.
Wilcox had still not returned.
"I'll sit up for her as late as you like, but she can hardly
be coming. Isn't she stopping with her sister at the hotel?"
"Perhaps," said Mr. Wilcox thoughtfully--"perhaps."
"Can I do anything for you, sir?"
"Not tonight, my boy."
Mr. Wilcox liked being called sir. He raised his eyes and
gave his son more open a look of tenderness than he usually
ventured. He saw Charles as little boy and strong man in one.
Though his wife had proved unstable his children were left to
him.
After midnight he tapped on Charles's door. "I can't sleep,"
he said. "I had better have a talk with you and get it
over."
He complained of the heat. Charles took him out into the
garden, and they paced up and down in their dressing-gowns.
Charles became very quiet as the story unrolled; he had known all
along that Margaret was as bad as her sister.
"She will feel differently in the morning," said Mr. Wilcox,
who had of course said nothing about Mrs. Bast. "But I cannot
let this kind of thing continue without comment. I am morally
certain that she is with her sister at Howards End. The house is
mine--and, Charles, it will be yours--and when I say that no one
is to live there, I mean that no one is to live there. I won't
have it." He looked angrily at the moon. "To my mind this
question is connected with something far greater, the rights of
property itself."
"Undoubtedly," said Charles.
Mr. Wilcox linked his arm in his son's, but somehow liked him
less as he told him more. "I don't want you to conclude that my
wife and I had anything of the nature of a quarrel. She was only
over-wrought, as who would not be? I shall do what I can for
Helen, but on the understanding that they clear out of the house
at once. Do you see? That is a sine qua non."
"Then at eight tomorrow I may go up in the car?"
"Eight or earlier. Say that you are acting as my
representative, and, of course, use no violence, Charles."
On the morrow, as Charles returned, leaving Leonard dead upon
the gravel, it did not seem to him that he had used violence.
Death was due to heart disease. His stepmother herself had said
so, and even Miss Avery had acknowledged that he only used the
flat of the sword. On his way through the village he informed
the police, who thanked him, and said there must be an inquest.
He found his father in the garden shading his eyes from the
sun.
"It has been pretty horrible," said Charles gravely. "They
were there, and they had the man up there with them too."
"What--what man?"
"I told you last night. His name was Bast."
"My God, is it possible?" said Mr. Wilcox. "In your mother's
house! Charles, in your mother's house!"
"I know, pater. That was what I felt. As a matter of fact,
there is no need to trouble about the man. He was in the last
stages of heart disease, and just before I could show him what I
thought of him he went off. The police are seeing about it at
this moment."
Mr. Wilcox listened attentively.
"I got up there--oh, it couldn't have been more than
half-past seven. The Avery woman was lighting a fire for them.
They were still upstairs. I waited in the drawing-room. We were
all moderately civil and collected, though I had my suspicions.
I gave them your message, and Mrs. Wilcox said, 'Oh yes, I see;
yes,' in that way of hers."
"Nothing else?"
"I promised to tell you, 'with her love,' that she was going
to Germany with her sister this evening. That was all we had
time for."
Mr. Wilcox seemed relieved.
"Because by then I suppose the man got tired of hiding, for
suddenly Mrs. Wilcox screamed out his name. I recognized it, and
I went for him in the hall. Was I right, pater? I thought
things were going a little too far."
"Right, my dear boy? I don't know. But you would have been
no son of mine if you hadn't. Then did he just--just--crumple up
as you said?" He shrunk from the simple word.
"He caught hold of the bookcase, which came down over him.
So I merely put the sword down and carried him into the garden.
We all thought he was shamming. However, he's dead right
enough. Awful business!"
"Sword?" cried his father, with anxiety in his voice. "What
sword? Whose sword?"
"A sword of theirs."
"What were you doing with it?"
"Well, didn't you see, pater, I had to snatch up the first
thing handy I hadn't a riding-whip or stick. I caught him once
or twice over the shoulders with the flat of their old German
sword."
"Then what?"
"He pulled over the bookcase, as I said, and fell," said
Charles, with a sigh. It was no fun doing errands for his
father, who was never quite satisfied.
"But the real cause was heart disease? Of that you're
sure?"
"That or a fit. However, we shall hear more than enough at
the inquest on such unsavoury topics."
They went into breakfast. Charles had a racking headache,
consequent on motoring before food. He was also anxious about
the future, reflecting that the police must detain Helen and
Margaret for the inquest and ferret the whole thing out. He saw
himself obliged to leave Hilton. One could not afford to live
near the scene of a scandal--it was not fair on one's wife. His
comfort was that the pater's eyes were opened at last. There
would be a horrible smash up, and probably a separation from
Margaret; then they would all start again, more as they had been
in his mother's time.
"I think I'll go round to the police-station," said his
father when breakfast was over.
"What for?" cried Dolly, who had still not been "told."
"Very well, sir. Which car will you have?"
"I think I'll walk."
"It's a good half-mile," said Charles, stepping into the
garden. "The sun's very hot for April. Shan't I take you up,
and then, perhaps, a little spin round by Tewin?"
"You go on as if I didn't know my own mind," said Mr. Wilcox
fretfully. Charles hardened his mouth. "You young fellows' one
idea is to get into a motor. I tell you, I want to walk: I'm
very fond of walking."
"Oh, all right; I'm about the house if you want me for
anything. I thought of not going up to the office today, if that
is your wish."
"It is, indeed, my boy," said Mr. Wilcox, and laid a hand on
his sleeve.
Charles did not like it; he was uneasy about his father, who
did not seem himself this morning. There was a petulant touch
about him--more like a woman. Could it be that he was growing
old? The Wilcoxes were not lacking in affection; they had it
royally, but they did not know how to use it. It was the talent
in the napkin, and, for a warm-hearted man, Charles had conveyed
very little joy. As he watched his father shuffling up the road,
he had a vague regret--a wish that something had been different
somewhere--a wish (though he did not express it thus) that he had
been taught to say "I" in his youth. He meant to make up for
Margaret's defection, but knew that his father had been very
happy with her until yesterday. How had she done it? By some
dishonest trick, no doubt--but how?
Mr. Wilcox reappeared at eleven, looking very tired. There
was to be an inquest on Leonard's' body tomorrow, and the police
required his son to attend.
"I expected that," said Charles. "I shall naturally be the
most important witness there."
Out of the turmoil and horror that had begun with Aunt Juley's
illness and was not even to end with Leonard's death, it seemed
impossible to Margaret that healthy life should re-emerge.
Events succeeded in a logical, yet senseless, train. People lost
their humanity, and took values as arbitrary as those in a pack
of playing-cards. It was natural that Henry should do this and
cause Helen to do that, and then think her wrong for doing it;
natural that she herself should think him wrong; natural that
Leonard should want to know how Helen was, and come, and Charles
be angry with him for coming--natural, but unreal. In this
jangle of causes and effects what had become of their true
selves? Here Leonard lay dead in the garden, from natural
causes; yet life was a deep, deep river, death a blue sky, life
was a house, death a wisp of hay, a flower, a tower, life and
death were anything and everything, except this ordered insanity,
where the king takes the queen, and the ace the king. Ah, no;
there was beauty and adventure behind, such as the man at her
feet had yearned for; there was hope this side of the grave;
there were truer relationships beyond the limits that fetter us
now. As a prisoner looks up and sees stars beckoning, so she,
from the turmoil and horror of those days, caught glimpses of the
diviner wheels.
And Helen, dumb with fright, but trying to keep calm for the
child's sake, and Miss Avery, calm, but murmuring tenderly, "No
one ever told the lad he'll have a child"--they also reminded her
that horror is not the end. To what ultimate harmony we tend she
did not know, but there seemed great chance that a child would be
born into the world, to take the great chances of beauty and
adventure that the world offers. She moved through the sunlit
garden, gathering narcissi, crimson-eyed and white. There was
nothing else to be done; the time for telegrams and anger was
over, and it seemed wisest that the hands of Leonard should be
folded on his breast and be filled with flowers. Here was the
father; leave it at that. Let Squalor be turned into Tragedy,
whose eyes are the stars, and whose hands hold the sunset and the
dawn.
And even the influx of officials, even the return of the
doctor, vulgar and acute, could not shake her belief in the
eternity of beauty. Science explained people, but could not
understand them. After long centuries among the bones and
muscles it might be advancing to knowledge of the nerves, but
this would never give understanding. One could open the heart to
Mr. Mansbridge and his sort without discovering its secrets to
them, for they wanted everything down in black and white, and
black and white was exactly what they were left with.
They questioned her closely about Charles. She never
suspected why. Death had come, and the doctor agreed that it was
due to heart disease. They asked to see her father's sword. She
explained that Charles's anger was natural, but mistaken.
Miserable questions about Leonard followed, all of which she
answered unfalteringly. Then back to Charles again. "No doubt
Mr. Wilcox may have induced death," she said; "but if it wasn't
one thing it would have been another, as you yourselves know." At
last they thanked her, and took the sword and the body down to
Hilton. She began to pick up the books from the floor.
Helen had gone to the farm. It was the best place for her,
since she had to wait for the inquest. Though, as if things were
not hard enough, Madge and her husband had raised trouble; they
did not see why they should receive the offscourings of Howards
End. And, of course, they were right. The whole world was going
to be right, and amply avenge any brave talk against the
conventions. "Nothing matters," the Schlegels had said in the
past, "except one's self-respect and that of one's friends." When
the time came, other things mattered terribly. However, Madge
had yielded, and Helen was assured of peace for one day and
night, and tomorrow she would return to Germany.
As for herself, she determined to go too. No message came
from Henry; perhaps he expected her to apologize. Now that she
had time to think over her own tragedy, she was unrepentant. She
neither forgave him for his behaviour nor wished to forgive him.
Her speech to him seemed perfect. She would not have altered a
word. It had to be uttered once in a life, to adjust the
lopsidedness of the world. It was spoken not only to her
husband, but to thousands of men like him--a protest against the
inner darkness in high places that comes with a commercial age.
Though he would build up his life without hers, she could not
apologize. He had refused to connect, on the clearest issue that
can be laid before a man, and their love must take the
consequences.
No, there was nothing more to be done. They had tried not to
go over the precipice but perhaps the fall was inevitable. And
it comforted her to think that the future was certainly
inevitable: cause and effect would go jangling forward to some
goal doubtless, but to none that she could imagine. At such
moments the soul retires within, to float upon the bosom of a
deeper stream, and has communion with the dead, and sees the
world's glory not diminished, but different in kind to what she
has supposed. She alters her focus until trivial things are
blurred. Margaret had been tending this way all the winter.
Leonard's death brought her to the goal. Alas! that Henry
should fade, away as reality emerged, and only her love for him
should remain clear, stamped with his image like the cameos we
rescue out of dreams.
With unfaltering eye she traced his future. He would soon
present a healthy mind to the world again, and what did he or the
world care if he was rotten at the core? He would grow into a
rich, jolly old man, at times a little sentimental about women,
but emptying his glass with anyone. Tenacious of power, he would
keep Charles and the rest dependent, and retire from business
reluctantly and at an advanced age. He would settle down--though
she could not realize this. In her eyes Henry was always moving
and causing others to move, until the ends of the earth met. But
in time he must get too tired to move, and settle down. What
next? The inevitable word. The release of the soul to its
appropriate Heaven.
Would they meet in it? Margaret believed in immortality for
herself. An eternal future had always seemed natural to her.
And Henry believed in it for himself. Yet, would they meet
again? Are there not rather endless levels beyond the grave, as
the theory that he had censured teaches? And his level, whether
higher or lower, could it possibly be the same as hers?
Thus gravely meditating, she was summoned by him. He sent up
Crane in the motor. Other servants passed like water, but the
chauffeur remained, though impertinent and disloyal. Margaret
disliked Crane, and he knew it.
"Is it the keys that Mr. Wilcox wants?" she asked.
"He didn't say, madam."
"You haven't any note for me?"
"He didn't say, madam."
After a moment's thought she locked up Howards End. It was
pitiable to see in it the stirrings of warmth that would be
quenched for ever. She raked out the fire that was blazing in
the kitchen, and spread the coals in the gravelled yard. She
closed the windows and drew the curtains. Henry would probably
sell the place now.
She was determined not to spare him, for nothing new had
happened as far as they were concerned. Her mood might never
have altered from yesterday evening. He was standing a little
outside Charles's gate, and motioned the car to stop. When his
wife got out he said hoarsely: "I prefer to discuss things with
you outside."
"It will be more appropriate in the road, I am afraid," said
Margaret. "Did you get my message?"
"What about?"
"I am going to Germany with my sister. I must tell you now
that I shall make it my permanent home. Our talk last night was
more important than you have realized. I am unable to forgive
you and am leaving you."
"I am extremely tired," said Henry, in injured tones. "I
have been walking about all the morning, and wish to sit
down."
"Certainly, if you will consent to sit on the grass."
The Great North Road should have been bordered all its length
with glebe. Henry's kind had filched most of it. She moved to
the scrap opposite, wherein were the Six Hills. They sat down on
the farther side, so that they could not be seen by Charles or
Dolly.
"Here are your keys," said Margaret. She tossed them towards
him. They fell on the sunlit slope of grass, and he did not pick
them up.
"I have something to tell you," he said gently.
She knew this superficial gentleness, this confession of
hastiness, that was only intended to enhance her admiration of
the male.
"I don't want to hear it," she replied. "My sister is going
to be ill. My life is going to be with her now. We must manage
to build up something, she and I and her child."
"Where are you going?"
"Munich. We start after the inquest, if she is not too
ill."
"After the inquest?"
"Yes."
"Have you realized what the verdict at the inquest will
be?"
"Yes, heart disease."
"No, my dear; manslaughter."
Margaret drove her fingers through the grass. The hill
beneath her moved as if it was alive.
"Manslaughter," repeated Mr. Wilcox. "Charles may go to
prison. I dare not tell him. I don't know what to do--what to
do. I'm broken--I'm ended. "
No sudden warmth arose in her. She did not see that to break
him was her only hope. She did not enfold the sufferer in her
arms. But all through that day and the next a new life began to
move. The verdict was brought in. Charles was committed for
trial. It was against all reason that he should be punished, but
the law, being made in his image, sentenced him to three years'
imprisonment. Then Henry's fortress gave way. He could bear no
one but his wife, he shambled up to Margaret afterwards and asked
her to do what she could with him. She did what seemed
easiest--she took him down to recruit at Howards End.
Tom's father was cutting the big meadow. He passed again and
again amid whirring blades and sweet odours of grass,
encompassing with narrowing circles the sacred centre of the
field. Tom was negotiating with Helen.
"I haven't any idea," she replied. "Do you suppose baby may,
Meg?"
Margaret put down her work and regarded them absently. "What
was that?" she asked.
"Tom wants to know whether baby is old enough to play with
hay?"
"I haven't the least notion," answered Margaret, and took up
her work again.
"Now, Tom, baby is not to stand; he is not to lie on his
face; he is not to lie so that his head wags; he is not to be
teased or tickled; and he is not to be cut into two or more
pieces by the cutter. Will you be as careful as all that?"
Tom held out his arms.
"That child is a wonderful nursemaid," remarked Margaret.
"He is fond of baby. That's why he does it!" was Helen's
answer. They're going to be lifelong friends."
"Starting at the ages of six and one?"
"Of course. It will be a great thing for Tom."
"It may be a greater thing for baby."
Fourteen months had passed, but Margaret still stopped at
Howards End. No better plan had occurred to her. The meadow was
being recut, the great red poppies were reopening in the garden.
July would follow with the little red poppies among the wheat,
August with the cutting of the wheat. These little events would
become part of her year after year. Every summer she would fear
lest the well should give out, every winter lest the pipes should
freeze; every westerly gale might blow the wych-elm down and
bring the end of all things, and so she could not read or talk
during a westerly gale. The air was tranquil now. She and her
sister were sitting on the remains of Evie's mockery, where the
lawn merged into the field.
"What a time they all are!" said Helen. "What can they be
doing inside?" Margaret, who was growing less talkative, made no
answer. The noise of the cutter came intermittently, like the
breaking of waves. Close by them a man was preparing to scythe
out one of the dell-holes.
"I wish Henry was out to enjoy this," said Helen. "This
lovely weather and to be shut up in the house! It's very
hard."
"It has to be," said Margaret. "The hay-fever is his chief
objection against living here, but he thinks it worth while."
"Meg, is or isn't he ill? I can't make out."
"Not ill. Eternally tired. He has worked very hard all his
life, and noticed nothing. Those are the people who collapse
when they do notice a thing."
"I suppose he worries dreadfully about his part of the
tangle."
"Dreadfully. That is why I wish Dolly had not come, too,
today. Still, he wanted them all to come. It has to be."
"Why does he want them?"
Margaret did not answer.
"Meg, may I tell you something? I like Henry."
"You'd be odd if you didn't," said Margaret.
"I usen't to."
"Usen't!" She lowered her eyes a moment to the black abyss
of the past. They had crossed it, always excepting Leonard and
Charles. They were building up a new life, obscure, yet gilded
with tranquillity. Leonard was dead; Charles had two years more
in prison. One usen't always to see clearly before that time.
It was different now.
"I like Henry because he does worry."
"And he likes you because you don't."
Helen sighed. She seemed humiliated, and buried her face in
her hands. After a time she said: "Above love," a transition
less abrupt than it appeared.
Margaret never stopped working.
"I mean a woman's love for a man. I supposed I should hang
my life on to that once, and was driven up and down and about as
if something was worrying through me. But everything is peaceful
now; I seem cured. That Herr Förstmeister, whom Frieda
keeps writing about, must be a noble character, but he doesn't
see that I shall never marry him or anyone. It isn't shame or
mistrust of myself. I simply couldn't. I'm ended. I used to be
so dreamy about a man's love as a girl, and think that for good
or evil love must be the great thing. But it hasn't been; it has
been itself a dream. Do you agree?"
"I do not agree. I do not."
"I ought to remember Leonard as my lover," said Helen,
stepping down into the field. "I tempted him, and killed him and
it is surely the least I can do. I would like to throw out all
my heart to Leonard on such an afternoon as this. But I cannot.
It is no good pretending. I am forgetting him." Her eyes filled
with tears. "How nothing seems to match--how, my darling, my
precious--" She broke off. "Tommy!"
"Yes, please?"
"Baby's not to try and stand.--There's something wanting in
me. I see you loving Henry, and understanding him better daily,
and I know that death wouldn't part you in the least. But I--Is
it some awful appalling, criminal defect?"
Margaret silenced her. She said: "It is only that people are
far more different than is pretended. All over the world men and
women are worrying because they cannot develop as they are
supposed to develop. Here and there they have the matter out,
and it comforts them. Don't fret yourself, Helen. Develop what
you have; love your child. I do not love children. I am
thankful to have none. I can play with their beauty and charm,
but that is all--nothing real, not one scrap of what there ought
to be. And others--others go farther still, and move outside
humanity altogether. A place, as well as a person, may catch the
glow. Don't you see that all this leads to comfort in the end?
It is part of the battle against sameness. Differences--eternal
differences, planted by God in a single family, so that there may
always be colour; sorrow perhaps, but colour in the daily grey.
Then I can't have you worrying about Leonard. Don't drag in the
personal when it will not come. Forget him."
"Yes, yes, but what has Leonard got out of life?"
"Perhaps an adventure."
"Is that enough?"
"Not for us. But for him."
Helen took up a bunch of grass. She looked at the sorrel,
and the red and white and yellow clover, and the quaker grass,
and the daisies, and the bents that composed it. She raised it
to her face.
"Is it sweetening yet?" asked Margaret.
"No, only withered."
"It will sweeten tomorrow."
Helen smiled. "Oh, Meg, you are a person," she said. "Think
of the racket and torture this time last year. But now I
couldn't stop unhappy if I tried. What a change--and all through
you!"
"Oh, we merely settled down. You and Henry learnt to
understand one another and to forgive, all through the autumn and
the winter."
"Yes, but who settled us down?"
Margaret did not reply. The scything had begun, and she took
off her pince-nez to watch it.
"You!" cried Helen. "You did it all, sweetest, though you're
too stupid to see. Living here was your plan--I wanted you; he
wanted you; and every one said it was impossible, but you knew.
Just think of our lives without you, Meg--I and baby with Monica,
revolting by theory, he handed about from Dolly to Evie. But you
picked up the pieces, and made us a home. Can't it strike
you--even for a moment--that your life has been heroic? Can't
you remember the two months after Charles's arrest, when you
began to act, and did all?"
"You were both ill at the time," said Margaret. "I did the
obvious things. I had two invalids to nurse. Here was a house,
ready furnished and empty. It was obvious. I didn't know myself
it would turn into a permanent home. No doubt I have done a
little towards straightening the tangle, but things that I can't
phrase have helped me."
"I hope it will be permanent," said Helen, drifting away to
other thoughts.
"I think so. There are moments when I feel Howards End
peculiarly our own."
"All the same, London's creeping."
She pointed over the meadow--over eight or nine meadows, but
at the end of them was a red rust.
"You see that in Surrey and even Hampshire now," she
continued. "I can see it from the Purbeck Downs. And London is
only part of something else, I'm afraid. Life's going to be
melted down, all over the world."
Margaret knew that her sister spoke truly. Howards End,
Oniton, the Purbeck Downs, the Oderberge, were all survivals, and
the melting-pot was being prepared for them. Logically, they had
no right to be alive. One's hope was in the weakness of logic.
Were they possibly the earth beating time?
"Because a thing is going strong now, it need not go strong
for ever," she said. "This craze for motion has only set in
during the last hundred years. It may be followed by a
civilization that won't be a movement, because it will rest on
the earth. All the signs are against it now, but I can't help
hoping, and very early in the morning in the garden I feel that
our house is the future as well as the past."
They turned and looked at it. Their own memories coloured it
now, for Helen's child had been born in the central room of the
nine. Then Margaret said, "Oh, take care--!" for something moved
behind the window of the hall, and the door opened.
"The conclave's breaking at last. I'll go."
It was Paul.
Helen retreated with the children far into the field.
Friendly voices greeted her. Margaret rose, to encounter a man
with a heavy black moustache.
"My father has asked for you," he said with hostility. She
took her work and followed him.
"We have been talking business," he continued, "but I dare
say you knew all about it beforehand."
"Yes, I did."
Clumsy of movement--for he had spent all his life in the
saddle--Paul drove his foot against the paint of the front door.
Mrs. Wilcox gave a little cry of annoyance. She did not like
anything scratched; she stopped in the hall to take Dolly's boa
and gloves out of a vase.
Her husband was lying in a great leather chair in the
dining-room, and by his side, holding his hand rather
ostentatiously, was Evie. Dolly, dressed in purple, sat near the
window. The room was a little dark and airless; they were
obliged to keep it like this until the carting of the hay.
Margaret joined the family without speaking; the five of them had
met already at tea, and she knew quite well what was going to be
said. Averse to wasting her time, she went on sewing. The clock
struck six.
"Is this going to suit every one?" said Henry in a weary
voice. He used the old phrases, but their effect was unexpected
and shadowy. "Because I don't want you all coming here later on
and complaining that I have been unfair."
"It's apparently got to suit us," said Paul.
"I beg your pardon, my boy. You have only to speak, and I
will leave the house to you instead."
Paul frowned ill-temperedly, and began scratching at his
arm. "As I've given up the outdoor life that suited me, and I
have come home to look after the business, it's no good my
settling down here," he said at last. "It's not really the
country, and it's not the town."
"Very well. Does my arrangement suit you, Evie?"
"Of course, Father."
"And you, Dolly?"
Dolly raised her faded little face, which sorrow could wither
but not steady. "Perfectly splendidly," she said. "I thought
Charles wanted it for the boys, but last time I saw him he said
no, because we cannot possibly live in this part of England
again. Charles says we ought to change our name, but I cannot
think what to, for Wilcox just suits Charles and me, and I can't
think of any other name."
There was a general silence. Dolly looked nervously round,
fearing that she had been inappropriate. Paul continued to
scratch his arm.
"Then I leave Howards End to my wife absolutely," said
Henry. "And let every one understand that; and after I am dead
let there be no jealousy and no surprise."
Margaret did not answer. There was something uncanny in her
triumph. She, who had never expected to conquer anyone, had
charged straight through these Wilcoxes and broken up their
lives.
"In consequence, I leave my wife no money," said Henry.
"That is her own wish. All that she would have had will be
divided among you. I am also giving you a great deal in my
lifetime, so that you may be independent of me. That is her
wish, too. She also is giving away a great deal of money. She
intends to diminish her income by half during the next ten years;
she intends when she dies to leave the house to her--to her
nephew, down in the field. Is all that clear? Does every one
understand?"
Paul rose to his feet. He was accustomed to natives, and a
very little shook him out of the Englishman. Feeling manly and
cynical, he said: "Down in the field? Oh, come! I think we
might have had the whole establishment, piccaninnies
included."
Mrs. Cahill whispered: "Don't, Paul. You promised you'd take
care." Feeling a woman of the world, she rose and prepared to
take her leave.
Her father kissed her. "Good-bye, old girl," he said; "don't
you worry about me. "
"Good-bye, Dad."
Then it was Dolly's turn. Anxious to contribute, she laughed
nervously, and said: "Good-bye, Mr. Wilcox. It does seem curious
that Mrs. Wilcox should have left Margaret Howards End, and yet
she get it, after all."
From Evie came a sharply-drawn breath. "Good-bye," she said
to Margaret, and kissed her.
And again and again fell the word, like the ebb of a dying
sea.
"Good-bye."
"Good-bye, Dolly."
"So long, Father."
"Good-bye, my boy; always take care of yourself."
"Good-bye, Mrs. Wilcox."
"Good-bye.
Margaret saw their visitors to the gate. Then she returned
to her husband and laid her head in his hands. He was pitiably
tired. But Dolly's remark had interested her. At last she said:
"Could you tell me, Henry, what was that about Mrs. Wilcox having
left me Howards End?"
Tranquilly he replied: "Yes, she did. But that is a very old
story. When she was ill and you were so kind to her she wanted
to make you some return, and, not being herself at the time,
scribbled 'Howards End' on a piece of paper. I went into it
thoroughly, and, as it was clearly fanciful, I set it aside,
little knowing what my Margaret would be to me in the
future."
Margaret was silent. Something shook her life in its inmost
recesses, and she shivered.
"I didn't do wrong, did I?" he asked, bending down.
"You didn't, darling. Nothing has been done wrong."
From the garden came laughter. "Here they are at last!"
exclaimed Henry, disengaging himself with a smile. Helen rushed
into the gloom, holding Tom by one hand and carrying her baby on
the other. There were shouts of infectious joy.
"The field's cut!" Helen cried excitedly--"the big meadow!
We've seen to the very end, and it'll be such a crop of hay as
never!"
Weybridge, 1908-1910.